Have you ever been raped?

[edoardo]

Have you ever been raped? I have twice in my life. First time at a bar when I was 27 years old. I was sitting with two of my friends. I was dressed in short white, slightly see-through shorts and a light cotton T-shirt. I wore nothing under my shorts. Four strong men, 40 to 50 years old, probable local gangsters, sat at the next table and looked at me horny. Suddenly they got up and headed towards me. Two caught me and the other two kept my friends. They picked me up on the jukebox, and tore off all my clothes with sudden movements. One lifted my legs in the air and the others took off their shorts during that time. The first of them approached me and very abruptly and roughly shoved his dick into my asshole. I screamed in pain, luckily his dick wasn't very big. He fucked me with strong and fast movements. my ass was tickling to let the juice out so it started to hurt less. When he started filling me with cum all the pain stopped and it started to be comfortable. He injected a lot of cum which was warm and created a very pleasant feeling in me. Then he pulled away from me and the other immediately pushed a much bigger dick into me. I felt uneasy again, but as the asshole was well lubricated with semen the awkward feeling soon passed. I didn’t enjoy his fucking because the guy was kind of disgusting and emitted very bad energy. He fucked me with hatred. unfortunately it lasted longer than the first one. He finally ended up screaming like a beast. Emptying the eggs to the end he abruptly moved away. The third approached me slowly. He stroked my thighs a little at first, then gently entered my ass. Fear and disgust subsided in me and I began to enjoy myself.  As he fucked me, he kissed me passionately a few times. He finished with a few passionate sighs. I felt the pleasant warmth of sperm again. He stayed inside me for a while and kissed me for a long time. He slowly pulled the softened dick out of my ass and moved to the side. The fourth was already very horny. He abruptly entered inside me. He fucked me with quick movements and deep penetrations so that his big balls pounded hard on my buttocks. He ejaculated soon, sighing a few times. Taking his cum, my ass became very wet and slippery. He got out of me quickly and worked for friends in the toilet to wash up. I stayed lying on the jukebox for a while longer. Friends approached me and helped me to my feet. I could feel the cum dripping down my leg. have to admit that feeling was pleasant to me, even though one of the people who fucked me was really disgusting to me. But one was great for me and two pretty ok. The people from the bar stared at me, but I didn't feel uncomfortable. I was even pleased to be the star of the event. The problem was that I was completely naked and we had to go back to our camp. One waiter lent me a long shirt that I wore and that covered my ass and dick. I noticed that my friends got horny watching other people fuck me. That’s why I got them, as soon as we served under our tent to immediately fuck me in the ass still full of these people’s cum. They fucked me that night with a special passion.

below are my pictures, taken two days before that event and one day after.

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My other rape case hapoend when I was 42 yo. Not so interesting, the only thing that fucked me more people, but very raw and uncomfortable. Down is my pic from this time.

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[sick2thecore]

Yes I have although I would not call it full on rape.

One Polish trucker semi-raped me. I was younger, he was older and married but quite hot. He was driving through the area and was resting for the day. We agreed on me sucking his cock because he was so horny, was a long time on the road and therefore hasn't had any sex for months with his wife or anyone else for that matter. He didn't agree on a guy sucking him first but I convinced him I was good.

When I got to his truck, he invited me to his little cabin behind the front. Was enjoying the blowjob after a nervous phase in the beginning but then he REALLY got into it, so much so he wanted to fuck me. I wasn't prepared in any way so I said I'm not sure about it and that I'd rather not. He didn't take no for an answer, he wanted to 'just feel my hole', rubbing his cock on it 'but nothing more'. I probably was a bit naive and too horny and he was really hot so I agreed. He but me on my back, lifted my legs and then initially only did what he said, rubbed his cock on my ass and hole but then he started to get really really aggitated and pushed. I said no and wanted to get away but he pinned me down at that moment and basically just spit on his cock and just pushed in without any care.

One of the most hurtful moments I have experienced. I tried to get away and pushed him out and away but he basically put his hands on my mouth and went even deeper and put his full weight onto myself so I couldn't do much but to endure it. I was bleeding I think because he tore my hole from the fast entry but he didn't really care all that much, he was enjoying it. I'm very tight.

He fucked me for a while while pinning me down and telling me how tight I am in my ears and how good of a fag I am. I just endured it and when he came, I felt really used at first. I was never hard. But I was never really angry at him. He pulled out of me and told me that I was very good and that he hoped I enjoyed it and that I don't hurt too bad. I basically thanked him for raping me, This is now one of my favorite things to jerk off to and one of my favorite memories being semi-raped by that really hot married Polish trucker.

[PigBoyDallas]

I’m ashamed to admit it but I’ve been raped twice. The first time was at a park I’d go to where guys hung out looking for sex. I was 16 and went into the woods with his taller skinny white boy a few years older than me. He’d showed his big cock and I was down for fucking and followed him deeper in the woods. I was still pretty nervous about guys barebacking me anon and asked him to wrap. He said we should start out raw and he’d put one on as he got close. He was fucking me pretty rough and I asked him to be more gentle and he laughed. I was up against this big piece of concrete bent over and he pulled one arm behind my back and started fucking me even harder saying I was going to take his cum and that I’d better not cry out. I told him he was hurting me and to stop. I guess he thought I was joking or it was some kind of role play as he laughed and started calling me all kinds of horrible things, saying he knew I wanted his cum in me. I told him I wasn’t joking and begged him to please stop me to pull out. I was crying and sobbing and he pulled my arm up harder and told me to stop or he’d hurt me or kill me. I tried to calm myself as much as I could and came inside me and kept stroking. I told him he got what he wanted and begged him to stop and let me go but he kept laughing saying he knew I was a slut and a whore and wanted it this way, that I took loads raw all the time snd I was going to take his, just like the other guys who fucked me. I was crying saying it wasn’t true and he told me to beg for his cum and he kept pulling my arm and demanding it. I gave in and started saying what he wanted, I just wanted it to stop but knew it wouldn’t until he came again. I just gave in and let him do what he wanted. Finally he came inside me again and pulled out. I stayed there bent over the concrete crying softly and he said for me not to turn to face him and that he was going to leave. He said if I said anything to anyone he’d kill me, and proceeded to grab my clothes. He pulled out my wallet, cell phone, and keys and threw the keys and phone at me, took a photo of what I presume was my drivers license and then threw the wallet at me. He said he now knew my name and address snd if I caused any problems he’d make sure I’d pay for it. He then left with my clothes, leaving me naked except for my keys and wallet. I was totally humiliated and scared. I pulled myself together and made my way back to where I’d parked and got back in the car. I messaged a bud explaining I’d had a weird situation and needed to borrow some clothes from him. Thankfully he understood the situation sand I was able to get home so as not to raise suspicions with my parents.

The second time was a hookup off Kik about a year later when I was almost 18. The guy was a hot Latino, mid-20s who was hosting at a motel in our area that a lot of people use for hook ups and to take hustlers/escorts/prostitutes to. My instincts said this could be trouble but he said he was down to fuck and get fucked, had weed and other stuff if I wanted any and rather than trust my instincts went to go check it out. He was everything he said and we smoked a few bowls and started messing around. He’d talked me into getting my hands tied and not long after I started feeling weird and realized he must have spiked the beer he’d given me. We played around a bit and I heard a knock at the door and he let three other guys come in. I was wondering what was going on and almost as soon as they came in they started stripping down. The guy who’d enticed me to come over said I was going to service them all and if I made any noise he was going to kill me. They all proceeded to force me to suck them and began raping me, one after the other. None used a condo and they all came inside me. I slowly began to lose alertness and couldn’t suck cock, so they stuffed a hand towel in my mouth and continued to rape me. As they finished, they’d leave and some new guys would appear. I guess the guy that lured me in was messaging guys to come use me. Some pretty much raped me, but even if gentle it wasn’t consensual. I finally passed out. When I woke up they were all gone. I gathered my stuff and fled. I’ve never told anyone about either of these things as I’m so ashamed.

[LetsPOZBreed]

Getting back around to this, as I've been meaning to post.

Yes, I have.  Don't mean to bring the room down, but hopefully my story can give some insight.

I was 23, and had been living on my own for about a year.  I had recently gotten out of a relationship that left me heartbroken, so I decided to do what I usually did when I was feeling down...went down to the local gay bar to drown myself drunk.  

I was a semi-regular at this place, and this was also a small-ish university city, so I recognised many of the guys there.  There was a small group of guys (friends) around that night, spearheaded by a hot cowboy couple, along with a few others.  One of their friends that I hadn't really seen before was giving me the eye, and I honestly didn't mind.  He wasn't that bad looking, but I wasn't really up for anything that night due to my mood.  He approached anyway, and we got to talking.  Nice enough guy and I was being polite, but eventually I came around and started to actually have a good time.  Ended up dancing together for a while that evening, and things started leading a certain way.  I wasn't expecting to take anyone home with me; if anything were to happen, I would have wanted to top or leave it at oral...looking back, I should have stated that.

Oh, one mroe important thing to mention here.  Prior to this, I had only been barebacked once.  I was very much a stickler for condom usage and even balked at guys who suggested going raw.  

End of the night, we were having enough of a good time where I did, indeed, invite the guy to my place to cap the night off.  Got inside and started making out on the sofa.  It started out like a typical hot encounter...kissing, sucking, the whole thing.  Then he gets on top and attempts to insert himself into me raw.  I wasn't a barebacker then, and wasn't really prepared (mentally or physically) to get fucked that night.  I tried steering the action away from that to either flipping him or just letting me orally finish him.  He wasn't having it.  He pushed me back down and tried again, this time pushing enough to where he did manage to penetrate me.  This is when I started to try and fight him off.  The more I struggled, the more aggressive he got.  Finally, he put his elbows on the top of my chest, pinning me down.  I still tried everything I could to make it stop, but nothing was working.  Finally, I came to the conclusion that the only way this was going to end was to let him finish what he was doing.  When I bottom, I moan.  This time, I was full on crying...tears and everything.  He repeatedly jammed inside me, but thankfully after only a couple of minutes I felt him cum.  Couldn't have been more than about 2 or 3 minutes after pinning me down, but it felt like an eternity. 

After his balls were drained, he collapsed on top of me, and all I could do was just lay there in shock and disbelief of what just happened.  One of those moments where in a roundabout way, I was in denial that I was just fucked bareback against my will.  He got dressed and left, and I just remember not being able to sleep at all that evening and just bawling my eyes out.  

This event.  This singular event, changed me as a person.  I've always been relatively introverted, but I pretty much retreated into myself.  I felt I couldn't go out to the local gay bar anymore for fear of running into him, or seeing that group of guys he was hanging around with.  I completely lost my sex drive altogether, and it was months before it came back in even a marginal way.  I actually became a total top for a while, as even the hint of bottoming triggered a reaction.  Also, because I didn't really know this guy very well and had clearly been seeded by him, I became paranoid about getting pozzed.  I did get tested (quite a few times) after that, and all came back negative, but there was always this fear in the back of my mind.  I could bring myself to talk about it - not even to my closest friends.  I just put the whole situation on block as much as I could.  It would be a few years before I let a guy fuck me again.   I became suspicious of large groups of men, and this led me to retreat from places where that was common.  I wasn't going to gay clubs; I wasn't attending pride parades; none of that.  I grew up feeling that I could potentially be attacked by some homophobic redneck from my part of the US; instead, it turned out that the most heinous act done to me happened at the hands of someone in my own community.  I couldn't trust gay men any longer.  

By then, I went from being an occasional alcoholic to a heavy drinker.  I had no self-confidence.  When I did get back into bottoming, I turned into a barebacker.  Not because I specifically enjoyed it, but instead lived with a fear that a guy on top of me is just going to take what he wants, however he wants it.  I was a barebacker because I felt worthless.  Eventually, my lack of confidence led me to darker and darker places over the years, culminating in a period of drug use that would be what led to my conversion.  The drug use stopped at that point, but the alcoholism coninued on.  A little over 4 years ago, I finally decided to completely sober up - and part of that process of addressing the underlying issues of my drinking was confronting that horrible evening 15 years ago. 

I'm in a much better place now.  I no longer think of the "what ifs" and instead live my life for the blessing it is, but there is a part of me that was changed forever. 

[Twinkasianboy]

I was raped a lot growing up. Won't go into details,  but yea

[Blatinobttm]

Believe it or not it actually happened to me st a sex club. I wanted to get fucked but not by him. I said no to the guy. I was certain that I wasn’t interested and he kept trying to pull my pants down and I kept pulling them up he eventually pinned me ( he was very over weight)down over a bench and other guys grabbed my hands and told me to relax or it was going to be worse. There was a crowd watching.I fought for a little while and even squeezed my ass cheeks together but he kept poking and I couldn’t move. I eventually stopped resisting and let him fuck me(thankfully he had a small dick). The guys who were helping him hold me down seem to enjoy what was happening to me. I felt terrible and turned on at the same time. I still wonder if this really was rape given the fact that I was at a sex club. Did the guys just think it was part of some scene. He also made me suck some other guys dicks that I wasn’t interested in (he slapped me in the face until I did).One guy even said he was sorry. To this day I don’t know what to make of it. I know that getting fucked rough turns me on even though I have this trauma associated with it. Anyone out there with similar feelings?

[gwmxyz]

I'd always thought it was like jury service - never happens to the few who actually want it

[NOLIMITS8008]

I was raped when I was 5ish sorry if it's a mood killer and its awkward to talk to people about but it set me on the path I now walk 

[Bimarried001]

I was raped a few times. The first time was an older boy having his way with me when I was about 8. He did not force me but I sure did not know he was doing something wrong. 
Then at 10,11 my uncle use to rape me. I’m not sure if the first boy got it in my ass but my uncle sure did, and it hurt a lot. He would do it for about 2 years. 
And finally at about 14 or 15 2 men attacked me and raped me in an empty lot. 
Looking back I don’t have any regrets at this point. Not sure if I’d be living this lifestyle if I’d never been raped. 

[Blatinobttm]

1 hour ago, Bimarried001 said:

I was raped a few times. The first time was an older boy having his way with me when I was about 8. He did not force me but I sure did not know he was doing something wrong. 
Then at 10,11 my uncle use to rape me. I’m not sure if the first boy got it in my ass but my uncle sure did, and it hurt a lot. He would do it for about 2 years. 
And finally at about 14 or 15 2 men attacked me and raped me in an empty lot. 
Looking back I don’t have any regrets at this point. Not sure if I’d be living this lifestyle if I’d never been raped. 

I wonder if being sexually assaulted makes some individuals more promiscuous. I personally am all conflicted about the whole thing. When it was happening I felt absolutely violated and not in a hot way. After it was done immediately was turned on and wanted more violent/aggressive sexual encounters and have been drawn to that. Isn’t that fucked up?

[Bimarried001]

5 hours ago, Blatinobttm said:

I wonder if being sexually assaulted makes some individuals more promiscuous. I personally am all conflicted about the whole thing. When it was happening I felt absolutely violated and not in a hot way. After it was done immediately was turned on and wanted more violent/aggressive sexual encounters and have been drawn to that. Isn’t that fucked up?

I think that’s what happened with me. I think I always had some freak in me but those experiences lead me to seek sex in public places and into group sex. 
Looking back now it’s a big turn on for me. When I saw my uncle as an adult we did not discuss what he did to me but I sure wanted to thank him for turning me into the cum slut that I am today. 

[blkboibtm]

I have been five times (real rape not play rape)

2x I have  been date raped (not partin and passed out), Went out on dates woke up the next day obviously been raped, I wasn't out so didn't report and told a friend really discouraged me from telling anyone (the first time), 2nd time same scenario and didn't report again.

2x forced

1x non consent train (was seeing a suspect dealer whom I had been trading sex for supplies showed up one time and he had four friends , one thing led to another and it was implied if I didn't give up to  the others I was gonna get fucked up)

 

 

[Phallarchist]

9 hours ago, Blatinobttm said:

I wonder if being sexually assaulted makes some individuals more promiscuous. I personally am all conflicted about the whole thing. When it was happening I felt absolutely violated and not in a hot way. After it was done immediately was turned on and wanted more violent/aggressive sexual encounters and have been drawn to that. Isn’t that fucked up?

No, I don't think there's anything inherently wrong with your reactions.

Many rape victims tend toward promiscuity, and promiscuity is the natural tendency among males anyway. In homosexual contexts, it's difficult to even avoid.

Violence is basic to maleness and male sexual expression. You were suddenly exposed to the extreme form, but it was always there in the background, so it's no wonder that your erotic attention was turned.

Whether or not these natural reactions are ultimately good for you is a different question. Re-exposure to a traumatic stimulus can be part of a therapeutic course.

[wonderfulwoof]

Walking out of hole in the wall this bbc across the street beckoned me over 

told me to follow him 

he pulled me between two parked cars on dore alley covered my mouth

pulled my jeans down spit on my hole n his dick blew a load in my ass 

pulled up his pants n walked away

 

[Phallarchist]

51 minutes ago, wonderfulwoof said:

pulled my jeans down spit on my hole n his dick blew a load in my ass

By "affirmative consent" standards, it's definitely rape. By predominant legal standards, it's arguably rape. But it sounds like some version of a good day for a faggot. Do you actually consider it rape and does it trouble you?