My bugchasing fantasy

[Guest NegTrannySlut]

I’ve always been barebacking every since I first started to have sex, think it’s due to me not liking the feel of condoms and liking the skin on skin intimacy, but for the past couple years I’ve been fantasising about taking the plung and getting knocked up. 
I don’t know where it’s come from or why I think about it but it just really turns me on thinking about getting pozzed and knocked up. 
My question is should I do it? I’ve thought about the aftermath but my main concern is how I would tell my fiancé and ny parents.

 

[BootmanLA]

6 hours ago, NegTrannySlut said:

I’ve always been barebacking every since I first started to have sex, think it’s due to me not liking the feel of condoms and liking the skin on skin intimacy, but for the past couple years I’ve been fantasising about taking the plung and getting knocked up. 
I don’t know where it’s come from or why I think about it but it just really turns me on thinking about getting pozzed and knocked up. 
My question is should I do it? I’ve thought about the aftermath but my main concern is how I would tell my fiancé and ny parents.

If you don't know how you'd tell the important people in your life - INCLUDING YOUR FIANCE - then no, of course not, you shouldn't do it.

I'm curious how you have always been barebacking since your first time having sex (which implies never having used a condom) but then you say it's because you don't like the feel of condoms (which, supposedly, you've never used). But leaving aside that hole in your story, I'd point out that having "thought about the aftermath" is not the same thing as knowing how you'd handle it.

You don't mention whether your fiance knows about your interest in this. If it were just a fantasy - like, say, fantasizing about being fucked by a postal carrier who was wearing a scuba suit and whistling "God Save the Queen" - then you don't have to share with him. But something that would put his own health at risk, at least during the period you'd be infectious (assuming you went on meds)? If you can't figure out how you'd talk to him about it, then you're not ready to actually do it.

And I'll say this: I commend partners who stay together after one becomes poz unintentionally. That's a wonderful thing. But: if I were a negative man with a negative partner, and he came to me and said "I've been bugchasing and finally managed to get infected, surprise!", I'd dump his ass for not talking about it with me beforehand, so we could make a plan about something that will affect us both. 

[Guest NegTrannySlut]

10 hours ago, BootmanLA said:

If you don't know how you'd tell the important people in your life - INCLUDING YOUR FIANCE - then no, of course not, you shouldn't do it.

I'm curious how you have always been barebacking since your first time having sex (which implies never having used a condom) but then you say it's because you don't like the feel of condoms (which, supposedly, you've never used). But leaving aside that hole in your story, I'd point out that having "thought about the aftermath" is not the same thing as knowing how you'd handle it.

You don't mention whether your fiance knows about your interest in this. If it were just a fantasy - like, say, fantasizing about being fucked by a postal carrier who was wearing a scuba suit and whistling "God Save the Queen" - then you don't have to share with him. But something that would put his own health at risk, at least during the period you'd be infectious (assuming you went on meds)? If you can't figure out how you'd talk to him about it, then you're not ready to actually do it.

And I'll say this: I commend partners who stay together after one becomes poz unintentionally. That's a wonderful thing. But: if I were a negative man with a negative partner, and he came to me and said "I've been bugchasing and finally managed to get infected, surprise!", I'd dump his ass for not talking about it with me beforehand, so we could make a plan about something that will affect us both. 

Thanks for your comment honey and some things I didn’t really explain well in my first post.

1) I have used condoms in the past but only for the first few fucks then decided I didn’t like the feel of them.

2) I’m not that much of a whore, I’ve only been with 5 sexual partners and all of them are clean, so there wasn’t any risk of infection. 

3) I have told my fiancé about my bugchasing fantasy 1 and a half years into our relationship and he’s completely ok with it and knows all about this kinda stuff, weather he’d be ok me becoming poz is a different discussion I haven’t yet had with him. 
 

im sorry I didn’t make my whole story that clear in the beginning and I hope this makes up for all the holes in my story. 

Edited June 12, 2021 by NegTrannySlut

[fillmyholeftl]

34 minutes ago, NegTrannySlut said:

Thanks for your comment honey and some things I didn’t really explain well in my first post.

1) I have used condoms in the past but only for the first few fucks then decided I didn’t like the feel of them.

2) I’m not that much of a whore, I’ve only been with 5 sexual partners and all of them are clean, so there wasn’t any risk of infection. 

3) I have told my fiancé about my bugchasing fantasy 1 and a half years into our relationship and he’s completely ok with it and knows all about this kinda stuff, weather he’d be ok me becoming poz is a different discussion I haven’t yet had with him. 
 

im sorry I didn’t make my whole story that clear in the beginning and I hope this makes up for all the holes in my story. 

Please take CLEAN out of you vocabulary when referring to someone having HIV ...  Really I would think we all would be more aware of that by now 

[BootmanLA]

14 hours ago, NegTrannySlut said:

Thanks for your comment honey and some things I didn’t really explain well in my first post.

1) I have used condoms in the past but only for the first few fucks then decided I didn’t like the feel of them.

2) I’m not that much of a whore, I’ve only been with 5 sexual partners and all of them are clean, so there wasn’t any risk of infection. 

3) I have told my fiancé about my bugchasing fantasy 1 and a half years into our relationship and he’s completely ok with it and knows all about this kinda stuff, weather he’d be ok me becoming poz is a different discussion I haven’t yet had with him. 
 

im sorry I didn’t make my whole story that clear in the beginning and I hope this makes up for all the holes in my story. 

Not only is "clean" offensive (as noted by fillmyholeftl, above) but you actually have no way of knowing whether any of your sexual partners was HIV positive or not. You can know what they TELL you, which may or may not be factual, and which may or may not refer to a "last test" which could have been months or years ago. He may even THINK he's telling the truth but not know that he has in fact been infected, and since people are often at their most infectious shortly after getting infected themselves, it's actually a significant risk. That's not counting the ones who'll lie to get into your pants.

As for your fiance: Obviously, BEFORE you decide to indulge in this chasing, you need to make it clear to him that you're going to actively pursue making your fantasy a reality. He has a right to know, and a right to protect himself. If he decides to protect himself, whether that's by switching to using a condom with you, or going on PrEP himself, or breaking up with you, that's his choice. Not giving him the information he needs to make that decision - which may be to encourage you and to join you in the quest, for all I know - is the problem. 

[Guest]

On 6/11/2021 at 9:11 PM, BootmanLA said:

If you don't know how you'd tell the important people in your life - INCLUDING YOUR FIANCE - then no, of course not, you shouldn't do it.

I'm curious how you have always been barebacking since your first time having sex (which implies never having used a condom) but then you say it's because you don't like the feel of condoms (which, supposedly, you've never used). But leaving aside that hole in your story, I'd point out that having "thought about the aftermath" is not the same thing as knowing how you'd handle it.

You don't mention whether your fiance knows about your interest in this. If it were just a fantasy - like, say, fantasizing about being fucked by a postal carrier who was wearing a scuba suit and whistling "God Save the Queen" - then you don't have to share with him. But something that would put his own health at risk, at least during the period you'd be infectious (assuming you went on meds)? If you can't figure out how you'd talk to him about it, then you're not ready to actually do it.

And I'll say this: I commend partners who stay together after one becomes poz unintentionally. That's a wonderful thing. But: if I were a negative man with a negative partner, and he came to me and said "I've been bugchasing and finally managed to get infected, surprise!", I'd dump his ass for not talking about it with me beforehand, so we could make a plan about something that will affect us both. 

Some people become or always have been, what are now called total BB/raw bottoms or cum dumps. A gay total bottom friend who is 11 years younger than me started having anal sex without any barriers in the late 1970s, and when HIV/AIDS became known about he started using condoms a few times with guys he was hooking up or dating and found out he is very allergic to latex-it makes him break out in hives, sores, and bleed, so all through the 1980s and even until today 2021-he is not sexually active right now due to the COVID pandemic, he has not used condoms. This guy is the type of bottom that sexually he only wants to get fucked with no barriers, shame, or like basically he has never topped, has no desire to, and hates oral sex. He told me how he has sucked cock and been sucked before, but it was just so he would get fucked, dominated, used and owned by a top and taking the other man's cum as nature intends it. Yes he has had BB sex with men who he and sometimes they, learned were HIV, the poz guys were not on AZT or later the cocktail, nukes, or protease inhibitors and were infectious/detectable. Somehow my friend was not infected with HIV despite taking multiple poz cum loads from guys who had high viral load levels of HIV in his ass and down his throat multiple times, not just a single exposure-though I have met and known men both top and bottom who became HIV+ from just 1-2 times they had BB sex.  My friend does not believe he is immune or invincible, he has no idea how he is not HIV+. He tends to get with bisexual men who are either married to men and women and very picky who they have sex with-he told me how some would have him and them get tested together before they ever had sex, and he likes single gay and bi men who are in their 20s or 30s and super inexperienced sexually and he tends to be very monogamous and seeks out other men like this. I know none of this really matters as people lie. I think he has just been lucky. No I never have had sex with him he is a good friend but not my type.

My friend has never been tested for the genes or mutations that make people immune to HIV.

Edited August 2, 2021 by TotalTop

[BootmanLA]

15 hours ago, TotalTop said:

My friend does not believe he is immune or invincible, he has no idea how he is not HIV+. .....

I think he has just been lucky. No I never have had sex with him he is a good friend but not my type.....

My friend has never been tested for the genes or mutations that make people immune to HIV.

If I had to guess, I'd say his "belief" that he is not immune is not grounded in science. Yes, it's possible he's just "lucky". I'd say the odds are actually higher that he's got a genetic barrier to infection. But hey, if he's comfortable with thinking he's not immune AND avoiding PrEP and trusting luck, there's not much anyone with sense can do to convince him otherwise.

[Guest]

20 hours ago, BootmanLA said:

If I had to guess, I'd say his "belief" that he is not immune is not grounded in science. Yes, it's possible he's just "lucky". I'd say the odds are actually higher that he's got a genetic barrier to infection. But hey, if he's comfortable with thinking he's not immune AND avoiding PrEP and trusting luck, there's not much anyone with sense can do to convince him otherwise.

I will tell him to consider getting tested for the HIV immunity genes. I am not sure how he would do this? The geneaology DNA testing companies such as 23 and me no longer test for these genes.

I actually saw his profile on A 4 A and on it he said he was on PREP or Truvada, but if he was on it he no longer takes it, or maybe he never did?

[BootmanLA]

25 minutes ago, TotalTop said:

I will tell him to consider getting tested for the HIV immunity genes. I am not sure how he would do this? The geneaology DNA testing companies such as 23 and me no longer test for these genes.

I actually saw his profile on A 4 A and on it he said he was on PREP or Truvada, but if he was on it he no longer takes it, or maybe he never did?

It's up to you to decide how involved you want to be in this. I don't know how he'd be tested either, or whether it's worthwhile to find out. It doesn't sound like he's interested in changing his behavior no matter what he learns, so.... 

[SleazyCunt30]

On 6/11/2021 at 7:16 PM, NegTrannySlut said:

I’ve always been barebacking every since I first started to have sex, think it’s due to me not liking the feel of condoms and liking the skin on skin intimacy, but for the past couple years I’ve been fantasising about taking the plung and getting knocked up. 
I don’t know where it’s come from or why I think about it but it just really turns me on thinking about getting pozzed and knocked up. 
My question is should I do it? I’ve thought about the aftermath but my main concern is how I would tell my fiancé and ny parents.

 

I love the thought of it too... I hate condoms and love watching pozzing films. Its you're choice about your parents but with your fiance have you ever tested the waters to see their reactions etc.. if so then that would give you an idea. 

[timfreo]

You are already on the slippery slope to embracing a positive lifestyle.  If not now, then probably one day soon. Once the desire takes root it will always be there 

[Guest]

On 8/4/2021 at 3:22 PM, SleazyCunt30 said:

I love the thought of it too... I hate condoms and love watching pozzing films. Its you're choice about your parents but with your fiance have you ever tested the waters to see their reactions etc.. if so then that would give you an idea. 

What do you mean by 'actual pozzing films/videos'? The Treasure Island porns and other types of BB porn are scripted and the people in them know who they are having sex with and what they are doing sexually before filming starts. They sign releases, etc.

If someone is having raw/BB sex in porn, with hook ups, before they ever did porn or sex for pay, etc. they are probably already HIV+. If they are somehow still neg, if they are sexually active with lots of people it can be very difficult to tell which person pozzed someone else.

If it is amateur or like home-made porn that shows actual IV drug use with needle sharing I might understand how this type of porn could show HIV infection.

 

Edited August 5, 2021 by TotalTop

[Guest]

On 8/4/2021 at 5:38 PM, timfreo said:

You are already on the slippery slope to embracing a positive lifestyle.  If not now, then probably one day soon. Once the desire takes root it will always be there 

THE SEED HAS BEEN PLANTED!

[timfreo]

3 minutes ago, TotalTop said:

THE SEED HAS BEEN PLANTED!

Exactly 😏 we all know what will happen, sooner or later. Once that seed is planted, the result is certain. 

[Pureviralchaser]

Hi everyone. I have been getting bb for about 10 years. I love the feeling of a big load deep in my guts. I have always had a fantasy for getting pozd. Sooner or later I hope it happens. Sometimes I wish that I lived in Cali or NY. chances would be much better. Unfortunately I’m in a small city in southern Ontario and the odds are small but I will keep looking and keep you all posted. Thanks