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I hope we hear from him again because I was honestly hoping for more denouement about the director. Cody was so abused and neglected, and then just left wondering what the fuck and why/how could anyone be so shitty. I really wanted a more fleshed out story regarding the director. It obviously wasn't perfect as you wrote, "We have not been together for two years." Or perhaps that was a typo? Not vs now? I just read it as Cody is writing this from some distant future where they had been together for a while, but now broken up for two years and he is telling his story as someone who is finally free and independent looking back on what he went through to get to such a point.

 

Also, since he was provided with web addresses and signed contracts he has access to real names and addresses. So some revenge sagas are absolutely possible as he goes after Steven and Bryce. The fisting duo could certainly make some money off that kinda revenge porn.

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13 minutes ago, curiousaboutbb said:

Love this story. I’m confused about a few things:  how did he go on PrEP after being pozed?  Was the director in on his pozzing? Also I’m confused by the “not” that everyone else keeps mentioning.

Love this either way. Thanks for writing.

I was a bit confused about this as taking PrEP would be like shutting the door after the horse has bolted. However since PrEP is basically one of the standard antiretroviral meds given to keep guys undetectable, he nights have just meant meds instead?

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54 minutes ago, curiousaboutbb said:

Love this story. I’m confused about a few things:  how did he go on PrEP after being pozed?  Was the director in on his pozzing? Also I’m confused by the “not” that everyone else keeps mentioning.

Love this either way. Thanks for writing.

Worth remembering he was/is getting his treatment from the shady clinic where the "doctor" had him bred and fisted by multiple men. I like to think that doctor either gave him prep to make his strain med resistant (as prep alone isn't enough if you're poz) or just gave him a placebo. 

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6 hours ago, curiousaboutbb said:

Love this story. I’m confused about a few things:  how did he go on PrEP after being pozed?  Was the director in on his pozzing? Also I’m confused by the “not” that everyone else keeps mentioning.

Love this either way. Thanks for writing.

Cody as you know is, a little clueless.  He and Mark are now on Meds, they are no longer toxic.  Forgive Cody!

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Let me clear up the ending! Typos and such.

 

Mark and I have been together for two years now. He is so sweet, loving and we have great sex.  Every now and then he has one of his actors come and join us.  Always a top to share me with.  I wanted to start a new life; I did not want to look back at all the guys who fucked me over especially Bryce.  I am trying not to hate him, but I am not doing a very good job with that.  I did although want the payments coming into my account from Bryce, Mark my new boyfriend got me an attorney and the two fisting guys paid up.  I soon had over $100,000 in my account.  I ended up doing three more shoots those two guys at a higher split, I was now getting 50%. They had no problem once I was on meds and my viral load was undetectable. Both Mark and I are undetectable, he got me to a real doctor. (I Mark lead me to believe he was undatable already, that I was now going on meds)

I have not seen the full videos from the studio, I never desired to see them.  One day, I may but up till now I have not the desire to see them.  Yes, I although get some snickering at parties, snide remarks about me being positive and how I got there but I have decided to look forward not back. So, I ignore them and focus on being happy with Mark in our new life.

 

The end, till Cody views his most defining roll in a film as the innocent, unprotected hole for toxic tops to breed. He is bound to find out sooner or later. Mark has never told him and his life may again be ruined once he realizes he is living a new lie and Mark was part of his poz diagnosis. Until them, thanks for reading.  

 

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Mark was amazing, he took me on many trips and showed me how having money could enhance your life. We often ended up at porn award events where Bryce also attended. At today’s event, Mark left me alone, Bryce walked up with his new Boyfriend to introduce him to the prodigy that started everything for him. I owe this kid everything, even the car I purchased you with money made from his ass. The boyfriend said, oh this is the kid in the poz videos. The one you showed me. Yes, one in the same. Those videos made me and the studio.

He even ended up with one of the stars in the pozzing videos. Seems like he made the best of it, which one the boyfriend asked. Just then Mark walked up, Bryce said, the director. Bryce introduced his boyfriend to Mark and looked down at Cody. Fuck, you did not know. I know that look, you are still fucking clueless. I love that about you. Then he and his boyfriend walked away. I got up and told Mark I had to go to the restroom.

I knew Bryce was a total dick and would do anything to hurt me, I decided that must have been what it was but knew I had to watch the videos to know he was lying for sure. I went back to the party and tried to put it out of my mind. I won for a video I had directed, Bryce came third, Mark one for another and Bryce did not place. That was entirely satisfying. Mark wanted to know what Bryce had to say on the way back and I told him he was just talking trash. It is clear his studio is losing ground from viewers and his quality has suffered. He has half or my number and a third of yours.

I turned to Mark and said, I try to be positive, but Bryce is a fucking loser, next time we see him I give you permission to lay him out. I know you have wanted to do it for a long time. Mark held my hand and said that he loved me. I told him I loved him back. We went on with our day and a few weeks later while Mark was on a shoot, I found the video and paid my fee to watch it. $59.00 for a one-time viewing.

I watched the interviews; mortified, as I listened to Mark and the others talk about blowing their toxic loads inside me. I did not have to watch after the intro, those interviews told everything. I went and started to pack a bag; I was so mad. Then I thought, all these guys were either on Prep and playing a roll or they were undetectable like Mark said he was when he fucked me. Over the next three days I convinced myself that Bryce was making this shit up. I did not want to blow up my life, once where all the money I made was mine and Mark paid for everything else. Besides, I loved him.

I went on about my day, hearing from fans. I had ended up with both, fans of my work as Cody and of my new porn films. I had just read several fan posts on my blog from fisting guy when I came across a note from a fan asking if I was Throat Fag 1? The post went on, he wrote that he had read a post on Squirt from a straight guy who got fucked for the first time by Throat Fag 1. I had set up a movie playing out that scene and several after in one of the porn films I directed. He said, if it is you, he is looking for you. This is what he wrote.

Does anyone know where my Throat fag one is? I have emailed him several times and he has not responded. I can only play when I am traveling, and I have not been doing so with Covid. I have a trip in two weeks and need to contact throat fag one.

The blogger said, is this where your inspiration came to shoot that first scene. It sounds so familiar.

I immediately went to squirt; I had my password set as JeffLov1 and signed in. There were tons of messages, but I scrolled down and a recent message from the straight guy. Fag, not sure if you are still providing throat service but I need you. IT has been two years and I am horny as fuck. I will be traveling regularly to you and hoping you can help relieve my pent-up needs.

I had not cheated on Mike, but this had my dick rock hard. I had not had the desire to fuck anyone in a long time, I was rock hard. I sent the straight guy message and said, Throat fag one reporting for duty. Then I went back to the blog, letting my fan know that this sounded like a copycat post. I have inspired lots of fags to try this. My fan said, I want to play throat fag, I am going to email him. Thanks Cody!

 

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Cody wondered about this guy, he knew he was positive when he bloe inside him, that Wes was, and he later found out that Brian was too. The guy had to have converted but may not even know it. Wonder what the story is. Cody was now blowing blanks, so it did not matter. Would be hot as fuck to get with this guy again especially if he is still neg. Even if he thinks he is still negative. I had a casting call and met two young guys who were naturalist.

They do not believe in taking any chemicals into their bodies, they are fighting HIV with Chinese herbs. They brought their labs and looking at them I would say the herbs are not working. One has a viral load of 165,000 and the other with 205,000. David the younger of the two is 25 6’2 blond 175 pounds with a 9.5-inch dick, he definitely made an impression on the casting couch. The other guy is 23 6’ Greek looking with 10.5 thicker then Chase,the 25-year-old 205 pounds, muscular and exotic looking. Chase is better looking but Otto is hotter on film. I had them in mind if I decided to back to the straight guy's hotel again.

I went back to reading my blog post while I waited for his response. An hour later he responded. His mail said, finally! Fag, I have been trying to contact you. I will be traveling again, so will my little brother. I shared with him what I use fags for since he has the same problem with his huge dick, which I recently found out is slightly bigger than mine. He will be in Southern California in two weeks, I get there next week. You and your other fags ready for some straight dick.

Holy fuck is all I thought, I wrote back Yes! He shared his hotel info and that he would be in next Tuesday night. I reached out to the guys and told them I had a bottom doing a test and needed a top or two to help me evaluate them. I asked each if they would be interested in helping. The bottom is straight and has taken dick but not in two years. Chase said fuck, that, would be hot. Otto later sent back an email that he is in.

Now that I had my mates for the straight guys, I went back to working on some new candidate for a film I was casting for. Young bottom takes his first fist. The next day, there was an email on Squirt, he sent his hotel information and that he would be in on Tuesday, after checking in he would be ready at 3 PM. I emailed him back and confirmed and sent an email to Chase that we would need to be at the hotel by 3 PM Tuesday and I would fill him in beforehand on the scene.

I also hit up Otto that it would be Tuesday and he would get him a time. Otto confirmed he would be ready. I was rock hard; I had not been this horny or rigid in a long time. The days went slow but soon it was Monday. The straight guy confirmed, I circled to Otto and Chase and they both confirmed. No one spoke of status. Tuesday arrived; this is the first time cheating on Mark. I brushed it off as a casting call, so work related even though we had decided that neither of us would do that.

I mean, I think Mark would do this with me some time, but his dick was far too big for either of these guys for now. Tuesday arrived, I received an email at 2 PM that he checked in and I shot one to Chase to be at the hotel at 3 PM and I would mee him in the lobby. I had filled him in on the scene, he would be Fag Rimmer one, I would get throat fucked and he would suck what he could and then the guy would get on the bed ass up and he would eat his hole, then I would. Once I was ready, I would slide in and fuck him till I cum and then he would eat his hole again and he would fuck him till he unloads. This is all in the dark with no talking from us. You are to cum in his ass. If you think the bottom can manage it keep fucking him till you blow your second load.

Chase said, I understand, and I will be there. I am always good for two large loads. I emailed him and said, I remember from your screen test. When we arrived at the hotel, I had flashbacks from our previous times and wondered what his little brother was like. Fuck, hope he looks like him! I emailed the straight guy and he emailed me back. Do I have two throat fags or a throat fag and a rimming fag? I emailed him the later. The email said, room 241, I am ready.

We went up, Chase as instructed was in shorts commando and his dick was getting hard. I could see his tent in the elevator. We knocked and the door opened as usual and closed. We got on our needs, the straight guy came over and told me to open, he slid in, making me gag at first. It had been a long time since he fucked my throat. The straight guy said, fag needs practice. Good thing I was first and not my brother. I would not want you to disappoint him. It took three rounds for my throat to open back up and take him like he liked. He fed Chase each time making him gag.

On the sixth throat fuck he pulled out and got up on the bed on all fours, I got under him and sucked his dick and Chase began to eat hi shole and spread his ass to get in deep. The straight guy just moaned and at one point said deeper. Chase tongue fucked him harder and deep and that make him moan loader. I slipped out and Chase pulled back, I ate him some more and then slide my cock on his wet hole and pushed in and fucked him as he moaned till, I shot my load inside him. I got back down under to nurse on the straight guy's cock while Chase ate my load out of his. I lubed up his cock with some lube I had with me, and he pressed on his hole and soon popped inside and fucked him slow at first then faster. The straight guy loved his dick, he moaned and said fuck yea, I missed this! Fuck me, fuck my straight ass. More than he ever said before.

Chase hit it harder and ten minutes later he shot his first load. He pushed down on the straight guys back and soon had him where he could flip him to the side and he grabbed the guy's leg and held it up as his dick slowly went in and out of the Straight guy, I sucked his dick and as Chase picked up the pace again the Straight guy shot his load I, my mouth. Chase followed with his load as the guys said fuck this is hot.

We both pulled off and backed up and the straight guy laid there turning over face down and we both dressed and compared notes downstairs. I took chase into the bathroom and pulled his shorts down and sucked his big cock clean. He tasted amazing. Then said, this guy usually likes a couple times while he is here. You up for that? He said, you have done this before, yes. He loves this! Yea, I am up for it, so this was not a screen test, was it? No, just a straight guy who cannot admit he wants fucked. Chase said, fucking hot! I am in for more.

I drove back to our place and checked my emails. The straight guy said, Rimmer was different, I like him more. He should come back. I text him that Rimmer one and a new Rimmer two want to taste your ass. Hot, free again at 6 PM. I text Chase what his availability was, and he said the evening was better, so I reached out to Otto. Told him the guy could be ready at 6 PM. He said cool, he would be there.

I got confirmation at 5:30 and reached out to Otto to confirm. I explained everything just like I had to Chase, and we received the okay we headed up. The straight guy only used my throat three times and gave Otto his cock twice. He got up on the bed and said rim me. Otto did, just as before the guy moaned and soon, I was inside him fucking him and came quickly. Otto rubbed his hole and fingered him as I lubed up his bigger dick. I wondered how the straight guy would take that huge dick.

Otto pulled his fingers out of his hole and lined up his dick. He pressed worked but did not get it in. The straight wanted it and pressed back and finally Otto entered. The straight guy tried to pull back, but Otto held him till he got past his ring, pulled him back on his huge dick. I could here he under his breath say fuck that is too big, stop please no. But Otto stayed firm and slowly inched his dick inside the straight guy. Once he was all the way inside him, he pushed his legs forward and slowly started to inch out some and then back. This went on for five minutes as the guy's hole opened. I had some poppers and I have them to the guy and he inhaled and inhaled more. Otto kept up slow fucking him and soon the guy stopped whimpering and grunting, he was moaning in pleasure. Otto eventually fucked away as I crawled between their legs and sucked the guy's cock. The fuck seemed to last forever when Otto started to breath heavy and then shoved his dick in and grunted as he shook. The straight guy shot his load into my mouth. I slide out and Otto eventually pulled out as the guy collapsed on the bed. I sucked otto clean and we dressed and left.

We headed down and I asked him if he was free in the morning, and he said yes. I told him to be ready, I would confirm tonight. Hours later I heard from my straight guy. He said, please bring Rimmer one tonight. I will be free at 10. I reached out to Chase and confirmed the 10 PM fucking. He said he would be there. We arrived much like before, Chase fucked longer and breed him twice like before. I cleaned his dick in the room like I did to Otto while Straight guy was on the bed and dressed, then left. Chase said fuck, this is so hot. I told him the guy's brother is coming next week and cannot promise we can fuck him but that would be the goal.

Before bed, the straight guy emailed and said he would like another round at 10 AM before he checks out at noon. I confirmed, said only Rimmer two is free. He said, okay we will make that work. Need the poppers before this time. This was progress, fuck he was getting closer to admitting he was taking dick and being a big bottom. Hot, I wondered if he told his little brother this part. Hope he did.

I confirmed with Otto, and we met there at 9:50. Straight guy was ready, and we headed up. He fucked my throat and go on the bed and said rim me timidly. I handed him the poppers and he started as Otto went in to eat his ass before me. He seemed to want to get inside the straight guy. Otto ate him for two minutes and then lubed up his dick and pressed it against the straight guy hole, with the poppers Otto was able to enter and fucked him steady and then harder than before. He was fucking that dude like he was a cunt. He fucked him for two more minutes slamming into him as the straight guy hit the poppers and moaned speechless, then Otto shot inside him with a huge grunt.

He stayed in, pushed the straight guy down on his stomach and turned him to the side and fucked him more. Otto started saying. Give me your cunt, give me that straight cunt. The guys just moaned the first time but then said, I am. Otto fucked him for ten more minutes and shot another load in him. I shot my load on the guy's dick and sucked him until he shot inside my mouth. Otto pulled out, we both pulled back and Sucked otto clean again and left. Otto, said nothing on the way down but when we got to the elevator he said, I want that ass again when he is in town. Then he walked off.

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I had a new exhilaration and decided to go bay the bookstore. I wondered if any of the old guys I used to service would be there. When I entered it was no surprise that the old guy was there who was always hitting on me. He did not seem to try this time. I went into the center booth and soon a young guy came into the end booth. He was a great looking guy could not have been more then twenty-three and he pulled out a beautiful dick. I had cleaned out in case I got the chance to back up on the straight guy's dick but that did not happen. I slide his dick through and when he was good, hard, and moaning I backed up on his big dick after lubing it up and he fucked me for ten minutes and shot his load inside me.

Fuck, I love it. I pulled off and cleaned his dick. He slid his email through and left. I like him a lot and would let him breed me again. Two more dicks came through, and I sucked them and swallowed and then headed home to Mark. He was out doing errands, so I just took a swim and laid by the pool. When I finished, I emailed the guy from a dummy email and told him how hot it was at the glory hole. I did not anticipate an immediate response. Dude, that was hot. I hate that place, that was my second time there. I would just like to find a regular mouth and ass to fuck and unload inside. He asked If I was up for that, qualifying that I could not be a slut. If I could agree to that, I would be this straight top bottom, he would give me cum several times a week.

I emailed him back and said, I had not been there for two years. Yes, I would like a regular top to use my mouth and ass to receive his cum. He said, I will email me you on Thursday to set a time and place. Not looking for anything but your holes. I am married. My dick got hard as a rock. I love married guys. I had seen a wedding band on his hand. He emailed that he had a bottom he used for over a year, but the kid moved away. He needed a great ass like mine to fuck often. Glad we ran into each other. It was so hot; I had this straight guy cum inside me.

Mark came home from work, and we spent some time in the hot tub, had a few drinks then started a fire in the outdoor fireplace. He held me while I thought about the hot time I had today with the straight guys. He could sense I was horny, and he undressed me and sucked my dick until I came. He said, tomorrow I get to fuck you with one of the boys from the studio. Tonight, I just wanted to taste your cum. I wanted to know about the boy, but he would not tell me. He said it is a surprise.

We went to bed shortly after, when we woke, we had breakfast and he told me to be ass up and waiting at 4 PM today in the downstairs bedroom with my blindfold on. I said, fuck I do not even get to see him. Babe, you will feel him for sure, he wants it this way. Just do it, please. Oh, babe I will.

I was excited all day, I checked squirt and there was a message from the straight guy, all it said was Hot!!! Then I checked to see if my BBRT file was still active. It had was still active, so I looked for some hot guys on there. I sent off a few messages but no one I was interested in was on. The day drug on and I wanted to get my surprise in the worst way. It was time, there I was ass up on the bed blindfolded. I had cleaned out and my hole was ready.

I felt his hands on my ass, then my checks spread as a tongue lightly brushing my hole and then flittering his tongue on it. This guy was making love to my hole, he was making me tingle all over as I moaned deeply. The tongue bath went on till he started tongue fucking me. Holding my hips and driving his tongue deep into me sometimes even pulled my hips back onto his strong tongue. I was fucking in heaven. Then he pulled off and slapped his huge cock on my ass. The lubed up my hole and pressed me forward as he fucked full length alone my crack. Then he pulled back and lined up his enormous dick and pressed it against my hole. He was as big if not bigger then Mark. He pressed hard and his dick popped it. Once inside, I knew he was bigger than Mark. Fuck he has an amazing dick is all I thought as he slowly fucked my hole making me beg him for more. Please, deeper I said, fuck you are so hot. I love that your big dick inside me.

This went on for thirty minutes and then I could hear his breathing increase and soon he grunted loudly and shot his load inside me. Once he had shot inside me, he pulled out and presented his cock for me to clean and I sucked and licked his dick till he was clean. He then walked out of the room and Mark came over and pulled off my blindfold and said, Fuck babe, so hot. Dress, I want you to meet my newest actor. I cleaned up a little and put on some shorts and a t shirt, I turned the corner to head to the kitchen and there was a tall dark handsome late twenties guys standing in the kitchen starting at me as I walked over to Mark.

He was so beautiful, every part of him. Cody this is Efren, Mark said. Efren just smiled at me, you were his first screen test, I knew you two would be a great match Mark said. I know it has been a long time since you have done anything like this. I am wondering if you and your studio would like to collaborate in a film. Efren just looked at me and smiled. We had drinks and sat around the pool and Efren was so cute with his broken English and sexy face.

The evening ended, Mark showed Efren out we continued chatting and talking about the film we were going to shoot. When the evening ended, we curled up in bed and Mark held me till I fell asleep. The next morning, I received another call from a studio that needed an experienced bottom for a shoot, the recruiter said she had heard I might be coming back on film again. I told her that good news travels fast.

I asked her what the scene was, and she said you would be in every scene, taking on singles and ending in a duo. We worked out terms, they were paying so much I agreed and did not even need to meet my counterparts. Besides, I was a blindfolded bottom much like what you cannot see films from treasure island media. They sent over the paperwork, and we negotiated payment and co-ownership of the film. They gave me 20%. We set the date for the shoot three weeks out.

In the meantime, Efren and I did our shoot, it was magical being with him. We had such chemistry on and off screen.  I watched the shoot and it made me hard looking at him fucking me like the exotic hung top he is.  We met up several times after the shoot, we could not keep our hands off each other. I was starting to fall for this guy.

I found myself hugely attracted to the straight guy; he would email me to meet two to three times a week. He was a hot fuck and his cum tasted amazing, on our third meet he kissed me, which was a huge surprise.  He was an amazing kisser too. He was hot in a straight, wholesome way. So here I was in a three-way triangle hoping to not get caught.

It was now, the day of the shoot with the new studio, I met the first two tops and did the scenes, top three and four I did not meet and for the finally, I was to be double penetrated bare, the tops so far were moderately hung, not hard to manage by any means. Then the duo came in, one fucked my mouth while the other my ass. The guy in my ass had a large cock but said nothing. The guy in my mouth called me a whore, a cum slut, trashy slut. Soon he laid down and the other guy helped me side down on his, he fucked me for couple minutes and pulled me down saying slut get ready for a real fucking. His partner slide inside me and fucked me hard for ten minutes and pulled out. The guy on the bottom was still verbally assaulting me and then the other guys slapped his cock up my ass.

It hurt like fuck, and he slam fucked me till he shot inside me and then the top on the bottom fucked me for several minutes and then said, take my load you slutty cum dump. The tops left and I got up and we finished the scene. I went to the shower and cleaned up and on the way out I saw Bryce and his boyfriend talking to the director. I walked up, I heard Bryce say, that ass can take a beating. Fuck, seriously Bryce and his boyfriend fucked over again for money.

I said goodbye to the director, I was steaming made all the way home. I decided to find a way to get even. I started looking at all the videos he made of me, where he whored me out, the father and son and the Poz Video. I watched the entire thing, several times and the more I watched the more I was convinced that Mark enjoyed himself. I was totally conflicted. I had the part Mark was producing with Efren and all. I contacted my attorney to see what he could do with Bryce, tried to see if we could a halt the film. That was a nonstarter.

My attorney came back and said, they have a note due, and it is late. They are renegotiating with the creditor. The amount of the loan is 1.2 million, with late fees and penalties it could be as much as 1.5 million. He said, my suggestion as your attorney is to purchase the debt and call the note. I instructed him to go for it. I soon was the creditor, or better said my holding company. My attorney began to call the note, filed all kinds of motions and soon we were able to tie up the company. I borrowed another Million from Mark along with what I was able to leverage with my studio and I soon owned the company Bryce built off my ass as he described it. He was able to keep his home, but I am not sure he would be able to pay for it with no income.

I ended up seeing the outtakes from the video that knocked me up and I got raw footage of my dear husband talking shit about knocking me up. The more I watched the siker I got. I served him with a lawsuit and threatened to go public if he did not forgive the loan and pay off my loan on the Studio and give me two properties with two million walking money. Mark conceded, he tried to make amends, but I had moved out and refused to speak to him again.

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