Need to bareback - neg scared of becoming poz but can't get it out of my head

[SomewhereonNeptune]

On 4/9/2023 at 5:47 PM, BootmanLA said:

I'm curious why someone who says he wants nothing to do with the site keeps returning.

Two theories:

1. The “I’m leaving to never return again…did you hear me, I’m not coming back…I’m back to make sure you heard me the first 7 times about not returning, I’m dead serious this time, I’m not going to logon here again…screw it, I’m back because no one deleted my account to force my own compulsive behavior” syndrome. Instead our reaction should be “Don’t go away mad, just…go away.”

2. Ever get stuck in a long line of traffic and you want to finally get to the head of the line and find yourself disappointed because you didn’t see carnage? The wreck has since been cleared and you’ve just wasted an hour of your time without anyone else’s misfortune to make your day. Don’t you just hate that? Hell, I try to get a good view to make sure I see the mangled vehicles and ambulances scooping up the injured because we all can’t resist watching a good train wreck. 😁 Or car wreck. 

Edited April 11, 2023 by SomewhereonNeptune

[SomewhereonNeptune]

On 3/17/2023 at 11:43 PM, ErosWired said:

This isn’t complicated. You want something that has a risk attached, but you want it with no risk. Your distress comes from the fact that you can’t have what you want, and you’re too afraid to get it any other way.

I want that cake. And I’m going to eat it, no one’s going to stop me, no matter how many pounds I’ll gain or inches on my waist I’ll need to work off. I must have both.

Legal disclaimer: Investing may result in loss of principal. Results not guaranteed and past returns may not be indicative of future results. Principal is not insured. Results not typical.

Because we’ve dumbed down entire generations and IQs are decreasing, we need to put warnings on things that should be common sense for anyone with at least a 90 IQ who is a functional member of society. Instead we need to tell people not to take baths with a toaster or drop electrical appliances in water or touch the hot side of an iron because people cannot take responsibility for themselves (and I personally think it’s everyone younger than Generation X because they didn’t get coddled). The information is out there. Read it, learn it, know it, get educated.

[hntnhole]

There's a little doo-dad somewhere on BZ that will take care of this kind of thing .... it disallows reading obnoxious merde ....

I know it's here somewhere ..... 

[Guest]

I was just getting into having complete sex, not just blow jobs, from and with men.

it was just on my mind all the time, and when I have spent enough time at glory holes, I just got so horny that one time I bent over at the Gloryhole and took a dick up my ass. It was my first time and it was BB. 

I used to worry about testing positive for HIV, but after a while, it just became a fetish in my head. I was no longer worried, I was obsessed. Book store after book store, rest stop after rest stop, all I wanted was bare. I was disappointed when a man insisted on condom. But I would always ask for the condom so I could slurp down the guys load, or put the condom on my own cock and jack off with it. I just became so obsessed with having men’s liquid in my mouth, in my ass, or on my cock.

I still love it. I love any anonymous encounter, and I’m more than willing to take my chances. From time to time I seek out men who are POZ, but only twice did I take their load. It was extremely satisfying. 
 

I do believe that I would like to be taken by surprise, to turn POZ after one of the many bareback loads I’ve taken. It seems unnecessary to seek out what I might just get naturally, but it still makes me horny.

No matter what, I am a bareback bottom willing to take any, and all big cocks and loads in my ass at any time, some thing I wish I could do every day

[viking8x6]

On 4/10/2023 at 10:42 PM, SomewhereonNeptune said:

Because we’ve dumbed down entire generations and IQs are decreasing, we need to put warnings on things that should be common sense for anyone with at least a 90 IQ who is a functional member of society. Instead we need to tell people not to take baths with a toaster...

Actually that's not why those warnings are there. They are there because lawyers convinced people who got hurt doing something they probably knew was a bad idea that someone else was responsible. Why did the lawyers do that? Because they make a lot of money from it. SMH.

[1stimebare]

Just get on prep.  I did.  It was a pain in the ass because the doc at the time promised and failed to deliver a referral(and an infectious disease practice that dealt with both prep and HIV patients would NOT see me without a referral, I asked.  Anyway finally got on it and per what the folks at the infectious disease clinic where I get the prep shots tells me, insurance is not paying for it the manufacturers assistance program is.  That was news to me.  But great.  Yes the cost is high if you have to pay, but you may not.  All it costs me is $94 every other month for an office visit to get the shot.  I can live with that.

[NBBTTM]

7 hours ago, viking8x6 said:

Actually that's not why those warnings are there. They are there because lawyers convinced people who got hurt doing something they probably knew was a bad idea that someone else was responsible. Why did the lawyers do that? Because they make a lot of money from it. SMH.

"the first thing we do, let's kill all the lawyers"- Shakespeare

[ShyChubbyBottom]

I am the same. I can't get away from this site, and have been lurking for over 10 yrs.

And I think I have had the least amount of sex on this site, tbh, as I am an older chubby bottom who has had the sort of fantasies this site specializes in for 20+ yrs. After being closeted til I was 46, I used work to distract me from being human, but that ended 2 yrs before covid.

Since that I have met up with about 7 people. Always raw.

I am scared to get sick. But I love the idea of 'unknown' cum about to shoot into me. I get on and off of prep, and so far have not been with any non-neg people. But I really really really want to. And I am really tired of not doing what my heart wants.

As a very hubby older (52yo) guy, I do not get many people wanting me, and I live in the boonies, so options are somewhat limited, but perhaps the key is just to say yes to things for a bit. 

I'll toss this to the wind and see what happens 🙂

[hntnhole]

22 hours ago, ShyChubbyBottom said:

lurking for over 10 yrs.

Really .... thanks for surfacing, ShyCubbyBottom.  As you well know, all kind of viewpoints are expressed here, and we hope you let us hear more from you.  Every guy get's an equal voice.  And if you're not already, please protect your health.  You can get it through the mail if you prefer.  Easy.  

Edited June 24, 2023 by hntnhole

[Bwccummer]

I think head knowledge and arousal can be the opposite. For example one may know to wear or have a condom used, or be on prep. The arousal can throw out that and want to bottom and beg for poz cum. Also the risk can be part of the thrill.

However later may have second thoughts. This is where get tested and get on prep. Also can picture if one off prep, decide to get back on prep.

I guess a way that may help is watch bareback porn and cum. Then after cum, cn maybe think clearly on choices make. As Also think about that can see avoid drinking or use substances so can make clear informed decisions. 

I am mainly talking about my thoughts as others may not be a issue or just use precautions. 

[SomewhereonNeptune]

On 6/7/2023 at 4:34 PM, viking8x6 said:

Actually that's not why those warnings are there. They are there because lawyers convinced people who got hurt doing something they probably knew was a bad idea that someone else was responsible. Why did the lawyers do that? Because they make a lot of money from it. SMH.

Of course they make money from someone else’s stupidity. But at the same time, lawyers on the other side are preventing those representing the sub-90-IQ set by putting out all the legal disclaimers on these things:

Seen on a milk product: “Contains milk.” That’s what I bought, thanks for not ripping me off.
Seen on a bag of mixed nuts: “May contain nuts.” Gee, I should hope so, I want what I paid for.
Heard on every single pharmaceutical advert on any evening news broadcast: “Don’t take (drug name) if you’re allergic to (same drug name/its ingredients).” The problem with this one is trying to determine the ingredients in almost any drug, COVID-19 vaccines and boosters most specifically.

But I agree with you that we’ve raised generations now (not me specifically) that don’t take accountability for their own actions, and the result just makes them seen — by and large — stupid.

[maxdick23]

I'm married to a woman too.  I had an encounter with three men in a group setting years ago before I was married. It was all bareback and many loads were taken that night.   I was paranoid for a long time get tested.   I got away from it for a long time.   But now I'm on prep.   Something I have to hide but take it.   Now no load is refused.  I've taken two poz loads too and after 9 months and three tests,  all is good. Now I'm always looking for the next load. 

[GreedyBBbttm]

Give in to the urge it’s amazing, married to a woman here and I’ve been taking loads deep in my hole since I was 15 best feeling ever 

[ErosWired]

On 7/6/2023 at 9:51 AM, Bwccummer said:

I think head knowledge and arousal can be the opposite.

There’s even a saying for it:

Think with the big head, not the little head.

[jagmanaz]

Get on Prep and Doxy then dont worry too much.  Enjoy all loads.