I absolutely love bareback sex. First time I did it and felt the guy shoot inside me was incredible. But the morning after was full of regret and was in a state of panic for the next 3 months. After that, I insisted of the top wearing the condom. Some, no problem, other was hesitant. After I met a guy and we started fooling around I got on prep. Sex was so much better going bare. Than came the night my fuck buddy wanted too bring a guy on grindr over. I saw the guys status was positive and he said he knew and wanted to watch the guy poz me. Long story short I didn't want to. But curiosity got the better of me and I search the guy out on my own. We fooled around and and he filled me up. Feeling him cum in me was so hot. He took me to a friend of his who was also positive and I got two more loads. That was 9 months ago. Been tested three times now all negitive. I now do fear being positive like I use to. I feel like it's going to happen one day. I guess I want it on my terms.