I have decided that I want to become a cumdump. It feels like my life is beginning.

[rapeday]

Hi everyone,

The last time I was here, I said, "I suppose deep down I understand that I'm going to get HIV sooner or later. It doesn't bother me, and I believe that I'll accept it when it happens, but I want to experience as much unprotected sex as I can before I get it." and "Maybe the best thing to do is just accept every load, no matter what. It's what I want deep down, and I'm starting to believe my life is worthless if I deny it. It's what I am." But I still felt kind of confused.

Since I was last here, I have spent my time thinking about everything, and I have decided that I want to become a cumdump. I feel totally certain, and it's like my life is beginning. The next time I have lots of free time is on Saturday, and I'm going to spend the day in a sauna, sucking every dick that I'm able to. I feel a bit scared about anal sex, but it's just because I'm really inexperienced at it, and if a guy wants to fuck me and cum in my ass and stuff, I will definitely let him. I'm not going to ask any questions about a guy's status, and I will take every load.

I suppose I just want to tell you guys, because this is the place where I feel I can talk about this stuff and not be condemned. This is a really big thing for me, and I feel grateful to this place for helping me to understand what I want, and accept that it's okay. And yeah, if you have any advice for me, I totally welcome it.

[evilalex]

whores are hot

[evilqueerpig]

If this is what you truly want, embrace it and LIVE it....the best thing any of us can do is to be true to ourselves!

[PissPigBrooklyn]

"I want to enjoy as much unprotected sex as I can before i get it." Yes worthy, but remember that's only the beginning of your enjoyment. You can continue to enjoyment and share in the enjoyment after too!

Edited October 24, 2011 by Hotload84

[stinkslut]

Good job, rapeday!!! I am happy to see you've made your decision, particularly since I still can't make mine. I am torn apart in a way. I do want to become as much of a cumdump as you, but I still have some kind of a holdback, and it's driving me crazy. I have had a few encounters where guys filled my ass with cum. Some were not planned (or acted too well) and some were obvious tricks (he didn't have condoms etc.). And I have swallowed a number of loads of cum from guys when I never asked anything about their status. I am hard as I type this, but scared shit scared too. So once again, good job! And keep us posted about your sauna experience!

cheers

Edited October 24, 2011 by Hotload84

[truverspi]

Good for you! Becoming a cum dump who accepts any load is an honor, and you're going to love it the more you do it. It gets even better after you've caught the bug. I love being a poz whore.

[loadme68]

I understand exactly how you feel because I am wrestling with the exact same feelings and desires!

[pulszer]

I wish I could felch your pozzed hole.

Edited October 24, 2011 by Hotload84

[ChargedLoadLover]

It makes me proud to be used as a cumdump. Nothing feels quite like having loads leaking out my hole.

[barehole4use]

Your story sounds very familiar to me, sort of how i decided how i wanted to become POZ & it worked for me perfectly, I decided to take any & all loads bare in my hungry hole, Must say i have never looked back & some of my regular FB'S have named me the best slut in town.

[Guest ff-whole]

You know where it says underneath the avatar: "not sure, probably negative"... That is what we hope for... I can't get Prep here, otherwise I would take it and say "negative". Now I haven't taken much loads since my last test and had no symptoms, but basically we should say: "not sure, probably positive"... Right?

I am planning to see my doctor next week and get a full blood exam taken and I will ask for Prep because although I take loads whenever I can get them, I want to become an unhibited full cumdump.

I was in South America in various saunas and took a lot of undisclosed loads. I stayed negative though so I guess I was lucky. But one day I want to go to places where I know that I might receive more poz loads even unmedicated loads and I don't want to worry about it. Florida, California... Go to gay and raw bareback events... Go to Europe and especially to Berlin gay clubs where I want to go full cumdump bottoming in major gangbangs... I can hardly wait for it... Go fullblast into my second youth and I don't want to decline any load.

Edited March 16, 2015 by ff-whole

[Guest]

Congratulations, dude. I made the same decision more than 30 years ago when I decided to fuck and get fucked bareback only. To this day I have no apologies, fears or regrets.

[PhilUrass]

Rapeday - the only advice I'd add is that if you're inexperienced as a bottom, buy some toys and start working that hole. And find a top who will take his time opening your hole up with lots of rimming and fingers/ass play. When I bottomed, the best advice I got was to douche properly beforehand and when a dick enters, push on your sphincter as though you're taking a dump...it feels weird, but if you've douched, there's nothing to worry about...this helps relax the sphincter so entry is a lot easier and less uncomfortable.

[averageslut48]

Proud cumdump here. I started at the age of 13 and did never regret it. I took and take any load from any cock no questions asked. Nevercared about my status and actually I don´t know about it. It feels good to me to be that cumdump.

[MackyJay]

I know I want to become a cumdump but here it is April and have not had a load in my ass since Nov last year.   Ugh