MackyJay

I'm hoping someone has the knowhow and can teach me and others how to self fist. I can get all four fingers in me plus my thumb but just lack a very small amount of getting whole hand in. Hope there's a secret I haven't learned yet that will get my hand all in.

Feel of a condom is terrible

I'm for it.

No I don't and really don't care about status. I just want fucked.

Level 6 for at least last 7-8 yrs. Still neg but I am chasing.

Used to only want a hand and no more than 6 inches of arm but now, I'm a lot more kinky pervy so as far as guy doing me wants to take us. Looking for a guy to restart me as it's been a few years since last time but I miss that feeling and want to feel it again.

It is to me

I'm ok with it

Love it

To me it is.

Hell yes

The time I got my 'anal cherry' popped it was bareback and magnificent. Have been fucked by three guys using condoms but last time was about 6 years ago. Did not like the feeling all three times and after the last time I decided NO MORE and banned condoms being used in me. I never turn down any kind, size nor status of a cock as long as it is bareback only. If a guy insists on using a condom I just tell them no thanks and goodbye. Fuck me BAREBACK only, no condoms allowed (will make an exception for a cruel condom as I'm curious how one feels) and cum is to be deposited in me, no pull outs. For the last several months, I've also posted on every site I use that I'm HIV neg but am now officially on the chaser list looking to get pozzed. I'm ready willing and almost desperate to be pozzed.

One thing to remember for sure: NO SUCH THING AS TOO MUCH LUBE. Better lots than too little as too little can lead to damages.

I am just like that too. I've ridden cock a couple of times but just not as good to me. I'd rather just be tipped almost upside down and have my top drive into me like a pile-driver.

Mine is actually on my back, legs well spread with pillow under my ass to lift me up more so I can watch the expression on his face as he eases his hand slowly in me opening me up little by little till he gets his hand in completely. Then just enjoying the sensations it causes as he works his hand around, pulling out and back in, getting a little deeper each time in. Unfortunately, it's now been close to five years since my last time. The wonderful guy, who 'trained' me for fisting, died suddenly and tragically of a heart attack. Miss him a lot. We'd discussed how far I wanted him to go. After talking it over, I went home from this session (think it was like our third or fourth) got online and watched several vids of guys getting fisted. Then next time we met up, we talked for about a half hour and it was decided that I wanted him to get his hand in me and then no more than 6 inches up his arm plus he was to work on stretching my hole wider as I kind of wanted to have him get both hands in at same time just to feel that at least one time lol. He also brought up at this time another issue, he told me he'd not brought this up with me yet but usually when with a new guy it was said by second session. He said he liked some more satisfaction from fisting and would fist a guy then take, what he called his 'dick break' and would fuck a guy bareback till he would cum in them, then take a real break lol and then if we wanted he'd fist more. He said I could let him know by our next session about that. That really gave me something to think about as I knew he HIV POSITIVE but on meds and undetectable, but I didn't know a lot about it so did a lot of research before our next session and came up with a deal for him lol. So, next session came and I informed him that his HIV POZ UD status kind of had me a bit scared but was willing to gamble with it if he was game. I told him of my plan, that I'd flip a coin for it, if it came up heads two out of three flips he'd get his 'dick break' bareback but he had to pull out before cumming not in me but if two out of three came up tails he could fuck me bareback and go ahead and cum in me. He said he was a bit disappointed but it sounded fair and agreed to it. I got out a quarter and flipped it, but a bit nervous and OMG dropped coin on floor and it bounced under bed lol. I asked him if he wanted to count this flip or start over. He said might as well count it. So we both got on floor and coin was only a couple inches under bed so well able to see it and it was heads, whew. Got coin and flipped it again and caught it this time and slapped it on my wrist, lifted hand and it was another head, so this time he'd get his break but had to pull out before cumming. Still had a great session. He was taking me along slowly and gently so I would enjoy it more. From this point onward our sessions went like this: He'd take a good 10-15 minutes just loading me up with lots of lube, then start slowly getting his hand in me and fisting would last a good hour, getting his hand in and out of me gently and also trying to stretch my hole bigger, then he'd pull out his hand and lift my legs way up and apart to insert his very nice 7 1/2" long nicely fat cock into me for his 'dick break' and fuck me bateback for close to another 45 minutes. Felt so damn good to me that I had a hard time to not just wrap my legs around him tight so he couldn't pull out when he was ready to cum but was barely able to let him out and let him cum all over my chest, then a real break of approx 15 minutes, then he'd fist me again for a half hour up to an hour before we were done. Three sessions in a row after this one, so four total, coin favored me and came up two of three flips heads (he fucked so good though that each time it was harder for me to not lock my legs around him to cum in me but my fear of his HIV POZ UD is all that stopped me). Then inevitably it happened, coin flip finally favored him and came up two of three flips tails. I'm a man of his word and he asked me if I was sure and I replied I wasn't sure but this coin flip was my idea and he'd agreed to it so I felt I had no choice otherwise it would mean my word was useless. We had a very nice time with the fisting then time for his break. He took his time entering me with his cock and then he fucked me really great and when he was ready to cum, told me he was going to cum and to get ready and about 4 or 5 hard deep thrusts later he rammed as deep as he could and I could actually feel his cock throbbing as he filled me with his cum. OMG did it feel great to finally feel that. Then rest and then another hour of fisting. Next time I showed up for session, we got naked and I laid down on bed, he asked me what was up, wasn't I going to flip coin. I told him I'd thought about it since last session and since I'd already let him cum in me, if his UD status didn't hold up it was probably too late for me now so why flip anymore, when time for break came just go ahead and fuck me silly and cum in me. So that was our routine from then on, fisting for approx an hour floored by bareback fucking till he filled me with his cum and then real break followed by more fisting. Unfortunately, it seems, all good things come to an end. Our 11th session proved to be our last one. During this one, as he neared the end of fisting, before pulling his hand out, he used a marker to put a dot on his arm. Then pulled most of way out of me but not all out for some more stretching trying to get both his hands in me at once. This went on for another approx 15 minutes. When doing stretching he always had a mirror so I could watch. Very hot to me to be able to watch my hole being used. He got so very close this last time to getting them both in together, couldn't have needed hardly more than maybe a quarter of an inch more and both would have been in and oh did I want it as the feeling was fantastic. But both just wouldn't quite fit so he pulled out (forgot to mention that his hands could probably be described as medium sized). When out he got a ruler and measured to dot on arm. Remember I'd said I only wanted his hand in me and no more than 6 inches up his arm and measurement showed 5 5/8 inches, so close again only 3/8 inch more to go. I was slightly disappointed but he said to not worry as we were so close he figured that we'd hit both targets the next session or no more than the one after that. Unfortunately, I had to travel out of state for work for next six weeks and when I got back was still too busy for another month ugh. Then tried to get ahold of him but no luck. He lived in another town about fifty miles away so after trying to get ahold of him by phone for another coupe of weeks I had some other business in his town and when done went to his house and rang the bell. I was really hoping he was home because he always answered the door nude lol. Door opened but wasn't him. It was a boy who looked to be like 13-14 years old and Latino. I asked if my friend was home and boy answered he didn't know him. I said but this is his home. Boy said not that he knew of as his parents owned it. Huh? I said hold on a sec and stepped back and looked around and having been to this house at least 15 times (was there for talks about fisting with one of those to watch him fist another guy plus our 11 sessions) I knew I wasn't at wrong place. Then the boy's mom came to door and I asked about my friend. She also said she didn't know him and she and her husband had purchased this house through a real estate agent and owner had same lady name as my friend but different first name. Whew, what the hell? I apologized for bothering them and left. Ugh, did not know hardly any of his other friends, like a total of three. One a past boyfriend he'd just broken up with when I met him but knew he'd moved out of state so pretty sure he'd know nothing as was a very nasty breakup. Other two were a couple and I soon found out that one of them had recently passed away. Took me almost another month before I was able to finally get ahold of him. Asked about friend and was informed of the bad news about his sudden heart attack and it was his brother that was his only close relative and inherited everything but was also a complete asshole and did not approve of his brother's life style. Just came and actually only kept a very very few of his brother's things and had a dumpster placed there and probably close to 95% of belongings were thrown out, which included almost every bit of furniture, kitchen appliances including stove, refrigerator and deep freezer (all three of those had been less than a year old) but that brother didn't care about that as all he really wanted was the money he got. My friend was a very frugal man and he was very very good at saving and then investing his money, some stocks but mostly in CDs and had even once shown me how he was doing and it was really good. He clearly had cash on hand in bank of around $150,000 and his other investments and CDs were a little over $500,000. So he was doing great. He'd been the head counselor at a community college and around our 8th session had taken early retirement and this part really sad as when he died he was only 56 yrs old. I was really turn up about his death. Mainly because he was just such a really nice and gentle soul but not because of fisting so much. Well that's the story of my start of fisting but since then I've not been fisted but I sure am really starting to miss it as I still remember how great it felt. I'm now trying hard to find another guy to restart me again. One thing about it is since that last session, I've become a huge amount more kinky pervy than then lol, so when I find a new guy to do me, the limits from back then are out and new guy I will give permission for him to go as far as he wants to go.

I wouldn't be, I'd be very very happy.

I use Twitter and MeWe.

Love it a lot

I do NOT allow condoms near me (exception if guy has one of those cruel condoms as I'm curious how one feels). I get fucked bareback only and cum is to be deposited inside me. I will go without rather than have a condom inside me.

Yes, I sure do.

Been a while since I was fisted but never had any problems. Now looking for another guy to start to retrain me and hopefully take me to 'expanded' heights.

I've been fisted but been a while now. Looking for a guy to retrain me and take me to 'expanded' heights.

No but it's my number one fantasy and had been for several years.

This sounds a lot like me. Plugged in my phone to recharge and went to kitchen to get a snack. Wife came home from work (I hadn't paid attention to time) and headed into other room. I finished getting snack and we t to other room to find my wife looking through my gallery. I'd plugged phone in but forgot to shut it off and she doesn't know my code to open it, ugh, so dumb. I had pics showing me cross dressed, playing with an assortment of dildos and vibrators, locked in a chastity device (don't have it anymore as someone stole it), a video of me getting fucked from slow to fastest setting by my fuck machine which has an 11" very fat black dong. To say the least, she was pissed. Till then she'd only suspected such things but now she saw proof. Basically her own fault mostly. It's been over 23 years since we last had sex. She'd got her 'change of life --menopause somewhat earlier than avg and we went from 6, 8, 12, 20 times per week of sex to zero in less than 2 months. Was difficult for me at first but although I loved sex, I thought I could handle it. I actually did do very good for between 5-6 years. I'd been completely straight my entire life to this point, not even a thought of me ever doing anything gay. Then a trip into Des Moines for business that I'd figured would take most of the day but actually only took a little over an hour. This left me with a lot of time on my hands. I decided I didn't want to rush home and thought I'd drive around town to see what changes had been done. I'd went to school in Des Moines for electronics almost 40 years before and though I'd been back to town a few times since had not really had time to look around. Huge amount of changes. Old YMCA downtown had been taken down and new one built elsewhere. About 7 or 8 of us had stayed there while in school. Very cheap back then at only $15 dollars per week. That got you a small room, with single bed, a desk, two chairs and small closet, but you could not have a hot plate or anything else to fix food but no problem as cafe in Y and several others within a couple of blocks, but added feature was no extra charge to use any of the Y's facilities if not in use by some group, which meant, to me anyway, I got to use gym to shoot baskets and sometimes even got in games when enough guys there, not a big swimmer but sometimes that's fun, weight room and whatever else was open (never tried handball courts as although I know how to play many different sports that's one I'd never learned even to today). Found many other changes, when going to school, there had been 5 or 6 drive-in theaters in Des Moines, now zero. Then upon turning a corner, about half way in that block, I just happened to look at a sign on a building, the name of an adult store & arcade. That kicked in my damn curiosity, as I'd heard of them but never been in one. I drove around the block and slowing down saw a sign pointing up alley saying parking for that place in rear, so I turned in and parked. Absolutely no idea what to expect inside. Entered and didnt take long to be amazed at how many 'sex' toys there seemed to be. I was actually quite naive and only barely knew anything except I knew about dildos and vibrators but had no idea of how many different ones there were plus had to read packages to find out what many things actually were. Walked around just basically in discovery mode trying to figure out many items I had no idea of plus in separate room found rack after rack of videos (back then and only about 12-14 years ago almost all were VHS tapes lol). In a previous job and many years before and married to my first wife (my present wife is my third one) my boss and I had been invited to a stag party in another small town about 7 miles away being held by a customer. Invite had stated, only men invited-stag only, there will be several XXX movies to be shown (these were all 8mm on reels-way old huh?), bring your own beer but he'll have lots of chips and dips. All movies shown were straight sex but kind of interesting. I've drank quite a bit of beer when younger, but even then preferred my Bacardi 151 Rum and Coke (no damn ice please as I'm not a polar bear lol) but invite said beer, so I took a twelve pack of Budweiser in a cooler and my boss brought an entire case of Bud (largest selling beer in the world at that time and main plant in St Louis, Missouri and still the only beer I drink and reg Bud as I detest light beers). Lots of joking and other odds and ends of talk before and during the movies. I drank, I think, either 8 or 9 of my beers and boss probably one or two more than me. We watched approx 12 or so movies by then, and since we had to work the next day and they still had probably 25-30 more movies, (that guy had one of the largest collections of 8mm porn I have ever seen) we left and headed for home but not straight home as we stopped at this bar deciding g to have just one more before going home. It was just about midnight then and entered and took seats at bar and boss ordered himself a beer but I'd had enough of that, I thought, and they had no 151 Run, so settled for reg Bacardi Rum and Coke. Was almost done with my drink, when for first time looked around the bar and almost fell off stool when, clear at back table I saw four of my closest friends. My boss said he was going to have another beer and asked if I wanted another drink which I declined telling him I was going back to talk to my friends. He nodded saying take your time I'll drink slow. Went back to table and friends were surprised as hell. Told me to sit down and join them. They were just ordering again when I got there and one was my best friend (a year younger and we'd met when he entered 7th grade and I'd entered 8tb grade and we're still best friends even today, which makes it 61 years of friendship) and he told waitress to bring me one too. Apparently they were all drinking same thing and when it was brought to table I found out that they were all drinking pitchers of Budweiser, no glasses lol, everyone had their own pitcher and we're drinking right from the pitchers. Not what I'd expected but not polite to refuse a friend's offer so I started drinking my pitcher and talking and joking with them with gusto as it had been a while since I'd been able to party with any of them as out of the 5 of us, I was the only one married at the time. Didn't pay attention to time as having such a great time with old friends (oh and as of now, only my best friend and I are the only ones still alive). Before I knew it, I'd drank 3 of those pitchers, and was getting pretty doggone wasted when my boss tapped me on the shoulder saying we'd better head out as it was now 2 AM and closing time for bar. Boss had drank more beer than me at stag party and then at bar while I was downing pitchers he'd had another 9 or 10 beers, and was about as wasted as Mr and he was driving. Had to drop me off at my home, on SW side of town and then drive to his home clear across town on the NE side of town. I had to open business in morning meaning we opened at 8 AM but I had to be there to get things organized by 7:30 AM and I hadn't drank that much in several years so guess what, I was bent over the porcelain stool for almost 3 hours after getting home so almost 5 AM before I fell asleep. Ugh approx 2 hours of sleep hung over terribly with wife just laughing but 7:30 I was entering shop. 8 AM unlocked door and OMG was I happy it started out a very slow morning. Delivery guy showed up on time but no sign of boss. Delivery guy as also stocked inventory we'd had delivered from main office the afternoon before. I was only 24 then and he was 60 something and slow as hell. I'd put away stuff when he was on vacation and was a large shipment and even answering phone and filling orders had it all in proper places on shelves before end of day, but that old guy almost always had half the things left to put away the next morning. Finally boss showed up and hour late looking about as bad as I felt. He told me he was going to make me a deal, let me go back home to get some sleep, keeping me on the clock but I had to come back no later than 1:30 PM and relieve him and then he'd go home to rest. Then next morning we'd both be ok to go. Great deal and that little extra sleep did me wonders but was last good thing that boss ever did. Loved my wife but she just could not keep her legs together. I told 5 different guys that they would find better health in a different town and I had a rep as nobody to fuck with so all 5 packed up and left, 4 of them, not close friends, but supposed to be friends. Thought that had ended it but then found out boss had been fucking her too as she'd taken on job of babysitting his kids and I stead of him doing his rounds tosmall towns around us plus businesses in town, he was taking off home to fuck my wife. Then he quit job and went to work for a client just as I found out about them so I demanded that she quit babysitting and actually found her another job as a waitress, more money, right next door to where my dad worked. It was an old time style family oriented bar and restaurant and one of the cooks was my aunt, my dad's sister so I figured no way could she cheat anymore lol, was I wrong. She soon was fucking the guy that delivered their bread, again a supposed friend of mine. I bowled on Tuesday nights, two back to back leagues. He bowled only the first one, different team but we almost always had talks. Then found out while I was bowling zecond league he would head to our place and fuck my wife in our bed. By this time I'd had enough, had let old boss off with just a warning (a few years later I'd wished I'd have kicked his ass as on 3rd wife and our kids were in 6th and 3rd grade and he had become a custodian there, plus another of my dad's sisters was a cook there, I had parent-, teacher conference and when done headed to cafeteria to say a quick hello to aunt and ran into old boss sweeping floor (hadn't seen him in about 10 or 12 years so no idea he was there) and just as I got to him he looked up and both of us were surprised. I was just about to be nice and just say hi how have you been but before I could open my mouth he, in a nasty tone of voice, asked what the hell was I doing there. Tone kind of shocked me a bit but I just said, I've got two kids in school there and just had conferences with teachers and now I was going to cafeteria to say hi to my aunt before heading back to work. Decided to hell with being nice and asking how he'd been doing and started to walk away. Asshole then, again in nasty tone, basically stopped me short saying, that I'd better not be causing any trouble in 'his' school or I'd answer to him. That stopped me for sure and I turned back to him and said, I'll answer to you? That's a good joke, what are you doing to do, yell at me and then run to get help, cause I have no intention to cause any trouble but if I did, you sure as hell aren't the one I'd have to answer to and if you did come at me, which I very much doubt, I'd kick your ass to the moon like I should have done way back when I found out you'd been fucking my first wife. You were actually the 6th guy she cheated with but the first one I let off. And if you don't like what I just said, why wait for any trouble elsewhere when it's readily available right here and now if you want to try your luck. He didnt say another word just started sweeping floor again. Well, I got way off track didn't I? Anyway, after looking at about everything in that adult store I'd noticed a sign with an arrow pointing down a hallway saying arcade this way and underneath that it said booths only take quarters and $1,25 minimum. Well I'd looked over everything else so I thought why not take a look. Had to go to counter though to get quarters. Had only 1 one dollar bill no fives so had to get out a ten dollar bill. $1.25 mini.um but I figured I'd probably spend $2-3 dollars so that was what I was after. Attendent was busy at first so I just placed 10 on counter to wait. He finished with other customer and coming by me and before I could say anything, he'd grabbed my ten and plopped a whole roll of quarters down and was already talking to next person. Ten dollars worth of quarters, oh well didn't want to wait and haggle and besides I could always use change for pop machines, so just headed to arcade. No idea what to expect. Entry was actually just a walk around end of wall and there was one long hallway with booths on each side. Hmm interesting and I walked to end of hall checking out each booth. They were all numbered, on my right from 1 to 8 and on left from 9 to 14. No idea so I just took lucky number 7 lol. Opened door and entered, omg, dark as hell and couldn't see where to put quarters. Had to open door to see box on far wall with slot for money and two knobs, one marked turn to pick out vid and other marked volume. Closed door and felt for slot and dropped in $3 dollars worth and screen lit up with a vid playing. I grabbed vid knob and turned it all the way left to number 1, then slowly turned it right checking out each vid as I went. If I remember right, there were only a dozen vids possible with 9 of them gay sex, 1 was tranny sex, 1 was bisex and 1 was straight sex. That's where I stopped to watch but only about 30 to 40 seconds as both the man and woman were not at all good looking plus guy's dick looked smaller than mine plus their acting stunk to hell. Ugh, what to do? I then decided to try the bisex one, had two guys and one woman. Again a short stay as woman was def ugly and the two guys were making out like crazy while she was sucking one of them. So, next, oh hell, might as well check out the tranny one. Short time again, as tranny was uglier than last woman and was being sucked by a man. Not going good at all. What to do? Decided what the hell, I'll just go to first vid and just see a little of whatever gay guys do. Ugh. Had just got to number 1 and OMG both guys were stroking each other's çock and WOW, looked like two pretty big cocks. Had just noticed that but was going to change vids when I heard what sounded like another of the booths doors open and close so just stopped to listen, oh and I'd turned down volume all the way. Heard coins dropping and it sounded like right in next booth. Then all at once I saw a light coming from beside me from a hole in wall I hadn't noticed before, wtf. I turned and bent down to see what the light was and looking back at me from other booth was a guy whispering something o couldn't hear. I knelt down and whispered back, what did you say I couldn't hear you. He leaned closer and whispered again, can I suck your cock? WTF, I stood up almost on shock as hadn't expected that. Then my damn curiosity kicked in, plus it had been over 5 years since wife cut off our sex life and I was kind of tired of.y own hand and was horny as all get out, and I wondered what the difference was between a woman and a man sucking me, so I undid my pants dropped them and being horny and now a bit excited about difference my cock was already starting up and leaned a bit closer to hole. All at once that guy's hand came through hole, grabbed my cock and pulled it and of course me towards him so my cock was through the hole and before I could react I felt the very warm wet inside of his mouth around me. Felt pretty darn good too but I had been without too long so I'd bet it was only 2 or 3 minutes at most before my cum spurted in his mouth. He sucked till he was sure he had it all let go of me said thanks in a hurry and door opened and closed and he was gone. My thought was there was almost no difference between man or woman BJ. This was the very first time in my life I'd done or even thought about anything gay. This became starting point of what became a several years journey towards me making the decision to only identify myself as gay only and m2m sex only but it came a step at a time with several years in between steps. Only got a BJ about twice per year when in Des Moines, then one trip as I got in booth before I could get my cock out, guy's cock in next booth was already hard and he'd stuck it through hole I guessed for me to suck. Should I or not I thought, then that big C kicked in again as I wondered just what a cock tasted like. So I knelt down with no idea how but tried to do to him what I thought had been done to me. Must have done alright as in about 5 or 6 minutes with hardly any warning, just felt wall jerk as he shoved his cock one last hard thrust and I heard him gasp and whoosh I had my first mouthful of cum, for some dumb reason I hadn't expected that lol. He quickly pulled out of my mouth and I heard his zipper then door and he was gone. I stood up with my mouth full of cum wondering what to do with it. Thought only a few seconds and thought what the hell some had already seeped down my throat while he was cumming and taste wasn't so bad at all. So I swallowed it and have never since done anything else but swallow. So again a couple times per year that was it get or give a BJ. Then next progression came about as got in booth and knelt down to see if guy wanted a BJ or to give one. Surprise, I was looking at a guy's bare ass and he was pulling his cheeks apart showing me his hole which looked slicker than hell with lube and he was asking me to please fuck him. Hmm, again I asked myself should I and again my damn curiosity kicked in as I wondered about difference in a woman's pussy compared to a man's ass. So I dropped my pants and grabbed my already almost hard cock and as he backed up against hole I slid my cock in him and fucked my first guy ever. It was another few years before I let a guy talk me into letting him take my 'anal Cherry' lol. Even then it took him over an hour of haggling with me and I finally gave in when he made me an offer I couldn't refuse because I thought I had a 95% or better chance to win offer. But he was way too good and experienced and like his promise took it very slow and easy and huge amount of lube, starting with just lubing and caressing my crack to more lube as he eased one finger in me, then shortly after easing in and out and around and around with that finger added more lube and second finger and shortly more lube and third finger and finally more lube and fourth finger. Never felt anything like that before. Then he whispered he thought it was time and as he pulled those four fingers out of me he was adding more lube and pushed his huge cock against my hole so it didn't have a chance to hardly close any. He very slow and gently would push at my hole then ease up add more lube then push again and shortly I felt something give and the head of his cock slid in OMG huge but not hardly any pain at all like a shot just very quick Jab and gone. Held still a few seconds then pushed in then eased back adding more lube each time back and each push in apparently a little deeper until all at once I felt his stomach against my ass and lower back and his balls bumped mine and he whispered wow I'm all in you now. What? I didn't believe him. No way in hell for my first time ever could all of his huge cock be all in. That's the reason we'd haggled so long as I already saw his hard cock and it was the biggest one I'd ever seen except in a porno. He was 10 1/2" long and as big around as my wrist no way could I take that as my first. I tried looking between our legs but not much light but it did look like all in so I reached a hand back there to feel and OMG he did feel like it was all in me except for maybe a quarter inch at most. Wow then he started a slow pull back out poured on more lube and back in oh so slow and gentle and each time out added more lube and then every few minutes I could feel him speed up just a little then more time passed and he sped up a little more. Every few minutes on backstroke he'd add more lube and speed up more till, not sure as it was feeling so damn good, but I'd say it had been a good half hour and he was now fucking the hell out of me faster and harder than all get out and OMG again it was driving me crazy with desire as he was so big that every in or out stroke just rubbed the hell out of my prostate. From first time the head of his cock entered me till he finally rammed me really really hard almost spastically and one final giant push in saying here it comes and he filled me up with his cum had been just over an hour. Wow fantastic. Then when he finally stopped squirming and pulled out of me it hit me as all that rubbing against my prostate set me off as my cum flowed out of my dick. Fantastic again. Only bad thing about it, was I was so out of it from the fucking and then me cumming too, that I neglected to get that wonderful guy's name and number and never seen him again since. But that was my journey but it was a good 2 more years before I declared myself totally gay and m2m sex only. Wife had suspected but until she snooped in my phone had no proof of any kind. She was pissed but unlike your story she didn't want to see or have me do anything. Just screamed and hollered at me calling me names then hardly said a word to me for a couple of weeks but little by little she's given in and then one of the women she works with, who is partially handicapped and has a daughter living with her but no damn help, lost electricity in her bathroom plus a plug in in another room that TV was plugged into threw Sparks and wife asked if I'd go with her there as she was going to help clean up that back room and rearrange the furniture while I tried to fix electrical problems. I still have most of my electrical testers, I had learned two diplomas at same time for electrical mechanics and also advanced electrical mechanics. Then at age 50 went back to school to learn about computers, not programming, but workings of them and how to connect many different configurations of networking them. Oldest one I'm class by quite a bit but when courses were over I had the highest point avg based on tests at 99.8% and had only missed out on 1p0% by missing a total over all tests of just two wrong answers but actually knew correct answers but they were multiple choice and had an answer sheet where you filled in the dot of correct answer and I'd got in a hurry and just filled in two dots that were next to correct ones by accident, oof. So fixing a household electrical problems was easy. If I'd been an electrical contractor I'd have had to pay a damn fee plus take some stupid test to get a license to begin to be an apprentice but my schooling was way above that so I passed on that and off and on again for thirty years I worked on TVs, radios, stereos, etc. You'd be surprised at how many, so-called electricians over the years I've asked if they knew what i times r equals E is and they didn't know. That to me means they are not qualified electricians at all as that equation is the most fundamental electrical equation and is called Ohm's Law. i is measured in amperes or shortened to amps, r stands for the resistance in a circuit measured in ohms and has a small omega symbol standing for ohms and E stands for the voltage in circuit measured in volts. Know any two of those figures means you can find the third one. Very very very basic and about the most commonly known eletrical formula so electrician that doesn't know it, there's no way in hell I'd hire him. So now wife knows at least partially about my gay side but hasn't mentioned it now in a good while. Sorry I got long winded. A bad habit of mine sometimes, probably having to do with all the writing I've done over many years.

I've been fucked before by guys using a condom but last time was between 6 and 7 years ago. Just did not feel good to me so I absolutely quit allowing them. Either my tops bareback me or I go without. But bareback or condom use, I feel, is between the ones getting together. Everyone should have a free choice as not everyone is the same.