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I've never had an issue hooking up at the gym, at an actual sauna. There's a dividing line in the generations in our ability to hook-up anywhere, if you grew up with out an internet connection you'll be fine anywhere, if you didn't you'll be lost.

What an amazingly hot story. I wish I could find someone like Stuart.

Emasculation is depriving someone of their male role identity. Feminization is giving someone a feminine quality or character. It could be either or both of these that are driving your FB "bitch(ing) you". Or it could be that he instinctively understands your nature and connects with you authentically in the moment. That kind of connection is deeply bonding.

Figure that out and you'll be a very rich man. I've head all kinds of theories, tried most. I think guys are just blessed or they aren't. As a cum craving faggot I wish it were an easy fix and everyone that wanted big loads could shoot big loads.

Mom was divorced and my Male figure was my Uncle a few doors down from us - House and Business he had ! I was very young - learning his business / Life - Males and Women gives Blow Jobs - normal - sipping beers - videos - learning Jacking Off with him and his Friends - felt I was the Older boys of his group - Special - Exciting and Enjoying it !

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Woof. Arf. What a fucking night. I am actually writing this in backwards order of the encounters just because the encounters later in the evening were stronger then the initial encounters. I arrived at the baths and was excited and horny. I was a little bit concered about doing this because i had not eaten at all this day only had a little coffee. Earlier I had potential plans to fuck a bottom guy I've talked to for a while. I even went to a bar while waiting for him to be ready. He turned out to be having some issues cleaning out and said he had to cancel. I took no offense at all. He was happy and said some tops don't understand. I've unfortunately made some tops wait for me a little longer then intended but I make sure to always be properly cleaned and ready even if it takes a little time. I told him not to worry and that I bottom occasionally and know how it goes. He said he still wanted to get together with me and I told him we will at some other point. My intentions were to just stay here for an hour or two and then head over to the bars since a fun event was going on. But like most encounters at the baths nothing ever goes as planned and I usually end up staying longer haha. Pup fucking and breeding at the baths I got my locker and stripped down into my leather jock strap, the leather arm band daddy gave me, and just a towel. I was ready. I looked around the rooms and saw several hot guys and potential encounters. Ironically most of the guys I saw in there I don't think I ended up playing with. Actually maybe one later on he might have been the top later but not sure now. I saw a hot cub bear bottom in a sling in the play room. Woof Arf. I think a guy was fucking him but the guy finished up and left. He stayed in the sling and I put my towel down and zipped down the cock out of my jockstrap and it was already mostly hard. I stroked it a little and I was rock hard. I spit on my cock and in his hole a little. Woof he was a sexy fucker in the sling. Hairy chest and pierced nipples. Couldn't wait to fuck him. I slide my cock in him and I slide in pretty easy there was slight resistance. Fuck his hole felt so great. He was moaning and groaning while I was fucking him. He could take it any way I gave it to him. I could fuck him hard and fast and pull my cock all the way and slam it back in. And he didn't wince or complain or pull away. Not that he could anyways. I haven't fucked a guy in the sling that often. I started using the sling to pull his ass back on my cock and that was fucking hot. He was telling me how much he loved my cock. I played with his nipples a little bit. I did enjoy fucking him a little sensual and then pulling all the way out and slamming back in. He asked if I want to fuck him in his room. I said yes of course. He had a room in the play area so we went there. Was not a far travel. He got on all fours and I resummed fucking him. A top i've seen there before at the baths saw us before we went in. He was standing in the room when I was fucking him. I started arfing and woofing and gruffing. I was getting into the Dominant pup headspace. I growled and ruffed as I started fucking him faster and then shot my load into him. I was going to stay in him a bit longer but he pulled out. He thanked me and said my dick felt great and he loved getting fucked by me. I told him he's a sexy fucker and left his room. I did end up seeing him later in the various bathouse suck and fucking part. I actually sucked him a little in the booth. Then later on he was in his room. He was jerking his cock and he just came when I entered his room. He still had cum on his belly and fur fresh from cumming. I licked his cum off his belly and fur and cock. He appreciated it and said it was hot. He said he had to head to work so he wanted to cum before he left. He was hot I hope to see him and fuck him again. Next bottom. When roaming the halls and rooms later I saw a door open. A guy was in a jockstrap bent over. He seemed like a more slender build. He had a hot ass and body. I slide my cock in him. He was surprisingly a ltitle tight with his hole but he was loose back there. He definitely had some loads. I enjoyed fucking him. I noticed that even though I was being gentle initially he pulled back a few times. When I was fucking him harder too he kinda pulled back. I thought about asking if he was okay or needed a break but decided not to. I knew what role he was in. He was a bottom bent over. Regardless of his condition or mental state he was there to take cock and loads. I was curious what he looked like as well but he hid his face pretty well and probably intentionally. I didn't care anymore. I was trying to hold back fucking him and breeding him. But decided not to. I slammed my dick all the way in him and pulled all the way out. He did have some discomfort but he was moaning and groaning now. I was having fun fucking him and then I shot my load in him telling him I was cumming. It was a nice load considering I just fucked a bottom a little while ago. He kept his ass on my cock a little bit and milked the load out of me which was hot. I pulled out and thanked him. He thanked me as well. Various Bathouse Sucking and Fucking Aside from the two guys that I bred. I saw a hot older daddy in a room with his door open. He had a nice goate and gray beard. He was stroking his dick which was very fat so I got on my knees and sucked him. He closed the door. He enjoyed me sucking him. He seemed to want me to fuck him so I fucked him. I came came close to breeding him. He unfortunately gave me a hit of poppers. I have not been doing so well with poppers lately. I really only do them when I bottom maybe it's the brand. I was so close to breeding him but the poppers did make me harder but they threw me off. So I didn't end up breeding him. He did put me on all fours and started fucking me. Fuck he had a hot thick daddy cock. He seemed to really enjoy fucking me. He came close too but didn't breed me. We kissed and made out a bit though and had fun. I told him I fucked and bred two guys earlier. I also told him I had a load in my ass. He said he could feel the load in my ass and it was hot. I decided to walk around and I'd see him later. I went to the play area. This was pretty fun. I sucked a bigger guy in the booth area. He sucked me a little too. Another guy stuck their dick through the glory hole and I sucked him. I went back to sucking the guy's dick in the booth but he wanted me to suck the guy in the glory hole but I did. A guy was watching us and he seemed interested but didn't make any moves. I went in another glory hole after and sucked another guy we had fun. I think I sucked maybe 3 or 4 cocks in there. Didn't get anyone's load but it was fun. There were a few odd guys who seemed interested and even said hi but then were stand offish. And earlier a sexy mustached daddy who watched me fuck and breed a bottom earlier but then didn't seem interested later. It's how it goes. Oh right I almost forgot. A top that I've seen there before. I was told by another verse guy that he sort of of indulges in things sometimes. So it's a lot harder for him to cum and he almost never does. I saw him in his room and I sucked him for a bit. The last time I got together at the baths with him he did fuck me. No idea if he remembered me or not he did not seem to or care. He enjoyed me sucking him though. Sucking guys who don't cum though or have no intention of after a while is not something I fully enjoy. I did enjoy sucking him for a good while though. He kinda popped up a few other times through the night either watching me get fucked by a guy. Or like earlier in the evening he watched me breed a guy. I remember he said last time we got together he gets off on either me taking loads and having a cummy hole or watching other guys fuck me. He might be a bit of a voyuer. I was also in the steam room a few times and sucked some guys in there and they sucked me. It was fun and hot. Anyways that was the various bath house encounters. Now to the actual encounters that were longer. The Visiting Bear Top After some fun encounters in the play area and sucking a few guys and getting sucked I went upstairs and got a shower. After I got out of the shower I saw a bear guy. He looked pretty hot but he also looked similar to one of the guys downstairs who didn't seem interested. He was very interested though. He was standing outside his room and invited me in. He was a large and sexy bear. He had a nice furry chest and he had a beard but it was shaved pretty well very thin. He had sexy glasses too. He started kinda playing with my cock. Then we made out a little bit but he put my hand on his massive cock. Fuck. He had a nice bear cock. I got on my knees and started servicing him. He guided his hand on my hand and held me down for a little and moved my head back and forth on his cock. Fucking hot. He was rock hard and I was deep throating him. I pulled off his cock and started sucking on his nipples. Then I sniffed my nose at his pits. He knew exactly what I wanted. He lifted his pits and let me lick and sniff them. He said "Good boy". I looked up at him and he leaned in and we kissed. He was a great passionate kisser. I licked his face frantically and he started fingering my hole. He put me on the bed and put my legs in the air. Fuck. He started eating my hole. His tongue and beard felt so good against my hole. I was pushing my hole out and moaning while this horny bear was enjoying my hole. He held my legs back and started to aim his hard horny bear cock at my anxious hole. I spit on my hand quick and put in on my hole. This man was using no lube which I love but I also haven't beeen fucked today. I felt him push his hard bear cock in me. Fuck. Part of me started to fight it bu the horny natural submissive took over. I started loosing my ass and collapsing on his cock until he pushed his way inside. Fuck this man felt great. I was loving this having this hard horny bear inside me. He started fucking me and I started wimpering. Then he started pulling his cock out all the way and shoving it back in me. I started ruffing and gruffing. I made lots of arf and puppy noises. He played with my nipples a little bit while he fucked me. He fucked me for a good while with a little slow and sensual and then fucking me harder and rougher. I was in the meanwhile switching between loosing my ass for him and occasioanally tightening my hole so he could feel more pleasure. He was definitely feeling pleasure. He started to pick his pace and fuck me me harder. He was pounding my ass deep and fucking me harder and faster. I started whimpering and arfing more. He said "Fuck boy I'm going to cum". And he shot his hot bear load in me. I lightly squeezed my hole on his cock after milking his bear dick. He fucked me a bit more making sure his entire load was deposited into me. Afterwards he pulled out. We both took a breather and we chatted a bit. He was fromt out of town and unfortuantely doesn't visit too often. But he decided to tonight. I told him a little about local bar stuff going on. This seemed to intrigue him since he wasn't local or familiar. He enjoyed fucking me and said he was a top. He said he noticed my pup side and loved it. He said he's very familar with pups and said I'm a very cute and sexy one. We both kissed and made out a little more after. I commented on his glasses and he seemed to like that. I do like men with glasses. We felt each other and I sucked him a little and we fooled around a little more. Then he said he had to get going. I left and grabbed and shower. I tried to push some of his cum out my ass in the shower. I caught some of it. It smelled great I let it go down the drain but I did this to also confirm I was clean. My stomach was in a little bit off but it was because I haven't eaten. I made sure to clean myself out proper before I left but I know sometimes not eating can cause some stomach stuff. But it was very much worth not eating especially what would happen later that night. I did have a snack from the vending machine a little later in the night to give me some energy and I defintely needed it. The Local Bear Top I saw him in the sauna. I think I saw him when he first got there but either he didn't seem me or didn't seem to be interested. I saw him sitting in the sauna with his cock out of his towel. I decided to be brave and got in front of him. He looked down at me in approval. And I looked at him for a moment. He was a bearish guy cute thick beard trimmed nicely and he a bit of long hair in the back. I started taking his cock in my mouth and started sucking him. He had a nice fat bear cock which I loved. I was enjoying sucking him and deep throating him. Eventually I stood up a little and sucked his nipples. He loved this. He was grabbing me closer and holding me while I was sucking his nipples. He looked at me and I kissed him and he kissed back. He was a passionate and great kisser. I loved him kissing me. He embraced me again and I licked his face frantically. He seemed to really love this and let me lick his face. I went back to sucking him for a bit and he was rock hard. I asked him if he wanted to fuck me and he said he did. He said he didn't have a room though. We went to play area and thought about the sling but decided against it. We decided we'd try the sauna but it was too crowded. We ended up going in a booth and he fucked me in the booth. Fuck his cock felt great my whole still tight after that traveler bear fucked and bred me even. But I had some lube back there. He fucked me with me standing and slightly leaning against the wall. He felt thick and great in me and I was loving him fucking me. He started to get a little sweaty though. It didn't bother me. We decided to try the sling. He tried fucking me in the sling for a bit but there were a bunch of guys around I think making him nervous. We tried to fuck by back area on a bench and that was way better. I think he was close to cumming and then they announced they were going to close the play area for a bit. Damn. He tried to get a room earlier but there were non available. He said he needed to take a break and cool off. I went upstairs and realized they had rooms now. I went back to him and let him know. I decided to get the room myself. I was just going to get it and leave but I'm glad I didn't they let you upgrade to a room I didn't realize that. The room was in the play area so I moved everything out of my locker to my room. It was nice having a bed area now. We both made out passionately again and embraced each other and sucked him some more. He bent me over and started fucking me again. Fuck he felt so good. He almost came a few times but I could tell he was a little out of and tired. I sucked him some more. In the end he couldn't end up coming but he said he was also sweating a bit that made it harder. I've met a guy like that before that told me they can't do much when they sweat too much so I get it. He was a hot and sexy fun man though. And I loved making out of with him and playing with him. We exchanged contact information I hope that I see him again. The Slim Bearded Daddy I saw this man earlier in the evening. Well later earlier. He was a peculiar man a nice bushy goatee white beard and a bag full of all kinds of stuff he was carrying around. Wasn't quite sure what it was about but he looked cute. I think I saw him once by the pool and once upstairs. After everything ended with the local bear top I grabbed a shower. I went back to the play area where my room was and saw him. He looked at me and he had a huge cock it looked flaccid too. He saw me looking at him and looked back directly at me. I walked around the back corner to give things a moment. Then I went into my room and left the door open. He stood right in front of the door way. I I was nervous but I took initiative and motioned him to come in. That's all it took and he was in my room and he closed the door. I turned the light on. He was a sexy man. He was slender but he had a furry body and a very sexy hairy chest and white goatee. He had nice nipples too. His cock was huge and not full hard. I sucked his nipples and then started sucking his cock. Fuck this man was big. His cock was interesting. Not only was it longer then any cock i've been with with but it was thick and it had an interesting bend at the shaft. Like an extra few girths. I didn't understand this but what i didn't understand was this was only him semi flaccid and hard. I would get to him being hard in just a little bit. I sucked his cock and enjoyed sucking it and tried to deepthroat the entirety of him. I came pretty close. I started gagging a little bit but he was growing harder in my mouth fuck. I pulled off his cock and sucked on his nipples. I looked at him and wasn't sure if he he kissed or not. I embraced him and he embraced me. While he was embracing me he was playing with my hole lightly fingering it. My eyes widened when he looked directly at me. He did not say a word but I knew what he wanted. What he needed. I gulped. I never really turn down cock if I'm into a guy and like them. But I was a little worried. I let out a low "Argh" and nodded my head. I asked him how he wanted me and he said he'll fuck me however I want. I decided to bend over the bed. He gave me lube thankfully. Silicon lube I'd learn later. I love to fuck my spit and cum. But this man was fucking huge. I was glad that he was wanting to take care and do everything I could to make it easier for me. I bent over. Or maybe I was on all fours. Either way I was bent over and in the position. I felt his hard long thick fucking daddy dick start to push in me. "Oaaahh fuck" I grunted. At the same time my ass was trying to loosen and take him in. It was working. I moaned when he sank..almost all the way into me. I knew he wasn't fully in. He was doing gentle strokes of pushing in and out. It felt great. He started fucking me a little faster and a little rougher but wasn't pushing all the way in me yet. Then he started to push a little deeper and pull out and fuck some more. Fuck this man was incredible. I had an idea. I asked if he can fuck on my belly and he said sure. I know I take it best on my belly if the guy is bigger and I had a feeling I could do it. I felt him slip back inside my hole with some cum in it and I moaned out. I started getting into pup headspace and arfing and whimpering. He felt so fucking good in me. Fuck I can still feel the afterglow. His cock was going into me almost completely. He was nice and gentle for a bit then he decided to pull his cock out and push back in and sort of..expertly stretch my hole open by having his cock circle my hole while pushing. I just realized now that he might have been doing this. I arfed and yelped while he did this. Then he pulled his cock out all the way and started fucking me harder and faster. And I was somehow taking it. Holy shit. Was it all the prep I did in the morning and the not eating. Was it the top who bred me earlier. Or was it my bottom instincts kicking in. I knew when this man was fucking me the way he did with his giant fucking cock that I was not verse or a top. I was a complete bottom for this man and I accepted it. This kicked in my innate submissive nature. I used a bit of pup headspace to switch from arf and whimpers in the submissive one to a bit of a tougher pup with some ruffs. It was working. My hole relaxed completely somehow. And maybe the lube but he was gliding his cock in and out of me completeluy. We weren't even using poppers. He felt so fucking good when he pulling out completely and slamming my hole and fucking me faster and deeper. I loved every momoment of this. Then he switched to fucking me gentler and holding me. He would hold my hand or nuzzle my head or face. This was also extremely hot what a passionate man. He asked if I can keep going. I told him "I'm yours daddy. You can fuck me as long as you want or as hard as you want. I'm your boy to use and your hole to use as much as you want.". He seemed to like this answer and said a soft good boy. He went back to swirling his cock around my hole and I yelped and arfed out when he did this. He fucked me a few more times in this pattern..great fucking pattern or method. He took a break for a moment to pee and then he came back. We resummed this position. He got a bit of a cramp while he was fucking me for a little bit so we switched and he took a moment. Hey it happens. When I was getting fucked by a verse guy earlier in the evening my leg cramped. But I covered it by saying that I had to take the arm band off cause it's annoying. And I pushing my foot up and down to wake it up and it was fine. He started fucking me bent over the bed and oof that was rough. I tried to take it but damn he was pushing against a wall. What I tried instead was to arc my back and kinda touch the wall. This helped a little bit still nowhere as good as being on my belly. This man's cock is just beastly and has a unique curve. I got back on my belly and he resummed fucking me. He went back to the sensual daddy by holding me and fucking me slow, and the swirling and pulling out his cock around my ring in a circular motion and me arfing and whimpering, to him fucking me hard and fast and power fucking me and me taking every inch and thrust without complaint or discomfort. Only extreme pleasure. At one point when he was doing this and my ass was meeting his cock. I swear he fucking bred me. I felt a load fill my hole. And it wasn't all at once the more he fucked the more it felt like more cum was cumming out. Felt fucking incredible and couldn't beileve how full my ass was feeling especially with just one load back there. He told me "I haven't cum yet boy. I'm not ready yet." Fuck. This man was incredible. I could tell that he was starting to fuck me more frantic with each rotation of his fuck speed changing. I backed my ass up on him and he didn't go to slow sensual daddy this time. He kept fucking pounding my hole. And fuck it was a lot I felt every inch and thrust. Fuck I was in full pup mode barking, arfing, ruffing, and yelping. He then said "Where do you want it boy?". I told him "In me daddy.". He shot a gigantic load inside me. Oh my god it was incredible. I felt my hole overfill with cum and it was leaking out. Fuck. He kept fucking me after and I kept tightening my hole and backing up on his cock. He fucked me for a very good while until he finally got soft and pulled out. He said I was incredible and felt so fucking good. I told him how not only amazing his cock was but how well he fucked and considerate too. He was going to pee. But instead we kinda talked and learned a bit about each other. I learned he is a very promiscious man from out of state. He seems like he has fun often. Sexy fucker. I was getting kinda tired when were talking because it was (and is) fucking late. He said I can lay down and he laid next to me. I asked him to turn the lights off and he did. We made out a little bit and he was a sexy and passionate kisser. And I fall asleep next to his chest and laying next time. I don't know how long maybe an hour we both dozed off. Then a speaker announcement said the time. He said he had to get going and thanked me. We exchanged numbers and he said he visits the city often. I can't wait to meet him again. He left and I grabbed a shower. I ran into him and we showered next to each other. Afterwards we said our goodbyes and he left. I was getting ready to leave I had to go get everything from the room. Once i got everything. I checked out and grabbed some food on the way home..and wrote this out...part of it. What an amazing fucking black friday night. Did not expect all this. Only had a feeling i'd top and breed once or twice. Right the Load Count Loads Bred 2: I fucked the bottom cub bear in the sling and bred him. And fucked the anonymous bottom bent over in his room in a jockstrap and bred him. Would have liked to fuck and breed more but need more sustinance and energy next time haha. Loads Bred into me 2: The out of town bear top fucked and bred me in his room. And then the incredible fucking man. The slim gray bearded daddy fucked me for literally hours in my room. Fucking me gentle and fucking the hell out of me his giant long daddy dick and I took every inch and took his incredible precum that some would consider loads. But I took and earned his load which massive and cum was spilling out my ass afterwards. Woof arf what an incredible feeling and man. Incredible fucking night. Best night I've had at the baths in a good while. Arf! Until Next Time...

Love the build up. There's no way the boy will make it through the day without getting at least one poz load in that boy hole. The grandpas are fun and filthy characters and their non-incest workaround is a great tease 🙂

First review by my clinic and my kidney function isn't right. We discuss my much increased need to pee, bad sleeping and some body aches. So I've switched back to Atripla (generic versions). Apparently the second patient that day switching back.

So I was about to write up a little last load encounter with a frequent long time fuck buddy. It was just very hot, I arrived to his place lubed with a load so he slid into my welcoming hole and was enjoying the warm feeling and lube around his dick (his words). Since he was so horny (and so was I) he didn’t last more than about 5 min but piston fucked for about 30 seconds before spasming in a big long orgasm inside me. He said that the orgasm was extra intense and so his load was bigger or than usual. I feel very full now and have a hard time keeping all of it inside (I’m headed to a Christmas party with the 2 loads inside me). My question to you guys what makes your loads bigger and have you had hot connections like this where the load seems to be extra big? What determines the size of your loads especially when they are larger than usual?

First review by my clinic and my kidney function isn't right. We discuss my much increased need to pee, bad sleeping and some body aches. So I've switched back to Atripla (generic versions). Apparently the second patient that day switching back.

I assume the same will happen to me and I'm finally okay with it, letting nature take its course

Columbus here

**This is a work of fantasy and fiction. Any similarity to anyone living or dead is purely coincidental. Nothing in this work should be construed as medical advice in any way** Chapter 2 Dr Matthew froze for a few moments. This must have been the guy who loaded him full of poz cum a few years prior. He remembered every detail and almost nightly, for over 7 years, has played it back in his head before falling asleep. For it was then, at night, tired from long days of preaching safe sex and PrEP use to his patients, that the encounter with the biohazard guy at the glory hole would puncture his steely resolve, and memories of Keith’s huge poz weapon penetrating and unloading pure HIV seed into Matthew’s hole. Of course, it had to be Keith who was on the other side of the partition, who else would have that license plate? He made up his mind, right then and there, not to hire the tall, hot nurse with the full beard and tufts of dark chest hair spilling over the top of his scrubs, his buff arms straining against the material. “No, don’t hire him,” he said to himself “no matter how good a nurse he might be,” he had convinced himself. Or so he thought. “Welcome to the practice”, he found himself saying to Keith 20 minutes later. Keith had handled himself well in the interview, answering all the questions and even strongly implied that he could bring in a following of new patients who would need HIV care, but not going into details about how and why they’d be newly poz patients. Dr. Matthew heard all of this on one level, but inside his mind he was replaying that quickie at the arcade with this gorgeous specimen of manhood who unbeknownst to Keith had planted his poz pole up Matthew’s ass and seeded him deeply with a huge load of toxic HIV cum. Dr Matthew struggled to keep his composure, shifting uncomfortably in his seat as his cock was responding in an unprofessional NSFW way. By every measure, Keith became a model employee and was quickly advanced to the Head Nurse position. To Dr. Matthew, he became indispensable. And sure enough, Keith would refer a lot of new patients to Dr. Matthew’s practice, all gay men and almost all newly pozzed. Most of them would get put on meds right away and be content with that. A few, however, deferred meds until “some point in the future,” as a lot of them would say. Dr. Matthew, being the open-minded doctor he had trained to be, and wanting to be responsive to his patients’ needs, listened carefully and would always advise guys to start meds, but if that wasn’t their wish, he would counsel them on how to stay healthy and not spread the virus. It went on like that for a couple of years, preaching meds, or safe sex and condoms and as soon as Dr. Matthew would finish up and leave the exam room, he’d head back to his office, close the door, and grab his expanding cock and jerk it furiously at the thought of poz guys loading him up with HIV. He knew in his head it was wrong, but his cock said otherwise. Eventually, he started noticing guys coming back for follow-up appointments with biohazard or scorpion tats on them, usually just above crotch level or prominently on one bicep or both. Even a few guys boldly had the words “HIV” or “AIDS” tattooed on them. Then, the dark Xs started making an appearance as tats on guys…and they began to proliferate on their subjects. Eric, a new patient Keith referred, even had 5 Xs branded across his abdomen. And fewer and fewer of his newly pozzed patients would start meds right away. He felt his education of his pozzed patients starting not to take hold with them and wondered what he could do or say differently. On the first day that new patient Randy came in, Dr. Matthew delivered his standard speech about meds and Randy said he’d get the Rx filled right away. Matthew watched as Randy left the building and threw away the pamphlets and the prescription in a trash can. Randy returned late on a Friday afternoon about 6 few months later for follow-up labs and he noticed 2 black Xs inked across his mid-section. Finally, he worked up the courage to ask: “Randy, if you don’t mind my asking, and you can tell me to MYOB, but what are the Xs meant to represent?” Randy, already a veteran poz father to over 20 men, spoke up and for the first time, proudly and unashamedly articulated the concept of The Ten to the young idealistic well-meaning doctor. “Each one stands for 10 guys I’ve helped into the brotherhood of HIV,” doc”, Randy explained. “Every 10th guy we poz, we get another X marked on us. There’s a whole brotherhood of guys pozzing chasers. It’s an incredibly powerful feeling knowing your HIV is gifted to someone else!” Dr. Matthew had suspected this was the case, as so many of Keith’s friends came in as new patients, all of them poz – some of them to go on meds, and some not. Still, the idea that there was an organized group of men doing this was way beyond what he could comprehend. His mind was reeling at the thought of Randy and Keith and all the other hot poz men he’s been treating. He hurried through the rest of the appointment, only pausing to look at and explain to Randy’s his viral load numbers and they were impressive…Still, Randy was in good health and professed no symptoms other than a greatly enhanced libido, for which he smiled at the thought. “Doc, since I went poz,” Randy explained “I’m thinking about breeding every hour of every day…if a day goes by where I don’t blow my poz load inside at least one dude, I’m an unhappy guy. Luckily, nearly every day I get to fuck at least one chaser…and I wouldn’t have it any other way, Doc!” This was the last appointment for the week, and he saw Randy to the door, then turned back to his office, the lab printouts still in his hand. The young idealistic doctor took the papers to his office, locking the door behind him and closing the shades on the window. He laid the papers on his desk, sitting in his big chair and quickly unbuttoned and lowered his pants. His cock was already rigid and as he looked at the results: Viral Load, CD4 count, and thinking of all the men in this burgeoning group called “The Ten,” rejoicing and spreading HIV at will…he could not control his cock or the thoughts racing in his head. He stood up and with a few final frantic tugs on his hard member, he blew his load over the papers, the neg load pooling right where the Randy’s HIV numbers were. He felt possessed by the thought of going POZ…he knew it was wrong on so many levels but once the idea imprinted itself in his brain, he couldn’t help it - he felt powerless to resist. He knew he was a medical professional with a reputation to uphold , so he decided that if he was going to indulge in bug-chasing, he would at least go out of town to do it, where no one he knew might see him. That’s why early Saturday morning, he was on the I-10 to Palm Springs. Atypically, traffic was mercifully light, and in a bit over 2 hours, the young doctor rolled up to the Cathedral City Men’s Club, a place he had heard about from Keith. A banner inside the entrance proclaimed “PIG WEEK 2025 .” He went into the office and there was one available room left. The desk clerk alerted him to the shower hose in the bathroom for prepping one’s hole, and told him where the “play areas” were on the grounds. One hour later, Dr. Matthew ventured over to the play area which was a black tented area, the entrance obscured by thick heavy curtains. He went in and let his eyes adjust from the bright desert sunshine to the dark environment. He was ready, he was going to take any and all loads that these Palm Springs guys had to offer. Finding an available sling in the corner, he settled in it, his feet in the stirrups and his near-virgin hole exposed. Did he know what he was doing or how to act in this place? Not entirely…but his hardening cock and twitching hole led him into the sling. He closed his eyes and waited. It wasn’t a long wait. Soon, a warm hand was fingering at his hole, then a warm tongue flicking and finding its way inside him. He moved with the motions of the guy rimming him and finally opening his eyes, saw the man positioning his hard raw cock at Matthew’s opening, forcing its way inside and settling in balls-deep inside the young idealistic doctor who knew in his head this was wrong but was powerless to stop it. The guy fucked him for awhile but then vacated his hole for another dude in a sling to the left. Dr. Matthew was briefly disappointed but within seconds a new guy took his place inside the young doctor’s hole. “Oh, it’s like a try-out all the merchandise for these guys,” he thought to himself as the second man withdrew and moved on and was soon replaced by a 3rd cock in his ass. And this went on for some time, until the very first man to penetrate him returned and resumed his fucking of Matthew…With his eyes acclimated to the dark, he made out the outline of a scorpion tat on the guys pec. This was a poz cock he was getting! The guy heaved and huffed and finally announced that he was going to breed the young doctor: “Take that dirty poz load you fucking whore!” he exclaimed as eight or nine shots of toxic semen got blasted inside Matthew’s guts. A few of the top men gathered around, Matthew recognizing the 2nd guy from earlier who said to the breeder as his load was delivered into Matthew’s butt: “Nice, Frankie, get that unmedicated seed up in the little bitch,” and with that Frankie pulled out and the second man went back inside the doctor “I’m gonna blow, take that poz cum, you little fucking slut!” This brought a few more men to cluster around the sling and soon enough Matthew had four, then five, then six poz loads up his hole. The men were relentless in their fucking…no sooner would they drop a viral load in the young doctor’s cunt would they move on to whoever was in the next sling and repeat the insemination there. Was it really like Randy and Keith said that the virus demands multiple breedings and wills it to be so? Medically speaking, he knew that didn’t really make sense, but here was contrary evidence as these poz unmedicated viral men repeatedly blew their dirty loads up Matthew’s ass, and also his sling neighbors. This went on for over 2 hours during which Matthew figured he’d taken at least 15 loads of viral cum from about 10 guys. The guy they called Frankie contributed 5 of those and from what Matthew could tell, Frankie spent a lot of time fucking the other guys in the room, but only would load up Matthew’s hole. “I wanna give my HIV babies a fighting chance up in that newby cunt of yours, kid,” Frankie said as his 5th load of HIV cum was blasted into Matthew’s hole “increase my odds that it’s my strain that’s infecting you into the brotherhood, pig!” Finally, Matthew’s blown-out hole had had enough and as the crowd of men had thinned out, the young idealistic doctor took himself out of the sling and, unsteadily at first, made his way to the exit. Frankie, spying him as he was leaving came up to him wielding a lucite buttplug. “Here, get this up that bug trap of yours, brother…let those AIDS-loads soak in, you don’t wanna lose any,” and he roughly bent Matthew forward and the plug found its way inside Matthew’s blown-out cunt with ease. Matthew retreated to his room, his mind abuzz with what he had done. He was so excited and keyed up that, finally falling onto the motel bed, his cock once again sprang to life, and shot a hands-free load of neg cum up into the air. “Was this my last neg load, or my first poz one,” he wondered to himself as he relaxed, plug in place holding all that HIV inside him. After a long nap with the plug inside him, Matthew started to feel hungry…he hadn’t eaten all day, so he took himself to a local bistro…his mind was still swirling at what he had done but his hole, wet with poz cumloads and stuffed with Frankie’s buttplug, felt sated. He was looking over the menu when he heard his name. “Matthew?” someone called. He looked up and there was his mentor, Dr. Dan Martinelli, from whom Matthew had bought the medical practice 2 years earlier. “What are you doing in P.S?” Martinelli asked, as Matthew motioned for his mentor to join him and Dan sat across from him. “Just a quick getaway,” the young doctor replied “I needed a little holiday…and what about you?” “Oh, as you know, I live here now…I’m meeting some friends for dinner, they’re in town for a…convention,” he said, “at the men’s club down the road. Oh, here they come now.” Matthew looked up from the menu and past his mentor Dr. Martinelli, to see none other than Frankie and 2 of the other poz men who just a couple of hours ago, blew their toxic cum up Matthew’s ass. Matthew thought to himself how retirement agreed with Dan Martinelli, with his salt-and-pepper hair and beard and his tall frame, with the same green eyes. He was rocking a hot body for a man in his 60s…thin but muscular in his sleeveless T and shorts. Frankie and company approached and greeted their friend Dan. “How do you know this little cumwhore, Dan?” Frankie asked, in his usual booming voice, to which Martinelli spun around and said to Frankie “Him? You mean Matthew?” “Fuck yes! We spent the afternoon loading up that little bitch with HIV, and he took 5 loads alone from me, and a lot more from these guys” Frankie announced, pointing to his friends. “Why, Matthew, a man of hidden talents,” Martinelli smirked at his young protégé. Frankie and his entourage moved over to their table, and Martinelli turned back to Matthew and said “I need to go join them, but when did you start chasing, Matthew?” “I guess you could say it started today in reality,” he replied “but it’s been building inside me for awhile.” Dr. Martinelli nodded in agreement:“Yeah, I spent my career trying to keep guys negative, but once I retired, I stopped my meds so I could pass the gift around, and I’ve never been happier.” and with that Dr. Martinelli lifted up his shirt and revealed several bio tats and a dark X tattooed on his furry midsection. “Got my 10th poz son just a couple of weeks ago. Such an incredible feeling to create poz sons with your strain!” With that, Martinelli joined his friends, greeting each of them with a deep kiss and laughing at the depravity of pozzing up guys at will and dropping HIV loads into the little idealistic doctor. As Matthew resumed looking at the menu, his phone buzzed: a text from Dr. Martinelli: “Hey, you want some more loads? I didn’t get to go to the Men’s Club earlier, but my cock is gonna burst if I don’t get some relief. Balls full of HIV babies for you, kid. Meet me in the parking lot…now!” Dr. Matthew and Dr. Dan Martinelli met 30 seconds later in the parking lot, Martinelli taking his protégé’s arm and leading him behind a dumpster. “Right here, in the open?” Matthew said as Dan was leading him by the elbow “don’t you think…” “I’m not asking permission, whore,” Dan interrupted. “We’re doing this right here and right now, my balls are gonna fucking explode. When you poz up, Matty, you’ll understand. It takes over your whole being, to breed and seed and replicate,” he said, loosening Matthew’s belt and dropping his pants. A hard push on Matthew’s back sent him leaning against the wall, and Dr. Dan unbuttoned his own jeans and spit on his raging boner. Removing the buttplug Frankie had shoved inside Matthew’s cunt, and with the benefit of the streetlamp above, Dr. Dan could see Matthew’s gaped hole glistening with AIDS-cum from Frankie and Co. The buttplug also glistened with the cumloads of so many men who fucked and bred the young doctor and Martinelli shoved it into Matthew’s mouth. “Taste that poz cum straight outta your hole, you little bug-chasing bitch. You like taking those bugs, boy?” he said as he positioned his HIV pole against the young doctor’s hole. “Here are some more for you,” and he plunges his toxic fuckstick up inside Matthew, the cum already up there making it silky smooth and inviting. “Oh, baby boy, I’m not gonna last long in this cummy pussy of yours, get ready for my poison load. Pure high-viral unmedicated AIDS-cum for your greedy cumhole.” Dr. Dan thrust deeper up Matthew’s cunt and delivered fresh shots of HIV inside the young doctor, about 9 cumblasts in all. “I’m super viral now that I stopped my meds over a year ago,” I know we’ll never know for sure, but I hope it’s my strain that turns you,” he said, shuddering and shaking with his cock depositing the last few drops of HIV inside Matthew. He withdraws his cummy pozzing stick from the young doctor’s hole, replacing it again with the buttplug. “I’m going back to my friends now, whore,” he says, reaching for his phone. “I’m texting you my address. I’ll unlock the door with my phone app, just make yourself comfortable. By ‘comfortable’, I mean ass up and waiting…I’m not done with you.” Dr. Matthew did as instructed, and 90 minutes later, Dr. Dan returned home and found the young doctor ass up and waiting. Over that night, Dr. Dan forcefully filled his cunt with 3 more loads of HIV that evening and finally at 3am released him from his dominance and Matthew returned to the hotel wiped out, his happy hole remaining plugged, absorbing all those sweet viral loads. He would have a lot to tell his nurse Keith on Monday morning but for now, Dr. Matthew Joon Hill, noted safe-sex and condom advocate, who had written thousands of prescriptions for PrEP to his patients, went to sleep with about 18 poz loads soaking into his hole. He slept sounder than he had done in years. End of Chapter 2

More recently in my journey, i've come to understand a distinction (for me) between feminization and emasculation. For me, while the two can intersect or overlap, they are also two distinct things. i don't feel like i am a trans person, or that i am a woman in a guys body. i do feel like i have attributes of both genders, but more like a guy with some female parts? And some of my sexual need/desire wiring maybe is not necessarily gender related, but can get evoked by certain Guys Who see or want me in a particular way. For example, i have a FuckBuddy (FB) Who i get together with 3-4x a week for almost 6 years now. He's a Bi Latino, 28 years old and has been a body builder since age 13. If i saw Him on the street, i would not be attracted to Him visually, my response would be neutral. Psychologically though? He's managed to (inadvertently?) bond me and sort of possess me. Part of His make up is how i came to understand the "emasculation" part of me. He's not very verbally expressive when it comes to His psychological wiring, but over time, i've been able to understand from how He is with me, and occasional terms He uses. One time He shyly used a term with me that He "likes to bitch" me. Over time i've gotten a more detailed understanding of what that means to Him and how we have formed a very strong bond. He's probably bred me close to a thousand times now. Because He is Bi, also i think His Latino culture figures in, He is on the DL, so i never contact Him, He always is the initiator, and to this day i am still a little surprised we are a thing. But He continues to want to get with me 3-4x a week. Over time, what we do has varied, but all vanilla stuff, it always ends with me prone underneath Him and Him inseminating me. Always. i'm a tall skinny older guy, and He's this very muscular younger Guy, so i feel very dominated under Him, but never in a forceful or mean way, and that is part of the mind fuck for me. i think for Him, He sees and feels with me , in many ways, like He does with a woman (i'm pretty sure i'm the only guy He has been with). Thus the term "bitch" me. But it's way more than that. He holds and controls my body in, again strong but gentle ways while He is fucking me, maybe like He would treat a woman? Recently He has started doing this thing, that really cemented it for me, where He reaches under with both of His hands while He is plowing me and holds my chest like maybe He would hold a womans breasts... and the psychological effect it has on me is profound. i feel totally possessed and emasculated when He does that. There are other ways He holds my waste and hips to assert gentle, strong, purposeful control that take me to a similar place, 'bitch me.' The effect is so real, not role play at all,, like we are both experiencing something in those moments that connects and bonds us deeply. It never gets old, and i always profound.

This was all learned back in the day way before apps took everything online!