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I don't mind if someone asks how I became poz, or did I know who pozzed me. What I do find offensive is when I am asked "did you deliberately do this to yourself"? (Or something along those lines). I just shake my head, absolutely not. Considering the year I became positive, there were medications available, though not as many as there are today, But still, why would I want to do something like that to myself? I don't understand the attraction......

I would have to say I take full responsibility for any sex I had while I was 15 to 17. I pursued it, I was never forced, no one twisted my arm. I was never afraid as to "what might happen", and I suppose that's wrong because I had little concern for the men who were "adults" at the time. As a younger child, around the age of 10 or 11, I had guys expose themselves to me, but never touch. I have vague recollections of police being at my house and an officer talking to my parents. My mother witnessed a man pulling up next to me while I was riding my bike, she was looking out a bedroom window and screamed at him to get away from me. Was I traumatized? No. I was told I did nothing wrong, I wasn't in trouble with my parents, and that was the end of that. But I was different from other boys, and by the time I was old enough to ride public transportation alone, in a large city in a blue state, I was seeking out men for sex. Now all these laws about consent today, well, I am sure many of my sex partners would be jailed had they been caught. But what about me, I initiated or put myself in an area where they had access to me. The only thing that has changed, in my mind, is that in today's world my behavior could have consequences. I stay away from twinks, or "just barely legal" types. I am a man who prefers men, not boys. But getting back to my "early experiences", with the exception of the "exposure" incidents, I was the initiator. By the time I was in undergraduate school I was "experienced" to say the least. In today's world, in a red state like Florida, my behavior as a 15 year old might have landed me before a juvenile judge. I suppose I am lucky that never happened in my case. I have absolutely no regrets.

"Nextdoor" is popular where I live as well, and I took one look at it when I first moved here and in a second realized I wanted absolutely nothing to do with it. A bunch of individuals who have nothing better to do than look out their windows and comment on the behavior of their neighbors, or even the streets leading into the complex. "Did you see the tall black man walking down 31st St. S.?" was one story. Well, this is Saint Petersburg, we do have African Americans living here. "Have you been approached by the black man trying to see his CDs of reggae music in the parking lot of Publix's? screamed another. No, but I have been accosted by a group of pushy Girl Scouts who had their mothers named Karen harassing me to buy cookies. "Nextdoor" is filled with outrageous racism. Because my community has been dubbed "Heaven's Waiting Room", l live near the spot all the EMT's park and are the first to respond to a 911 call. So that is the limit of sound I hear. I yearn for the days of partying gays who play dance music a bit too loud, it's not likely to happen in the streets leading up to where I live. The gays are up on 54th Ave S., now with the Flamingo Resort sadly in our memories, we only have the ABS so there is very little the homophobes can jeer at. I drove by the other day and they had a flag out saying "Theater now open", meaning the booths in the back were available to play in. The first time since COVID. From my understanding, they have new owners, opened a new water account (Don't ask me how I know that information, but I know). So there is some sleaze available, in very limited quantities. If "Nextdoor" members only knew! One thing of note, apparently there was some kind of call from Trump to lower the flags in memory of Charlie Kirk. For the record, and I know this is sad, I had no idea who the hell Charlie Kirk was before he was shot. But my complex, which I would estimate is at least 50 percent Republican, declined to lower the flag. My 93 year old neighbor was upset she made the few steps over to the "guard shack" to ask why they were not observing the Trump "order". She called me to tell me the guard told her this was private property, owned by an out of state corporation, and they were not obligated to follow any "order". I like my 93 year old neighbor very much, but I had to chuckle when she called me, outraged, that there was no sympathy shown for Mr. Kirk. "Nextdoor" is garbage, or at least it was the one and only time I looked at it.

I'l stick with 18, even that age makes me question my decision. I am not really comfortable having sex with someone who could be my son, but I have had sex with plenty of guys in their 20s who were hot and experienced. I still think guys 30 to 55 are optimal. They are experienced, and they usually know what they want and how to go about doing it. Of course, there are exceptions, but I would take an experienced 40 year old guy any day over a 20 year old who doesn't know what the hell he is doing. That's just my view .....

I don't believe the married men I have sex with are straight. They may feel pressured by families or the way they were raised, but if they are putting their dick in me they are not straight. Bi-sexual yes, but not straight. I have had long term sexual encounters with guys who are married/were married/have children etc. Those who I got to know well, I often ask. They tell me society's pressures made them marry early. Though maybe one of them wanted to have a "relationship" with them, the rest it was mainly about sex. That is not to say I didn't enjoy their company. They treated me with respect, and not one of them called me a "fag" or else they would have been out the door. Yes they were tops, yes they liked head and wanted to top me, but still - a straight guy who wanted to cheat on his wife would go and find another woman, not come to my apartment and fuck me, a grown man. I am not a sub, I am not effeminate, I don't act like a woman or wear women's lingerie. I am just a guy who likes guys. As times goes on, I think social norms will change, at least somewhat. Those guys who felt pressured or locked into relationships in the past will be replaced with men who are more confident in their sexuality and not fearful of the repercussions of what might happen if someone found out they were gay. Times are changing....despite the political views in the US now.

He was From Pinellas Park, I think I posted about him before. Perhaps you met him?

10.5 X 7 UC. Actually 11 X 7, but whose counting. And he shoot huge loads, and not just one, every time. POZ guy too, which had me wondering, how did that happen if you are listed as a total top. But I am not stupid, I have not asked that question and never will. Just bring it on...... I found him one afternoon on a Friday , on of all sites - Adam4adam! Not only can he speak in full sentences, he works in IT and can work on my computers while I work on his dick. Win/Win!

Word of advice on your profiles. Certain sites will not allow or even ban you for using the letter T, in parTy and play. Just as the poster above me mentioned, the capitalization of T, certainly indicates the use of Tina. I have had more than a few fuck buds have their accounts banned (especially from BBRT) for using that in either their screen name or handle, or mention it in their profile. That's not to say that you can't include it in your private messages between you and someone you are interested in, but many apps will ask a simple "yes" or "no" to drug use. I know it seems like a contradiction to allow this question, yet not allow you to have it in your profile. But at least you can get an idea if a persons likes to "party and play". You also run across many guys who post "NO PNP" in their profile, so if you see that, well that about answers any questions you may have on that subject. Happy hunting!

Unfortunately for those who got it by accident, and did not chase, life goes on with pills, injections and doctor's appointments. I certainly never fantasized about becoming poz, it found me. I don't understand why people would intentionally want to do this to themselves, but I don't judge. I know that BZ offers a "safe place" for chasers so I won't say anything more about that. It is a manageable disease, I have lived through what I hope is the worst of it. Doesn't change out it affected my career and life. For those of you who are long time survivors (pozzed in the earlier 90s) I wish you all luck. I've been fortunate, not everyone has.