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I don't mind if someone asks how I became poz, or did I know who pozzed me. What I do find offensive is when I am asked "did you deliberately do this to yourself"? (Or something along those lines). I just shake my head, absolutely not. Considering the year I became positive, there were medications available, though not as many as there are today, But still, why would I want to do something like that to myself? I don't understand the attraction......

I would have to say I take full responsibility for any sex I had while I was 15 to 17. I pursued it, I was never forced, no one twisted my arm. I was never afraid as to "what might happen", and I suppose that's wrong because I had little concern for the men who were "adults" at the time. As a younger child, around the age of 10 or 11, I had guys expose themselves to me, but never touch. I have vague recollections of police being at my house and an officer talking to my parents. My mother witnessed a man pulling up next to me while I was riding my bike, she was looking out a bedroom window and screamed at him to get away from me. Was I traumatized? No. I was told I did nothing wrong, I wasn't in trouble with my parents, and that was the end of that. But I was different from other boys, and by the time I was old enough to ride public transportation alone, in a large city in a blue state, I was seeking out men for sex. Now all these laws about consent today, well, I am sure many of my sex partners would be jailed had they been caught. But what about me, I initiated or put myself in an area where they had access to me. The only thing that has changed, in my mind, is that in today's world my behavior could have consequences. I stay away from twinks, or "just barely legal" types. I am a man who prefers men, not boys. But getting back to my "early experiences", with the exception of the "exposure" incidents, I was the initiator. By the time I was in undergraduate school I was "experienced" to say the least. In today's world, in a red state like Florida, my behavior as a 15 year old might have landed me before a juvenile judge. I suppose I am lucky that never happened in my case. I have absolutely no regrets.

"Nextdoor" is popular where I live as well, and I took one look at it when I first moved here and in a second realized I wanted absolutely nothing to do with it. A bunch of individuals who have nothing better to do than look out their windows and comment on the behavior of their neighbors, or even the streets leading into the complex. "Did you see the tall black man walking down 31st St. S.?" was one story. Well, this is Saint Petersburg, we do have African Americans living here. "Have you been approached by the black man trying to see his CDs of reggae music in the parking lot of Publix's? screamed another. No, but I have been accosted by a group of pushy Girl Scouts who had their mothers named Karen harassing me to buy cookies. "Nextdoor" is filled with outrageous racism. Because my community has been dubbed "Heaven's Waiting Room", l live near the spot all the EMT's park and are the first to respond to a 911 call. So that is the limit of sound I hear. I yearn for the days of partying gays who play dance music a bit too loud, it's not likely to happen in the streets leading up to where I live. The gays are up on 54th Ave S., now with the Flamingo Resort sadly in our memories, we only have the ABS so there is very little the homophobes can jeer at. I drove by the other day and they had a flag out saying "Theater now open", meaning the booths in the back were available to play in. The first time since COVID. From my understanding, they have new owners, opened a new water account (Don't ask me how I know that information, but I know). So there is some sleaze available, in very limited quantities. If "Nextdoor" members only knew! One thing of note, apparently there was some kind of call from Trump to lower the flags in memory of Charlie Kirk. For the record, and I know this is sad, I had no idea who the hell Charlie Kirk was before he was shot. But my complex, which I would estimate is at least 50 percent Republican, declined to lower the flag. My 93 year old neighbor was upset she made the few steps over to the "guard shack" to ask why they were not observing the Trump "order". She called me to tell me the guard told her this was private property, owned by an out of state corporation, and they were not obligated to follow any "order". I like my 93 year old neighbor very much, but I had to chuckle when she called me, outraged, that there was no sympathy shown for Mr. Kirk. "Nextdoor" is garbage, or at least it was the one and only time I looked at it.

I'l stick with 18, even that age makes me question my decision. I am not really comfortable having sex with someone who could be my son, but I have had sex with plenty of guys in their 20s who were hot and experienced. I still think guys 30 to 55 are optimal. They are experienced, and they usually know what they want and how to go about doing it. Of course, there are exceptions, but I would take an experienced 40 year old guy any day over a 20 year old who doesn't know what the hell he is doing. That's just my view .....

I don't believe the married men I have sex with are straight. They may feel pressured by families or the way they were raised, but if they are putting their dick in me they are not straight. Bi-sexual yes, but not straight. I have had long term sexual encounters with guys who are married/were married/have children etc. Those who I got to know well, I often ask. They tell me society's pressures made them marry early. Though maybe one of them wanted to have a "relationship" with them, the rest it was mainly about sex. That is not to say I didn't enjoy their company. They treated me with respect, and not one of them called me a "fag" or else they would have been out the door. Yes they were tops, yes they liked head and wanted to top me, but still - a straight guy who wanted to cheat on his wife would go and find another woman, not come to my apartment and fuck me, a grown man. I am not a sub, I am not effeminate, I don't act like a woman or wear women's lingerie. I am just a guy who likes guys. As times goes on, I think social norms will change, at least somewhat. Those guys who felt pressured or locked into relationships in the past will be replaced with men who are more confident in their sexuality and not fearful of the repercussions of what might happen if someone found out they were gay. Times are changing....despite the political views in the US now.

He was From Pinellas Park, I think I posted about him before. Perhaps you met him?

10.5 X 7 UC. Actually 11 X 7, but whose counting. And he shoot huge loads, and not just one, every time. POZ guy too, which had me wondering, how did that happen if you are listed as a total top. But I am not stupid, I have not asked that question and never will. Just bring it on...... I found him one afternoon on a Friday , on of all sites - Adam4adam! Not only can he speak in full sentences, he works in IT and can work on my computers while I work on his dick. Win/Win!

Word of advice on your profiles. Certain sites will not allow or even ban you for using the letter T, in parTy and play. Just as the poster above me mentioned, the capitalization of T, certainly indicates the use of Tina. I have had more than a few fuck buds have their accounts banned (especially from BBRT) for using that in either their screen name or handle, or mention it in their profile. That's not to say that you can't include it in your private messages between you and someone you are interested in, but many apps will ask a simple "yes" or "no" to drug use. I know it seems like a contradiction to allow this question, yet not allow you to have it in your profile. But at least you can get an idea if a persons likes to "party and play". You also run across many guys who post "NO PNP" in their profile, so if you see that, well that about answers any questions you may have on that subject. Happy hunting!

Unfortunately for those who got it by accident, and did not chase, life goes on with pills, injections and doctor's appointments. I certainly never fantasized about becoming poz, it found me. I don't understand why people would intentionally want to do this to themselves, but I don't judge. I know that BZ offers a "safe place" for chasers so I won't say anything more about that. It is a manageable disease, I have lived through what I hope is the worst of it. Doesn't change out it affected my career and life. For those of you who are long time survivors (pozzed in the earlier 90s) I wish you all luck. I've been fortunate, not everyone has.

When it comes to Twitter, or "X", I am the first to admit that I enjoy the content, there's a ton of porn on that site. If anything, you can find more there, for free, then anywhere else. But becareful what you "like" or comment on. On more than one occasion I have had guys, most who are in their early 20s, reach out and say hello to me. It's funny, they all happen to live in my area - well, so they say. The beginning and end of end month these guys are really active, trying to get you to buy their "content". I am not interested. I had at least two tell me they needed money to get to the end of the month, or needed money to pay their rent. I am not a walking ATM machine, and I have maybe said six words to them, yet they expect me to help them. I've been solicited, one guy asking me boldly for $300 to "swing by my place for an hour". Rather than take a screen shot and get his account suspended, I merely blocked him. But I do enjoy the "window shopping" that X offers, and in many cases you can find 30 to 45 minute long movies on there that are quite good, from studies and performers I have never seen before. So it has it's good points!

I haven't had any trouble logging in, but the site is stale, it needs some kind of updating. Yes the same long time members remain, and if you live in a rural area you will see the same cast of characters. My reason for staying active on BBRT is that I can occasionally catch a tourist who is visiting from out of town. As far as NKP is concerned, you'll find it has more of a "fetish" oriented membership, and that is not always a bad thing. The geo locator can be a bit "wonky":, that is a common complaint. If you live in the NYC area it is quite active, at least that has been my experience. I would say the majority of guys are poz or poz friendly, and most either use, or don't mind if you use, "enhancements". I have found Grindr to be expensive, overrated, and in many cases, full of judgmental individuals based on either your HIV status or lifestyles choices. What I find amusing is that some of those same guys still show up either on NKP or other free sites and their profiles are much more open minded. Go figure. If you are interested in guys of a different race, "Jack'd" is popular here. But read the profiles carefully, as some people spell out exactly what kind of guys they are looking for, and often it's done in a "not so friendly" manner. What I like about the free version is that you can find guys near-by, and the geo locator works well.

Or try to convince you to get off the platform and go to another, usually they are up to no good or going to propose something that is illegal.. I know many of us go to telegram because it is easier to communicate. But once they start asking if you are interested in their "content", or ask for an Apple gift card - RUN!. (Actually just block their ass.)

I have fucked a guy on the bed that he was conceived on (Did I say that right?). His parents were out of town so we used his place and for one of the few times in my sex life, I was ashamed of myself. The bedroom was decorated like the way your grandmother would decorate her room, I thought I was going to be sick. They even had his college graduation "portrait" in their bedroom, I thought I was going to barf. The fact that he had a seven year old son made it worse, I dropped him right after that.

You'll have no problem getting fucked or sucked, or whatever your choice, in PS - holiday weekend means an extra day of bonus dick. Btw, your choice of Motel 6 was a smart one. Many of the guest houses are becoming increasingly expensive (despite the incredible heat) but more important, they are trying to limit who comes in an out of their property. It wasn't always that way, but they do have to protect both their guests and their property. That is sad but, Motel 6 and that location allows you a slightly easier way to "entertain" in your room. The fact that you are not in downtown PS may encourage more guys who lives outside of that immediate area to come over and play. It would be great if you posted about your experience once you recover and the weekend is over. Have a great time....

Don't tempt me, really, because I may take you up on it. Problem is, what do I tell the significant other?

Glad I saw this - yesterday I could get to the site, but none of the films would load. I thought it was my VPN keeping me out, which has happened with both gay and non-hookup sites. Soooo happy to hear it is up and running again.

I should really think about moving to WV. That is an impressive number😛

He is still active on X. His last post was in November 2022, which included a pic of him with Tim Kruger and Tian Tan. If you are a verified member of X you can DM him. Though his profile reads that he resides in Amsterdam, his current location is Berlin. One interesting point is the first thing hs mentions in his profile is "Fetish", but not of the photos really show what that "fetish: is.

This subject rings true to me. I was a frequent visitor of the Baths on Broward Blvd in Fort Lauderdale for years. During that time, I would find a guy cleaning the halls right near my room, then look in, lean the broom on side of the wall and come in and fuck. In and out, no words exchanged, just bodily fluids. I did that on more that one occasion, I've also hooked up with the guy who was checking bags for contraband, he knew me from when we had both lived in a different city and hooked up. When I leaving the first time I ran into him, he asked if he could come over and fuck. I agreed. So I have done it with employees both on the site and at other locations. I also got cell phone numbers from guys who worked the front desk but I regret that I never followed up on those. Just as I was checking out they would say "hey, the guy from the earlier shift left his number". Problem was, I couldn't remember who was who.