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Flakes/no shows are bad but nothing is worse for your cumslut ego when a top shows up and upon starting up the action cannot get it up. Decides they are just not into the scene and peaces out. I cannot figure out the mindset of gong to all the trouble of messaging and confirming the type of scene they are into and actually showing up only to have performance anxiety for some reason.

There is a top here on BBRTs that does something like this. His profile says he will take pics, put out the ad, arrange for place and time for will bottoms. Definitely intriguing but the safety aspect of it keeps me from messaging him. Every top I have ever asked if he has a buddy he thinks would want some of my ass tells me they do not know any other tops. Either lying or just not good at sharing I guess

I have noticed that for my area bbrts is pretty crap if you are a bottom. I think at most there will be 20 tops/vers tops online max a time. That and it is the same tops over and over. Very little variation. I live in a lower middle market metro area. Tons of bottoms of course. I know that the ratio top/bottom is always skewed to bottoms everywhere. But how many tops do people see in large metro areas? Like does an area like NYC, DC, Boston, LA just have 1000s of tops online at a given time? A4A seems way more active here than Grindr or even BBRTS, do other areas find A4A shit?

After over a decade of getting or providing raw cock on the sly I have anecdotally noticed some personal hookup paradoxes. If I describe them maybe we can come up with some names for them. Or if you have your own feel free to add to the discussion. I am available to bottom but cannot host Only bottoms are online Mix of tops/bottoms/vers are online Non can host I am available to bottom but can only host Only bottoms are online Mix of tops/bottoms/vers are online Non can travel Inverse of the 2 above I am online scouting for future hookups (ie not available right then) place of play irrelevant All bottoms/tops are messaging to meet right away Non are available for times I can meet in the future What precipated some of this is that it always seems that when I could only travel no one was hosting. I knew that starting in the new year I would be able to host and figured all those non hosting people would be lining up. Absolutely 0 people have been around or now people only want to host. Sigh.

I used to lose any desire to bottom after I had cum. Which I know for all the versatile hookups that I promised they could top me after I fucked them was a huge disappointment when I would bail right after. I also have met a huge portion of the self identified versatile men in my area and they are exactly like how I was. It is why I stopped even hunting vers cock. Now though I do not really even think about getting off at all while getting fucked and even if I jerk off earlier in the day I stay interested in getting fucked.

Part 4 I could not believe what I was hearing and it took me a minute to parse what he had said. Something about finally transforming into a true cumdump like he was meant to be. Right before all my backed up charged cum took control of my soul I made sure we were on the same page. Though honestly looking back he never stood a chance, married or not, cheating or not, that bare ass was going to have my seed in him. It took all my energy to not blast my poz seed everywhere seeing that pasty white ass shimmy to the bed, seeing it get in the prone position. I dropped my pants and pulled my briefs just down enough to let my throbbing cock out. Fuck this would be hard to not bust. I tried thinking this dude was married and wife was going to be exposed to poz cum in some fashion in an attempt to temper my cock. Somehow that thought just made me go into a fuck zone. I pressed my rod onto his tight puckered hole and slowly saw my dark meat spread and push into his white body. I kept thinking other thoughts rather than the supreme hotness of seeing my cock slowly force his cum hole to adjust. I was thrusting pretty good and I realized he was definitely no stranger to cock as he took me just fine. That is when any hesitation I had about his situation disappeared. This dude has totally been fucking quite awhile and whatever his business was was exactly this his business. But my business right now was laying pipe, seeding deep and installing windows (eventually). I felt all my poz seed welling deep down in my and finally I could not longer hold back and released a torrent of jizz. I could feel his sphincter tighten as I shot spurt after spurt of my potent DNA. Was absolutely amazing feeling my cock get milked. Finally I held still and he still milked me for all I had. After I went soft and pulled out I needed to get my head back into the window game so I stalled and just said to wait there and let my fluids do their job. I pulled my drawers up and looked as my seed was spilling out on its own. I was in heaven as I went to another room to start working knowing this dude was going to convert for sure. Hopefully that meant more sessions but I first need to get some windows done. Part 5 someday soon.

I prefer spit since it is most readily available. Though I guess lots of tops somehow hate the thought of using their own saliva on their cock. Otherwise second favorite is any non-gloopy style lube. I prefer to still be able to feel the cock sliding on my inner walls rather than feeling like a waterbowl. But I also answer 'What is the best lube?' with 'Whatever the top has or wants to use.'

When I rarely top I tend to not care too much. For me its not the substance that gets to me it is the smell. If it is overpowering I have to stop. Otherwise I pound away not caring. I have found in my area most tops have a rigid mindset that bottoms should be always prepped and clean. Given I am a married cheater that eliminates spontaneous hookups which is one of my bucket list items. Meet a dude out and about and then find myself bent over taking his load, whatever place we end up in. So I really only hit up tops now if I know I can prep or am prepped. Or only offer oral which gets no responses.

Part 3 The pause between his comment and my conflicting thoughts of whether I could really get this poz cock in me, get him to seed me deep knowing there could be real consequences seemed like an eternity. Thankfully an eternity in my mind is not that long, especially when my mind takes over and decides to get it what it wants, no needs. Words came out of my mouth I did not think I could ever say openly and the look on his face and how his jaw dropped at first and then lead to a devious grin showed he was just as taken aback. I remember him asking me if I was sure, that he would/could not pull out and would not ask again. I nodded and licked my lips and he said something about how we have to be quick because he had not cum in forever and was ready to bust just from the thought of our situation. Finally it seemed like my brain released it's total control and I could understand what I was saying. I told him, "It's a good thing I am all cleaned and prepped." and walked over to my bed and got on all fours, and he had already dropped his pants. I looked to the mirror on the wall to my right. It looked amazing with my white ass in perfect breeding position and he was behind me with all of his other clothes on and a nice 8" thick cock fully erect already. He asked about a lube and I said he could use his poz spit. With that I felt his moist cock slowly press on my neg virigin, to fully poz cock, hole. He moaned as he got past my opening and slid in deep. He let out a 'Damn, so tight, so good' gasp. I pushed back and forth a little and he took the hint. He went full tilt pumping me and grabbing my hips, I could tell it really must have been a long time for him because he seemed so in lust and heat, pumping hard and I could feel his sweat dripping on my back and ass cheeks. He pushed my head down and ordered me to get my ass up more and he kept thrusting away. Finally he took in a big deep breath and let out a loud "Fuck!!! I am cumming in this perfect married ass, ahhhh!!" and kepy pumping away as his cock shot spurt after spurt of his toxic seed. He stopped thrusting and held himself deep after about the 5th spurt and he ordered me to milk my new master cock. I squeezed my hole over and over and he pumped about 4 more squirts. Finally he started to go soft and I could feel him plop out. He then spoke "Oh wow that hole is totally creamed up now." just as my hole squirted out some of his load on its own. I stayed there and wondered what now? As if he knew what I was thinking he said, "Best stay like that so you can absorb as much of my DNA into you, I will just get back to work.", then let out a very quiet, "fuck, damn". I did as he said and just enjoyed my new squishy hole. Hoping maybe he would come back for sloppy seconds. Part 4 hopefully sooner than 3.

Yesterday the one super thick top who can cum multiple times was finally free to meet. It has been 6 months since he last treated me to a good fuck session. He came over and fucked me in my marriage bed over and over, forcing me to do ATM in between. He is the only top that i truly let control the situation. I think he gets freaked out though as I go all in with him and my dirty talk is all about being his fuck toy 24/7, leaving wife type stuff. No idea why he is the only one I do that type of thinking, just nice to hear myself say things out loud for a change. In any case he fucked and loaded me about 9 times, most of his orgasms are dry I suspect but damn my hole feels sloppy and used when he goes. Probably be another 6 months before he feels comfortable with the level of intensity our fucks bring.

Finally finally finally got the house to myself in the mornings again. Kids were off due to snow and then tons of errands and appointments to get them to. But today I was finally free to host. Thankfully the top who gave me my first true, sight unseen anon load was available. This time though I was bent over bare ass naked for him in my living room. He showed up, gently played with my ass and hole before getting up in me. He pumped me good and would then get balls deep and grind around and then slowly pump. I was in heaven. Finally he moaned and started orgasming a good hard load deep in me. He climbed off grabbed a towel wiped off and left. Now I have a cum soaked hole horny for more. Cock. Hope I have one other update soon.

I give thanks to Thanksgiving meal shopping for giving me a first. Was able to get out of the house away from wife to 'stock up' on items needed for making Thursdays meal. Had A4A and BBRT up on my phone as I totally for real walked around a grocery store alone (ie, sat in parking lot hitting up every top around). One finally bit that would host but he wanted anon. I have never really thought about doing that, mostly for physical safety etc, but of course being super horny simply replied, "What's your address?". He gave me instructions on how to get into his place and into his bedroom sight unseen, (he has a roommate apparently). 15 minute drive and I was sneaking in his back door, creeping through a living room and straight to a bedroom. I undressed and climbed on the bed and waited. So there I was first time giving my cheating married ass to an absolute sight unseen stranger. Felt amazing having a total stranger suddenly touch and caress you. I was in heat and so badly wanted that cum and he wasted no time mounting me. We maintained a hush whispered tone as I begged him to breed my married ass and he kept saying how great my ass was and kept asking if I was ready for his load. OF COURSE I WAS. Suddenly he was pumping me full and I just kept using my hole to milk all his cum out. He went back to his bathroom, where he had been hiding before. I got up, got dresed, drove home, complained to wife grocery store was picked clean. Thankfully she bought it.

I was desperate for cock today because after today I will be unable to host and travelling out to someone is basically impossible. Hit up all my sort of regulars and either no response or just unable to meet. FInally a top I smiled at on A4A responded just "Send Addy". I knew he was not going to waste time so provided and was all set, only took him 20 min to get to my place. Same type of top as my cable installer, though he liked to pound his cock a certain way that I was not used to but did all I could to get him to bust. Finally while mid pounding he leaned up to me ear and asked if I wanted it, 'Breed me deep' is all I said. He went back to pounding and then the familiar sounds of orgasm emanated from him and he shoved deep and held. Stayed like that til he plopped out with some of his nut stuck to the end of his dick, mmm licked it off. Now off to jerk off with his cum ooozing out. Just hope another top suddenly becomes available since I am open for business for sure.

Wow good luck! That hole deserves to be overflowing with cum

Mine was twofold. I had become horny to try dudes when wifes libido went to 0 and I could not find chicks to cheat on with. I was an at home parent so getting out or hosting was very problematic especially for women to agree to it. I had always used toys on my ass and I thought, why not always wondered what the real thing was like, and lets face it dudes will fuck anywhere anytime. My first few times were safe even though I know I prefer bare fucking as I can never cum with a condom on. Plus it became obvious I could not have condoms around with me or wife would notice. So I became a barebacking top but safe bottom. It was good to cum inside something again and a lot of tops carry condoms. But eventually even that fell by the wayside since it was easier to not even think about condoms AND I could never overcome that need to get bred. I seriously would get mildly depressed if I got fucked by a covered dude and the cum did not end up in my ass. Now I never bring it up and just expect to get bred. I still agree from time to time to let a top use a condom but insist they spray their cum on my open hole. Even then most safe tops end up barebacking me once I start sliding my cheating bare hole on their pole.

Past Tuesday was able to convince the pervious black top cable installer to meet up again. He mounted me in my front living room, grabbing at my tits and hips and making me bounce on his hard pole. He likes dirty talk, mostly derogatory terms about gay people. I generally only engage in dirty talk if it is what the top wants. He had me beg for his chocolate load deep in my f#$#$t ass. He had not come in 4 days and so he planted a good load deep in me. I was leaking cum through the next day. Felt so good feeling that cum lingering that I jerked off 3 times while fingering my cum slicked hole. Hopefully he can come next week and install some new thick fiber and juice in my ethernet again.

We both had different work from home days so when I was home I would host or travel. In between those days I would think of any normal reason to get out of the house at night and try to find a hookup. Definitely a lot harder to get any kind of action but better than none. The trick was to always make your reason semi truthful. Just so happens in between leaving the house and doing what you said you were you happened to find a bare cock buried deep in your ass while you begged for cum.

When I top I am not too concerned about age as long as bottom is legal. But when I bottom I have learned to avoid any tops 55 and up. My experience with 99% of the tops in that group who are interested in my ass either cannot get an erection or cannot maintain an erection and none orgasm from any kind of stimulation. My time is limited and nothing more frustrating than not getting that nut deep in my ass or even mouth as consolation. I am sure there are older guys than that who can fuck and cum but they must not like chubby middle aged ass.

Yeah their speed never makes a difference. Dunno guess I got a fucked up asshole.

Wife out of town just for the day yesterday. Top messaged me a couple of days ago and we barely kept up convo prior. But I was in the mood to get topped since 0 issues of hosting. However, any of my previous tops were either not online or repsonding. But this guy was keen to fuck. Boy did he, I rode him, he mounted me, forced my legs up to my ears, all sorts of positions before he blew his first of 3 loads. That 3rd load was a tough one to fuck out of him but I think when I looked up and back while he was ramming my hole and we were tongue kissing and I was begging to get all his seed in my married hole did the trick.

Part 2 I will admit I had made some mistakes as a young teen. Never did anything illegal but felt invincible and cocky. Being closeted and gay did not help. I do not remember specifically when I got HIV but I know I could not tell anyone. Mostly because my support structure would fall apart, everyone believed I was this tough and rough straight dude but if anyone really looked into my past they would notice a distinct lack of girls. For awhile I avoided playing around with even other dudes, took my meds and kept myself healthy. In the meantime I started my own general contractor firm. Early on I was making bank and my inner fuck pig started to come out. It was after visiting some clubs I learned of the poz barebacking community. I was not entirely on board but I felt relieved that there were groups of men I could have sex with and not feel guilty afterward. Then the economy turned and suddenly I had to make cut backs, on staff, on benefits, even for myself. So now I am 2 months into not taking meds and probably at a pretty high viral load, and I am very very horny all the time. I lied to another firm about the size of my work crew and bid higher with the promise I could get these windows put in pretty fast. The money would go a long way to getting me health insurance again. I was nervous to meet the homeowner because I was afraid he would ask too many questions about my excuse for just me doing the work. He seemed a okay with everything I told him. My inner horn dog had me thinking he would pass as a cute bear, pasty white skin, moderately hairy, definitely large flabby ass. The kind I have pounded in the bath houses. and loaded deep with my undetectable loads (most wanted poz so I just told them that is what I was). I had to actively avoid thinking about it to get my work going. Eyes on the prize as it were. It was going fine he seemed chill hanging downstairs while I did work upstairs, it was so hot out and I was distracted by thoughts of that ass of his bouncing on my hard shaft that I kept having to go downstairs to get the right tools. Then something very odd happened, he made a comment about my biohazard tattoo that I have around my belly button. I almost got the sense that he was fishing for a specific answer, that he was not as suburban dad oblivious as he appeared. His laugh was cute and disarming and I forcibly set my mind to getting him out of my head. I was finally finishing up one room and getting ready to start another when I realized I had not seen nor heard him milling about. Maybe he got comfortable enough to leave for lunch. I decided to work on the master bedroom since the sun was not shining in there yet when I noticed the sound of running water. I figured we are all adults and he must know what he was doing. The water stopped and I was just setting down the first window when this perfect specimen of a bear walked out his bathroom door completely nude, wet and completely shocked I was there. It took my entire mental abilities to stop from getting a massive erection. We nervously laughed it off as an honest mistake and then he commented about my biohazard tattoo. I thought for a second maybe he thought I was dangerous from my previous answer so I said the first thing I could think to let him know without saying it that I am more 'lover' than hater. His response to that, his lack of fear standing there naked to a very sweaty fit black man got me realizing maybe he was a bear after all. But I was scrambling on how to proceed. What if he was not, what if he reported me to the guy who hired me, I really needed this job under my belt. I really really needed to be deep in his ass flooding him with my poz seed. What could I do? PART 3 soon

Part 2 taking longer, but will come.

Outside of hookup sites, I am probably 99.99% oblivious to tops who fuck bears, tops who fuck bare and tops with poz cum wanting to do the other 2. This is about the .01% moment when it seemed to click for me in a non-hookup website. A week ago I finally knowingly took a raw poz cock, he was undetectable but we all start this path somewhere. I never once questioned doing it and I think that helped me really understand my role as a raw bottom whore. Anyway I think this liberation clued me into seeing the signs while out in the real world of those who also engage in hot bare times. Our house is much older and needs some efficiency upgrades and wife and I selected windows as our first upgrade to help cut our costs and stretch her money further. Though the cost of them AND the installation was pretty steep. I am a house husband so when time came for the windows to be installed I stuck around. Turned out the installation was subcontracted out and they only assigned one guy for the work. He was not very happy as it was a lot of windows. He was a 6' tall, semi fit, black guy and he mentioned that it would probably take 3 days to finish since he was the only one assigned. No big deal for us but I did feel for him. As he was unloading windows from his trailer and his shirt raised up in front I noticed what seemed like a biohazard tattoo. Since he was dark skinned and it was black inked I shook it off as wishful thinking and that it was probably a sun or star burst or something. He got to doing his work upstairs first and I surfed the web downstairs. At one point I realized I had not showered and figured oh well, just as I thought that he came downstairs for something and as he got closer to me he did a stretch and with a much better view the distinct biohazard tattoo was obvious. I shook inside, could I really make this happen? I took the moment to compliment his ink, which he appreciated, then I asked if it had any significance to him, as it seemed really bad ass to me. He smirked and I could tell he was going to skirt the truth, he said "Just that if you see this tattoo coming at you, you best be ready." I laughed to show him I was chill. He then went back upstairs and I started panting at the thought of seducing this guy and getting him to breed me in my bed. But would he on the job? I went upstairs with the idea of taking a shower, cleaning out, and forgetting he was there walking out nude on him. He was just finishing up in one room and I quickly jumped into my master bath before he could say anyting so as to keep the accident real. I wasted no time washing and took considerable effort to douche out deep. FInally I was done and when the water and fan were off I could hear he was in my bedroom working. I grabbed a towel but did not put on and just opened the door and walked out. No idea if I can act but he seemed genuinely surprised and lazily draped over me but made sure I never actually covered anything up. I apologized, thanked him for not freaking out too bad and said I was worried that I would have learned what it feels like to have that tattoo come at me. I noticed all the sweat glistening on his body and said maybe he should hop in the shower to cool off now as well. He laughed and said that his tattoo was not really a warning of harm and more like a beacon that once you engage it you will get on a path you will stay on forever and enjoy. My hole started twitching and my head started spinning trying to think of what to do next. I just wanted to grab him and tell him to ravage me but did not know if he liked bi married to a woman bears and did not want to have him narcing to my wife or worse quiting the job. PART 2 soon.

Just got finished taking my 3rd load today, 3 different tops. First time ever. My bbc bud seemed to bail on me this morning and was so horned up that I finally relented let an undetectable cock in my throat and ass. He knew I was married and needed to release. Same size cock as my bbc bud too. He pounded me good but was super quiet. Finally he seemed to finish and wanted to leave. Was proud of myself for never once thinking about stopping. But it turned out he pulled out and sprayed on my ass on his own..shrug. Suddenly my bbc bud popped onlinr and said home life shit came up but he was anxious and needed relief. Happy to provide. He came over and owned his white ass deep again. Hole really is being made sloppy by him.Then randomly a top who I have chatted for over a year but could never seem to match schedule asked if I needed a load. No hesitation he was over in 10. Not a very big cock but he seeded me good. Now jerking off with a massive glazed donut of a cheating married hole.