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...Ahh the old blog post box. How many years has it been since I have done a blog? God when I was in middle school-high school I always blogged..and it was about a girl, my life at the time which sucked, being alone, video games, and sometimes rpg gaming I did on forums. I used to have blogs on gaming forums too and wrote about my straight parents since I did not want people to know I had two dads who adopted me. Then, when I finally became 18 I blogged all the time on a very popular gay forum. But it was again about depressing stuff like school, becoming a philosopher, being lonely, and trying to find someone. It got better as time went by though and I started blogging about sex, hook ups, people I met, and random things I did or ate (pre-twitter/facebook shit) and other stuff. I never used any names except partners because I wanted people to know about them and they were cool with it. But after I grew out of that gay forum I sort of lost touch with blogging. I used to stay up all night blogging sometimes or thinking. It was an outlet for me to express myself *breaks into madonna* or just feel at peace with myself and it felt like I was having a conversation with myself. I've never had a lot of friends or ever really been that popular so I always overthink things and overanalyze everything. And now I am inventing words and using poor grammar. Also I was always bad with my grammar and punctuation. And I had massive wall texts which caused MASSIVE boredom and "eww this blog sucks", *delete page*. Some people were kind enough to comment on my blogs and others were like, "WTF" or "lawl, get a life" and other hateful shit that people commit suicide over now. That shit never got to me. I believed regardless of whatever pain or people go through in life that you just have to live with it because maybe something good will happen someday and everything you go to will be for a reason and not for nothing. But not everyone is fortunate and not everyone lives a long time. I have never expected myself to live that long. With what I'm doing now..heh maybe I really won't live for long. I am afraid of dying though I'll admit that. I'm a coward. I'm afraid of a lot of other things too. But extremely turned on by sex. Started reading porn and watching porn and shit in my early teens and became addicted to it. Dreamed of the day when I would lose my virginity and went after it when I was 18. Actually a guy went after me and he took my virginity. Not a pleasant experience at first but it got better after we did it the second or third time. Coming out gay was easy but not out to everyone even now. Discovering leather was easy for me to find but harder to find guys in it. Feeling like I was living two different lives as a leather boy/me was tricky though. Especially referring to my Sir as his name in public. I even was commented once, "Haha, it's like you are living two different lives boy". I miss those old days with leather. And the community... That actually was what I was going to write about first. Skip right past intro and into community. But see how selfish I am? I am still trying to figure out myself right now and decide who I am and who I want to be. There are some things I do know about me though but the rest I am trying to figure out. Although, everything I have done seems to have always been controversial or forbidden. Being gay, being into older guys like bears and daddies, being into leather, and now being into barebacking. What's next..really what else can I do to piss people off or make people judge me more. I've never been one to piss people off but always been judged. But I'm still here I guess. Oh yeah, I'm also 22 and somewhat sarcastic and a little bit jaded. Well when I post about community that will be an interesting one. I just hope I can get out of this rut I am in and finally be what I was meant to be..whatever that is. Bai for noa.

Losing my virginity I lost it safe. Guy was so big I probably would have taken it better raw though. It took two seperate times before I could enjoy it. The first two times he just fucked me and I had to take it and try to enjoy it and relax. I am happy to say though that the first man I did bareback with was someone I care about and close to me and trust was gained and time passed before we got to that point. In that regard and back then, it was worth the wait.

Thank you Sir. I appreciate the advice and that you took the time to write it. You are correct that eventually I will become poz if I keep barebacking. I realized that last week and I don't know if I am starting to accept it or just not care. It just seems so natural and free to bareback and I can't really ever do condoms again. I know I am young too though. And I do realize that this is about my health and future life. I pictures my future life in some sort of monagamous relationship or serving a Sir and being his boy/slave. It could be my ignorance back then but I thought that being poz and barebacking would not lead to a great future and no relationship whatsoever. But I know that's not the case. I'm still not ready to play with someone who is honest to being "poz" and that is ignorance and stupidity on my part. But I am becoming more open to play with guys that are undectable. But then again it's the whole "honesty" thing. A guy can simply say he is undetectable to breed a bottom and infect him if he wants. I understand that regardless if the guy says he is neg, undetectable, that I should always assume poz and be prepared for what might come in the future. I'm not quite ready to fully accept this or fully understand this but I know one thing. I am tired of being afraid of how I should act during sex and how I should hold back or not go completely piggy and slutty if it's with a guy or guys I like. And I am tired of being afraid of barebacking and of the fear of getting infected. I will probably eventually cross that line. I'm sorry if I offended the poster when I said, "have coffee with a poz guy". Yeah that did sound a little offensive and I did not mean it that way. I'm just young and a little unsure so forgive me for being ignorant or stupid. I'll mature as I get older and become more confident too Thank you.

Met up with an old fuck bud tonight. I regret that he isn't more verbal or dom but he has a great dick and I love sucking on it. He talks a bit too much and I like what he talks about but I think it's a defense mechanism. When he gets going he gets into it. I haven't had him bare yet so this was my first time taking his bare cock. He is a bearish guy hot as hell. He fucked me on my back for a bit and his cock slid in nicely because he gave me time to adjust. It felt so damn good and big and he had a fucking curve. Love curved cocks. He put me on my belly and humped my ass rapidly and I was moaning and begging him to fuck me. He put his hand over my mouth because he likes quiet fucks I guess. I muffled in his hand as he fucked me until he came into my ass. Damn it felt great. If only he was a bit more aggressive and dominant though. I would have loved to call him Sir but he isn't into that. He's a cool guy though and I really needed that fuck. He gave me a little load he already came earlier. I need to get back together with another regular. There is at least a little more passion, verbal, and aggression with the other man but after he fucks me that's it. At least this guy I can get along with and relate too and we can do more then sex. Anyways great night finally glad I got fucked. Been wayyy too long. And the load was nice too

I agree with this to a certain extent. I think it also depends on what age the neg guy is and how he handles it. I have turned down poz men before. But recently I did get fucked by an undetectable top with a condom first then bare. It was the fact that he was willing to use the condom which I greatly respected. Not everyone is ready to take that plunge yet. It's also if you put in your profile that you prefer neg tops and a bunch of poz tops message you. It's already been stated so it's not like they weren't warned. I have never rejected a poz top in a bad way though. Just apologized that I'd prefer to play with neg tops and hope they find a fun bottom to play with. I have gotten nasty responses sometimes. I have nothing against poz men and I would meet up with a poz guy to have coffee, hang out, drink, but play would be a little different. I guess I'd want to get a feel for who the guy is first. But maybe you are right maybe I am setting myself up for karma or something. And I know lots of men lie out there. It probably is just a numbers game. Even though some accept that when they bareback doesn't mean that every bottom wants to get pozzed or play with a poz man. That is the bottom's choice. But a bottom or anyone should ALWAYS ask the status of the top. Ask if they are negative or positive. The man might lie but at least you asked. If nothing is said then it's partially the bottom's fault for not even asking or discussing it first.

It's interesting because the people who got me into the leather lifestyle, the submissive is extremely piggy. He used to get fisted, has a shit load of anal toys, great cock sucker, top, bottom, versatile, kisser, watersports, spanking, cum eating, anything piggy and to serve or to be served he will do. I think it's probably just the situation he got into with the relationship he is in is one of those routine relationships with little to no sex and he is more monogamous natured then most. I could just see him in his younger days though or with a different guy. He does safe only unless relationship but I could see him out there being full pig and having lots of fun. He helped me discover that I was a pig as well. I was always nervous to admit it or feel it but I have gotten better about it over these last few years. Now the only thing is finding someone to do it with. Most guys it's they fuck and breed and they are done. The ones who have the high sex drive are much harder to find or who would willing to go to bars, clubs, and places and whore my ass out or play with other guys and do groups and sex parties like that. Or even take sex trips. But this is a big world and I'm gonna be a traveler someday so I'll find someone out there who is into it. I would like to really go full piggy one day too but prefer to do it away from home

Don't know if I am 100% gay but maybe pretty close. The only time anything intimate was ever done with a girl was in middle school a girl I liked kissed me on the cheek as a thank you. Never touched a woman's lips. I get a little uncomfortable hugging women sometimes. It's different then hugging a guy. Unless she is a friend or something. When I hug men 99% of the time I get hard/excited. When I hug a woman it hides and won't ever come out until he presence is gone I've never had any desire to have sex with a women or any attraction to a women. No I will admit some women look "pretty" or "hot", but I mean that different then a straight guy would mean it. I just mean they look fucking awesome or look good. But I don't care about the breasts, va-jay-jay or any of that. Don't want none of that. Want a dick up my ass or in my mouth though The only reason I ever thought about girls when I was younger was because it's what everyone did and it's what I thought you were supposed to do. But then I discovered porn and all I looked at was the men. Tried to cover up the women or fold them out of existence. Then I started looking only at gay porn I'm a faggot and proud of it.

Nervous to say it but I'll say it. Thursday I went back to the sex club and cleaned myself out perfectly before I left the house. When I arrived there was almost no one there and I counted two other guys there. I was on my phone for a while cruising and looking for dick while waiting for some to arrive. I played with a few guys who arrived shortly and sucked their dick for a little bit but I guess they wanted to save their load. More guys starting coming in so I went to my car and changed into my daisy dukes and left my shirt off hoping to attract some guys. It worked. I sucked a guy off in the stair area and damn he had a nice dick. I went a bit farther though and went into the blackroom. A guy started sucking my cock really big beefy bear guy and rubbed my cock against his ass but I wasn't into that. A few other guys came in and I made out with some of them, groped their cocks and they groped mine and I was soon on my knees going back and forth between a few different cocks. Even though I had no idea what the guys looked like I got some feel of what they looked like by their arms, legs, body, and size. One of them brought me up and kissed me a little bit more, (had a really big busy beard) and started rough fingering my ass and I kept moaning and the other guys seemed really excited. He pushed me on my knees and fucked my face like it was his own personal pussy and gave me a huge load to swallow. It tasted really good. Some of the other guys came on me as well . I cleaned the cum off me in the bathroom and moved on. I later found out he was a hot trucker daddy bear. Fucking woof. I went back to the stair area and saw a military looking daddy there. I immediately got on my knees and started sucking him and he felt my ass and his dick grew harder and longer, until he stood me up and kissed me passionately. I asked him if he wanted to go in a room and he agreed. When we got in the room I was able to suck his big dick in private and he really loved playing with my ass while I was sucking him. We kissed a little more and he said he was going to fuck me. I asked him, "Are you negative or positive?". I never ask a guy if he is clean because that's such a broad question. He told me honestly, "I am undetectable and on medications.". I freaked out and thought about leaving but he said he would fuck me with a condom. He had a great dick and he was really hot and a great kisser and I was horny as hell. He was also honest. He used a little lube and then started fucking me. Damn it really hurt, he had a really big dick and I thought back to the other night where that top used poppers on me and slammed it in my hole and I felt like my body was floating and numb as he fucked my ass but even within that semi conscious state how I was able to relax my hole completely incase I would feel the pain later. I needed those poppers. But I have pretty good muscle control and always clean myself deep back there but rarely do I get a cock that is that big and that fucks me. I tried my best to relax but was not able to relax completely. This did not stop the top though. He fucked me rough and hard and would pull out all the way and slam it back in. While he was doing this he kept calling me a little bitch and telling me that I am his little bitch and that my hole belongs to him. While he was fucking me I saw a hot black daddy come in and he was watching me getting fucked like a bitch, I was moaning, even crying a little bit because it was so big and hurt a little, but I was taking the fuck this man was giving me. But I was taking it like a bitch not like a man. The top saw the black daddy come in the room and pulled out and let me suck on his cock. The black daddy already had a condom on and pushed inside. I rarely ever get fucked by black daddies or suck them because I am not the best deepthroater and as I said before I don't often get fucked (or do I want to?) get fucked by large dicks. I was crying and moaning as his schlong went inside my ass and I swallowed the tops dick all the way. They both fucked my face and mouth for all it was worth and they seemed to really get off on me being in pain and moaning and crying a bit. It did not take long for the black daddy to cum and he pulled out and left the condom on the floor. The top then pulled out of my mouth and put on another condom and shoved it in my ass and fucked me until he came and then he took the condom off and put it on the floor. I wondered if I would have been able to take it better if I was getting fucked raw by both of them. We talked a little bit afterwards and cuddled and spooned a bit. All the while I kept rubbing my ass against his hard raw cock. I was really horny. I told him that he probably would not fuck me raw. He told me he would not do that to me and we talked a little bit about him being poz and about barebacking, poz, and undetectable altogether. He once again confirmed that no one really wants to be poz. He cautioned me that the road I am going down I will likely end up poz someday because men lie and barebacking will lead to becoming poz. I guess I had a little bit of respect for him for being so open and honest about himself and his status and even telling me he was undetectable before he fucked me. He did admit to me that he does have a lot more sex being poz and that he usually only fucks poz guys or if guys "don't ask" his status and offer their ass he fucks them. Maybe it was bonding with this man, the fact that I felt safer and open, around him, but I begged him to fuck me. He did not hesitate and his dick was rock hard and red and I could tell he and it wanted nothing more then to fuck me like the bottom slut I am. I got on my back again and felt his raw dick enter me and open up easier this time. Damn it felt better but it still did hurt. I'm not used to anything that long going back that deep but he kept calling me a bitch boy and told him he was going to take my ass. He went back to pulling out all the way in and slamming it back in to torture me and said he wants me to feel his cock in me the next day when I am sore. He then flipped me over and when I was on my belly he pushed his raw dick all the way inside me and started fucking me. I kept moaning, crying, sighing, and went into sensual overload having that giant cock fuck me raw and his body pin me down and make me take it. After he fucked me for a good while he pulled out and had me suck his cock. He came in my mouth. He told me he would not cum in me even though he is undetectable because although it lowers the viral load it still leaves a chance and he did not want to do that. Then again so does technically fucking me raw. He thanked me and I thanked him and I gave him my number and I left. I was past my curfew though but it was a very enlightening and amazing night. And yes I did take a few loads in my mouth even though none up my ass and I got fucked with a rubber for a little bit at one point. So this is relevant, just long, textwall-ish, and probably ranty But now I am starting to think about undetectable guys...

Nervous to say it but I'll say it. Thursday I went back to the sex club and cleaned myself out perfectly before I left the house. When I arrived there was almost no one there and I counted two other guys there. I was on my phone for a while cruising and looking for dick while waiting for some to arrive. I played with a few guys who arrived shortly and sucked their dick for a little bit but I guess they wanted to save their load. More guys starting coming in so I went to my car and changed into my daisy dukes and left my shirt off hoping to attract some guys. It worked. I sucked a guy off in the stair area and damn he had a nice dick. I went a bit farther though and went into the blackroom. A guy started sucking my cock really big beefy bear guy and rubbed my cock against his ass but I wasn't into that. A few other guys came in and I made out with some of them, groped their cocks and they groped mine and I was soon on my knees going back and forth between a few different cocks. Even though I had no idea what the guys looked like I got some feel of what they looked like by their arms, legs, body, and size. One of them brought me up and kissed me a little bit more, (had a really big busy beard) and started rough fingering my ass and I kept moaning and the other guys seemed really excited. He pushed me on my knees and fucked my face like it was his own personal pussy and gave me a huge load to swallow. It tasted really good. Some of the other guys came on me as well . I cleaned the cum off me in the bathroom and moved on. I later found out he was a hot trucker daddy bear. Fucking woof. I went back to the stair area and saw a military looking daddy there. I immediately got on my knees and started sucking him and he felt my ass and his dick grew harder and longer, until he stood me up and kissed me passionately. I asked him if he wanted to go in a room and he agreed. When we got in the room I was able to suck his big dick in private and he really loved playing with my ass while I was sucking him. We kissed a little more and he said he was going to fuck me. I asked him, "Are you negative or positive?". I never ask a guy if he is clean because that's such a broad question. He told me honestly, "I am undetectable and on medications.". I freaked out and thought about leaving but he said he would fuck me with a condom. He had a great dick and he was really hot and a great kisser and I was horny as hell. He was also honest. He used a little lube and then started fucking me. Damn it really hurt, he had a really big dick and I thought back to the other night where that top used poppers on me and slammed it in my hole and I felt like my body was floating and numb as he fucked my ass but even within that semi conscious state how I was able to relax my hole completely incase I would feel the pain later. I needed those poppers. But I have pretty good muscle control and always clean myself deep back there but rarely do I get a cock that is that big and that fucks me. I tried my best to relax but was not able to relax completely. This did not stop the top though. He fucked me rough and hard and would pull out all the way and slam it back in. While he was doing this he kept calling me a little bitch and telling me that I am his little bitch and that my hole belongs to him. While he was fucking me I saw a hot black daddy come in and he was watching me getting fucked like a bitch, I was moaning, even crying a little bit because it was so big and hurt a little, but I was taking the fuck this man was giving me. But I was taking it like a bitch not like a man. The top saw the black daddy come in the room and pulled out and let me suck on his cock. The black daddy already had a condom on and pushed inside. I rarely ever get fucked by black daddies or suck them because I am not the best deepthroater and as I said before I don't often get fucked (or do I want to?) get fucked by large dicks. I was crying and moaning as his schlong went inside my ass and I swallowed the tops dick all the way. They both fucked my face and mouth for all it was worth and they seemed to really get off on me being in pain and moaning and crying a bit. It did not take long for the black daddy to cum and he pulled out and left the condom on the floor. The top then pulled out of my mouth and put on another condom and shoved it in my ass and fucked me until he came and then he took the condom off and put it on the floor. I wondered if I would have been able to take it better if I was getting fucked raw by both of them. We talked a little bit afterwards and cuddled and spooned a bit. All the while I kept rubbing my ass against his hard raw cock. I was really horny. I told him that he probably would not fuck me raw. He told me he would not do that to me and we talked a little bit about him being poz and about barebacking, poz, and undetectable altogether. He once again confirmed that no one really wants to be poz. He cautioned me that the road I am going down I will likely end up poz someday because men lie and barebacking will lead to becoming poz. I guess I had a little bit of respect for him for being so open and honest about himself and his status and even telling me he was undetectable before he fucked me. He did admit to me that he does have a lot more sex being poz and that he usually only fucks poz guys or if guys "don't ask" his status and offer their ass he fucks them. Maybe it was bonding with this man, the fact that I felt safer and open, around him, but I begged him to fuck me. He did not hesitate and his dick was rock hard and red and I could tell he and it wanted nothing more then to fuck me like the bottom slut I am. I got on my back again and felt his raw dick enter me and open up easier this time. Damn it felt better but it still did hurt. I'm not used to anything that long going back that deep but he kept calling me a bitch boy and told him he was going to take my ass. He went back to pulling out all the way in and slamming it back in to torture me and said he wants me to feel his cock in me the next day when I am sore. He then flipped me over and when I was on my belly he pushed his raw dick all the way inside me and started fucking me. I kept moaning, crying, sighing, and went into sensual overload having that giant cock fuck me raw and his body pin me down and make me take it. After he fucked me for a good while he pulled out and had me suck his cock. He came in my mouth. He told me he would not cum in me even though he is undetectable because although it lowers the viral load it still leaves a chance and he did not want to do that. Then again so does technically fucking me raw. He thanked me and I thanked him and I gave him my number and I left. I was past my curfew though but it was a very enlightening and amazing night. And yes I did take a few loads in my mouth even though none up my ass and I got fucked with a rubber for a little bit at one point. So this is relevant, just long, textwall-ish, and probably ranty But now I am starting to think about undetectable guys...

I always think of "ask me" as a guy being unsure about his status or not wanting to say, poz, neg, or undetectable for whatever reason. I've had a guy on manhunt message me a long time ago and I asked what the "ask me" meant and he told me he was poz. I asked why he did not just say positive in his profile but never got an answer. But what I find really interesting about bbrt is the contradiction between "your status" and "my status" My Status: Neg Your Status: Ask Me My Status: Neg Your Status: No Preference My Status: Neg Your Status: Poz ok My Status: Poz Your Status: Neg I did not think about this until I read this thread but the "your status", "my status" thing reveals a lot about the person. For some reason it sounds like a good or twisted song name too There are guys on there who are neg but don't care if the guy is poz or neg. And there are guys who are poz and specifically want to play with someone who is neg or don't care about the person's status. One thing I have noticed though for the most part (least in my area) it seems to be tops who don't care the status of the bottom. If the bottom is poz they don't care or neg. It seems to be the bottoms who prefer neg tops or if they are fully pig bottoms they don't care. I wonder if that's because some tops out there feel that if they are breeding bottoms they are less likely to get infected, versus a bottom who takes loads is more likely to get infected.

Interesting. There is a red roof in around my area too which I hear is popular. I was just curious if a city with very little sex clubs and gloryholes to almost none and few gay bars can be that sexual. I have been to charlotte before and I remember there being no glory holes or sex clubs. But I did go to Woodshed on a friday night and it looked like a lot could happen. I kept having guys insist that I come saturday night as well and that saturday night would be fun. It could be "possible" that a bar like that has sex going on in there. That does not happen in my area despite me living a big city like area. But it could be that in cities like charlotte because of the lack of public sex like areas that cruising is higher and places to cruise are much easier to find and happen more frequently. I think in the mountains of NC is where the nude clubs were, the bear groups, and some of the leather groups. But bobcats (I believe that was a nude area) closed down so not sure how much happens in the mountains anymore. But it would be fun to have group sex in the mountains

You have a good point. But even so its pretty obvious I am a bottom but he tried to "pretend" to be into a scene that I am into. That's what frustrated me. And its happened before. I don't try to do that or pretend I am a top. But then again sex clubs can be places to try things out like that. This is very true. I was warned of this when I was 18 and at one point I went to the sex clubs wayyy too often. I am not really concerned of a reputation anymore. I know what people are like in the city I am in and if I "really" tried to put in a good reputation for them I'd probably be fucking miserable because of their expectations and ideals of the reputation one should have. I know there are some sluts in my area that are proud bottoms and sluts and don't get offended when guys call them that and joke about it and still have great sex. Of course they are older and probably know how to do it. At the same time if I guy sees me and says one day, "Oh..I heard you are the one who likes to go those bath houses and sex clubs and get really slutty and whorish". My response would probably be, "Yeah and I do a damn good job at it, got a problem". It doesn't make sense to me why most older guys can have the confidence they have of not being worried about what others think of them and their business and able to laugh things off or get over things quicker. That should be able to be done at a younger age. I'll bet he will. Whats worse is me posting it on a bareback forum. Guys might say, "Eww that guys a dirty bottom that doesn't clean himself". But there is another side to that. When I first started going out when I was 18 I never douched myself. I never got "fucked" that much either. Mostly oral never really fucking. I'd clean in the shower (when I thought I was cleaning myself) but later learned I wasn't. I was nervous to learn to clean myself out but it's something every bottom should do and learn how to do. The thing is I don't have a lot of sex especially fucking so I never really had a "reason" to clean myself out everyday like some bottoms do or use dildos (still don't use those). But I am trying to have sex a little more so I am cleaning myself out more now. I am still not perfect at it. In regards to that I mean the time it takes for me to clean myself out. It takes way too fucking long and frustrates me but I get better each time. When I clean myself out a top can cum, piss, fuck, spit, and lube up my hole all he wants and all that will come out is what he puts in. I pride myself on that at least. The mistake I made that night was after work going straight to the baths and thinking I did not need a douching before getting fucked. That was the big mistake I made. I should have gone home then gone out later and gotten dick. Which is exactly what I did two nights ago. Got quite a few raw dick up my ass and my hole was clean and there weren't shitty dicks or anything like that and fun was had. The only problem I had was taking the size of some of the cocks. Guess that needs working on too huh. I understand what you are saying. But I believe in humiliation, pride, and growth. I was embarrassed and ashamed that I neglected to clean myself out properly. I might have people avoid me now or not get near me because of that. But it won't happen again and I'll do a better job at making sure to clean myself out frequently and never skip it if I am planning on having sex. I'm able to admit that I fucked up because I'm human...and stupid. And besides if people avoid me that means less sex. That's not necessarily a bad thing. It means that the men are missing out on some good ass BIG TIME and those who give me a chance or decide to play with me will fucking enjoy it. I have not reached the point of being a cum dump. I don't bend over and let any guy fuck me like some do. But if the guy is hot and is into me and I'm into him I'll definitely submit to the man and be his cocksucker and let him fuck me and breed me how he likes. But it would be nice to find more regular guys to do it with. But you are correct that in doing this I am going to more then likely have guys who are looking for something more then sex avoid me and guys who want to use a bitch hunt me. Thank you for the post I appreciate that you took the time to read it. There will be hotter stories.

I love you. I have been dying to get out and travel and go to places to have sex and meet hot guys and learn to become more of a pig slut. I have heard quite a bit about chicago. I had no idea there were so many clubs and sex clubs there. I heard of two clubs that sounded like fun so I guess I shouldn't be too surprised. I completely forgot that the National Leather Archive is there too. I already have heard about new Orleans and that sounds something that I need to do. And yes I have heard about IML in chicago where the bars are filled with leather men and walking down the street they are everywhere and various sex parties around the hotels and everywhere. And with that many leathermen there is probably quite a bit of barebacking going on. I'm glad you have been able to travel and experience all these places. I am curious about North Carolina though. I know that sex places in NC/SC are rare and hard to find. But there have been nudist, bear, and leather groups in North Carolina in the past and still are some so I am wondering if there is lots of sex there but if it's just hidden more or maybe more exclusive. I live close to north carolina is why I am asking. But I have been thinking about Fort Lauderdale alot. Never been but it's closer to home then Chicago. It sounds like it would be fun. Thanks for inspiring the horny travelers

Interesting you mention this Sir. A while back I tried out two gay nudist groups in Atlanta. I did not have much sex because I wanted to be respectful of the group protocols and tradition and was a newbie and did not want to mess anything up. I did end up having a little sex though. I am not really good with crowds or people though so i was mostly shy and in the corner. However, one of them did tell me about GNI. It looks like so much fun. Leather guys, drag queens, bears, the contests and events and of course sex. If it's about all natural then bb should be natural. I have a feeling a good deal of men will probably bareback. You get that many men together they are going to be horny. And you have all those men walking around naked all the time. If their dick gets hard they will find a hole to breed or find their hole being bred. The poz symbols are a good idea though. I don't know why but that "loading zone" picture the one with the ass and the dick squirting. I vote for that being the national symbol of barebacking

Best advice ever. Really the safest option is not to take part in BB sex. Having a partner and being monogamous is idea especially if you get tested but the real test is if either of you will stay faithful to one another. And faithful with condoms but with all the stealthers out there condoms aren't as safe as some like to think. I have heard of that prep thing before. It does sound like a good idea. I have actually really started to wonder about poz/undetectable. I have only been getting plowed by men who "say" they are neg but recently got fucked by an undetectable top and opened my eyes a bit. Regardless of how you bareback if you bareback with multiple guys you are most likely "eventually" going to become poz. Men lie. People lie. But here is another thing. If you were an evil twisted BB poz top couldn't you just tell the bottom, "Oh yeah, I'm on meds and undetectable" but really have a high viral load over nine THOUSAND!!! Just as a poz or someone who doesn't know can say, "Oh yeah I'm neg" and be lying. Same as someone who is undectable. On the flip side I've noticed that "some" poz guys who are undetectable or not seem to be more honest then neg guys. I don't know what it's like to have HIV+ because I am neg (right now and hope to stay that way) but I don't think it's the all in one killer it was back when it first came around. What the older gay generation experienced is something no one should ever have to experience. That being said some people live to be really old and have happy lives and are poz. Yes we sometimes see the shrinkage of weight and some noticeable poz features but I don't believe everyone goes through that. I don't think anyone really wants to be poz but I think it's probably at the point where it is possible to be poz and live happy and maybe even happier then someone who is neg. But I don't know that. The point is though it is easy to believe, "oh if I only play with neg guys I'll stay neg and can have tons of sexy bareback sex". But that's not reality. It's just a convenient excuse and lie to justify taking raw loads. I am a bit indecisive again right now but I don't always want to be afraid of life and death and possibly dying earlier or maybe having some of my youth taken by being poz. But at the same time I want the freedom of youth and bareback sex. Unfortunately there is always cause and effect. Just out of curiosity? How many people actually know or have done the PREP thing. It sounds like a lot of hassle and money (not everyone can afford health insurance of have good insurance). That doesn't sound like something many people do. Like suck cock with condoms. I have only had "ONE PERSON' ever put a condom on my cock and suck it. And I've damn NEVER sucked a cock with rubber on it...well unless I am relubing the top or getting him hard or helping him get excited again. But that was when I played safe-er

..Yeah I moan. Hell I moan when a guy fucking touches me or grabs me. Especially if the touches or fingers my ass. Then I really moan. And when I get fucked I moan a lot. If a top has a problem with it they either need to flip me on my belly and pound my ass and hold my face down so i can't really make noises or gag me. I moan when I am sucking cock too. I can't help. Most tops don't have a problem with it. I was screaming the other night though. That's different.

So I decided to go out after work today. The one mistake I did make though was not cleaning out. I did go to the baths first and clean out the best I could there. Should have rented a room though so i could use my fleet. Was cheap and got a locker instead. After much cruising at the bath house afterwork and lots of cock sucking I wasn't getting anywhere with fucking. Guys played with my ass plenty and I sucked lots of cock but people were too shy to fuck in public and in the sauna. Yeah it does get hot and sweaty in there but that don't stop me. So I went to a sex club I haven't been to in a long time. It was get in free night . It was pretty busy and it was not even 10 o'clock. I went there a few months ago at almost midnight and it was DEAD. There were 2 other guys there. Tonight was different though. I went and first thing I did was see a guy near the room area and I was on my knees sucking him. I got on the bed and sucked him and others watched and I sucked some of them. He came on my back. One of the guys watching stayed and I closed the door and sucked him. Big bear guy really hot. After sucking him for a while he put on a condom *...* and started fucking me. I hated it but pretended to like it. He was starting to lose his hard on (imagine that..and he was wearing a condom). He told me he was sorry and pulled out. I pulled the condom off and rubbed his cock against my ass. This got him a little hard and I pushed back against it. He pushed into me and started fucking me for a few seconds but then he went limp. He did not cum probably just got freaking out fucking raw. Oh well. Next, I saw this big beefy bear guy and he took me into a sling room area. He told me to strip and get on the sling and gave me a few doses of poppers. They did not do much for me though but he fucked me raw for a bit. He then stopped and left me in the sling for a while and came back. He did not fuck me but wanted me to suck him, kiss him, and play with his nipples. I was getting a little annoyed because his hold "attitude" did not seem dominant or controlling but selfish and put on. He got in the sling himself and wanted me to rim his hole. He then lifted his legs up and put them on the chains of the sling. Yeah..really a top. I told him sorry but bye. I was getting ready to leave and (GOOOD PART CUMING UP) I saw this hot looking daddy in a green shirt with jeans. Damn he looked hot. I looked at him and he looked at me. I immedietely told him that I will service him. I got on my knees and started sucking his cock. It slowly rose and got pretty damn big. He then told me to take off my glasses and got me on the bed and started playing with my hole. He announced he would fuck me. He started to push in but I was tight and not losening up completely. He told me to use his poppers. The bottle looked different then what the other guy had but he did not give me much of a choice. I inhaled a huge deep breath. All of a sudden my body felt lifeless and I felt numb and somewhat paralyzed. I felt like I was floating and I felt something fucking hot going inside me. He was shoving his cock in my ass and my ass wasn't rejecting him. I did notice something else though. Even though I was high on the poppers and just about in headspace I did in the back of my mind feel pain as something that large went inside me and made myself relax and open up slowly before he rammed it in. Even if I was high at the time I knew the pain would come back later. He then took control of my ass and fucked me like a bitch. He rammed his cock in and out and plowed me for quite a bit. He then started getting verbal and I was a bitch in heat taking his cock. He then asked me what I wanted and I told him I wanted to be bred like the bitch I am. He fucked me with a few more strokes and I felt his cum filling my ass. Damn that felt hot. He gave me his number afterwards but I found out that it was just a tad bit messy because I was not completely clean back there. Damn. Guess it happens once in a while. I did not go home to use my water douche I went straight from work. I mistake I won't make again. Fortunately it wasn't too bad and could have been "MUCH" worse. But I got to finally feel the difference between a closeted bottom pretending to be a dom top and an actual dom top. The closet bottom top kept telling me what to do and wouldn't shut up and kept being "needy" and was too much bluff. The dom top just wanted ass. I sucked him and after he was hard and wet he shoved his cock up my ass after poppering me up and raped my ass. Damn that was hot. Now I know what a top really is. And now I know what to look for and what not to. ..So yeah from now on if I go straight from work I need to find a way to douche myself completely. Otherwise just come home and do it and go back out but deal with shit traffic. Oh well I'm sure it's happened to everyone once in a while. All in all it will help me become a better bottom

Well I have an android shirt with two androids holding a rainbow flag. I have an old shirt that someone gave me that is yellow and says "Get blown by a sailor", another that is blue with a jockstrap on it and I have a few bear ones. I don't have many of the gay subtle ones though. Ones like MILF, I've seen one that says BILF with a bear on it. Sort of gay prints like that. If that's the word for it. Thanks

Heh. These tumblers are great. This reminds me of when I was younger and I was looking for porn online and sites like kingfuraday and other daddy fucking porn picture sites were really popular and I had to save all those pictures to my computer and jack off to them. Tumblr makes it so much easier and more convenient. I am honestly tired of all this olympics talk and pictures I see everywhere. I just want to see holes being fucked and bred (wishing they were mine)

Haha. I love the post about only bottoms on and no tops logging on. You sure that ain't Atlanta? I think rawtop mentioned something once that it had something to do with the browser and the way the cache was saved or something. Or maybe that was a while back when there was actually a problem. I did remember that one time once. It does not happen much anymore but sometimes bbrt does randomly not allow you to log on. It never says there is an actual problem it just loops the log in process and makes you go "FUUUUUUU". I have seen them post sometimes when they will go down for repair. All in all I am pretty happy with bbrt. If only there were more guys (tops) on it >_>, , >_<, X_X, o.o'

I have not seriously cruised bathrooms, truckstops, parks, and motel areas yet though. What I do though is on weekends when I go out I try to dress stylish. Some nice short jean shorts, nice tight shirt usually some gay print or message on it and the jeans shorts and tight jeans show off my ass nicely. I've gotten looks when I go out like that. Now going out to bars. Used to wear leather but not much of it anymore. I've worn onion skin like mesh shorts or white see through shorts with a very small and tight shirt and I got cruised on big time. I have also started wearing daisy duke shorts that shows my dick when I get hard and really shows off my ass. I love those. Need to work out a bit more though and I can try some other things. I also wear a leather wristband too. Fucking love that. I do miss wearing leather though. No where to really wear it in this town though. In time.

I agree with what people are saying about other sites like manhunt with stating "safe only" and they will end up barebacking. Two guys on other hook up sites had safer sex in their profile and they are the ones who sort of started me with barebacking. A little alcohol and making out on the couch and some raw cock in my ass. Some making out and sucking in the bed and the guy "just wanted feel it bare" and he ended up fucking me raw a bit. They did not actually breed me though that came later. But then..there are some who say "safer sex" and are condom nazis and fucking mean it. I still have safer sex on my profile though not ready to take that off yet. I have not fully commited to barebacking yet but I'm right at that line and it seems I'll cross it. Interestingly if things went another way I might have completely stopped barebacking and only done safe sex with one guy. In some ways I am sort of fortunate that did not happen. I think this is what it really is. You talk to a guy in a bar, "oh yeah I use condoms and do safe sex". And then you end up breeding him or he ends up breeding you. Same as on an online site. It's probably more politically correct to say "safe sex" even if the person doesn't practice it. It's just a shield to hide behind. I do wish I could be more open about it. Seriously though, when I first turned 18 I went to a bunch of sex clubs and bath houses having sex and that got reported back to someone else. Snitches.. Reputations do follow you even if you don't realize it. Whether you are a flake online at a club or bar, if you are cheap, kind, easy, impossible to get to, etc. People do talk and people do know or assume. The only difference to people that are out is that they don't let it get to them. But being at a younger age I don't think it's the best thing in the world to let people know sexually what you are like and to do your best to have a good reputation. But having no reputation (like credit) also sucks too. ..I think there is a time and place for everything. As I said when I first posted this some people are at different stages or points in their life, "bi, young, married, curious, out, and etc." But it's interesting learning about how open some are. I did not think there would be this many responses but glad there is. I still won't go to a bar and openly announce "Hai guys I liek to get breed and eat cum and used like a bitch. PIMP ME OUT!". I'd do more subtle things like wear damn tight or small shorts, jock straps, show more body, and etc. Subtleness can be very sexy sometimes.