JustProwling

Vacationing in Hawaii and planned to collect several loads, BUT it didn't quite pan out like I hoped, for various reasons. Early this morning, before the sun even rose, I signed in to a scat site I frequent and found a local dude. I solicited his ass-eating services and within minutes, he responded and was eager to taste my hole. He was close to my hotel and just walked over a few minutes later. He immediately started digging his tongue into my hole and ate me out deep. He asked if he could put his dick in me, but I hesitated and eventually gave in. He lubed my hole up, mounted me, fucked me on all 4's, then on my stomach, then on my back. Eventually he busted a decent load right up my guts. While I trekked around the island that day, I let it soak in.

Got my latest loads on Thursday night. It was my day off and I planned a breeding session with my regular 43 y/o white TOTAL top jock bud that evening. Long story short, I went to his place, we made out and fooled around, he deep rimmed my hole, then I rode his big, thick dick for a while. After several minutes and MANY popper hits, he got me on my stomach, face down, and mounted me. He pumped and ground his 3-day load into my ass, balls deep. He never pulled out and rolled me over with him and fell asleep with his dick still in my ass. An hour or so later, I came back home, so I could get sleep and work all the next day. When I got home, I found I had a couple of emails on BBRT. They were from some new guy I hadn't come across before. He's a hot 29 y/o white guy, with an athletic build, dark features, and VERY nice hairy body. We emailed a couple of times and found out he literally lived right down the street for me. He was really horned up and offered to pump his 7-day load up my ass. I hesitated, because of working the next day, but quickly gave in and headed to his place. I pulled up, he let me in, and had me get in doggy style position on his couch. He stepped up and mounted me from behind, slid his cock right in my already juiced up hole, and emptied his balls right in my guts. After he pumped me full, we small-talked for a moment, and I came home and went straight to bed with my ass still wet and sticky and a total of 10 days worth of cum and sperm swimming around in my guts. Still feeling them both in my sore ass right now and I fuckin LOVE it.

Taken 3 so far and my 3rd just a couple of hours ago...absorbing a 4 day load in my guts while I type this.

Just got a 4 day load a couple of hours ago. It's still stewing and absorbing into my guts as I write this. Today is my total top jock's 43rd birthday, so I went over, spread my legs for him, and took his 4-day load balls deep. He never pulled out 1 time and fell asleep with his dick still inside me, while I milked every drop of cum from his nuts.

I've only had one condom inside me, my entire life and I NEVER want to add more to that count. I go out of my way to avoid and turn down guys who want to rubber up. I really, REALLY don't want to, but I've considered changing my stance, when it comes to dating and the thought of possibly missing out on a decent relationship/dating-type guy. If it's JUST a fuck and nothing more, then bareback is my ONLY option.

I'm a Gemini, so I've always said I have natural multiple personality disorder, but we've all come to terms with one another...for the most part. heh

Quote~"But I guess my main response to someone like JustProwling would be that I've found (through extensive experience ) that versatile guys usually make MUCH better sexual partners than total tops or total bottoms. I think that's because you can learn an awful lot about how to be a good bottom by fucking one, and vice versa. Whereas total tops never experience just what it is they're doing to their bottoms, not directly at least, so they're less apt to pick up on all those great techniques and tricks that another really good top might teach them." I can see that, BUT I'd have to say that's also another preferential thing. I definitely agree that it adds much more variety and more options for different things, and that's never a bad thing. But that said, I still make a clear distinction between a "top" who HAS bottomed, versus a perpetual flip-flopper who regularly DESIRES to bottom. Quote~"My guess is that guys who flip probably prefer one position or the other and view their less favored position as the "price of admission" to get with a guy they like, but they'll revert to their preferred position as quickly as they can. In other words, the kind of tops JustProwling is talking about really want to be bottoms, but for some reason feel like they have to top to get into having sex at all, if that makes any sense." MascMountainMan, that's EXACTLY what it is! For example, lots of guys labeled "vers/bottom" offer to get into my hole, but to me, that's just a fluke and not their NATURAL disposition, so to speak. And that's the thing, I'm just not satisfied with a fluke or an exception and I don't want to feel like I'm settling. I'd prefer to have a dude ALWAYS be focused on HIS dick and MY ass...with various activities in between, of course, but that's gotta be the CONSISTENT and NATURAL basis or focus. Another example is when I see profiles of guys stating to be fully vers, YET the first thing in their profiles are ass shots and how they're looking for tops too. It's like, dude...if you're vers, but primarily looking for a top, then say you're a vers/BOTTOM and cut out the pretense...cause you're clearly just another bottom if you truly had your way. It's not about the labels, but it IS about your TRUE desire. I want you to be in my hole, because it's your nature to be in my hole, not just because you temporarily strayed from your "normal" role. Don't present one thing and try to sell me another. For the record, I used to be vers, but something inside JUST didn't sit right. Stimulation of my dick PHYSICALLY feels good, of course, but my personal nature just isn't as a top, psychologically. I still top on rare occasions, but as I said earlier, I do it JUST to use a hole and get physically stimulated and other acts of depravity. I get no "deeper" satisfaction from the act of topping, whereas I get MAXIMUM satisfaction from spreading my hole open for a "real" top to breed. Sorry, I don't know how to quote the snippets...so I just copied and pasted.

Darn those pesky brain chemicals!

Honestly, I would be one of those bottoms that turns down vers guys, more often than not. I think, in many cases, it really just boils down to the semantics in the mental game we play with ourselves. It's got nothing to do with whether or not you're "manly enough"; but it's got everything to do with our own mentality as bottoms. Personally, I aim high and then lower my sights, if I don't get proper results. That simply means, my PRIORITY is finding a FULL-TIME top...obviously that's the difference between a part-time top. I want a guy who IS a top, not just someone who CAN top. So my priority is to find a 100% Top, then work my way down to vers/top, then vers, etc...but when I start having to work my way down the list, it turns more into NOT how I can take care of a top's dick, but simply how I can use the "lesser-in-priority" guys for my own purposes only. it's a dynamic of I prefer bottom, so I wouldn't go out of my way trying to get with another dude who prefers to take it as much as I do. That defeats the purpose of being a bottom. If you change the analogy, it's almost synonymous to "generally" perceived gender roles of straight coupling...the role of the male being the stud for his female...he gives it to her and she takes it. NOT the other way around. In other words, we all know there are plenty of males being dominated by their females, cuckolded, penetrated, etc., but those scenarios tend to be the exception and not the rule. Did that make sense? Don't wanna be long-winded, but I'm NOT calling a bottom a female, I'm just trying to convey that many bottoms have a particular mindset or preferred role programmed as part of their psyche (for whatever reason). Therefore, it can be difficult or just flat out undesirable to alter that dynamic. To me, it's VERY mentally-unappealing to know that the dude who's breeding me wants to bottom as much as I do. I'm not interested in flip-flopping, so if I have the choice between a 100% top and a 100% vers, then I'm gonna go after that 100% top every time...and then the sliding scale comes into play with tops as the priority and moving down the line from there. It also depends on the exact scenario as well. If I'm looking for a REAL date/boyfriend/whatever, then I'm not going to look to a dude who prefers bottom to fill that relationship role; the same as if I were a Top, then I wouldn't make other tops my hookup-priority. If I'm JUST looking for a fuck only, then yeah, I'm more easy-going and open. I hope I didn't JUST ramble incoherently, but that's my personal take...the bottom line is that I DO tend to overlook vers guys, because they just don't fulfill my psychological preferences and needs, so to speak. I realize I miss out on lots of guys, because of that. I'm slowly expanding myself beyond all that clutter, to be open to more options, but that's just my personal explanation to why I bypass vers guys. All a mental game and about the personal psyche...for various reasons...

There are NO other options whatsoever. Internal ONLY is the way it should be. The ONLY acceptable alternative is if I'm specifically looking to suck a dick and swallow (or something to that effect). I have and will continue to turn down guys that don't pump INSIDE or that use rubbers. Part of my screening process is to ALWAYS ensure me and the top both have the specific agenda of getting his nut pumped into me BEFORE meeting. Otherwise, I'll just str8 up tell them that I'm not interested and they're a waste of my time, if they intend on pulling out or rubbering up.

I was raised Baptist and did the whole church every Sunday thing with my mom and grandmother. But I also went to private Catholic school for SEVERAL years and was forced to attend and participate in Mass...also attended private Baptist school as well. I never bought into any of that mess and refused to be baptized. I also attended my traditional Native American Pow Wows. I've personally always considered myself to be Pagan/traditional Native American and have always believed and practiced as such.

My regular breeder actually told me he wanted to wait to fuck again all the way until April. He got an HIV test and wanted to wait the 90 day waiting period to retest and be sure. We started talking and he got too worked up and just couldn't resist, so he asked me to come over. It was out of the ordinary, but he actually had lights off and scented candles burning for me. We made out and finally got down to business. He told me he was going to make a baby in my ass...he definitely accomplished that. This was last night and I'm still feeling him as I type this now.

Apparently I'm now a full-fledged barebacker! I'm actually kind of honored! ha

Thanks for encouragement guys! Since I made the original post, I've definitely slutted out and gotten my hole used a bit more than usual. Evilqueer & Deaner, at this point, I know I'll never be an all-loads-taken type. I just can't let myself go THAT far out, but I do think it's unfortunate for me that I'll be missing out on all that fuckin sperm swimming in guts. I'll continue to lower my inhibitions and steadily increase the number of men that use me, but I'll continue to screen too. I want to exist to take the cum from dudes I WANT to take the cum from, but I PROMISE I'm allowing easier access to my hole. Slo & NiceHard, I admit I'd be weaker than not, for you both to mount and breed my guts. I think I may have knowingly taken my 1st poz dick the other day. I was there STRICTLY to use his mouth to eat my ass. Somehow, he managed to get his bare dick in me raw. I actually encouraged him to load me up, since he was inside, but he just didn't get off. Considering that, it might be a slow pace, but I'm still actively letting my hole get used more and more.

I actually had the opposite problem once on BBRT & A4A. Some idiot hit me up on BBRT and tried to hook up with me. The SAME guy messaged me on A4A, but didn't realize it was me, so I talked to him "normally", before I told him mine was the hole he offered to get into. I was ready to spread my hole for him. I wanted to ensure I got a TRUE breeding and told him absolutely no pulling out to cum. Then he tells me that he fucks raw, but doesn't cum inside hookups, because he didn't want to risk being responsible for spreading anything to anyone...even tho he claimed to be neg. He also said he didn't cum in holes outside of dating/relationships. My jaw dropped and I was just like "WTF, dude? You're an idiot, who doesn't make sense AND you just wasted my time." I didn't even attempt to bother with him again, after his idiocy.

Just a small addition...he actually posted a vid a while back where he actually flipped and bottomed for his boyfriend and he got loaded up. So he dashed the TOTAL top fantasy. Still COMPLETELY hot tho...just throwing that out there!

Had a guy I met once before, from online, just pump 2 weeks worth of cum right into my guts. He kept fucking without pulling out and pumped a 2nd load in me, right after the 1st. We rested a bit and he blew a 3rd load right on my used hole and pressed my ass-cheeks together to rub it in...he left less than 10 minutes ago and my hole's still very wet and FRESHLY loaded up as I sit here and type this...about to hit poppers and get myself off now.

For the sake of chiming in...I'd say I'm about an 8-8.5 when I'm all "polished". I'd say I typically go for 3-9.5. Depending on the details, if I'm prowling, I usually prefer 4-8.5 and go progressively lower for specific activities or last resorts. I go progressively higher just for the sheer sake of physical attraction...I wanna get mounted and bred by "real studs", so my primal side naturally seeks the best stock and breed of Top Man. But I also admit, the higher the number and the more "stud-like", the more intimidated I can get. Depends on my mood and ALL the details with me...this includes personality, intelligence, physical appearance, relationship status, hiv status, etc... So any guy may or may not be a "proper" stud to me, depending on the details.

Mine was early yesterday morning. Met up with a regular top. He's a 43 y/o white, muscled jock type. He asked me to come over late that night, so I prepped and did. When I got there, we made out a lot and he fingered and rimmed me long and deep. When he loosened my tight hole up some, he mounted me from behind like a bitch. He had me lay on my stomach and climbed on top, to really break my hole in, and he told me he was going to make a baby in my ass. Eventually, he pumped his nut right up my hole really slowly and really made sure to press and grind his entire body into me, so I could feel every bit of him. I left early morning, before the sun rose. That early morning, I let him release himself in my ass before he had to go to work and he sent ME to work with cum-flooded guts. We were both tired yesterday, but it was completely worth every drop of it...pun intended.

Glad to see I'm not the only one that feels that way. I don't know if it's too extreme of my mentality, but it honestly just str8-up turns me OFF when others guys are interested in my cock and cum. Physically, yes it feels good, but mentally, not only does it do nothing for me...it just turns me off and makes me lose all interest. As a bottom, I need men who are SOLELY focused on my hole and THEIR dick, in order to keep my FULL interest. Otherwise I may just go through the motions and consider them overall INCOMPATIBLE.

I wear a jockstrap. Sometimes it helps let it be known that I'm providing easy access to my hole, but I'm not interested in providing dick and cum.

Funny incident...previously I said I ordered 2 bottles of poppers and they got lost in the mail. I bought a brand new bottle at a local store, for the past weekend. The company RE-shipped my order for free. My new order was in my mailbox today and MAGICALLY, so was my original order. Now I'm overrun with poppers! Jeez! Btw...some of you guys wanted to know good online places to order from. I use 4poppers.com. They're legit, FAST, I'm happy, I recommend them. And I've found that they are the cheapest...and I compared item prices & shipping charges to other sites and 4poppers always came out the best. AND they send coupons by email maybe monthly (if you sign up)...definitely not spamworthy. Combine the discount to your order and there you have good and cheap poppers...selection aplenty!

Hey TotalBottom, thanks for the bran tip. So far, it sounds like a big portion, of having an ever-ready hole has to do with diet. From what I've seen so far, I'm under the impression that I should just adjust my diet a bit and continue to douche and clean normally. So with that said, are there any other tips and/or tricks of the trade?...no pun intended. heh Again, I'm looking for feedback on how to ease and quicken the hole-cleaning process and/or how to just have a more-ready-than-not hole...so I'm wondering how slut bottoms have their holes ready SO often and how I can be a little more like them. And PissPigBrooklyn & TotalBottom, you're right about the puffy lips! I personally LOVE it when my hole looks used and puffy, it just lets me know the top really did his job inside my ass! I also like to observe and compare the status of my hole.

I purchased my very 1st bottle of poppers, Jungle Juice Black. They definitely turned me into a popper pig. Now I'm on to my 2nd bottle, English Royale. Between those 2, the high on JJB seemed to be a little more smooth and drawn out just a bit longer, whereas ER feels just a bit more "abrupt" of a high. I've also noticed very minor headaches on ER. Long story short, I ordered Amsterdam "pink" label and English Premium to test during a piggy weekend...BUT they got lost in the mail (which is why I bought English Royale at a local spot)! Based on some reviews/ratings/feedback I researched, English Premium sounds more hardcore raunchy with a big BANG, but Amsterdam sounds a little more smooth and "feel good"...without a sense of hardcore abruptness...if that makes sense. At any rate, I'll use up the English Royale for now and will be testing Amsterdam and English Premium when my replacement order arrives.

I know I lucked out with that dude, denotek! I'll remember him forever for sure!