I'm 33 and over the years have gone from really vanilla to getting turned on by much sleazier stuff. My ex used to bareback fuck me all the time and since we split up i've been really fantasising about becoming the bareback slut i'd like to be. last year I fucked a hot guy bb i pulled at a bar in london, and that was so hot - i'm more of a bottom but at that point I wasn't going to get fucked bareback. Then a few months later I finally let a guy fuck me bareback, was the hottest sex ive ever had, he was fit, spat on me, pinned me down by neck,and blew three loads up my ass throughout the night. I then spent three months proper worrying about hiv and tested twice to make sure.
Thing is, there is no way i could go back to some guy using a condom to fuck me, i find them such a turn off now.... but im not brave enough to be the slut I want to be. So i've stopped having sex since that last fuck. Thing is, will i regret not having the sex i want in a few years? I'm scared about being poz, and im not a chaser, but I need to get fucked soon and ill need it bareback. Ideally Id like to find a regular fuck buddy thats negative but most guys into bareback are poz in london. Should i try harder at finding a neg guy to bb with, or should i accept that ill end up poz and get fucked by some hot poz guys, or should i just continue not having sex (that last option is making me frustrated as fuck)