Sub-Cocksucker

Even though looking back on it, I am glad it happened, at the time, it was rape. I was not all that young though, 19 i think. I was at a party in the woods, a bit drunk, I walked away from the campfire on a trail. An older man in his 50s I would say walked up to me with his cock out. He was 100% top dom in charge. "hey faggot I have some cock for you" I protested and was shocked, he slapped the shit out of me and pushed me down. Grabbed me by the hair and started rubbing his cock all over my face. I still protested, and he slapped me several more times, I was seeing stars. Im not sure if it was from being in shock at the situation, of my (not yet known to me) submissive nature. But I stopped fighting him, and took his cock in my mouth. He verbally abused me constantly, calling me a cocksucker, a faggot. I sucked his cock some, but it was more him grabbing me by the head and fucking my mouth. I remember crying, gagging, choking on his cock, while he slapped me, called me names. He finally came in my mouth and some on my face, Rubbing the cum all over my face with his cock. Then he zipped up and walked away. I was there on my knees in the dirt, face a mess, crying. Thats when I noticed I was rock hard, which really fucked with my head and freaked me out. I walked home eventually. And for the next few days could not stop thinking about what happened. And I got hard instantly every time I thought about it. Which kept messing with my head bad. I was ashamed of what I did, even more ashamed that my cock got hard from it. I think I lasted 3, 4 weeks at the most, and I caved, and started seeking out a cock to suck again. That man literally turned me into a cocksucker. And to this day, I am a cocksucker, totally addicted to sucking random men off. And yes, I prefer very dom, very verbal older men. I dont know how much of this was in me to begin with, and how much of it is what he turned me into. But at this point, I dont care, I am a cocksucker. And honestly, if its literally due to him making me like this... the idea of that makes me hard.

Sooooooo good, please continue this.

Love chatting with other kinky people about fantasies. I am very open minded and my mind often waders to wild kinky [banned word] fantasies. Tell me what makes your cock drip. If you dont want to post it here feel free to PM me. If yours are similar to mine I will share mine also.

Sent you an email sir.

I dont necessarily like throat FUCKED like that, But I do LOVE it slowly and steadily slid BALLS deep over and over, and I LOOOOVE it held down my throat so I cant breathe. To the point he has me about to pass out.

I feel like I need to post in this thread I started again, Lately I have been sucking off several homeless men on a regular basis. Im not sure how to put this in words, but maybe some of you will understand this. I guess its a sub thing. And the fact that cock just has such an effect on me. But two of the homeless men I suck off have VERY dirty smelly uncut cocks. When I drop to my knees for these men, it will make me gag just a bit, then they will get verbal, and rub their dirty cocks on my lips, and then into my mouth. At this point, I am in this strange head space, where I am grossed out by what I am doing, yet, I am SUCKING these dirty cocks, I am cleaning them off, and I feel so dominated and put in my place. Renforcing what a cocksucking faggot I am, on my knees in an alley, sucking off dirty homeless cocks. It reminds me some of when I first started drinking piss, I cant say I liked the taste, But being made to do it, really put me in my place. I have drank so much piss now, that I will lock my lips on the head of a cock and just SWALLOW it all down. I guess its only a matter of time before I am eagerly sucking dirty uncut cocks with NO hesitation.

These are my two favs, the pony one cuz of the flared head popping past my second ring. and the k 9 one cuz of the knot popping in and out of my first ring. I can also wear it like a butt plug.

I eat my own cum a good bit, I LOVE cum, so I cant really help it. I would rather swallow down a bunch of strangers cum, but I get it where I can 😉 Often I will cum on a black plate I have, since it looks so good on it, Minutes later, I cant help myself, the sight of it. Then I smell it, and HAVE to lick it up. Its a constant reminder of what I am, really puts me in my place that I just HAVE to lick it up.

I would like to find someone to chat or email with on an ongoing basis, that has experience with long term submission, training, conditioning, sex slave experiences. I used to have someone that emailed with me and tell me about what they have done in the past, what led them to this point, and tell me about new experiences as they accrued. This person was WAY further down the rabbit hole than me, and it fueled my mind with kindy sub thoughts.

No sorry I dont, just some random image I saw online one time, and thought it was very fitting for me.

I have a million and one kinky fantasies, and for some reason this photo has always triggered one for me. Any time I see a sissies ass, all I can think about is eating it out. This photo makes me want to be on my knees with her in that restroom, eating her ass. Waiting for a trucker to walk in that wants to use her. I suck his cock till its hard, spit on it, and guide it into her hole. I stay there on my knees right next to her plump ass, any time his cock pops out, I suck it. Once he has dumped his load in her and pulls out, I suck his cock clean, milking out every last drop of cum. If the trucker wants to piss before or after using the sissy, I lock my lips on the head of his cock and gulp down his piss. Once he leaves, I go back to eating her ass, sucking out the cum, waiting for the next guy. Hoping a bare minimum of 10 guys use her.

BUMP, still looking for a chat/email buddy.

Sucked off 7 random cocks since thursday. All spur of the moment Grindr hookups. Meet, drop to my knees, suck, swallow, leave. Just the way I like it. Best was last night, left the first guys place, went straight to the next guys. Nothing like starting to suck a cock,, with the taste of cum already in your mouth.

I built my own from some parts and a kit for the controller, I would recommend NOT getting anything cheap or small, it will disappoint you, I know you are all like me, you want POUNDED. Mine is very powerful, you basically cant stop it. I tie it down to a post in my basement so its very steady. Trust me, if you get a good strong machine,,, it will out fuck any man. Its a hell of an experience being fucked for a couple hours STRAIGHT.

Can I be part of this too please? @Cyberwind Love chatting with DOM men, and other subs that have been into some wild kink.

Drinking a mans piss really puts me in my place, I lock my lips on the head of the cock and GULP it down. I get especially horny and submissive feeling some nights, so I will piss in a glass and drink it. There have been days I purposely drink alot, and drink ALL my piss the entire day. If I lived with a dom daddy that owned me, I want to be made to drink ALL his piss every single time he has to piss.

I really miss it too, I sucked off SO many cocks from CL. Grindr app is pretty good if you want to suck random cock, I use it for that. But I have a hard time finding TRUE DOM DADDIES on any of the apps or websites. I got used and abused hard from CL hookups pretty often.

I am about 4.5" or so. I have always had a fantasy that every time I was fucked it shrank some, further reinforcing me as a faggot. Till one day, its so small I literally cant jerk off. Forcing me to constantly be frustrated to cum, and constantly fucking my hole to try to cum.

I was fingering and sticking random household items in my ass very very young. Well before I could cum, or even knew what that was. I was often piss on myself, tasted it some. Until one day my cousin that was 1 year older than me fed me his piss. I remember drinking his piss every single time we were together. It was well before i knew anything about sex, and I never even sucked his cock.

I would say I eat my cum 80% of the time. Alot of the time, I will cum on a plate, leave it sit in front of me, doesnt take long before seeing it there drives me crazy, then I will smell the cum, That triggers me, and I lick up every single drop. I LOVE cum, i just wish my load was huge. Hell i wish every guys load was HUGE. Its to the point, I have thought about seeing if guys will save me their cum to drink.

I know this is out of the ordinary for here, but I am selective of who fucks me. Basically you need to be black, or a VERY dom older man. But,,,,,, As far as sucking cock, I have no control and I have sucked off ALOT of very nasty men. The above post reminds me so much of a guy I service, met him at a gloryhole years ago, Very over weight, fairly small uncut cock, one of the nastiest dirtiest cocks I have ever sucked. Always shoots a big thick load though. After sucking him off a few times at the gloryhole he wanted my contact info, and I gave it to him. Now he will contact me randomly, and I will goto his place and suck him off. Its a very odd feeling, being on my knees for him, sucking his NASTY cock, being grossed out at times, But feeling so put in my place, and so horny at the same time.

The second the knot popped inside me, it was my new favorite toy. Been also using it as a butt plug, sucked off a stranger from Grindr with it in my hole the other night.

I am a normal average looking guy, I dont look fem at all, so no, you cant tell by looking at me. I also keep my sex life separate from my normal life, so thats a good thing. That being said, part of me would like to be an obvious faggot, so that men could use me often soon as they see me. One of my favorite experiences was when I stopped at a rest area on a trip, which I try to cruise when I can. I was walking back to my vehicle, which was parks near the end of the lot, next to where the trucks park. I was about to get something out of the back of my vehicle, when a trucker walked right past me. With the most dominate attitude he grabs his crotch and says, want to suck this cock FAGGOT? I instantly blurted out, yes sir, without even thinking. He laughed and said follow me faggot. I followed him into the back of his truck and sucked his cock like my life depended on it. He humiliated and verbally abused me the entire time, soon as I swallowed down his load he pushed me off him, and said, ok faggot, get the fuck out. I donno if he just figured what the hell I will see what happens, or if he could just tell. I swear, I get the sense he just, knew. And I admit, I wish all true dom men knew I was a FAGGOT.

I am seeing someone that would like to email and/or chat with me on a regular basis. Someone that will ask me to spill my guts about how much of dirty faggot I am. Someone that will keep my mind filled with dirty thoughts. Someone to share my daily sexual acts with. Someone to trade fantasies and desires with. Kinda someone to keep me accountable for being such a dirty faggot. Also into trading porn and links. Into any age, but ideally would like to connect with an older Very Dom man.