LoadMyHoleSF

Spent the holidays in Europe taking loads in Paris and Berlin. The best night was at a bar called Scheune in Berlin. There was a small dark room in the back. They used to have a basement but for some reason it’s closed and they only have the small room now. I was very disappointed at first because I had a good experience there on a prior trip when I had gotten gangbanged. When I went back in the dark room, there were only about four or five guys. Not much seemed to be happening. I left and the same guys were still there about five minutes later. This time there seemed to be a little more action happening. One guy had a very thick beer can sized dick typical of many Germans which he had out and was stroking. I started making out with him and then he went down and sucked my dick for a while. I was actually worried he might be a bottom. But then I reciprocated and sucked his dick. He then turned me around and started fucking my ass. Even though I’ve gotten fucked by many guys for four days in a row, his girth made it slow going in the beginning. He needed to stretch open my hole wider and deeper than my previous fucks. He fucked me for a while and then I’m not sure if he passed me on to someone else or decided to take a break but when he pulled out another guy jumped on immediately. He then fucked me until he shot his load. Mr. Beer Can Cock jumped back on and did the same in my now squishy hole. He was followed by another 4-5 guys who all unloaded in me. With the exception of Mr. Beer Can, I have no idea what the rest of the guys looked like, but I was certainly happy to get their loads. 45 minutes later when I came out, my friends that I was traveling with said I looked exhausted. After we left there, we went to another bar where I had a few more loads put in me. Quite a hot night!

Had a fun communion last time I went. I hadn’t gone for a while and decided to go to the one at Steamworks in Berkeley. I also had a friend in town and he wanted to go as well. I try to write about my cumdump experiences that are different or unique to me. As anyone knows who’s read my prior entries, since I became a cumdump a couple years ago I’ve had lots of loads in my hole. It’s definitely been a progression. When I first started I was excited to get a 2 or 3 loads in my hole. Now I would consider that a slow night. ? it seems like the more you get, the more it increases the hunger within you. This time while At communion I had quite an enjoyable time with the top. I have been there for a little bit and gotten fucked by a few guys and taking some loads so I decided it was time to position myself on the fuck bench. I hadn’t been there for too long when a top bear came over and started to finger my hole. After realizing that it was pre-lubed with cum, he quickly proceeded to put it in his dick with one thrust. He had a nice thickness to him and some length but not too much. So he was able to slide right in my cum lubed and open hole. He used it well for about 10 minutes; all while talking loudly about how good my hole was and how he was going to bust his nut in there. He increased his pace and got louder as he got closer to coming. When coming, he shouted and moaned, yelling “here’s number one” for the benefit of the crowd that had circled to watch. When he had finished, he started talking to the crowd and asking “who’s got number two?”. Another guy jumped on my hole proceeded to fuck me and unload. This continued for about an hour with my bear top encouraging others to use my hole and keeping track all the while. By the end I had a good five loads in me and a second one from him! Overall a great experience! After another hour or so when the crowd begin to die down, I decided to head home. But because I still had a need in me to be used, I decided to stop in the park and see if anything would happen. They were a few guys about in the area near the bathrooms where men cruise for sex. There was one black guy already under the tree near the handicap ramp where guys go to fuck and suck. I leaned over the ramp and pulled down my sweatpants exposing my ass and turned around to look at the guy. He had already pulled out his dick and was stroking it. He walked over and pushed me down to suck on his nice meaty 8 inches. When I was sucking on him, he started rubbing and feeling up my ass till he got to my hole. When he felt how wet and loose my hole was, he immediately turned me around and shove it right in. He started fucking and bucking like a stallion in heat while held onto the railing for dear life! After roughly fucking me for 5 minutes, he pulled me towards him and thrust in deep to unload. When done, he immediately pulled out, shoved his dick in his pants and left, leaving me with my ass exposed and cum dripping down my leg. I decided to walk more of the park to see if I could get any more loads. Turned out to be my lucky night! I ran into another black guy with a nice 8 inch dick as well and he proceeded to fuck me behind the bushes for a nice long session for about 45 minutes or more. He got me so horned up that I kept on stripping off more and more of my clothes because I wanted to be comfortable and experience all of him. By the end I was stark naked bent over just taken his dick. He was a great fucker! He’d pull in all the way out and slam it back in my sloppy hole. When he was ready to unload he made sure to get in even deeper so that his balls were slapping against my ass as he came in my hole. We talked briefly after and exchanged names and how we hoped to meet each other again. I wished I had gotten his number because he was so good! After him my hole felt satisfied and I went home to sleep well that night!

Part 3 My last night in Berlin was the best! I went to Scheune which is becoming a new favorite of mine. After buying a beer and checking my coat, I headed downstairs to the play area. I knew I wanted to be an exhibitionist and get as many loads as possible, so I headed over to the sling area. Next to the sling, there was a wall with a grid of metal over it. I started to undress taking off my jeans while holding onto the metal. There was a heavyset German guy who was watching me while rubbing the bulge in his pants. From the look he was giving me I knew he wanted some ass and to unload. He had that look of hunger. I turned to make sure that he would have a clear view of my ass and my jockstrap while I stripped off the remainder of my clothes. He moved closer to me so I pulled out his dick and was stroking the stubby thickness of it. He put a hand on my ass and started rubbing and squeezing it while fingering my hole. I leaned forward. In the meantime a few other guys have been attracted to the action and were standing behind him in a semi circle. Between the crowd and my available ass, this guy didn’t need any more prompting. He bent me over and thrust his dick dick inside of me. It felt so good to know that I was being used in front of this crowd of men. He shoved and grunted with an urgency to unload. It didn’t take him long but once he was done immediately a member of the audience jumped on my ass and took his place. For the next half hour all of the 6-8 guys in the semi circle took their turns in my hole. Each one unloaded in me till they were all spent and I was left standing while cum dripped down my leg out of my hole. I felt like such a well used cumdump. It was incredibly satisfying and I was grateful for all of their loads.

Part 2 The remainder of my time at CDL was spent with the younger top who insisted on using a condom. Because he was so handsome I obliged and felt some fulfillment when after he fucked me, he took off the condom and stroked his thick meaty dick to unload right on my hole. With cum dripping off of my hole and down my leg, I walked around CDL for one last time as the small crowd seem to be disappearing. I got roughly shoved into one of the cubbies where an older masculine top pushed me over and thrust into me. He didn’t seem to care whether I would accommodate him but just took what he needed. He instinctively sensed that I was a cum dump and treated my hole accordingly. He grabbed my shoulders while fucking my hole in a circular motion. He thrust hard against my hole’s walls and I knew that his goal was to unload in me as quickly as possible. He switched to deep dicking me and slamming into my hole balls deep. With a growl he thrust even harder and unloaded as deep in me as he possibly could. He left it there for a minute and then as he pulled out, he pushed me off of him. By the time I had gotten my balance back, he was gone. I was left with the smell of his sweat and cum and the overwhelming sense of his masculinity and superiority over me. Shaken, I walked back to the hotel. I jerked off thinking about his treatment of me; feeling that I had been “just a hole” and knowing that this made me want to submit even more.

I was on hiatus for a couple of months after my last STI treatment, discovering that my viral load had increased and that I was no longer undetectable. I was really weighing whether or not I should continue with my lifestyle choice of being a cumdump. Yet the urge in me remained. I felt like I had lost the part of me that I had spent two years discovering after YEARS of repressing my desires. Crazy to think that repressing my need to be a cumdump felt like chopping off my arm. I thought about returning back to an occasional one on one bareback hook up, but there is a sense of purpose in me that feels fulfilled when I open my hole up to be used. Over the past few years I’ve come to accept that ANY man has the right to use my hole. So on a recent trip to Germany I went back to my wonderful ways and I offered my hole up to ALL takers. Things started off pretty slow. The first night I went to a sex party at a bar called CDL. I’ve never been there before and wanted to try it out. It was naked night which worked for me. I grabbed a beer from the small bar at the front and started to explore the back play space. It wasn’t too large; just some cubbies in a couple of areas with those thin sex club mattresses. About 10 men were cruising the space. Perhaps because it was a Thursday night. I decided to display myself on one of the mattresses with my ass up and ready. It didn’t take too long before a top decided to take the bait. He was Spanish looking with a little larger than average cock that had a Prince Albert. It took a little work to get him in since I hadn’t gotten fucked for a couple of months, but once he was there he started using my hole. He was a thruster and a pounder, pushing me down on the mattress and shoving a pillow under my legs so he could access my hole better. His Prince Albert felt SOOO good sliding against the walls of my hole. He switched directions several times to experience a different part of my hole stretching it out to accommodate his needs. By the end of 30 minutes, I was begging to feel his smooth silky cum coat the walls of my hole. He thrust harder pulling completely out and slamming back in; the Prince Albert sliding in and out past the outer rim of my hole till with a groan he thrust deep in me and unloaded. Good start to my return as I cumdump! Got opened up nicely AND loaded! I hadn’t realized it but there had been another guy watching us who jumped on as soon as Prince Albert left. He was a quick cummer and lasted for five minutes of repetitive thrusts. He squeezed me at the end and kissed me with his bad breath. I was beginning to feel the sense of exhilaration that comes from my hole being used as a cumdump. I knew I didn’t care that the last guy was older, unattractive and sure didn’t know how to fuck. I was embracing the need and desire to be used over and over again. End of part one. Part two the journey continues.

Heading to Vegas for the weekend of May 18 through the 20th. Anyone have any ideas or advice about the best places to be used as a cumdump? Love sex in public and back rooms. Heading to Hawks on Saturday for Cumunion. Thanks for the help!

Another cum dump night on Saturday at Slammer in Los Angeles.Because this was my third time there, I pretty much knew the layout and where I should go for raw anonymous fucking. So I didn’t waste any time walking around the cubbies but headed straight for the dark room where I could have my ass up and ready for any dick that wanted to use it. I spent most of the night there ass up against the fuck bench. I’m lucky to have a good top friend in my life and we’ve spent many hours talking and texting each other about our fantasies and desires. He’s always encouraged me to fulfill my desire to be a cum dump and been very influential on the journey. He was the first one to tell me about Breeding Zone which helped me open my eyes and understand what I could be. I’d read the stories and be jealous of all the bottoms that would allow themselves to take all loads. I started barebacking about a year and a half ago and quickly learned how much I love it; especially the feeling when my hole has been well used and fully loaded. That feeling is like a drug to me; I just can’t get enough of it! On my journey I had to overcome my fear of rejection because I could no longer pretend to be the “good boy” and “husband material” gay man. Instead I learned to accept that I want to be a hole that is used by as many men as possible to dump their loads in and in anonymous, sleazy locations. My friend has been there to encourage me all the way. He shaped and changed my way of thinking so that I gained self acceptance. He got me to look past appearances and social mores to understand my purpose: To serve as a cum dump to ALL men that need one. Lately he’s been training me to think of myself as just a hole; a receptacle for the needs of men. And to let go my thoughts and desires and focus on the pleasure of the top. So on Saturday I took his training and advice to heart and thought about myself as a hole. I let any and all man who wanted to...use it. I didn’t care if they were short, tall, fat, ugly, muscular or handsome… My hole was theirs to use. So after about five hours, 12 to 15 fucks and seven loads in me, I felt like I had learned his lesson well.

I attended a sex party last night that was advertised on BBRT. When I arrived shortly after the start time, the guests were lounging around in various states of undress, drinking various beverages, and some smoking weed. After having a drink, I undressed completely and decided to get things started. I made some joke about this and then went and lay on the air mattress which was positioned in the center of the room. Before long a young Latino top to thrust his seven inches in my mouth. As I worked on getting his dick hard, someone else started eating my ass out. The guy's attentions felt great and lubed my ass up, so when he was hard, the Latino easily entered my hole. He was a demanding top, ordering me to open up, arch my back more, and pushing down on my neck to hold me in his preferred position. We soon moved into the bedroom and the other tops who had been watching the show followed us. After a while the Latino top offered my ass up to a black top who was sporting eight inches of thick black cock. He slid right into my now opened up hole. While he used my hole for his pleasure, I sucked on the Latino top’s dick which he had wordlessly thrust back into my mouth. I could tell that the black top liked it when, the Latino's top being lodged deep in my throat, I choked and gagged on that beautiful cock. After several minutes a Japanese top took the place of the black top. His cock was by no means as large as that of either the black guy or the Latino, and didn’t fuck me for very long ...maybe 10 minutes. While he was fucking me, I noticed a somewhat older man who was displaying an impressively large, white cock within reach of my mouth, so I sucked it, which led to discovering a ten-inch plus cock was at hand. Damn! The other tops began to encourage the older white top to use my hole so he took my ass next. I thought I’d be ready for his size because the black top was pretty meaty, but Holy Shit! The first thrust went deeper than all the others combined! He went deeper than any cock that had been in my ass for quite some time. My initial reaction was to straighten up but he was very patient and took his time to allow me to adjust and open up, and perhaps for this reason turned out to be a fantastic partner. Once he was in me we ended up fucking on the bed for the next hour or so. His big dick felt so incredible in my hole I had several internal organisms! His fucking was a nice mixture of a slow easy rhythm with bursts of pounding. By the time he came, I was begging for his load and after we had finished most people had left the party.

There were several opportunities to be a cumdump this weekend in LA so I decided to fly down for the weekend. One was the LA Cumunion party on Friday and the other was a Super Bowl party on Sunday that promised to be a good time. By the end of the weekend, I had over 50 guys fuck me with at least 20+ loads. Saturday night I went to the sex club Slammer and had a sleazy, cum-filled night. Last time I had gone to Slammer was three years ago when visiting a friend in LA. Back then I was still pretending to be a good boy and repressing my desires to be a cumdump. I didn’t do anything while there. This time around I wanted it to be very different. At Slammer there is no requirement that you take off your clothes, so many men choose to keep their clothes on. I was there to be used as a cumdump whore, so I stripped down to my jockstrap. I wanted my ass to be readily available. I could tell by the looks as I walked around that the men knew it. Some gave me looks of revulsion and others’ desire. As I walked into the dark room, I noticed a heavyset Latino up against the wall stroking his dick. I went over to investigate. Damn! Meaty and thick as a beer can. This first fuck of the night will open me up well. That Latino pushed me over to the fuck bench and started stretching my hole to get himself inside. He just continued stretching and pushing till my hole accommodated his dick. Once in that Latino picked up speed and started pounding me going in deep. He pushed me down hard on the fuck bench as he claimed ownership of my hole. It felt so good to be used and at his mercy as his beer can stretched me even wider. He began to pound me till he pumped a great thick load in me. After he finished, he kissed and hugged me and said “now I can go home”. Still freshly loaded with the Latino bear’s cum trickling down my leg, I walked through the maze of cubbies.I passed a skinny older black guy who had his BBC out and was displaying it for the crowd. It was definitely worth a second look...a good solid 9” or more. As I walked by, he slapped my ass and commented that “I deserve to get fucked walking around like that”. I walked into the next cubby thinking that maybe he’d want to fuck me through the Gloryhole but he followed me in and pulled me out into his cubby. He fucked me good for a long time spreading my ass cheeks to be sure that he could dig in as deep as he wanted. He liked talking dirty to me… Asking me how it felt to have that big black dick inside of me and telling me my hole was meant for BBC. Towards the end, he lied down on the floor with his feet sticking out from the cubby into the hallway so that I could ride his dick while he shot his load into me. Later on in the darkroom, an older white guy fucked me while talking dirty to me. He told me how much he wanted to whore my hole out to his friends. While he was doing this there was an overweight guy with a small dick who kept on touching me and attempting to play with my hole while I was being fucked. I wasn’t particularly thrilled with this as his dick was consistently limp and very small. The white guy took a break and started to make out with me while continuing to tell me how he’d like to use me and jacking off. Overhearing his conversation finally got the small overweight guy hard and I let him enter my hole. Because of his size, the fuck didn’t do much for me but he quickly dumped his load in me after about 10 minutes. The night continued like this with me getting loads from the majority of my fucks. Seemed like the tops just wanted to unload. Right before the 5 AM closing I got my last two loads in rapid succession. A younger husky black guy with a nice thick dick pumped his load in to me after he had watched a smaller dicked heavyset bear cub pound his load in me. Went back to the hotel sticky with cum and lube from head to toe and my jockstrap filthy with ass juices. Felt so right to be used that way that I didn’t shower till morning.

Would love to be verified as a cumdump on Breeding Zone. Let me know if you can help me with that!

Had a friend from Seattle visiting last weekend and he wanted to go to the Cumunion held at Steamworks in Berkeley. Of course I was happy to oblige and pleased to know that my friend’s visit wouldn’t interfere with me being a cumdump that weekend. I am starting to show more and more of my friends what a cumdump that I am as I become more accepting and comfortable with this part of myself. Had a pleasant night at Cumunion with several loads and fucks and some that stood out more than the others. While cruising the dark area, there was a pretty young Asian boy who was so beautiful you couldn’t help but notice him. Young Twinks don’t really appeal to me all that much but his looks did make me take notice of him. After I walked past him, he followed me to the corner where we started to make out. I thought for sure that he’d be a bottom, especially with his slender rather feminine looks. My presumption seem to be confirmed when he got down and proceeded to suck my dick. I was thinking in my head “well I’ll just enjoy the dick sucking and move on to get another load”. Much to my surprise after he had finished sucking my dick; he stood up, turned me around and entered my hole. Once inside, He used his thickish 6 inches to churn the previous load and then pound me good for about 10 minutes before unloading in me. In contrast, a hairy older bear and I checked each other out and started groping. He had a nice thick dick that stretched my hole gently as he started fucking me in hallway. This soon proved to be very awkward as we were constantly blocking people from walking by. A cubby opened up and we jumped in and started French kissing. We sucked each other’s dicks and then he fucked a nice load in me while he had me pinned in the corner. He grabbed me tighter and groaned with the pleasure of his release. After he had finished, he hugged me and rubbed my body with his hands only to discover that another load had been shot on my leg. Must of came from the cubbies glory hole when he had been fucking me. He started sucking me hoping to get me to cum when I noticed a hard 7 inches poking through the Glory hole. Being the slut that I am, I slowly started backing up to the gloryhole so that the dick poking through could fuck me. It felt so good to be used by this anonymous dick while the bear was on his knees sucking my dick. The bear quickly figured out why I had backed up. He growled while he stood up and pushed me onto the anonymous dick. It didn’t take long for anonymous to unload in me with the Bear’s encouragement. The last highlight was a slim muscular espresso-colored black guy. I had followed him into the room set aside for Cumunion. He laid back on the bed while I deep throated and sucked his cock till it grew to 8 inches. He had the type of cock that just slid easily down my throat. After I had sucked him for a while, I then climbed on board to ride him. Had lots of people walk by and watch while I rode that nice black dick. I loved looking back and seeing his intent expression as he watched his dick slide in and out of my hole. As the tempo increased, I moaned louder and told him how much I wanted him to unload in me. My hole got slicker and slicker as I rode his pole like my life depended on it! I wanted his load so badly and finally he came with a deep thrust and a verbal announcement to the club. “Fuck I’m cumming”. He was the last one to use my hole but it was a great way to end the night.

1) To truly become a no loads refused cumdump. Meaning obese, homeless, and any other “undesirable “ that wants access to my hole can use it. 2) Continue to travel for the sole purpose of being used as a cumdump across the world. 3) Be the only bottom to take all the loads. 4) Allow myself to be used as a total whore by a dominant top. These are my goals for 2018! I hope to achieve them! ?

I’m average when it comes to endowment. You are welcome to use my ass anytime you’re in the Bay Area! Thanks all for the feedback!

Ever since I started opening up my hole to loads, I feel like being a cumdump is becoming more and more a part of me. My travel plans now reflect this, so I travel to events or places like Southern decadence or Berlin where my hole can be used for hours and many days In a row. Yet even after days of being fucked and loaded, I still want more and I find myself thinking about doing more degrading things to capture loads...like letting the most repulsive troll or the homeless use my hole. I worry sometimes about being addicted to sex and whether this is a healthy lifestyle for me. Does anyone else feel this way or struggle with that? I’d love to hear your thoughts.

For my second night in Berlin, I wanted to continue to push the barriers within me that sometimes stop me from being a total cumdump. My desire is to be a total whore who accepts any and all dick, but sometimes still find myself scared or nervous, and sometimes I find myself judging men on the basis of appearance. I decided to try some new places in Berlin and be an open receptacle to all. First I went to Mutschmanns. After getting a drink, I walked around the basement play space. The crowd wasn't huge, as there were only 10 to 15 men in attendance. Still it seemed more promising than my last trip to Berlin. On that occasion I had also visited Mutschmanns, but the place had been dead. On the hope the action would pick-up, I decided to stay while give the place another chance. I checked my clothes and went back downstairs wearing only my jock. For a while nothing seem to be happening. A few bottoms were present, and each man was advertising his hole, but none of the tops seemed to be interested in taking advantage of any of us. Finally in the area near the slings, there was a skinny and very hairy top who had pulled his cock out of his jeans. He wasn’t very muscular and had a potbelly that was covered by the hair that was all over the upper part of his body. I wasn’t really attracted to him and I hadn’t gotten to the point where the desire for dick to be in my hole had taken over me yet. However, I did want to rid myself of any lingering form of repression that I may have felt, and to accept my role as a cumdump bottom. I approached him, took his slender dick in my hand, stroked it, and swallowed it down my mouth until it got hard. Then I bent over, spread my cheeks, and backed up onto his dick. Once he was in, the cumwhore within me began to take over. I knew I just wanted to take dick for the rest of the night. It just felt so good to have that dick inside of my hole. He was rather a slow rhythmic thruster who continue this pace for quite a long time. At times I was uncertain about whether he would actually unload in my ass, but finally he increased his tempo little bit and unloaded in me. I walked around a bit but little still was happening to my disappointment. I did get one more load from an American visitor to Berlin. Ironically the guy who has fucked me earlier turned out to be his partner. So at the start of the night I had two American loads but no German. I continued to bar hop for a bit with mixed results. A couple of the bars that had back rooms that were empty or nothing happened. I headed over to Scheune which had a downstairs basement play space where I found a fair number of men walking around. Deciding again to push my boundaries, I stripped off my clothes, put them in a corner and climbed into the sling. There had been a husky German guy standing nearby who was watching me do this and I just knew that he would come over and use my hole. Once I was in the position, he immediately came over to thrust his short but thick cock up my hole. He continued to thrust and then absolutely pounded my hole, cumming rather rapidly. He was followed by another guy who explored my hole for a bit but didn’t end up coming. At this point I decided to head over to the Bull Bar because the Bull is a sure bet for a cumdump like me. I especially love the Bull because men just go there to fuck in its dirty, seedy backroom. That and the men seldom use condoms. And sure enough, the Bull didn’t disappoint. I was used and loaded by several men in rapid order. There was a tall, attractive, blonde haired Englishman who had been watching me get used. I had checked him out and liked his height and huskiness. He felt up and explored my hole with his fingers, but then walked away several times, so I wasn’t completely sure if he was interested. We started to talk and I was excited to learn that he was definitely interested. He liked watching me get barebacked and loaded but didn’t want to do bare himself. He explained that he had a partner at home and PrEP was not readily available in England. While fucking with a condom is not my favorite, obviously, but I also don’t have a no condom policy, so this guy wasn't out of question. He fucked me while wearing a condom, came, and then we split. After another guy shot his load into my ass, I connected again with the 'condom only' guy. He felt my cummy ass, and slid his his solid seven and a half inches against my hole, explaining how much he liked raw sex. He also asked if I was on PrEP. I replied I was on medication, meaning my medication for HIV. He entered my hole saying “Well, since you're on PrEP," and proceeded to fuck me much more intensely and longer than the first time, exploring my sloppy hole as I moaned in pleasure. Several times I climaxed as he pounded me mercilessly, only then to slow his tempo to delay his orgasm. Finally he thrust more forcefully, holding onto my shoulders as his cock pulsated jets of sperm deep in my hole. We kissed and talked for a bit more before saying goodbye. The next day I felt a mixture of pleasure and guilt. I’m not on PrEP but am Poz, undetectable, on meds. Was it wrong I stealth fucked the British top?

I was lucky enough to travel to Berlin over the Thanksgiving week. Berlin has become my favorite city in the world because it’s so easy to be a cumdump there. There so many opportunities and places to go to. I was determined to get as much dick and loads as I could. I had purchased a ticket to the bio hazard party which was being on Friday night. It was a party for poz man only. It didn’t disappoint. There were all kinds of men there and all types and they were all willing to play and fuck. Within five minutes of checking my clothes, I had a nice German dick up my ass. From there I spent the next two to three hours going from dick to dick and collecting loads along the way. By 1:30 when I decided to leave, I’d had about 15 men fuck me and collected about eight loads. One guy in particular intrigued me. He was short with a fit body and a disheveled ZZ Top beard that seem to fit him. When I first arrived, he was going from ass to ass but then later on I noticed that he was spending quite a bit of a time with each bottom. He was an explorer of each bottom's hole, each of whom moaned in pleasure. Periodically in between my fucks, I checked on him and watch him fuck some other lucky bottom for a while. I also wanted him to know that I was interested. Finally on the fuck benches, my turn came. He had just finished up with another bottom and observed me looking, and he flipped me right over. His cock wasn’t huge, slender and probably within the average range but his use of it took me to another level! Once he entered, he just started exploring every inch of my hole with his cock. He stretched my hole and moved me in many positions to accommodate his desire and his needs. The intensity of feelings in my hole was overwhelming! Never experienced anything like it! I hate to admit but after 25 to 30 minutes, I needed a break. I would’ve loved to of taken his load but I just couldn’t handle it anymore. I was in sensory overload. I was disappointed with myself afterwards and still am now. I left bio hazard and headed over to the Bull ready for more action and more loads in my ass. That night the Bull certainly didn’t disappoint. I stripped down to my jock and went into the dark room. I hadn’t even done a turn around the room before some guy had pushed me over to the wall and started using my hole. Once in the position he thrust away at a nice regular rate until he unloaded in me. He was rapidly followed by nine other guys. I just bent over the fuck bench and didn’t even look back as each guy used my hole. Not every top unloaded in me but I managed to get a good five or six loads out of it. Awesome! Greatest train I’ve ever had going! I hung around for a while and got a couple more loads out of the five or six additional guys that fucked me. By the time I left at five in the morning, my well used hole had accommodated at least 30+ guys that night. Just a great night to be a cum dump in Berlin!

I was traveling during the Thanksgiving week and spent some time in Edinburgh, Scotland. It’s always a challenge while traveling to experience the local dick when you’re a cumdump like I am and want quantity, so I decided to hit the local bathhouse and placed an ad on bareback advertising myself as no load refused bottom. I’ve learned that in smaller cities finding men can be difficult during the week as the crowd is never as great as the weekend. This night was no exception. After getting assigned my room, I stripped my towel and started to walk around to get the lay of the land. The first floor, containing the private rooms and lockers was dead, so I went upstairs to the dark room area and discovered a handful of men scattered about. Wanting action, I took off my towel and applied lube to my hole. Most of the white middle-aged men appeared shocked but one lean guy with glasses and a hard-on watched me intently. I walked back to the room which contained a sling, hoping he would follow. Which he did, stepping into the room and closing the door. I got on my knees and sucked his dick, causing his seven inches to get even harder. Asking him if he wanted me to get into the sling he declined, suggesting we move to a room containing a bed. Then the dreaded “c” word came up. “I don’t fuck without a condom," he stated. “What the hell?” I thought. It was better than nothing. He pulled the condom onto his cock and eagerly dove into my hole, thrusting and pounding me with some energy for ten minutes or so, but after which he stopped saying he couldn't take it anymore, and needed a break. Quite disappointed, I walked around hoping one of the other ten guys in attendance would want my hole. Entering the darkroom, I removed my towel, laying on my stomach. Although there were a few men in the darkroom, initially nothing happened. Then I started to feel a hand rubbing my ass and slowly fingering my hole. Then another guy joined in. I moved into a more accommodating position and felt the head of a thick cock line up with my hole. It was a different guy than the other two with whom I had been playing, but I certainly didn’t care. He thrust in raw, but I was so eager for dick my ass instantly relaxed, opening-up despite the girth of his cock. He didn’t last long and came quickly but he was immediately followed by another guy who was also a quick cummer. That turned out to be the highlight of the evening as there really wasn’t much of a crowd. I had one other guy fuck me raw but he softened up after a while and we didn’t continue. I hung out and ended up meeting some nice Scottish men and an American living in Edinburgh while in the hot tub. It didn’t lead anywhere but was still pleasant. I also learned that a lot of the guys at the club are married, which could explain the slightly repressed vibe!

Was excited to go to the San Francisco Cumunion on Saturday night as I haven’t been for a while and was definitely ready for a good fucking. Guess I must’ve sent out all the right vibes because in less than 20 minutes while I was still walking around, I was pushed into a corner onto a fuck bench. The first fuck of the night was a comfortable size, not too big but not too little. He wasn’t much to look at being a rather average 40-year-old but as a cumdump I’ve learned not to care. However he surprised me with his prowess. He wanted to explore every part of my hole with his 6 1/2 inch dick. He went up down, sideways and at every angle. It was the perfect first fuck. He stretched and opened me up so that lots of tops could use me that night. And fuck me they did! Overall I had about 15 to 16 guys use my hole and I’m pleased to report that at least eight of them used me as their cumdump. Several times during the night I had cum dripping down my leg. After being fucked by one guy, as he pulled out a big gush of cum followed. One of my favorites was a stocky black guy with a thick 8 inch cock that curved to the right. He had been watching this young black guy getting fucked. I moved in next to him and felt that thickness in my hand. I immediately got down on my knees and started sucking till his cock thickened and pushed deeper into my mouth. I stood up and pushed my hole up against his cock struggling at first to have his enter with the wicked curve to the right. Boy did he stretch my hole! But he felt so good inside as every inch of him filled my hole. I moaned loud enough so the whole place could hear and he used my hole deeply for about 20 to 30 minutes and then pulled out. I was hoping for his load but it didn’t happen then. We did exchange numbers and then went our separate ways. After about another hour of several more fucks and loads, I hooked up with this Latino leather top who’s fucked me several times before at Cumunion. He’s another thick dick 8 inch top solid from base to tip. When I first started my journey towards being a cumdump, it was a struggle to get him inside of me but he was patient so that I always managed to. Because of tops like him, I’m definitely not as tight as I used to be so when we hooked up that night it was much easier to take him. He quickly entered me as deep as he could go and immediately started to pound me. He shoved that 8 inches into me over and over to the rhythm of the loud slapping noises against my ass. I had to admire his stamina as he continued to pound me hard and deep for a good 30 to 40 minutes. I never been been fucked so hard for such a duration! By the time he was ready to unload we were both slick with sweat. My thick dicked black top was watching as he grunted and unloaded deep in me. As soon as the Latino leather top pulled out, he jumped right on. Guess he got inspired by the pounding because he proceeded to fuck me the same way. He lasted about 10 minutes and then dumped his load in me. At this point I was exhausted, so I decided to call it a night. The next day my ass was sore and I dumped cum all day.

All the reasons why I love New Orleans… Slutty public sex in bars with random anonymous strangers. Great!

I had a great Folsom street fair weekend! I attended the parties at 442 where my hole got stretched and used quite well over the weekend. Sometimes there are so many men and dicks going in and out of my hole that it all become a blur. However I did have a hot event that I'd like to share. I entered the dark room and was followed by this muscular, beefy biracial guy. He really had a magnificent body and ass and decent equipment as well. I was really hoping to get fucked by him but instead he got down on his knees and started sucking my dick. Because he was just so beautiful, I couldn't resist or using his mouth and thrusting in and out. What happened next was even better! While this delicious hunk of man meat was on his knees sucking my dick, I felt an exploratory poke from behind. Of course I spread my ass cheeks, and invited this anonymous top in. So there I was getting my dick sucked and having mystery meat pumping my hole. It was hot and felt great! With each thrust in my hole, I'd I thrust in the willing mouth in front of me. This continued till mystery man's rhythm picked up speed and he pounded my hole and shot his load up it. He continued pushing his load deeper in me until he softened and pulled out and immediately disappeared. Meanwhile I kissed the handsome man who had been sucking my dick, extended my thanks, and went to look for more dick to fill my hole. I have no idea who was using my hole while I got my blowjob; only that his dick was long and narrow and that he knew how to use it!

Even though I've only been a cumdump for one year, i've already taken the Anonymous loads of hundreds of men around the world. Most of the time I've only seen their feet and ankles and maybe a passing glance at their face, so I would have no idea if I passed them on the street if they had filled my hole up. For me to take anonymous loads is part of the excitement of being a true dump. That my hole is willing and able to be used by all!

Southern Decadence! It's become one of my favorite events of the year since I started going three years ago. This last one was no exception to that! It was even better now that I've become such a cumdump. What I love about Southern Decadence is the mixture of seeing old acquaintances and making new ones, all of whom want to fuck! I love the raw animalistic sex that happens at the Rawhide and the Phoenix bars. I feel like these are some of the best places to be the cumwhore that I am. Day and night the bars are packed with men ready to fuck, so of course I made my ass available to as many as I could. I always wish I could remember everything but I ended up remembering the tops with whom I connected with on some level, either emotionally or physically, but after a while all the dick up my ass became a blur. On Labor Day I had a late flight out, so I decided to hit the Rawhide in the afternoon and practice at 'no dick or loads refused'. Sometimes I still want to be pickier than I should as a true cumdump. I got there about 1:00 PM and the bar wasn't too crowded, but there were already some men in the back. I knew what they were looking for, so I paraded around in my skimpy nylon gym shorts took up a position in the dark corner near the bathroom. One guy was standing there. He appeared to be husky and maybe mid 40s but I honestly am not too sure what he looked like as I just turned and face the wall and lowered my shorts so my ass was exposed. He didn't take long to put his average size cock inside of me and blow his load. A crowd had gathered to watch him fuck me and I fondled several cocks and, as he fucked me, sucked some of them. The second guy was an older black guy with a somewhat bigger cock. I was ready to go as soon as the first top had deposited his load in my ass, but there was a bit of a delay because the second guy wanted to use a condom, but when wearing one he had a difficult time staying hard, so he pulled it off and had me suck him for a while, only for his dick to go limp when it was time to enter me. Finally he managed to get his cock into my ass and he even managed to fuck for a while, only to once more go limp. At this point I was ready to move on, especially since he apparently was determined to use a condom, so I turned to the next guy way there and took his hard cock up my willing hole. After that guy blew his load, I was surprised when the black guy re-entered my ass, this time raw, and finally fucked me hard enough to seed my ass with his load. After this third load I went to the main area of the bar where several guys continued in using my hole. A couple tag teamed me before both shot each shot his load in me, and after that I spied a nice thick 10 inch BBC. I had the audience eagerly wondering whether I could take it all but I just went right over to that BBC and sat right on it and it slid all the way in. It felt so good to be filled like that even more loaded by the end. When I pulled off him. Cum came out of my ass and ran down my leg. By this point I reeked of cum and sweat and lube. Unfortunately I had to go back to the hotel and get my luggage to go to the airport, but I really wanted just one last load. I checked out the bathrooms one last time only to discover a bear cub who's dick already hard and hot. I didn't even waste time sucking it. I just slid my cum lubed hole right on his pole. He had a nice thick piece of meat and knew how to use it. I don't know if he had cum before during the weekend but he shot a huge load. When he withdrew cum just gushed out of me. I pulled up my shorts and want to my soggy hole back to the hotel with a big wet spot on my shorts. At the hotel I picked up my luggage and went to the airport, already looking forward to the next Southern Decadence!

Over the past couple of year my friendship with a black top bud my life has shifted. We met over 15 years ago, when AOL was the hook up site to be on and had many conversations about our fantasies. He was a dominant top who wanted me to submit to him so that he could whore me out to other black tops. I shared his desire to be gangbanged and used as a cum dump. However at that time in my life I was too scared to accept my fantasies and make them reality. I started dating and got a partner but my black top bud and I remained in contact. He tried to persuade me to go clubbing with him from time to time and cheat with him on my boyfriend but I never did. He also wanted me to take ecstasy while at the club and have men fuck me on the dance floor. Over the years we grew closer and a genuine friendship developed. A couple of years ago we started talking about our fantasies again. I started to tell him that I no longer want to fantasize about being a cum dump but make it a reality. He encouraged me to be true to myself and told me that's what I was meant to be, a receptacle for men to use and dump their loads into. He told me that I should take any load that was presented to me as that was my job. One time we went to New Orleans together for Mardi Gras and went out for drinks at Rawhide. After using the bathroom I return to find my black bud talking with this handsome muscular black man. My bud immediately told me to get down on my knees and suck the other black man's dick while pushing me down to the floor. I was shocked and surprised but did as I was told. As I sucked his fine thick 9 inches on my knees, they kissed and made out above my head. I was so excited that my bud was taking control of me like that, I nearly shot my load on the floor. When we talked about it afterwards, my bud told me he was just giving me what I wanted and he was right. I felt such excitement and stimulation from being controlled like that that. I couldn't stop talking about it for a long time after. Shortly after that I started opening my hole up, and continued on my journey towards being a cum dump. Recently my bud confided in me that he was having challenges with erectile dysfunction due to a medical condition. He was feeling less of a man because he couldn't be the dominant top that he was in the past. He had a pump installed to help and was taking Viagra, but he continued to feel self-conscious about his sexual abilities. He also stated that was physically difficult for him to get into a hole at times because the head of his penis would not get hard. Things started to gradually build. At first, he showed me his penis after he had received the pump to ask me my opinion of whether or not it looked natural. It looked and felt fine in my hand and I told him so. The next time I took his penis in my mouth and shared that I still couldn't tell a difference with the pump. After seeing his frustration and concern about his ability to be a top, I then offered my hole for his use. What are good friends for? Yes I wanted him in my hole but but I also did want to help him out. And I figured it would be the best way for me to discover what was going on and have a genuine conversation with him about it. I believe our friendship was at the point that any sexual contact between us wouldn't change our relationship. So after discussing it, we decided to head to the sex club 442 and keep it pretty casual. There whether there would be no pressure to perform it if things didn't work out I could certainly still get my fill. We went on a Sunday which is usually a slower nite, and walked into the darkroom. There was a little crowd in there and immediately after entering the darkroom, my ass was groped and grabbed. I leaned forward and a lather hands to feel my butt hole and understand that I was pretty lubed and ready for action. I was quickly bent over and grabbing my ankles while the first dick entered my hole. He pushed in me and started opening my hole pretty good while a group of six men surrounded me. My bud watched from the sides. I tried to remain balanced while sucking one dick and being pounded from behind. Soon the thrusts became harder and deeper and I heard the wonderful sounds of grunting and moaning as his 7 inch dick exploded in me. He was quickly followed by another one and another. Altogether I had six guys fuck me with three loads before the little gang bang ended. After the last top had unloaded in my hole, my bud grabbed me and pushed me down harshly on top of the fuck bench. He had seen what a cumdump I was and wanted in that sloppy hole. Rock hard he tried to enter me. But the head kept bending and slipping out of my hole. I spread my ass cheeks as wide as I could but he couldn't get in between. I could sense his frustration mounting. He grabbed me and pulled me along to one of the cubicles where he sat down and I tried to sit on him. Same thing happened. Not a great first time. When we talked about it afterwards, I acknowledged his challenge but encouraged him not to give up. For a while he wanted to but I kept on pointing out that it was just one try and stated that we needed to try other options like more lube or me having a cummier or well used hole. I suggested that he try using other holes at 442 to experiment. So one Monday night he reluctantly agreed to accompany me to 442 again. I told him I felt confident that this was going to be the night. And I told him again not to give up. There was a nice little early work night crowd and we had agreed that I should be open to any and all dick, especially since we wanted my hole as wide open and loaded as possible. This time my bud was watching by my side as I got used good. He encouraged others they have their way with me. After a nice little train of four guys, my good bud bend me over and worked his way into my well cum lubed hole. He was in! It was thrilling for both of us! He savored and enjoyed every minute of being in my hole after such a long drought. After being there for 15 to 20 minutes, his tempo increased and a bear hug for me and thrust his load deep inside of me. Overcome with gratitude he hugged and kissed me. But that wasn't the end. I continue to get loaded and used more and about an hour later, my bud deposited his load number two in my willing hole. He drove me home and then decided that he wanted my hole again. He fucked my well used and dripping pussy for a good 45 minutes where he deposited his loads number three and number four. By the end we were both exhausted and I was impressed by the loads he delivered. I've never had a top give four loads before in the space of three hours!

Also going and forward to getting as many loads as possible!

Now that I'm on a journey to be a Cumdump whore, i'm feeling that I should go to the Gulch and take as many loads as possible. Haven't explored the Gulch yet though.