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Nice! Love being used in back rooms! Can I ask what bar this was in New York City?

Next up was Hamburg where I checked out the back rooms of TOM’s Saloon. It was a Thursday night and the crowds seem to be dying down a bit, so I was thinking “damn, I should’ve came earlier “. I ordered a beer and started to walk around the place getting to where the dark rooms were in the back of the bar. I started walking down the narrow hallway which had cubbies on one side. Leaning against the wall was an older bear with a full beard and rounded stomach. I barely had time to make eye contact with him before he grabbed me and shoved me into the nearest cubby. He pushed me into the corner while reaching to unbutton my pants and pull them down. Once my ass was exposed, he forced my head down so that my hole was exposed and available. He unzipped and pulled out a decent size dick that I didn’t have time to prepare for before he was shoving it in me. This was literally a raw fuck with no chance for lube. The first few minutes were painful as the friction of his fuck rubbed against my dry hole. Mercifully my ass juices began to flow and the tempo increased. With each charge of his penis as he roughly fucked me, my head banged into the corner of the cubby over and over. He leaned over me and grabbed my shoulders as I went from being impaled on his dick to smacked in the corner. He didn’t care; his needs were going to get met. After 15 minutes, I began to hear some grunts and groans as his cock pulsed his load into me. He pulled out, tucked himself back in, and left the cubby with not a word to me. My ass dripping, I rubbed the top of my head and pulled back up my jeans.

Took advantage of cheap airfare to bounce around Europe during the holiday season. Had a great time getting my ass used in lots of places but there seem to be a common theme! I was used hard! It’s always fun to be the new guy in town that everyone wants to use. While in Munich, I went out one night to camp. I had a lot of use and fun in the cubbies that make up a part of the bar and even got fucked and loaded in the bathroom. After my hole was loose and dripping, I had a couple that commandeered me in one of the cubbies. Both guys had a nice German sized dicks which means they were thick and meaty. For a while both of them switched off using me, all while speaking in German which I don’t understand. Finally one guy took over and just went to town on my hole. He fucked me hard for a good 45 minutes while the other guy just watched him use me. There was an intensity to his fucking and for the whole time he didn’t stop pounding me. Just when I thought my legs were about to give out, his big German sausage unloaded into me. After he was done, the watcher turned to me and spoke in English. He thanked me and stated that his partner rarely found anyone that he could fuck so hard and for so long. I was very pleased to have obliged but I did need a break before starting my next round!

Thanks for asking. I really appreciate your thoughts on this. I know I would submit again if he wanted to slap me again. Reading the responses, I realize how much pleasure slapping can provide a top. I do find a great deal of satisfaction in knowing that I have pleased a top. I think I am learning that there can be pleasure in submission. Perhaps that’s what my Dom is interested in teaching me.

I have an ongoing connection with a dominant black top who likes to be in complete control. Recently, during one of our hook ups, he slapped me hard repeatedly across the face. It got him super hard and very dominant and we ended up having some of the best sex that we’ve ever had. Later he told me that he was very pleased that I submitted so well to his slaps. Being slapped was a new experience for me and I have mixed feelings about it. I liked submitting to his physical control but the actual slaps were not a turn on for me. I’m curious to know about other guy‘s experiences and their thoughts.

I was in New York City for pride last year. Had a great time and was thrilled to see Grace Jones perform! Had some nice use of my ass especially while hanging out at the Eagle but I did also attend one of the Cumunion events. I arrived a bit late due to other pride activities, so there was the feeling of arriving at a party when everyone’s already drunk and things are winding down. I could tell many of the men were feeling a bit spend. While walking through the dark room, I noticed this white guy getting his dick sucked by a slender black guy. I stopped to watch, stroking a bit while standing there. An older white guy came up behind me and started playing with my cheeks and fingering my hole. I leaned forward slightly to give him easier access and to let him know my ass was available. The finger was quickly replaced with his dick and he was fucking away. This attracted the attention of the black guy who came over and started sucking on my dick. He was very feminine looking with long painted nails. He deep throated well on his knees in front of me. Although I’m a bottom, I certainly appreciate the pleasure of a blow job and getting fucked and blown at the same time felt incredible. I held the black guy’s head and shoved my dick deep in his mouth as my hole was pounded and loaded. The black guy then switched to my ass; sticking his tongue right in to get a taste of that load. Then things got surprising! I figured the black guy to be a bottom due to his femininity and submissive nature. He pushed me down on the mattress and we started making out. He was a great kisser and had a rockhard 9 inches between his legs. He shoved those 9 inches into my wet and willing hole. And man did he know how to fuck! He just kept on drilling my hole for a good 45 minutes till they announced the place was closing. Neither of us wanted to stop. His dick fucking made me want to beg for more and I was desperate for his load. I told him that I couldn’t go without getting his load and proposed we walked around the neighborhood to find a place where he could load me. So we did just that! We walked the neighborhood looking for a dark alley or someplace not lit up till we found a park. We found a semi private and dark place behind a dumpster and he fucked me wildly while I tried not to moan too loud till he came deep in my ass. It was my best fuck of pride.

A friend and I had entered an underwear contest during the Folsom weekend and we got a free pass to Steamworks. We decided to use it for lights out on Monday night this week. We got there kind of early because I couldn’t stay out too late with it being a work night. Most of the evening was pretty mellow with not much action or much of a crowd. There was a very handsome black man with a trimmed beard and nicely defined chest who was sitting frequently on a bench in the back near the dark rooms. When I commented on his appearance to my friend (who’s a top), he stated “oh he’s a bottom”. After that I sort of dismissed him, although every time I walked by I would think about how handsome he was! Each time we’d pass each other, we always end up making eye contact. Towards the end of my time when I knew I had to leave, I decided to do one more walk through. When walking through the dark area, I noticed he had positioned himself pretty close to the fuck bench and he was now stroking his impressive member. We made eye contact and I was again drawn by his looks. At this point I said “what the hell!” and went over and grabbed his dick. There were other men starting to circle and I knew if I didn’t move someone else would. I still wasn’t sure if he was a top or bottom as he grabbed my dick and we started stroking each other. He got down on his knees to suck me, and I thought “damn he’s a bottom! “ when he stood up, I reciprocated and started sucking on that beautiful member of his! I was still hoping that he’d turned out to be at least versatile as I sucked his beautiful 8 inches tonguing and mouthing his head all while rubbing his taut stomach and hairy chest. He pulled me to my feet, flipped me around, and pushed me over the fuck bench. In one stroke he entered me and I had my confirmation! He fucked hard while going deep and making a circular motion while in my hole. I felt intense happiness as his cock throbbed and unloaded.... The extreme pleasure of having just been loaded by a guy who I really wanted! As he pulled out and walked away, I realize that the crowd that had been watching him had stayed to watch us fuck. A husky black guy was cock ready. I looked and turned back around, leaning over. He also fucked me hard holding onto my shoulders and pulling me back to slam on his hard rod. He unloaded quickly and deep. Feeling much more satisfied than I had a half an hour ago, I got my stuff and exited; ready for a good nights sleep.

Aquatic Park in Berkeley. Thanks for your interest! Surprisingly I haven’t been to Buena Vista yet… But it is on my to do list!

Spent last evening with a friend of mine who’s turned into a fuck bud, then turned into an “I don’t know what” over the years. Lately we’ve started to explore a Dom sub relationship. After having a glass of wine, we headed into the bedroom. My friend told me to go down on his dick and as I shifted over on the bed to position myself to suck him, he slapped me hard several times across the face and told me to gag on his dick. Shocked with my face stinging, I followed his command deep throating his already hard dick. Those slaps must of brought out his dominant side as he fucked me the hardest he’s ever done! He took complete control and his dick never left my hole till he shot three loads in me! After he left I felt very satisfied with the intensity of our fuck but I felt that gnawing desire for more loads. So I threw on my whore sweats and headed over to the park. There seems to be a new cruise place between two large construction dumpsters. I wasn’t there long before a heavyset cologne scented Latino pulled out his dick for me. I took his thick meatiness into my mouth swirling his foreskin with my tongue. I continued sucking him sliding down my sweatpants to expose my naked ass. All the while hoping he’d more than just a blowjob. I had sucked on a black guy before him who had played with my ass but refused to fuck me without a condom. The Latino started rubbing my ass and then fingering my hole. Time to put it to the test. I stood up and positioned my hole straight with his dick. He sniffed on his poppers and entered me. No questions of condoms! With a foreskin that completely covered his head, his thick meaty dick felt velvety smooth going in and out of my hole. I got pushed lower and lower squatting with my ass up high till I knew he was gonna unload. He gave one deep thrust and started slow fucking me as his cum jets squirted into my hole. As he gently pulled out, I looked up only to realize that there was this black guy, unzipped and stroking his hard on that had been watching our fucking. Once the Latino cleared my hole, the black guy jumped on and with 4-5 strokes he unloaded. I would’ve liked to stay later and got even more loads but I had to get home and get some sleep for work.

I love the feeling of being a whore and offering my ass up to anyone who will take it. So with the recent warm weather in the bay area I decided to cruise the park one night. The first one up was the skinny biracial guy who looked to be of Arab heritage. I’ve seen him over the years and we played before. Usually he only wants his dick sucked. Once time he fucked me but used a condom. I guess he’s progressed to bareback because this time he fucked me with no condom. He has a skinny narrow pencil-like dick which stays very hard. He fucked me like a rabbit and embraced me in a hug while he quickly unloaded. Next up was a masculine and muscular African-American in his late thirties. He looked thuggish with the gold grill on his teeth and had an attitude to match it. When he stood near me and unzipped his jeans to let his member hang out, I was immediately on my knees in front of him. His member grew to an impressive 9 1/2 to 10 inches in my mouth as it got rockhard. When he was sufficiently hard, he directed me over to this circle of benches that surrounds a fountain and pushed me into his desired position on the benches. Throughout the entire 35 to 40 minute fuck, he controlled how he wanted me and was relentless about getting his needs met; directing me into arch my back, take the dick, and get on my back. Surprisingly he came quietly and told me his real name as he put it. As he walked away I felt the hunger in me to be used by him again. I watched the park and positioned myself near an older chubby black man. I went against the tree and pulled down my sweat pants to display my ass. The chubby guy didn’t waste any time walking over. He was already hard and went immediately to my hole. I spread my cheeks and leaned over more not even bothering to look back at him. It took him a bit to get inside of me as my hole needed to be stretched to accommodate his girth despite it’s prior use. He wasn’t very long but had that thick pyramid shaped type of dick where it’s very thick at the base. Once in, he fucked me hard and came quickly eager for his release. However he didn’t pull out and started fucking me again to give me his second load about 10 minutes later. Last up was a black guy on his bike who checked me out as he was riding in the park. I followed him as he looked back and went into some bushes.He was quite a talker telling me that he was straight and had a girlfriend but had gotten used to men sucking his dick while in prison. After getting him hard from sucking, he played with my ass and started to finger it. Unfortunately he wanted to use a condom despite me positioning my hole next to his head. We alternated between ass play and dick sucking till he finally came on my crack. I never did convince him to enter my hole.

Received a text from a big dicked top friend of mine asking when I was available. He’s always a great fuck with that huge 10 inch dick of his that always stretches my whole hole open as he endeavors to go balls deep with his 10. It was another great session with him in charge; placing me into the positions that he wanted. He’s tender yet aggressive which I like! He tells me when to relax and breathe so I can take all 10. While fucking, he’ll cuff me on the side of the head, pull my hair, and shove my face into the pillow. After 45 minutes, he pumped hard and came deep in my hole. I could feel his dick pulsing as he delivered his load into me. It was wonderful! I always believe it’s a shame to waste a freshly loaded hole so instead of heading straight home, I went to cruise the park. It was a bit early in the evening, but there were some men trolling about. I checked out this black guy wearing a hoodie and followed him deeper into the bushes. He pulled out his dick so I immediately got down on my knees. There was substantial girth and weight to his soft dick which grew bigger and harder in my mouth! He wasn’t as long as my friend but still substantial and definitely had more girth to him. It was great to know that I had been loosened up for him. When I had gotten him hard, I presented my ass to him and he didn’t waste any time taking it. While he plowed me, four or five guys started to watch but he didn’t break his rhythm at all! His rhythm increased and he shoved in deeper and harder stretching my hole even more open. I could feel his spurts shoot into me as he unloaded. I was hoping one of the other guys would jump on but no luck! So I texted a Filipino friend of mine who is always eager to unload in my hole and he filled me up before I headed home. I had started my evening at six and was home by nine!

Went to the powerhouse bar on Thursday night with a friend of mine. Had fun at their Fourth of July underwear party which they have every Thursday night and so I decided to go again. I noticed on the Fourth of July that the level of friskiness in the back smoking area has definitely increased since the last time I’ve been there. Some nice raw fucking and dick sucking going on! This Thursday was definitely more mellow and seemed to be mainly restricted to dick sucking. I did have one black guy with an impressive member ask me if I wanted to fuck. Just as we were about to get started, they announced last call. Neither of us had realized it was so late. As I was with my friend it would have to be another time. However the whole incident definitely got me horned up and after I dropped off my friend, I decided to cruise the park on the way home. Unfortunately the park has only been filled with meth addicts lately. It used to be such a great cruising ground for dick! That seemed to be the case as the bathrooms were filled with meth addicts smoking their pipes. I was horny enough to try with one younger cute black guy but he only got semi erect and seemed more interested in smoking his pipe rather than the blowjob I was giving him. When a husky young black guy saw me giving him the blowjob, he moved us all into a stall and proceeded to pull out his thick uncut dick. His foreskin protruded at least a half an inch past the head of his dick but as he began to grow when he forced me to Deep Throat him, his head popped out of the foreskin. He gestured for me to start sucking the other guy’s dick and while I was doing that he began to play with my hole. He thrust into me with one movement using my hole for his needs. It felt so good to finally have a dick up my ass! He didn’t fuck me for very long and was very quiet the entire time. At first I wasn’t even sure if he had come but when he stopped, I felt the wetness in my hole and I knew he did. Unfortunately his was the one and only load of the night despite my best intentions to whore myself out in the park to any dick needing a hole. I walked around a bit more but nothing happened so I headed home at 4 in the morning.

Was at the SF Eagle on Sunday for their beer blast. Ended up chatting up a 33-year-old black guy from Vegas. We talked for a while and then the conversation segued into sexual preferences. Turned out that he was the top! I wasn’t really thinking about anything happening. In fact I hadn’t even prepared. However I was drunk enough and happy to have learned that he liked it raw, so when he suggested that we go to the single bathroom I agreed. Couple of minutes later I was on my back on the bathroom floor with my legs up in the air. Due to the circumstances, he couldn’t take long to unload and his need was urgent. We quickly got dressed and walked out past the line of people waiting to use the restroom.

A friend was in town and we decided to try one of new 442 events held at Catalyst since the original 442 closed. We got there shortly after the 10 pm opening and paid our entrance fee. After putting our clothes in the locker, we went out to explore. At first I was disappointed as there wasn’t a huge crowd and the play spaces seemed rather random. However...maybe because of the smaller size of the crowd, I ended up having a good night and having longer sessions with each of the 4 guys that I hooked up with. The first guy had an interesting twist to him. I met him in the dark room which was a pitch black area behind a curtain in the corner. It wasn’t very large but you could seriously not see a thing! My ass started to get felt up and I felt a finger probing. Of course I leaned over and relaxed more to let the other man know that my hole was completely available. I had gotten fucked very briefly by an Asian guy but his dick was small and he had a hard time staying erect. Needless to say, it had quickly ended! As I felt my first real top of the night start to push against my hole, I knew that some stretching would be required. He definitely had girth but was slow and patient, letting my hole accommodate to his length and girth. His thickness definitely filled my hole and as he started to get into a rhythm I moaned with pleasure. His slow methodical fucking encouraged me to open my hole even more as he went in deeper and deeper. At several points, he would completely stop and I would enjoy the sensation of his cock balls deep and completely inside of me. This continued for a good 20 to 30 minutes and then he pulled out completely and gave me a tap on my ass which I knew signified that he was done with my hole for now. As I turned around to thank him and to suggest meeting up again, we made eye contact and both of us registered shock! It was my friend that I had come here with! Neither of us had realize the entire time that we were fucking who the other person was! Although he’s made comments over the years about tapping my ass, we have never crossed the friendship line. After that surprise, I walked around more and caught the eye of an attractive older white gentleman wearing a leather harness. We started off again in the dark room where I had returned as it seemed like most of the action was happening there. He proceeded to fuck my now thoroughly opened hole. He expressed pleasure over my hole and after about 10 minutes groaned while he unloaded into me. We separated for a bit but after about 20 minutes he came and found me and said that he would like to continue with me in a sling. We went up to the platform where the sling was. He enjoyed himself in me and gave me his second load. Afterwords he told me that he’d had a great time and that he was quite pleased that I had gotten another load out of him as that always didn’t happen to him anymore. The third guy was a hot dominant black guy who used me at repeated intervals throughout the night. He came into the club and every guy looked at him when he entered. He had a hot muscular body and a piece of meat that would give any porn star envy. We made eye contact in the locker room. After he stashed his stuff away, he came over to the corner where I was, pointed his erect dick in my direction and told me to get down on my knees and suck it. Of course I obliged! After about 10 minutes he told me to go into the next play room and lie down on one of the platforms. I went in and lied down facing the wall. He turned me around so that everyone in the room could see that he was fucking me. He wanted to put on a show and boy did he! His thick dick went into me and he demanded that I open up wider to him. He told me to call him Sir. And to tell Sir how much I liked having his dick inside of me. That was not hard to do as I really did like the intense pleasure that his dick shoving deep inside gave me. He stretched me deeper and wider than I’ve ever been but continue to demand that I open up to him more. Each of our sessions was like that! I’d start off sucking his dick and then we’d progress to where he fucked me in a public display and use my hole thoroughly. Him fucking my hole made me want to beg him to do it forever; yet at the same time the pleasure was so intense that at times I felt I couldn’t handle it. The last time he used my hole, he made me clean him off. As I was cleaning him he gripped my head and proceeded to force his way down into my throat. As I was gagging with snot and spit running out of my mouth and nose, he repeatedly made me Deep Throat him several times. Next he told me to follow him into the bathroom. After he had washed his dick off with soap and water, he told me to get the paper towels and get on my knees and pat his member dry. While on my knees another guy entered the bathroom and was watching. He told me to turn around and suck that guy’s dick. I was happy to please him. In between fucks with the hot dominant black guy, One of the guys watching in the crowd, an older white guy, jumped on me when the black guy left me for a bit. He fucked me on the platform for a while but then had me move to the sling where he proceeded to fuck me roughly banging at my hole till he pounded his load deep into me. Altogether a satisfying night at catalyst. My hole was well used and pleased!

I’ve had an enjoyable streak of fun for several Friday nights now! After my birthday gift Friday I had the pleasure of hosting two big dicked tops; One black and one Latino. The Latino top had reached out to me through BBRT as well as to the black top to set up a three-way. After they both arrived, we quickly made our way to the bedroom and took off our clothes. Both men were impressively hung with a good solid 10 inches or more. With the black top’s encouragement, I took the Latino top’s dick into my mouth. He grew harder as both of them watched and encouraged me. The black top then positioned me on the edge of the bed and started to enter me. He was so thick that he only got about halfway in before he switched off with the Latino. The Latino had less girth and more length. He was able to go deeper in me and started to loosen me up. Pretty soon he was balls deep and then he really started to go at it. He shoved in and pounded away while the black top watched him fuck my hole and told him to put his poz load up my ass. After about 15 minutes, the Latino accelerated his pace and then groaned while he came in me. He continued fucking me slowly and then collapsed on me. After a couple of minutes he slowly pulled out saying that he had just put a 10 day load in me. Cum was running from my hole when the black top entered me. He slid in quickly this time; rapidly going balls deep. As he pounded my hole, I cleaned the Latino off tasting my ass and cum juices on his dick. He watched that thick black dick master my hole and felt as his balls slap against my ass. The black top was very verbal asking me questions like “did I like having those big dicks in my hole?” and telling me that I was a good Poz cum dump. He came loudly, shouting and exclaiming how his load was going deep in my hole. After that, the Latino left but the black top stayed most of the night and gave me two more loads.

Had quite an enjoyable and unusual Friday night a couple of weeks ago. Lately I’ve been texting and talking with this Dom top that I met through Breeding Zone. He’s expressed his interest in using me and training me to be his sub. Told me that he wants to own me and control me sexually. Although I love being a cumdump whore, the whole Dom/sub relationship hasn’t been of huge interest to me. However I’m definitely willing to explore! For this Friday, he proposed that I’d be a birthday gift for his roommate. I was definitely down for that and we started to make plans. He wanted it to be a complete surprise for his roommate. The roommate was told that I’d be arriving at 7 to meet up with my Dom. When I arrived, The roommate said that he was surprised that my dumb wanted to meet me this early as he wouldn’t be home for another couple of hours. I expressed surprise at this and asked if it was OK if I hung out until he arrived. The roommate said “sure that would be fine”. Next I asked to use the bathroom stating that I just come from the gym where I drank lots of water. In the bathroom, I quickly changed into my outfit; top hat, bowtie, and matching jockstrap. I then went out into the living room and said “surprise happy birthday” to the roommate. He was completely shocked and said that “son of a bitch” and immediately sent my Dom a text. I told him I was here to pleasure him on his birthday. He then took out his dick and said “go to it!”. I got down on my knees in front of the chair that he was sitting on taking his semi erect cock into my mouth. I gave him head as deep in my mouth as I could knowing that when I was pleasing him I would also be pleasing my Dom. He stroked my hair and told me what a great birthday present I was as he got hard in my mouth. He told me to get into the bedroom where I continued to suck him positioned between his legs. When he was rockhard, he pushed me onto my back lining up his dick with my hole. As he entered me I knew my Dom would be pleased. The roommate thrust into me hard and proceeded to take his birthday gift. While he continued thrusting into me,He pushed back and sideways on my legs so that my hole was completely accessible to him. He didn’t last long and with one final thrust spurted his load deep into me. Afterwords we cuddled and talked for a while about how I had met my Dom and his birthday present had been arranged. When my Dom arrived home, he wanted to know all of the details from both of us. He got so excited that he quickly took me to his bedroom where he took out his rigid cock and began to shove it in my mouth forcing me to Deep Throat it. As I choked and gagged on his cock, he pulled it out for a short time allowing me to breathe, slapped me across the face and told me that I was a good bitch and had passed the first test. He then shoved his dick back down my throat as I choked and gagged some more. When he was ready to come, he pulled out of my mouth and slammed it right into my hole depositing it deep into my ass. As soon as he was done, he told me to get out as my job was done. I stumbled out of the house disheveled and bewildered; yet very turned on.

Went to the last Cumunion in San Francisco. Was the most crowded I’ve seen it for a while so I had a good time and was definitely well loaded by the time I left. Since the night was warm, I decided to stop in the park on the way home to capture some more loads. There were lots of people about in the park but it was mostly straight couples drinking or making out. There were some young black guys about smoking the glass pipes. One guy was by himself in the bathroom stroking his dick in his sweatpants. He offered me his pipe but I declined. He was cute that I decided to join him and see what happened. I took his dick out and started to suck it but after five minutes I gave up as there was no reaction and he seemed completely out of it. After that I gave up and didn’t bother with any of the other drug users wandering around the park. I live in an urban neighborhood so when I returned home I was a bit cautious after pulling into the driveway and seeing someone hanging out on the sidewalk. As I got out of the car and started walking towards my front door, I still felt very uncertain about who the man was and what he wanted. He started walking towards me and called out my name. It was then that I realized it was my neighbor from two houses up. He was a younger guy probably now in his late 20s. Since I bought my house over 10 years ago he’s lived there off and on. We have a strange relationship where things have slowly progressed sexually but over an extraordinarily long length of time. For a long time neither of us talked about our sexuality and when I first moved in he was only a teenager. The first time something happened was shortly after he came of age. He knocked on my door drunk and high and asked to use the bathroom saying theirs was stopped up next-door when he’d been partying. I let him in and showed him the bathroom. It was only when he adjusted the bathroom door so that I could see in from my position on the couch in the living room that I realized something was up. He took out his dick and started to stroke himself making sure that I could see him. I was at a different point in my own development sexually so I didn’t feel comfortable especially when he can just come of age. So I didn’t respond to his maneuver and moved into the kitchen. Eventually he left but a couple of days later he came by and apologized. We talked a little bit about our sexuality but nothing further happened. Then after another two or three years I ran into him at the park where both of us had been cruising. A couple of days later he knocked on my door and asked to come in. We talked about meeting at the park, what experiences we had, and what interested us. At that point I was starting my journey to becoming to a cumdump. He was very surprised to learn that I was a bareback “no loads refused” cumdump and told me that I didn’t look the part. He was turned on by this and asked me lots of questions. Eventually he told me to get on my knees and suck him off. I obeyed and proceeded to service him until he came in my mouth. Flash for another three years to when is in my driveway. He approached me and stated that he hadn’t seen me for a while and wondered how I had been. He seemed slightly intoxicated but in control of himself. He asked what I had been doing so I told him. I told him that I had gone to a sex party in San Francisco where I had gotten several loads and then had cruised the same park where we had run into each other before. He asked if he could feel my ass and I said “sure right here?”. As we were still on the front walkway he said “no” and jerked his head towards the side of the house where it was dark. There I pulled down my sweatpants to expose my ass. He briefly rubbed a hand across my ass and fondled my hole before pulling out his already hard dick. He started to push in on my hole when the neighbors dog started barking at us. I spoke to and yelled at the dog but he only backed further away and continued barking at us. So we decided to go in the house. I was a bit disappointed as I thought it would’ve been hot for him to fuck me on the side of the house. Had a nastiness that I like. However he more than made up for it as we went to the bedroom. His dick was thicker and bigger than I remembered from sucking him before. My neighbor fucked me hard and deep for a long time. He’d pull completely out before thrusting hard back in, pummeling my hole and getting that rosebud to bloom. He was an explorer; angling to get at all parts of my hole and stretching it to accommodate his girth. He loved that my hole was already so loose and sloppy. He told me over and over how he loves white boys that are whores and wanted me to tell him stories of how I have been used while banging my hole. After a good hour or so when he had shoved and manipulated me into every position to accommodate his desires, his pace quickened and he slammed me harder till he shot his load in me. He continued fucking me while I could feel his dick pulse his load out into me and remained hard to fuck me further. After about another half an hour or so, he told me it always took him a long time to come and he decided to call it a night. I felt a mixture of relief and disappointment. My hole felt so stretched, used and abused but I had never expected that he would be such a good fuck and wanted it to continue forever. It was the type of fuck where you almost can’t handle the intense pleasure that is being given to you.

Definitely agree! Not sure what’s going on with the dark rooms located in bar basements in Berlin. Last time I was there Tom’s basement was closed and Scheune’s was open. I was told the closure happened because they needed to have two exits for the basement. This time it was the complete opposite; Tom’s was back to being opened and Scheune’s was closed and Tom’s appeared to be the same as before!

Spent the holidays in Europe taking loads in Paris and Berlin. The best night was at a bar called Scheune in Berlin. There was a small dark room in the back. They used to have a basement but for some reason it’s closed and they only have the small room now. I was very disappointed at first because I had a good experience there on a prior trip when I had gotten gangbanged. When I went back in the dark room, there were only about four or five guys. Not much seemed to be happening. I left and the same guys were still there about five minutes later. This time there seemed to be a little more action happening. One guy had a very thick beer can sized dick typical of many Germans which he had out and was stroking. I started making out with him and then he went down and sucked my dick for a while. I was actually worried he might be a bottom. But then I reciprocated and sucked his dick. He then turned me around and started fucking my ass. Even though I’ve gotten fucked by many guys for four days in a row, his girth made it slow going in the beginning. He needed to stretch open my hole wider and deeper than my previous fucks. He fucked me for a while and then I’m not sure if he passed me on to someone else or decided to take a break but when he pulled out another guy jumped on immediately. He then fucked me until he shot his load. Mr. Beer Can Cock jumped back on and did the same in my now squishy hole. He was followed by another 4-5 guys who all unloaded in me. With the exception of Mr. Beer Can, I have no idea what the rest of the guys looked like, but I was certainly happy to get their loads. 45 minutes later when I came out, my friends that I was traveling with said I looked exhausted. After we left there, we went to another bar where I had a few more loads put in me. Quite a hot night!

Had a fun communion last time I went. I hadn’t gone for a while and decided to go to the one at Steamworks in Berkeley. I also had a friend in town and he wanted to go as well. I try to write about my cumdump experiences that are different or unique to me. As anyone knows who’s read my prior entries, since I became a cumdump a couple years ago I’ve had lots of loads in my hole. It’s definitely been a progression. When I first started I was excited to get a 2 or 3 loads in my hole. Now I would consider that a slow night. ? it seems like the more you get, the more it increases the hunger within you. This time while At communion I had quite an enjoyable time with the top. I have been there for a little bit and gotten fucked by a few guys and taking some loads so I decided it was time to position myself on the fuck bench. I hadn’t been there for too long when a top bear came over and started to finger my hole. After realizing that it was pre-lubed with cum, he quickly proceeded to put it in his dick with one thrust. He had a nice thickness to him and some length but not too much. So he was able to slide right in my cum lubed and open hole. He used it well for about 10 minutes; all while talking loudly about how good my hole was and how he was going to bust his nut in there. He increased his pace and got louder as he got closer to coming. When coming, he shouted and moaned, yelling “here’s number one” for the benefit of the crowd that had circled to watch. When he had finished, he started talking to the crowd and asking “who’s got number two?”. Another guy jumped on my hole proceeded to fuck me and unload. This continued for about an hour with my bear top encouraging others to use my hole and keeping track all the while. By the end I had a good five loads in me and a second one from him! Overall a great experience! After another hour or so when the crowd begin to die down, I decided to head home. But because I still had a need in me to be used, I decided to stop in the park and see if anything would happen. They were a few guys about in the area near the bathrooms where men cruise for sex. There was one black guy already under the tree near the handicap ramp where guys go to fuck and suck. I leaned over the ramp and pulled down my sweatpants exposing my ass and turned around to look at the guy. He had already pulled out his dick and was stroking it. He walked over and pushed me down to suck on his nice meaty 8 inches. When I was sucking on him, he started rubbing and feeling up my ass till he got to my hole. When he felt how wet and loose my hole was, he immediately turned me around and shove it right in. He started fucking and bucking like a stallion in heat while held onto the railing for dear life! After roughly fucking me for 5 minutes, he pulled me towards him and thrust in deep to unload. When done, he immediately pulled out, shoved his dick in his pants and left, leaving me with my ass exposed and cum dripping down my leg. I decided to walk more of the park to see if I could get any more loads. Turned out to be my lucky night! I ran into another black guy with a nice 8 inch dick as well and he proceeded to fuck me behind the bushes for a nice long session for about 45 minutes or more. He got me so horned up that I kept on stripping off more and more of my clothes because I wanted to be comfortable and experience all of him. By the end I was stark naked bent over just taken his dick. He was a great fucker! He’d pull in all the way out and slam it back in my sloppy hole. When he was ready to unload he made sure to get in even deeper so that his balls were slapping against my ass as he came in my hole. We talked briefly after and exchanged names and how we hoped to meet each other again. I wished I had gotten his number because he was so good! After him my hole felt satisfied and I went home to sleep well that night!

Part 3 My last night in Berlin was the best! I went to Scheune which is becoming a new favorite of mine. After buying a beer and checking my coat, I headed downstairs to the play area. I knew I wanted to be an exhibitionist and get as many loads as possible, so I headed over to the sling area. Next to the sling, there was a wall with a grid of metal over it. I started to undress taking off my jeans while holding onto the metal. There was a heavyset German guy who was watching me while rubbing the bulge in his pants. From the look he was giving me I knew he wanted some ass and to unload. He had that look of hunger. I turned to make sure that he would have a clear view of my ass and my jockstrap while I stripped off the remainder of my clothes. He moved closer to me so I pulled out his dick and was stroking the stubby thickness of it. He put a hand on my ass and started rubbing and squeezing it while fingering my hole. I leaned forward. In the meantime a few other guys have been attracted to the action and were standing behind him in a semi circle. Between the crowd and my available ass, this guy didn’t need any more prompting. He bent me over and thrust his dick dick inside of me. It felt so good to know that I was being used in front of this crowd of men. He shoved and grunted with an urgency to unload. It didn’t take him long but once he was done immediately a member of the audience jumped on my ass and took his place. For the next half hour all of the 6-8 guys in the semi circle took their turns in my hole. Each one unloaded in me till they were all spent and I was left standing while cum dripped down my leg out of my hole. I felt like such a well used cumdump. It was incredibly satisfying and I was grateful for all of their loads.

Part 2 The remainder of my time at CDL was spent with the younger top who insisted on using a condom. Because he was so handsome I obliged and felt some fulfillment when after he fucked me, he took off the condom and stroked his thick meaty dick to unload right on my hole. With cum dripping off of my hole and down my leg, I walked around CDL for one last time as the small crowd seem to be disappearing. I got roughly shoved into one of the cubbies where an older masculine top pushed me over and thrust into me. He didn’t seem to care whether I would accommodate him but just took what he needed. He instinctively sensed that I was a cum dump and treated my hole accordingly. He grabbed my shoulders while fucking my hole in a circular motion. He thrust hard against my hole’s walls and I knew that his goal was to unload in me as quickly as possible. He switched to deep dicking me and slamming into my hole balls deep. With a growl he thrust even harder and unloaded as deep in me as he possibly could. He left it there for a minute and then as he pulled out, he pushed me off of him. By the time I had gotten my balance back, he was gone. I was left with the smell of his sweat and cum and the overwhelming sense of his masculinity and superiority over me. Shaken, I walked back to the hotel. I jerked off thinking about his treatment of me; feeling that I had been “just a hole” and knowing that this made me want to submit even more.

I was on hiatus for a couple of months after my last STI treatment, discovering that my viral load had increased and that I was no longer undetectable. I was really weighing whether or not I should continue with my lifestyle choice of being a cumdump. Yet the urge in me remained. I felt like I had lost the part of me that I had spent two years discovering after YEARS of repressing my desires. Crazy to think that repressing my need to be a cumdump felt like chopping off my arm. I thought about returning back to an occasional one on one bareback hook up, but there is a sense of purpose in me that feels fulfilled when I open my hole up to be used. Over the past few years I’ve come to accept that ANY man has the right to use my hole. So on a recent trip to Germany I went back to my wonderful ways and I offered my hole up to ALL takers. Things started off pretty slow. The first night I went to a sex party at a bar called CDL. I’ve never been there before and wanted to try it out. It was naked night which worked for me. I grabbed a beer from the small bar at the front and started to explore the back play space. It wasn’t too large; just some cubbies in a couple of areas with those thin sex club mattresses. About 10 men were cruising the space. Perhaps because it was a Thursday night. I decided to display myself on one of the mattresses with my ass up and ready. It didn’t take too long before a top decided to take the bait. He was Spanish looking with a little larger than average cock that had a Prince Albert. It took a little work to get him in since I hadn’t gotten fucked for a couple of months, but once he was there he started using my hole. He was a thruster and a pounder, pushing me down on the mattress and shoving a pillow under my legs so he could access my hole better. His Prince Albert felt SOOO good sliding against the walls of my hole. He switched directions several times to experience a different part of my hole stretching it out to accommodate his needs. By the end of 30 minutes, I was begging to feel his smooth silky cum coat the walls of my hole. He thrust harder pulling completely out and slamming back in; the Prince Albert sliding in and out past the outer rim of my hole till with a groan he thrust deep in me and unloaded. Good start to my return as I cumdump! Got opened up nicely AND loaded! I hadn’t realized it but there had been another guy watching us who jumped on as soon as Prince Albert left. He was a quick cummer and lasted for five minutes of repetitive thrusts. He squeezed me at the end and kissed me with his bad breath. I was beginning to feel the sense of exhilaration that comes from my hole being used as a cumdump. I knew I didn’t care that the last guy was older, unattractive and sure didn’t know how to fuck. I was embracing the need and desire to be used over and over again. End of part one. Part two the journey continues.

Heading to Vegas for the weekend of May 18 through the 20th. Anyone have any ideas or advice about the best places to be used as a cumdump? Love sex in public and back rooms. Heading to Hawks on Saturday for Cumunion. Thanks for the help!

Another cum dump night on Saturday at Slammer in Los Angeles.Because this was my third time there, I pretty much knew the layout and where I should go for raw anonymous fucking. So I didn’t waste any time walking around the cubbies but headed straight for the dark room where I could have my ass up and ready for any dick that wanted to use it. I spent most of the night there ass up against the fuck bench. I’m lucky to have a good top friend in my life and we’ve spent many hours talking and texting each other about our fantasies and desires. He’s always encouraged me to fulfill my desire to be a cum dump and been very influential on the journey. He was the first one to tell me about Breeding Zone which helped me open my eyes and understand what I could be. I’d read the stories and be jealous of all the bottoms that would allow themselves to take all loads. I started barebacking about a year and a half ago and quickly learned how much I love it; especially the feeling when my hole has been well used and fully loaded. That feeling is like a drug to me; I just can’t get enough of it! On my journey I had to overcome my fear of rejection because I could no longer pretend to be the “good boy” and “husband material” gay man. Instead I learned to accept that I want to be a hole that is used by as many men as possible to dump their loads in and in anonymous, sleazy locations. My friend has been there to encourage me all the way. He shaped and changed my way of thinking so that I gained self acceptance. He got me to look past appearances and social mores to understand my purpose: To serve as a cum dump to ALL men that need one. Lately he’s been training me to think of myself as just a hole; a receptacle for the needs of men. And to let go my thoughts and desires and focus on the pleasure of the top. So on Saturday I took his training and advice to heart and thought about myself as a hole. I let any and all man who wanted to...use it. I didn’t care if they were short, tall, fat, ugly, muscular or handsome… My hole was theirs to use. So after about five hours, 12 to 15 fucks and seven loads in me, I felt like I had learned his lesson well.