leatherpunk16

I'm not feeling 100% today. Splitting headache. And all I wanna do is play with my dick. 

Isn't this a sign of something else that chasers go through when it comes? Probably not that, but I wanted to share that I'm touching my dick! Lol

On Monday I had a day-long unofficial date with the poz pup from the fisting party I posted about. We walked his dog, talked a great deal, and he eventually invited me back to his place for food. I went, we smoked some greenz, and ate. And then he bred me. THICK DICK, and surprisingly cut for a Latino boy. We connected, and I decided to be bold and ask him for an actual date. He said yes! I stayed overnight since my roommate is a piece of shit (and the ceiling caved in while I was away), and got a great night's sleep. We fucked again in the morning. I gave him a damn waterfall of semen after. Sweet guy.

We're going for sushi this weekend. I really like him. 

And before you ask, he's medicated. But I'm not after him for that. 

Got some great dick last night! It was the guy from the fisting party on Saturday. His touch is so gentle, so inviting, and one would never think he's a PIG. Eats ass like it's the last time he'll ever do it, fucks with an incredible passion, cums multiple loads, and kisses well. He even got a bit of poz talk in there even though neither of us has it. He knows what I am, and even told me that chasing is hot. What do you make of this exchange?

Him: You really want the gift, huh?

Me: We don't have to do that right now. (pause) Unless it's already too late?

Him: No, it's not too late. 

He had already bred me by that point, and I was giving him a chance to be honest with me. He's kind enough and level-headed enough that I think he WAS being honest, and nothing to worry/get excited about. Just chatter.

But a great fuck all around. He wants to help me destroy my hole and grow a rosebud. Will definitely see him again. And again. And again. Something of him reminds me of my late husband. But I mustn't fall in love with him. Too soon for that, and besides, this is just sex. 

THE BEAST HAS BEEN FED. WE CAN ALL GO HOME NOW.

Went to my first BB party in a while last night. Got my ass eaten (best ever), bred a poz pup, watched others do likewise. Got a new friend and a guy who wants to breed me as well. A good night means I wake up without all this pent-up poison in my system, and I feel considerably relieved. 

I need to do this again!!! LOL

In the past twelve hours, three people I don't know have asked me if I'm poz.

Think it's a sign? Do I give off those vibes?

I have a long question.

My neighbour is a recent convert to the Brotherhood. He got stealthed and was furious about it. Attractive guy. I want to fuck him. He's open to the idea, but when I told him I'm a chaser, he was appalled. But he is still interested all the same. He's been taking his meds for a month. (This part is important to my question.)

He has a problem topping men. Big dick and bisexual, but prefers to plow women and gets nailed by men. I wonder - if I can get him to blow a wad (whether through oral or JO), his seed will be exposed to me. I can save it in a syringe and freeze it for later self-injection. Will his bugs survive the freezing and I could poz myself with a turkey baster? I am thinking he hasn't been medicated long enough to still be toxic. 

I want to know - is this a possibility after the fact (and the fucked)? 

Recently bought marijuana for the first time. Legal here in Washington. Fuck, this "Gorilla Glue 4" gives an incredible high. I have yet to fuck while on this stuff. I could easily become a stoner out here, LOL.

My upstairs neighbor is poz and asked me to open his rosebud. He got stealthed last winter and just started meds. He's a hot bottom with a monster dick and wants to do sex with me. 

And here I sit, flirting with the idea that I can open his prolapse in exchange for a poz load. God damn, what is wrong with me??? I think this is a source of trauma for him, so maybe I better not tell him what I am.

I got nailed by Brian Bonds last Friday night. He was in Seattle for a layover, and while we had intention of making a film, we did not. But I got that nice hot poz load, and his dick is thick and full and AMAZING. We also talked about life, industry things, and ideas for future scenes.

Update on my "newly" poz ex.

His conversion wasn't as recent as I thought. He converted a few months after we broke up in 2016, so while I was getting to know my late husband, the ex was taking a raw poz load. What is disconcerting is that after my man died, I went back to the ex. He never said one word about his health, and resumed breeding me. You know what that means?

I was taking his medicated poz loads in 2018 and never knew it! He just assumed that I knew.

He was kinda horrified when I told him I am a bugchaser. But he says he feels no different from before - no extra desire to breed or spread or anything like the rest of us get. Even his conversion was super mild, no flu at all. It's so weird. 

I got a load from him this morning. Didn't feel any different than any other I've earned.

Twice in the past week I've received messages on Twitter from guys who want to give me their charged loads. 

Such a thing has never happened to me before in my life! I feel like someone's telling me to bug up. 

Hey, has anyone heard from bugRyan lately? I miss his posts.

Going to Walgreens today and dumping my PreP in the drop box. 

Two reasons: 

1. I'm a goddamn bugchaser, and I'd be a hypocrite to hang on to this.

2. It's expired. Not any good anyway. 

Thoughts?

Need help with one of my bottom pigs. He always cums early while I'm doing him, so I have an idea. I want to cover my meat stick with his jizz and continue breeding him. This is to be a surprise for him, and he's begging me for a hint. What can I say that won't give away this surprise until it happens?

Fisted and fucked a hot rosebud last night. Turns out I can plow with my new PA. It's been four weeks and I took it super cautiously, but I felt a shift at one point, and it began to pull. I kept expecting to pull out and find no ring on the end of my cock. We were both kinda spent by that point, so no load was given. I came home, cranked it out, and sucked the cum into an empty syringe for freezing and later use. 

I think I'll start saving loads from other men who don't shoot inside me for later use. This oughta be fun.

Last night, I got a message on a hookup site from my ex. He tested poz last year. I'm stunned. He was always very selective about his men, but he refused protection and didn't know what PreP is. Someone wasn't honest about his status, and my ex converted quite uneventfully. I don't know why I care so much - he's my ex for a reason, and knowing this guy, he went through the whole thing by himself like it was just a minor cold and carried on with his life. 

And now he wants to breed me again. This is the guy with the little dick, and his top skills sucked. He's taking the medicine, so I won't bug up from him, but I'm suddenly hungry to go and get that charged load from him. 

HE'S MY EX FOR A REASON. I can't say it enough. Do I want to see the man who hurt me and disrespected my dead husband? Do I want to go through being pounded by his uncomfortable five inches just to get that poz load? I just don't know. Help me out here, guys.

News! You pigs will be happy to hear that I successfully spread gono again last February. I got nailed 3 times in the last week of the month, and one of them infected me with it. (I now know who.) And I spread it to the next guy. It was his first bug, and I was his first guy. Feeling empowered by that. He just confirmed that I gave it to him back then. 

Thoughts?

I've decided something for myself. I'm going to stay neg as long as possible while building my new life. If I still want to charge up in 5 years (which will give me ample time to build that life), then I will become active in pursuit. Looking back over my life, the interest has popped up periodically and dropped off for long stretches. This current spot is the longest it's gone on, but who can say it will be maintained? 

I know some of you will be disappointed. But I'm doing what is right for me, and when I'm ready in other places, then it will happen. If it happens prior to the 5 years being up, then it happens and I deal with it. For now, that's the goal and I feel good about that.

Hey, pigs. I just posted my first story in the Bugchasing section. I invite you to take a look and tell me what you think of it. Thanks awfully.

I have an idea for a story brewing in my head. I just don't know if I want to make the effort. My posts, you will observe, are long-winded and full of irrelevant details, and I don't think that is what BZ is about. I don't know that one could stomach an entire story with such a dense plot or drive.

Dick is a little itchy today. I washed my PA, and pulled out this white little film. Just a little piece. Almost like cum, but that's impossible. And one side under the head of my penor looks a little puffy and red. That's a new one. Wonder what horrible disease I have THIS time.

I did it, pigs! I joined Team PA, and got my dick pierced for my 40th birthday. It hurts now, but will be nice when it's healed.

Got bred today! I had to go up to Madison for auto service, so I saw a friend of my late husband. 'Martin' and I played before with Mark, but I was not into him. What I remembered about him was a nasty overbite and his MONSTER DICK. So we got together and fucked. He pumped a 4-day load into my ass. I barely noticed, which means my bottoming has improved. Last time I took this guy's pole was January 2018, and I did not have a good time. 

Anyway, his huge dick pumped a fat wad of cum DEEP in my guts. I then had a great idea. I lay back on the bed and beat off. 'Martin' caught my cumshot with his hand, then proceeded to finger my own spunk into my hole. It was super hot. My ass feels good right now. 😃

MODS: I think the website needs a "top" button to scroll back to the top of a page in the topics. (Gosh, that was a lot of more 'top' than one can find on Grindr. LOL) It's annoying to find a topic update with a new post, and find it at the bottom of a page. I want to go back to the forums when I'm done reading it, and scrolling manually is a chore. 

Got an appointment to get my dick pierced on the 24th. Yay! I'm doing sex right before the piercing - but is that safe? Will I be too sensitive for a piercing? Should I refrain from bottoming after? Surely someone here knows these things from experience.

I'm in a mood for some SERIOUS darkness today. Can't identify exactly what, though.