I was 34 married got sex once a quarter. I had read and replied to Craigslist ads but never had the balls to meet. I finally posted an ad for "platonic cuddling" (such a straight boy thing to do) 54 yo blue eyed fella replies and we chat. Trade numbers and continue talking. He wants to know all about this cuddling and invited me out to his house way out in the country SE of Kansas City. I get out there it's cold and he recommends the hot tub. Naked. My ears are already ringing but I figure the cuddles were supposed to be naked too so what does it matter. We get naked separately and run out in towels in a rush to get in the warm water. He's beautiful Daddy everything. Good sized dick and balls tan in shape greyed hairy chest. We talk, he asks about my wife, what experiences I've had etc rubs my foot, makes sure it's touching his dick and balls etc. My heart is pumping. After a bit we go in. He tells me to shower off and after a second joins me. He soaps me up and touches everything. Then I get to do the same. His now hard dick is at 7.5-8 and dwarfs mine. We go to the bed for "cuddles". It's starts out that way but he will not keep his hands off my ass and I don't ask him to stop. Finally he rolls me over so that he's on top. He tells me "I think it's about time you got fucked. You clearly need it. What do you say" thump thump thump is all I can here and my ears are ringing and I hear someone else's voice say "ok". He leaned back never once breaking eye contact and grabbed lube off the headboard and teased my ass with it. "Would you like me to use a condom?" He asked. Stammering "well...are you negative?" "Yes but I could just be saying that." Never breaking eye contact with those piercing blue eyes... To this day I still hear my next words ringing in my ears "I trust you". He smiled lined his cock up to my ass and slid it in slowly. It burned but was not excruciating and when it was all the way inside and his balls settled against my ass I finally knew my role, it dawned on me after 34 years this was how I was designed to have sex. "Are you ok? Does it hurt" he asked? "It's PERFECT" I said. He kissed me and began to fuck me. A few minutes later he said he was about to cum I wrapped my legs around him and took his load deep in my ass and it changed me forever.
He tried and tried to get back in my ass but I never let him guilt and shame reigned supreme. Parks and books stores were all I could do. I couldn't do the connection again at that time. Lost touch. Still think about him (clearly). He did a good job.