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Same thing happens to me all the time.

Oh man, thanks for triggering my sole remaining brain cell a bit this morning. I definitely appreciate your blog today. Rebellious? Or just one who makes his own decisions? I'm not sure that is rebellious.... Like you, I appreciate appeals to logic and thought. I try to do the same. How would you go about leading a group effort? Jim

Great story! thanks for sharing @dendnadrop

I am still blocking myself. On one hand, everyone can control whether or not they infect and still enjoy raw sex. So perhaps as an unmedicated poz guy I should just stop thinking about it??? Maybe if they bring it up, great, else focus on the sex? Feedback appreciated.

TBH I would rather an in-person demonstration than a written account.

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To the inner child that says no. Recently, a guy that I’ve been dating—James—mentioned a certain characteristic of mine. One that I’ve noticed for a long time, but never really found the words for. An inner rebellious nature. One that often makes me do the opposite of what someone tells me to do. I’ve noticed this trigger in particular phrases— “You should…” “You must…” If I hear those words, you can bet that the instant you turn your back, I’m doing the complete opposite. And I sat in that space for a while. And I thought to myself, why do I do this? A good friend once mentioned something about my growing up experience. Maybe there was a time in my life when society—or maybe my parents—laid out the blueprint. The life plan. The one I followed obediently for years. Until one day I didn’t. Maybe that was the day I decided to take control of my own life. My own agency. And since then, I’ve been quietly rebelling against the world, one decision at a time. I like to make my own choices. And when other people—especially people I care about, like my partners—tell me to do something, I usually don’t. Which, as you can imagine, can be problematic. Especially when it comes from a place of love. Of safety. Of wanting the best for me. This is an evolving space for me. Recognizing the trigger. Finding a way to let the people who love me steer me away from the rocks I might be sailing toward—without making me feel like they’ve taken the wheel. Because I notice I respond well to suggestions. To invitations. To logic. Phrases like: “Have you ever thought of…?” “What are your thoughts on…?” “What does this mean to you?” “What’s your take on…?” They help. They make me feel like I’m being asked, not instructed. Like I’m being met halfway. And if their reasoning makes sense—if it aligns with who I am—then I’ll most likely follow. Not because they told me to. But because I chose to. But, and here’s a big but, if their logic doesn’t hold up against my own values, then I’ll probably stick to my beliefs. Still— for that moment— we shared the same space together. And that, I think, is a good start.

I am looking to discuss a CNC session with a Top who will hold me down and breed me. Preferably in public, but happy to discuss ideas in more detail. I am based in London but travel throughout the South East for work. Happy to travel further.

I once spent just over a year talking to a Satanist. And not a hot-topic Satanist who just liked the edgy astestic, but an actual practicing pagan who literally worshiped nature, and knew all of the druidic gods, and had a house full of occult stuff, and so on and so on. He was by far and away the most boring, most nerdy, most shut-in man on the planet earth. He made Sheldon Cooper look like James Charles by comparison. I mean that literally. We once got into an argument because he said he didn't want to go to any event with more than 30-40 people, and I didn't believe him.

I never ask, don’t see much point in this. No one seems to ask anymore, but if asked, I will disclose as I do on all my profiles. Otherwise, I walk away if I feel uncomfortable.

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Cumunion is starting this Friday 9th May at ME1 Sauna in Rochester Kent. From reading above, I'm unsure how it will go and how different it will be from, for example, a naked event at the same venue. Fingers crossed it's a cracker.

It is fortunately rare, but sometimes happens with an agreed or anonymous hook-up that a guy starts to prepare a condom, whereupon I always immediately refuse any sex with him, saying I only accept bareback sex. It is important for me to enjoy the slippery feel and risk, along with feeling like a woman who either wants and expects to become pregnant, or is on a contraceptive pill so she can fully enjoy both unprotected vaginal and anal sex. I will only do limited unprotected oral sex as part of foreplay, to get a guy stiff, and even stiffer after we have kissed on the mouth just before anal penetration and I tell him I want a baby. If a guy has his cock in my mouth for long, he will cum there and will lack the desire and cum to fulfill my bareback needs. So if oral, only quickly in and out, to ensure he penetrates and seeds me unprotected soon afterwards where I want it, in my transgirl vagina. Of course, many guys go straight to an unprotected anal fuck with or mostly without discussion and foreplay, making me feel nicely vulnerable as a defenseless unpaid prostitute. Occasionally, a guy asks if I am healthy or have HIV/AIDS before fucking me unprotected, sometimes just afterwards, which feels nice after he has already had the perceived risk he fears. I assure such guys that I am still healthy, as I have not yet had any symptoms of anything. The guys should realize that I am much more at risk as a bottom than they are when they top me. It is my role as an unpaid prostitute to serve guys and to accept all consequences.

I adore to slurp and smell sloppy slimey mancunts. The looser and sloppier the better. Sticking my tongue right inside and slurping away at all the hole has to offer. Sucking on the swollen ring and deeply french kissing the cunt hole

Very well done bud, Thanks! Drew

Main concept is: HIV positive folks are not, and cannot be, responsible for other people's health. Yes we can protect others by taking meds. This is one. But if someone really cares for their negative status, they can get all methods to prevent it to change. Not accepting bareback and/or getting on Prep. In an ideal world, discussing status with stranger would not be a problem. But in this world, homophobia and serophobia are still dominant. So we can't take it lightly.

also there is more coming.

The subject rarely cums up. I'm poz bottom and any conversation takes place after a top's dick has been inside my hole 🕳

Newnorthern is my tele. Virtually no lims. Give me a message.

seem like you have an experience . Have you ever try and how the result

Have someone ever try I really wanna try to do that my father is in late 40 and still very hit for me even i know that he's clearly straight , but I still wanna try any advice for me

Even though I'm undetectable, I always disclose before a hookup. It's a different story at bathhouse or a bareback sex party, where I assume guys don't care about status.

I find I need to wear a jock. My balls hang quite low and find the top bangs into them, especially if I'm on my back, which can be really painful....

If you have to or want to ask, then maybe you shouldn't be bare backing. If you are worried about contracting HIV, then you can protect yourself by going on prep.... It really isn't an issue these days ....

While with my ex (we were open couple) I didn't. They were my ex's friends and I wanted to avoid discussions. Now? Undetectable untransmittable, I have embraced it all; I'm planning to open the couple with my current partner but the condition is, I want to be upfront. Rejection? If it is going to happen, fuck it. I feel I have nothing more to lose. I'm turning the fuck 50 years old, this summer will be the upgrade I think. I'm experienced and adult enough, everyone around me knows my status, I think I have nothing to fear about.