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I append to my latest text: for what concerns voting, I prefer not to be oriented at right. But when talking to "ordinary" people if someone is far-right they're clearer in what they say and want - at least this is my feeling. If they use hate speech it's honest, and they don't hide hate behind a red-hearted mask. When a self-defined "leftist" or at least "activist" for something then talks violently (and accepts violence) towards people with opposite ideas, I really get disgusted like when I hear of a publicly homophobic being caught with men. At least if I hear someone saying bad words against us, I can keep the distance. But when they say "love is love", "respect LGBT community" then they don't accept if someone likes anonymous sex and take loads from strangers, for instance? "Love is love" has NOTHING to do with inclusion, IMHO. And now someone could downvote/unfollow me, feel free to do it as losing some numbers in reputation is no harm, unfollows won't decrease my CD4 count LOL. I'm always direct and frank, no sense in speaking for convenience only.

I have controversial thoughts on politics these days, because I think the time of "right and left" is definitely over. I also heard a song, a satire song -not in English- saying "you know what's the right, and what's the left?" And verses were such as "if you dress elegant you are at right, if you dress casual you are at left" or "the shower is at left, the tub is at right" or reverse. No matter. And we could add "if you use condoms you are at right, if you go raw and on Prep you are at left". Or even more "provoking" if needed, such as "neg is the right, poz is the left" and I think we could go on forever. Keeping it more serious though, I think that we all should (politicians at first) stop splitting society in two. Now the situation for me is to vote "the best in the worst"; someone should change, put politicians together and make their own programs so that you vote THE PROGRAM and not people; the world has changed so much and is continuously changing, we can't continue referring to politics like we have done from the 2nd world war on. Talking about rainbow flags and symbols, I'm really angry to this mechanism, you know why I left social networks -commercial ones-? Officially it's for HIV stigma "after I got diagnosed in 2013 I silently erased Facebook and stuff" had a Twitter on, anonymous, now with Elon Musk-et- it's gone as well. If I left it was because I got aggressive reaction from contacts I trusted, due to the fact I didn't publish Pride-related material, I didn't wear rainbow flag on profile, I didn't "externally" show my support to the community, at least according to them. So, vulnerable as I was due to diagnosis, do you think I could stand all that rubbish? I just closed it all. For what concerns me, someone could walk doggy-style with rainbow flag in his ass if he feels to, but then? I hardly tolerate sport men who publicly stand for our cause and then go to play in countries where LGBT rights are strongly repressed. Who said Turkey, who said Saudi Arabia, even Hungary? Well, ME. If you stand for the community you REJECT those offers, otherwise you just look for the money. And now the most important thing about the right/left: I clearly don't support right-oriented politicians because they work to limit our freedom, starting from the Internet. I work in this field -cyber security- and digital education, and can't tolerate this approach - limiting porn, because of minors. I have to recognize this to the Right: they are trying to handle this issue. In the WRONG way, but they do. I am one who would like to work more on education rather than restrictions, because restrictions induce folks to go bother "preys" in "traditional" sites, not having porn any longer. Spoiler: I'm writing a story on this subject... So, with less divisions and more cooperations, better ideas and solutions could be found by a SERIOUS group of politicians that's what we currently don't have.

My partner and I are like this: "unsuspectable", at least concerning kinks. We're not (yet) an open couple but friends and co-workers or whomever we talk to, think we are the ordinary vanilla monogamous gay couple from hetero-based stereotypical disgusting romance novels where lovers know just one sex position or two, penis-anus and at the most penis-mouth. Someone even say "why on earth your nickname is 'gifter'" and I put out an excuse from "One Piece" manga characters. Fuck them. But I let you imagine when we were joining an online conference where we had to read some contents and we both had an anal plug inside of us. Or when I seriously talk to my boss on "ordinary" phone while I am NAKED and sexting with someone on this site through my tablet - just when I'm working from home of course. Let alone when I mention plugins -technology related stuff- or "plug and play", and my partner winks at me or vice-versa. It all started when I was a teen; despite being attracted mostly by guys, I played piano or sang at school and I had several girls at my feet if I wanted to. And I let them dream while thinking of men. Now, my horniness and/or fantasies are stimulated my "unsuspectable": when I talk to someone who looks serious and ordinary I enjoy my mind elaborating him when he sets free from his official mask and then has deepest kinks. Who is talking about politicians, or men working in the army, publicly homophobic and privately god only knows? ME|!

Hi, this discussion is inspired by two topics started here: - one about "right vs. left" usual political discussions where I talked about LGBT (wrong?) representation in mainstream entertainment. - the other about experiences with virgin men from a top's point of view where I shared a little of what happened with my current partner. As an amateur writer I care about what entertainment is and means, so I try to focus on this topic; I don't consider porn though, as that is (or at least should be) like video games: show extreme, surreal situations to trigger sexual excitement. In few words sex education SHOULD NOT be learned through porn or otherwise we might obtain the driving license by studying car-related games rather than taking ordinary schools and exams. So which entertainment (book, tv show, movie, etc) made you feel represented for who you are or for the goals you wanted to achieve in your real life? I am very, very convinced that entertainment plays a relevant role in how our community is seen in this world, together with information but entertaining material helps you, or ruins you, depending on how it's made. "Queer as folk" was addressed to LGBT+ community and from my point of view it was really well made -covering many points, even controversial but in a quite considerate way; it has the promiscuous, the closeted, serodiscordant and monogamous, even with a kid, it has also included "bug chasing" topic in one episode. But I am referring to mainstream-addressed material. For me the best representation has been Artie Russo, a character coming from "cold case" - a crime show focused on unsolved murders. He was in episode 7 from season 2, called "it's raining men". He involves the police in 2000s to solve his former partner's murder back in 1983. Jeff was HIV+ and died strangled. The episode covers Jeff's back story, when his father disowned him due to homosexuality, he takes care of Artie while he's hospitalized with AIDS, promising him to do his best to help - Jeff's father owned a medical company involved in new AIDS drugs experiments. Artie was actually an AIDS survivor and the police discovers that Jeff had been killed by his brother, Paul, closeted gay, who was afraid that Jeff could out him while talking about Artie with their father. He feared to be disowned too. And the final scene was Artie's wedding, with a song called "when I'm with you" by "Sheriff" as sound track. That song which is now the soundtrack for me and my partner's romantic moments. Yes seeing two gay men get married in a mainstream-related tv show after having experienced literally hundreds of tragedies, has meant a lot to me helping me to continue believing I still could hope in a long-term relationship with a man. I stopped believing it after having ended the affair with my very first man who fell into substances addiction, I was far from being HIV+ then. I have that episode recorded in a DVD and after sharing my experience in virginity-related topic here I have decided to watch it with my current guy to explain why "when I'm with you" has become our song. Seeing those scenes 20 years later made me emotional again.

love loose but if he can squeeze it around me when we both get close

That's an issue not just with virgins if someone develops feelings when you want just sex but when virginity is involved, the family-oriented culture we all grew up makes some bottom assume you deflowered them so you're linked to them for life. NOT NECESSARY! In my case the virginity detail sealed our connection but a deep bond was already there.

I have many sides people don't know! LOL Let's say it must be all natural and whatever you put "on the table" when facing first experiences in sex, the only thing you should be prepared to, is to have all your plans go upside down.

Perfectly aware of what you're talking about, I wanted to finish mine before USA elections but I fear I won't manage to - unless I spend another week-end on my desk and I won't! I am an author I love to write but there are even beloved PEOPLE who need my presence and I neglected them because of work during the whole September and October months. Everything has priority, a day is 24 hours long, we all must choose!

Definitely horny and let's say it, intense. Knowing it was his first experience with male sex, our mutual trust, the fact he let me enter bare with no fear (I'm poz, undetectable but generally hetero men feel fear when facing practice, despite science theory). It has meant and still means a lot, happened around these days in 2022. We were best friends and co-workers then, and it drastically changed. Not friends any more, ever more... We are PARTNERS. Still feeling proud to have introduced him to male sex and he enjoys, but at the beginning of it all I was scared that everything could unrecoverably break down. It happened in the positive way.

I hardly label myself when talking about politics, but I'm scared. Very scared. I am strongly in favor of "diversity equity inclusion" stuff, but my horrible sensation is that we are being USED by both parties: left side for a propaganda, right side for the other. I feel like both are pulling my feet, and causing me pain. To explain it better, even not approving the choice, I perfectly understand why many LGBT, people with disabilities, black, and so on... prefer to address themselves toward conservatives rather than the opposite. It's the paradox of choosing someone who use hate for propaganda and then in the end might not even care about us, rather than voting for someone who uses us, says a lot of good words, then sit down and change nothing (or change things slowly, wasting time discussing). I was just talking about this with a friend who is totally blind. We were talking about tech related topics, the eternal debate "open and closed, free or paid, AI or not AI". It's endless. And my friend reported that they find too many "left-oriented" folks saying "let's fill AI with fake news and make it useless so people stops polluting and wasting water for that bullshit. Let's boycott blah blah blah" but I have seen it with my eyes, how AI tech and "big tech" in general, give quick help to people with disabilities. So my friend said "how could I trust 'free-oriented' people if they then give me fewer help? I won't because I reason differently but my instinct would bring me to vote to the right where I have the illusion they do something". I personally don't hate DEI policies, I hate how they are adopted! No sense in selling pride-related gadgets in June, sending social network posts, hashtags and webinars all around, if then the gay/poz/whatever person is bullied at work for some reason. Useless to create a women-friendly policy when men look at the woman's butt when she bends down to pick up a product from the vending machine. Inclusion is not made by inventing the stories about thousands of queer characters where they have basically nothing to do with the plot, or having a black woman interpreting the role of a Caucasian character. Or worse, "just gay actors can play the role of gay characters". I'm a writer, a damned amateur writer. I'm sighted, HIV positive, attracted by men. Someone should explain why despite being sighted I couldn't write about blind. Or being HIV poz I couldn't impersonate a neg character, or talking about a man-woman affair, despite being partnered to a man. I never choose to enter the commercial circle because I don't want my own creativity to be ruled. Because inclusion and equity for me is a deeper battle, intersectional. And real intersectionalism can't be made by marketing and propaganda. It need empathy with no doubt, but empathy is useless without culture, awareness and education. Human rights are not a card to play and to bet on. My 2 cents. P.S. - to make what i mean a little clearer, I bring up an example based on entertainment. Netflix Spanish tv show "Breathless", based on medical plots. There are 4 LGBT characters, two men and two women; in Spain it's 18 years they have same sex marriage and families so, we could say, "they would be treated like other families". NO. Spoilers... The two gays meet in a chems related party, one is a doctor and the other is addicted to substances and has contracted all possible sti's in this world, HIV included. The two women, one is pregnant and her partner then leaves her just before birth. And then kidnaps her newborn baby... Many LGBT folks feel represented by this kind of stories, and I don't. It's surreal. It seems that to satisfy a large public, they feed representation and stereotypes at the same time! So they cause extreme reactions "better nothing than this". And in more serious matters the risk is the same, and it's just behind the corner.

I was waiting for your stories to continue, you basically disappeared.

I was referring to the same virus because they attended the same party. About the fact Peter gifted Rob as well, it couldn't be possible. Let me know about next part

Damn, you work as a therapy. I just said, let's go to bed I have worked hard, I'm dead tired. But your story made me hard as a rock! Let's go on and convert the other guy - but, did TJ's father get poz from the same virus?

My "introduction" had been a 13 days long ban, but I understood why: one was a misunderstood message (I wrote it badly and could be read as an encouragement to self-harm when it wasn't) and the other was a story written with "fan fiction" model, assuming it was correct. But I didn't ask the first author for a possible story sequel so they were right, to kick me temporarily out. But then it's 2 years I post and never got infractions any longer. I have publicly dirty-talked with someone as well. Maybe it's something rude on politics or other stuff?

The idea of fucking a converting hole is so hot, especially knowing to be his gifter!!!

Not having sex but we were hand in hand. My current partner and I. His hetero marriage was over, he jumped bed after bed and she had another man. Long story. And she caught us having a more intimate contact than we were used to have as "best friends" like we officially called each other. It was the time they finally buried the past in an already open grave! Would it have been hotter to be caught in bed? YES, without any doubt! And we didn't do anything to encourage the "secret" story, aware that our mutual "official" relationships were over and it was matter of signing papers.