Hole4u

This is definitely true. I took my first full fist 3 years ago in my mid 50s. I have only done 3 times in total. Mainly because the guy that fists me is very busy and doesn’t have time to properly train me. It’s been very hit or miss mostly miss finding someone else. He did give me a training schedule and I’ve ordered some toys to help out. he sets me up in a sling and in a dark room or blindfolded with just some poppers. Once that hand is in me it’s like I’m in the dark void of another realm and dimension. The pain and pleasure is way beyond this world.

So it’s official. Two decades of bareback sex and taking loads started in January of 2006. I’ve taken raw on a few occasions prior. Mainly in the late 90s am it started once at the fire island nice beach of all places. Then once in a county park and a couple of times with an handsome Asian guy. We bagged it but I let him after the condom broke. No never came in me. Then 2000 I bottomed for a guy who broke the condom and came all over my ass. He said he might have gotten some inside me and btw he was hiv positive and didn’t start ART yet. Yikes! I ended seeing a specialist in NYC and did PEP for a month. In cash. It was super expensive and I was scared beyond belief. I bagged it the next 5 years. With the right top, cock size and lube it was great. But that was rare. It usually hurt like hell or I was paranoid the condom would break. Then I started reading about how barebacking is getting popular and you could sero-sort. The seed was planted. So 2005 comes and I’m having guys tease me before strapping up or have them pull out and blow all over my ass and it was hot. I loved the way it felt. Sometimes I’d just get dressed and not clean up just t soak my clothes for the trip home. Then Jan 2 2026 came along. I thought we were open at work but we were closed. Stupid me went in for nothing. So on the way home I stopped at an adult theater that was open in the morning. There were just me and like 2 other guys. This older guy was rock hard (Viagra) and was after me so we go into a dark corner and he has me blow him. As I’m blowing him he puts me in a headlock of sorts and a bottle of rush under my nose. I fought it at first but then it hit and bam, hooked just like that. Eventually he starts playing with my ass which felt really good from the poppers. So he’s living me up and starting to push in when I realize he’s not wrapped. So right then and there I said fuck it, I’m playing bare. I told him to pull out when he was close. He never came but the damage was done. I’m doing raw now on. So for the next few weeks I do just that. But the anxiety was getting to me. Then in another, much smaller adult, theater I watched this guy that I’ve seen around and jerked off with and blew a little playing with this other guy. He gets the other guy completely nude on the couch and fucks him raw. I never knew he did that so it was hot. When he was ready he said to the bottom “on you or in you?” The bottom said in and he breeded him. By their expressions it was so natural and stress free. The top wake t to use the bathroom while the bottom got dressed. We were the only 3 in the place. I asked him are you worried and he said no. He said the top said he’s neg and eventually it’s going to happen anyway and might as well enjoy it. That stuck with me. Reminds me of that Grateful Dead song. So, bottom leaves and the top comes back in and we make small talk and he’s hard again so blow him a little then drop my pants and get in the couch doggy. He jumps right up and lines me up with his spit and plunges in raw. It was amazing. The poppers and this weight off my shoulders was like gone. He’s getting close and I’m really close. On you or in you he says. I hesitate and he’s ready to blow and I chicken out at the last second and say on so he blows all over my gaping hole. I come instantly. He apologized saying he started to show as I said “on” so I got a little inside. I said no worries since my hole was drenched anyway and next time you don’t have to pull out or ask. I go back the next day at the same time and he’s there. I ask was the place busy and he said not at all and that he was hoping I’d show. We wast no time getting at it and I’m in position again and he’s close and asks again “on or in?” I reply in and never ask again and he bred me. It felt so good, natural and right. I was never going back after that. That late afternoon he bred me 2 more times. He fucked me at least 2 or more times a week for the next year before he found out he had it. I didn’t and still don’t. We still play to this day though the loads are less with age. In fact he was in me last week. I had taken a load from another guy we both knew and he’s like let me stir it up and tear you up. So I’ve been playing raw and being bred ever since. Have I had bagged since? Of course. I’m not turning down a good time and usually they dude leaves the bag and I still get the load. I’m a totally too. My body count could fill up a broadway theater and my load count would be a 2 or 3 night engagement. People say I’m nice looking but I don’t think so. People do say they love breeding my hole and I finally figured out that’s why I’ve been put on this earth. So for the last year I’ve been upping the ante and this year is no exception. At some point soon I’m going to slow down. I also want to breed a little more often and even though I know I’m gay, I started off life straight ish and have been with a few, very few women. I never bred one in the ass though so I hope I could experience that someday. And soon after that just stop. It’s been a good run being a free use cum dump bottom. A lot of good guys I’ve known never got the chance to be to be their true selves or even just be because of hiv. So that’s my story if you hung around this long, thanks for reading this. It’s my validation for now that I did do this and I do exist. If we hooked up on purpose or anonymously thanks for the ride.

Took my first load of 2026 yesterday at the adult store. I got fucked am little just before him but the guy didn’t cum. Last week I got fucked by a bud but I had him use a condom because I was still a little raw from being fisted back in Jan 4. That’s another story for another post but I will say I need to practice more often lol. So back to yesterday, I’ve played with this guy a bunch of times before and he is also a bottom and loves eating my ass and fucking and filling me. I don’t mind fucking him either but it was all about my hole yesterday. And he put a really nice load in me. I was his first load of 2026 too. Also, he loves to bite me and I’m cool with the bite mark as long as it’s inconspicuous and I have a nice moments on my left shoulder. He stroked me off at the same time and I shit a nice load as well. Whats great is I was able to work from home this morning and while I’m dressed waist up, below I’m in the the same spandex underwear he bred me in and I’m letting his cum drip out of me soaking my shorts and the chair cushion.

I think above all else it’s a sexual practice first and foremost. It can be fetishized but that goes for just about anything.

I was there once before the pandemic on a weekday afternoon/early evening. That place was kinda quiet, but damn I do get laid 4 times and 4 loads collected. I need to take a trip back. What’s it like these days?

I fought it a long time when I was younger. I’m so glad I did take the plunge and be my true self. You will too. Just go at your own pace and on your terms. Peace and love to you

All of this is true at this stage of my sexual being. I not only can admit it to myself, but I can fully embrace being a cum dump.

Yes, but not while they are high or if the seem not capable of making decisions.

You’ll find some meetups on sniffles, but nothing like the parties in the city. I’ve tried for years to have a bareback night at adult vid store but now everyone pretty much plays bare anyway. Would still be fun though.

My best was 9 loads by 5 guys the first time I went to The Fair Theater in 2016. A week and a half ago I had 5 guys and 5 loads at Sinderella on a weeknight. Which is the best night 9 years since. 2-3 loads are the most common when I’m out at a theater. Even if I have a one on one hookup, I’ll try to find another load that day or within 24 hours. When the day comes that I do become poz, I never want to know who really did it. I’ve always felt this way to be honest even before started taking loads.

Since I posted here in early November I can add another 25 guys to the list. Crazy.

A little over 30 years ago, I made the decision to let anyone who wanted to fuck me, to do so. And it was 20 ago that I embraced bareback sex and within weeks after that, started to let guys cum in me. I’m still hiv neg as of 11/17/25. I did end up with neurosyphilis which gave me some vision problems, now mostly resolved, but if I had to do again, I would. The only difference is I would have tested more. Once you start, you’ll know soon enough if this your place to be in life. Never have regrets. For me, it’s been the right choice. The only regret is I’ll be stopping soon as I’m in my late 50s and figured I’ll have stopped by 60-62.

Yes, a bottom definitely can go into heat. I certainly am. Ever since mid October-ish I’ve been taking loads non stop. The only break was thanksgiving and last weekend.

I’m either 7 or 1.

It’s so hard to say. I’m pretty sure I had at least 2,000 loads in my ass. Probably more like somewhere between 2500-3000. Figure 40-50 were repeats so maybe 1500 different dicks. For every dick I took in my ass I proabably sucked 3. So I’ll go low and and say 4000 dicks? I’d put a dick in my mouth as easy and almost as much as shaking someone’s hand.