jd13

I don't think I ever asked any guy his status before he fucked me bareback and shot his load in me. I'd just offer my ass. At first (2012ish) this was because I didn't really want to know. I figured I'd probably end up getting HIV anyway, and was always surprised when i didn't. Later on (2015-16ish), when 'undetectable = untransmissible' became a bit more widely known, I didn't ask because I understood statistics. In UK cities like Manchester or London, around 95-96% of poz guys were UD (and hence not infectious), but 1 in 20 'neg' guys were actually not neg at all, but had undiagnised HIV (and hence potentially very infectious). Work through those statistics, and you could see (back then), that any answer (especially the intuitively 'right' one) to 'are you neg or poz?' was functionally meaningless. Then (2017-18 onwards) PrEP came along and I got on it, so didn't need to ask. Post-pandemic here in the UK, so many guys are on PrEP now that the question is almost irrelevant. These days (2023 onwards) I'm not on PrEP, for Backroom reasons, and so that's why I don;t bother asking these days. Changing reasons, over the years but the lack of asking has always been the same! 🤣

I lost count at age 19 (ish) when I (probably) hit triple (ish) figures. To be honest I hadn't exactly been counting, but having lost my virginity at age 14 to a guy nearly twice my age, being passed round his friends group for a couple of years, and then coming out, hitting gay bars/clubs - and finding myself reasonably popular - then falling pretty quickly into hustling at said bars/clubs... Yeah I don't ever really counted. I know I definitely hit double figures by age 15, after that I can't say anything. So maybe I should more honestly say I lost count at 15 because I was never really counting.

Exactly this - I edited it a bit 🤣 One of the things I cannot stand in a public fuck setting - especially if I am wearing a jock - when I'm being fucked by some guy, and a third guy brings his hand around to grab my cock. I will literally grab his hand and throw it away. Like FFS don't disturb my flow - I am putting all my focus on serving the top here! If the top who's fucking me grabs my cock that's fine: my whole body belongs to him to play with, but other guys? Don't fuck up my fuck focus! 🤣

I voted 'looking to get fucked' because that's the only reason I ever wear jocks. If I'm in a cruise bar or sauna (I prefer naked at sauna), then wearing a jock also has a second signal: don't bother touching my cock. Just focus on your cock, fucking me and using that hole to get yourself off. My cock usually goes soft when I'm being fucked, and after a few cocks in my ass, the best you can hope for out of me is a semi. Unless you breed me, then you've got a 5 to 10 minute window for my boner before it goes bye bye again 🤣 For the most part I am a submissive bottom, and very proud to be so, but I do have my power days.

I've been out of action for the past couple of weeks but my load tally had gone up to 61 in my ass that I knew of, and yeah probably about 25ish down my throat. Had a wild three week stretch from when I posted the above to about mid-April when i started to get this flu. It's perfect blissful weather for cruising right now here in the UK and I'm still laid up ill grrr.

Yeah I must admit the thrill of the chase has a hold on me as much as the destination, and yeah I'd rather the fun not to be over. On the other hand, I have repeatedly said - on here as much as myself - that I'm not gonna test until I can be reasonably sure that that test will be poz. Bit of a fool's errand maybe, but as crap as I feel right now, I can't be sure this is fuck flu or regular flu. I have heard of one either guy in the area who had a regular flu and also got knocked out by it as I have. So yeah it could well be wishful thinking on my part tbh. And on the matter of being thrilled that I might or might not be shooting poz cum: I'm a total btm. That idea really doesn't touch me at all if I am honest. My function in sex has never been to be the one who cums. That runs so deep. My chase is for different reasons to this. Anyway, apologies if I've derailed this conversation with my current stuff - on with guys sharing their definite fuck flu stories! 😄

jd13 on BBRT (in Leeds-Bradford, UK)

Well, yeah, that is the only way to be certain. This could be regular flu but damn, it's a weird flu if so...

This is strikingly similar to what I'm going through at the moment for about the past 10 or 11 days. Savagely sore throat, mild to moderate body aches, but just wiped out exhausted... for about three days, then a couple of days less so, then again hitting me hard. This cycle has gone round for the past week and a half and I'm in a rough phase right now. It's weird. No fever/chills, night sweats, rash (but a few weird body itches) or anything like that, and I tested negative for Covid, so yeah, could be a regular flu I guess, but also Starting to wonder if this is it, the thing itself...?

Gotta emphasise it's a total lottery, but yeah, there something that strangely adds to the thrill when you're about to hookup. Like: the anticipation of what kinda guy am I gonna get, he might even be hot etc, and also at the same time: I don't fucking care 🤣 Never set up a GH as I don't host but that is awesome. Also, I miss Craigslist SO BAD!

But on the matter of Trump being a Crisis Cult... at least to the evangelicals (and let me say: crisis cult psychology doesn't operate consciously or even unconsciously in the individual: it is a kind of collective hysteria), I found these lines on the Wikipedia page for the John Frum phenomenon of Melanesia. Tell me you don't see the parallels - again, I am talking about the MAGA/Evangelical Die-Hards here, not the average American voter... "In one analysis of the cult, the figure was first known as John Broom, who was believed by followers to one day return from a distant land to sweep away the White colonials and return riches to the islands. In some versions of the story, a native man named Manehivi, using the alias "John Frum", began appearing among the native people of Tanna dressed in a Western-style coat, assuring the people he would bring them houses, clothes, food, and transport. "Others contend that John Frum was a spirit vision induced by kava, a plant with mild psychoactive properties. Said to be a manifestation of Keraperamun, this John Frum promised the dawn of a new age in which all White people, including missionaries, would depart the New Hebrides, leaving behind their goods and property for the native Melanesians. For this to happen, however, the people of Tanna had to reject all aspects of European society including money, Western education, Christianity and work on copra plantations, and they had to return to traditional kastom (the Bislama language word for customs). "In 1941, followers of John Frum rid themselves of their money in a frenzy of spending, left the missionary churches, schools, villages and plantations, and moved inland to participate in traditional feasts, dances and rituals." See [think before following links] [think before following links] https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/John_Frum for more and for citations of the above. D'you not see the parallels or is it just me?? [Edit: yes yes I know I'm totally grinding an axe here, and nobody asked me to riff on this Crisis Cult thing, but... yeah... 🤣🤣🤣 ]

Yeah, to be honest I feel a bit bad about saying 'Trump is America'. Really I was reporting more on a British stereotype of a certain type of American characteristic that looms large in the British national consciousness. Of course it is a lot more nuanced than that. For example, it is very clear and obvious to me that Barack Obama is America too - that elevated, soaring eloquence he has... yeah, you don't find that very often anywhere else outside America either... And you're right about blaming it on 'The Other' being a standard populist playbook thing. And I recognise that a lot of the British media coverage is skewed because you are to us, after all, a foreign country. I'm fairly sure your news coverage of British politics will be similar lacking local nuance. What really resonates is what you say about those who are resisting. Not really seeing that reported in our news much here, but if you go on social media - wow wow that American resistance is visible everywhere. So yeah, I'm gonna stand that 'Trump is America' comment down, and apologise fully and completely for it. Really I was kinda reporting on a stereotypical British perception, and yeah... should've made that clear. Shouldn;t have been so unfair.

I... what the... holyfuckinshit there is so MUCH to unpack there! 🤣🤣🤣