rubio2001

I got fucked at O'hare in the men's room right where the subway connects. There's a little bathroom as you go up the stairs from the subway and then to the right. It was late at night after flying in, and I went in the bathroom and there was this younger guy who clearly was cruising and sending all the signs. I went into the stall, left the door open, and he came in right after me and fucked me. It was quick, less than 5 minutes, but it was hot. No one else even came in.

I'm 46 and when I started having sex no one had even come up with the word 'bareback.' It was all bareback. You were lucky if the guy even had lube.

There is a lot of drug use, especially in many of the bareback, ff movies. If you've been around people who are tweeking you can spot who they are in the movies in a heartbeat. There one porn star who was a true ff bottom champ, beautiful man, beautiful hole, but it was so obvious that he was higher than a kite in quite a few of his vids. He OD'd sadly.

I like em thick, and the longer the better, but I'll take all loads and love it. Somewhere in my past though I learned that I got off on getting my ass fucked by big dicks where it physically is killing me... where it fucking hurts. When I was younger I would push back, pull away, etc., because it just fucking hurt if someone was being too rough. But in the past 10 years or so, when my 'inner pig' just came out I learned how to not only take a really rough fuck, but to appreciate it when I found it. I have two guys in Ft. Lauderdale who I hook up with each time I'm down there and literally before they show up I have to mentally prepare myself for it because I know what to expect, which is a solid couple of hours where I'm just used like a fucking rag doll. One guy is a big overweight black guy and he's just flat out mean, both personally and physically, but he's got a thick 10" hanging between his legs and he fucks the way he wants to fuck. He made it clear the first time we met that it was his way or he's outta there. After he left the first time I played I never thought I would want to connect with him again... it was really scary. But then several months later I'm down there again and he hits me up online and I'm thinking, "Fuck, do I want to do this again?" And of course I did and the next thing I knew once again I was groaning, moaning, whimpering, and just praying for it to be over. We've hooked up like 5 times since then. Go figure.

If anyone on here has helped a 'straight' guy turn into a cum dump you really haven't done anything other than help them come out of the closet - whether they keep it a secret or not.

When I was in Toronto over Christmas I definitely saw and heard an almost hostility towards Asians, all from white men. I was asking guys online which bathhouses to try out and several guys not only gave me advice, but tossed in some unwanted advice on one in particular to stay away from because evidently that bathhouse was frequented by a lot of Asian guys. I met and played around with several Asian guys, closer to my age so not younger per se, and one in particular who I met with several times and had great sex (wrote about it on here). We talked quite a bit and he said that there definitely is a prejudice against Asians in parts of that gay community, although he didn't specify any specific age groups. I can't say I understand it to be honest.

As I've grown older my taste in men, thankfully, has aged right along with me. When I was 19 and in college I had a guy who was in his 40's ask me on a date and a friend pressured me into going out with him. He was nice, we ended up having sex... really good sex actually. But after him I stuck with guys around my age as I was honest with myself that I just wasn't attracted to older guys. The guy had a daughter who was my age and I couldn't get my head around it. I also got the feeling that he, and other older guys, were just trying to relive their youth and I didn't like it. There were plenty of guys around my own age to play with so I did. I guess I didn't have any 'daddy' issues that I needed to work out sexually. Now that I'm 46 I have very little interest in guys who are younger than me. Again, i just do not relate with them and there are now plenty of guys around my own age who want to fuck. I have friends who love the young guys but the shit they put themselves through, especially if they are in a relationship with a younger guy... no fucking way. Way too much drama.

Sucking dick yes, getting face fucked, no.

Lucky to have done it a few times, but you have to have all your ducks...and dicks in a row. Two 'rock hard' cocks - no half limp cocks will work. The cocks need to be average at least, and the bigger they are the easier it is to make it work.

They key is, "I have good health insurance." Many do not, especially younger people. And even though you may not be able to be turned down for a pre-existing condition that doesn't mean the the insurance company isn't going to charge you an arm and a leg for coverage. You most likely will be forced into some type of state mandated high risk pool, at least until the next phase of the new health care law goes in effect in the US goes which I believe isn't until 2014. That's assuming a Republican doesn't get in office and try to dismantle the entire thing. It's not sexy, but health insurance is to me the absolute biggest factor that comes with getting HIV. Lose your job, heck have a job that doesn't offer health insurance, and you are in a world of hurt.

Don't forget about health insurance. If you live in a country that has universal or government sponsored healthcare that is one thing. If not, and you are at the whim of the private sector, then it's a completely different story. Depending on which HIV medication you are on it can cost upwards to thousands of dollars PER MONTH. It's not sexy, but you need to think that through how those drugs are going to get purchased, especially how that will play out LONG AFTER the turn on to getting poz has worn itself out. Unless there is a cure you are like poison to all health insurance companies.

Guy just left my loft. Someone I had chatted with off and on for a few weeks on bbrt. I love it when the person shows up and they completely surpass your expectations. I knew he was tall and he said he had a big dick, but the profile pics were not very clear and I sensed that they probably weren't current, and too many guys say 'big' when they really should just be honest and say average. Well shit, he came in and got naked and damn... nice body and really big dick. He fucked the shit out of me and then came half in me and half out. I would have rather him shot all of it in my hole, but there were still several shots that I felt all the way on my upper back (we were fucking doggy). I'm still somewhat high from the endorphin rush of getting fucked hard by this guy. He was the second to load me up today, but he beat the prior guy hands down.

I honestly can't think of a time when I really felt the cum shooting out of the guy's cock and inside me. The key is that if it's internal I just don't feel it at the time he's shooting. Now right after the top cums, especially if it's a bigger load, I can tell almost immediately by the feel of the cock sliding in and out of my hole. Even when already lubed up there is something about cumming inside a hole that just makes it that much more slippery... and noisy. ;-) But the actual 'splash' in my guts when they cum - never. I do feel piss though, so I know my insides can feel when something is being dumped in there. I've learned to love that feeling in my hole though when I know there is a load in there and I'm holding it in when my body wants to push it out. Just knowing it's in there sloshing around just makes me feel dizzy with sleaziness, especially if I'm driving home after a trick, stop at the store, get groceries, gas, etc. I'm looking around and people and thinking to myself, "I've got cum up my ass and you folks have no idea." And when I eventually push it out... my mind just explodes every time.

For me it's quantity. Although most guys just shoot in my hole and unless it's really big you never really know what the consistency is. I do have some guys though who like to fuck but then they want to cum on my face, or chest, ass,etc., but usually the face is where they want it. Or they ask me how I want their cum and there are times when I just love to lay back and have a guy straddle my chest and jerk off his load on my face. And just like there are guys out there with huge cocks, guy who have been gifted from the day they are born, there are guys who shoot loads so big that your jow drops, no pun intended. It's only happened a few times but I have luckily met some guys who have jerked off on my face and in ONE cum load they have coated my face, every spot, in cum. And the most exciting is that you never know it until it happens (or if you have played with them before). A guy in Chicago years ago fucked me and then pushed to the floor next to the bed and proceeded to jerk off on my face and I just felt shot after shot just hitting my face, and he was moving his dick, pointing it at different parts of my face, so that he'd shoot smudge on an uncovered part of my face. It was in my eyes, up m my nose, in my hair, hanging off my chin. It was crazy and I remember saying, "Oh fuck!" And I got up to get cleaned up in the bathroom and I looked in the mirror and it was as if 7-8 guys had cum on my face. Ropes of the shit were just hanging everywhere. I don't even remember what the size of his cock was, but I'll never forget that surprise when he started cumming and that picture of my face in the mirror.

I don't get very hung up on how people describe themselves, whether they say they are poz, neg, undetectable, etc. At the end of the day one thing that I think is consistent across the gay community is that there is a lot of bs. There are so many guys who are poz but lie about it not only in their profiles, but when they connect as well. There are guys who are poz, but claim to be negative just so that they can trick poz tops into thinking that they will be the one who 'charges' them up. I've got several very good, and solid fuck buds and for the most part we all know what we are dealing with when we fuck each other. However, when I'm traveling or I meet up with a trick that I've never met then I pretty much assume that any part of how they describe themselves can be complete bullshit. People lie about their age, their weight, their cock size,... even if they are top and bottom. It's thankfully a minority of people, but I group hiv status in the same category. Some guy who is in his 60s who is saying he's in his 40s and posting pics from the 80s probably is not going to be up front about a lot of things.

What is Eddie's relationship with Matthias? Same last name. I know they are 'porn names' but it's unusual to have the same last name. I only saw the last scene on AEBN but Eddie is a fucking hottie.

As I've gotten older I find I like sucking cock and guys sucking my cock more and more. As another poster said I used to think of it as just foreplay, or 'sex-lite' but as with most things it only takes one new experience to show you there is a whole new world out there if you are open to it. For me it was getting face fucked for the first time. This wasn't just sucking cock, but total 'gag the fag' shit. Eyes watering, face red, can't breath, spit and saliva everywhere, puddling up on your chest and onto the floor, and basically having a guy fuck your throat just as rough as I've had my ass pounded. Then when they cum and the cock is buried down the back of your throat and you can't even breath - then damn, that is a horse of a different color. Now I crave it as much as I crave getting fucked. It's actually harder to find a guy into rough skull fucking then it is to find a guy who wants to dump a load in your hole. I also like to be a top when I'm face fucking, which is not something I do when it comes to ass fucking. I think more guys are getting into it though, thank goodness.

It depends on the type of pain. I've taken huge cocks and they can fucking hurt like hell, but it's the depth and the stretch that is the pain. Usually my body gets used to the size and oddly the larger the cock the less painful the fuck is over time. Even getting double fucked hurts at first, but then if you hang in there for a minute it turns into complete bliss... even when both cocks are really big. Compare that to the sharp and uncomfortable pain of of some guys who aren't that endowed but have figured out that they can 'poke' a hole in a certain way, usually a particular angle, to make it hurt. When that happens I usually just let the guy go for it and put up with it so he thinks that he's really tearing up my ass. He isn't, but if it strokes their ego I can let it pass. A good friend who is also a total bottom like myself have talked about this and I was glad to know it wasn't just me that hated that feeling of a small cock just poking at my hole. I love all sizes of cock, including smaller cocks (they usually shoot HUGE loads...), but don't kid yourself if when you are fucking sideways and upside down that it's the size of your cock that is making me grimace.

Just spent a week in Toronto. I had been to Toronto previously but never played because I always stayed with relatives. For this trip though I wanted to have some fun with the locals so I stayed at the Marriott Courtyard on Yonge. It's close to the bars, the bathhouses, and as I found out close to a lot of locals who had no problem coming up to my room (room 1703 south tower - ahhh the memories). As with most trips when I'm slutting out my hole I signed on to the various websites because you never know which site is hot in any particular city. By far BBRT was the most active site - there wasn't even a close second. Apparently there are a ton of barebackers in Toronto, or at least online that was where I found most of the guys who wanted to fuck. Toronto is a very, very diverse town which I love. Having been raised in the midwest I love guys who don't look like me, especially darker guys, black, hispanic, arab, etc. It's the whole opposites attract thing. Well in Toronto there are a ton of Asian guys, including some very nasty pig tops. I connected with about 6-7 asian guys when I was there (includes guys I met at Steamworks and The Cellar), but one guy in particular I played with in my hotel whom I met the first night and who proceeded to come back to the hotel 3 more times - so 4 times total. He was about 5'10", silky smooth hairless body, and contrary to any stereotypes he had a nice big dick which curved out and down from his body. It was a real 7" and a good thickness. It was not a skinny dick. The Asian guy came up to my room about 15 minutes after a guy had just left after fucking me and dumping a load. The guy that had just left was kind of a strange and spooky. Per his profile he was a white guy, but when he walked in my hotel room he was wearing a ski mask that he put on IN the hallway. When he walked in with the ski mask the thought occurred to me, "I'm either going to have a hot fuck or get murdered." I'm not sure what his story was, but there is anon and then there is TOTAL ANON and this guy didn't say hardly a word and never took the ski mask off. When he was done fucking he kept it on even as he walked out of the room. I'm assuming he took it off in the elevator. Well the ski mask guy had shown up later than he said he was but thankfully he did a quick pump n dump and only lasted about 5 minutes before he came up my hole. I was glad the ski mask guy had left because I hadn't told the Asian guy that there would be another guy there and I've always thought it rude to surprise someone like that. Well the Asian guy wanted the door open so I had slid in the 'do not disturb' sign in between the door and the lock so all he had to do was push open the door. Those of you fellow cum 'n dump bottoms know the drill of how to have the door ready. He wanted me 'ass up' and ready on the bed which I LOVE. I sometimes do it blindfolded but I forgot the blindfold on this trip. He knocked and then pushed open the door. The only lighting in the room was from the bathroom so it was fairly dark in the room, but light enough where he could see me on all fours on the bed. As he walked into the room, the door shutting behind him, he came close to the bed and started to undress, talking underneath his breath saying things like, "oh yeah... that's hot... fuck yeah..." It was the typical small talk of an anon fuck. He did ask me though if I had been fucked. I hadn't told him when I chatted with him previously online that I was getting loaded up because at that time I wasn't sure if I was going to be loaded up by the time he got there. But the ski mask guy had just left and his load was still in me. The only thing I had time to do before the Asian guy showed up was take some toilette paper and wipe the lube from my hole. The cum was still in my hole, but I of course didn't know if the guy shot a big load, small, etc. It's rare to actually feel a load unless it's huge. I told the guy that yes I had just been fucked and that the guy had just left. It was like a switch went off with this guy. He got down on his knees so fast and his mouth was wrapped on my hole sucking before I even had a chance to think. He was moaning, licking, sucking, and feeling my ass with his hands. I had found a true felcher. I had been fucked by quite a few asian guys before and just like anyone else they can be just as piggy as the next guy, but this guy by far was hungry for cum. He was pushing his fingers in my hole trying to work out the cum. He was digging with his tongue big time. However I had no idea how much cum was in there so I really had no idea if he was getting any cum or not. So I asked him, "Do you taste any cum?" To his credit he said, "No, not really" which kind of bummed me out. I was wondering if the ski mask guy maybe pulled a false one one me. Thankfully the Asian guy said, "Push out with your hole." Not one to turn down his request I started to push out with my guts. Even though I've pushed cum out of my hole a bunch of times each time I do it I have to admit that I'm never quite sure what in the heck is going to happen. Sometimes you get a couple of liquidity drops, and other times you get a gusher. You just never know. On this site I wrote about a black dude who came BIG TIME in my hole at the Cellar but each guy is different. So I began to push. And nothing happened... I asked again, "So do you taste anything?" and he said, "No." So I'm thinking, "Goddammit that SOB ski mask guy didn't cum in my ass!" but thankfully the Asian guy wasn't going to give up. He kept telling me to push, which is actually kind of exhausting for those of you who have done it, and I did push and at the same time I leaned back on all fours just a little, so my ass was sticking further out, and the next thing I heard was the Asian guy say, "Oh fuck!" Evidently there was some cum up there after all. The Asian guy was a few inches from my hole just looking at me push when the cum shot out. Now cum usually doesn't 'shoot' out of a hole. Even if there is a nice load in there it usually just oozes out. I've filmed my ass pushing out loads (I think I posted a vid on here...) many times and rarely does it shoot out. But this load shot out... and right into the guy's eye. I didn't know it of course because I couldn't see behind me, but he said, "Damn it just shot in my eye!" At first I was horrified, but it wasn't even half a second before he shot his head and mouth forward and started gobbling up my hole like there was no tomorrow. Evidently shooing a load of cum in his eye didn't freak him out, in fact it was just the opposite. I didn't need to ask him if he was finding more cum as he kept saying things like, "Oh fuck yeah... oh my God... yeah, yeah, keep pushing." To his credit the ski mask dude had come through but apparently he had loaded me pretty deep and it just took a bit of work to get it to come out. To the Asian guy's credit he was a true cum pig. He slurped at my hole big time for several minutes, and continued to finger more out of my hole and moaned and talked nasty talk. It was beautiful and fucking crazy at the same time to feel this guy eating another guy's load out of my ass. Well he eventually stood up and just shoved his cock in, no lube necessary. He fucked me hard for quite a while, and was an excellent top. He was slapping my ass, spitting on his cock when it started to dry up, and overall was just the perfect pig I needed at that moment. He finally came and unlike most tricks we actually had a nice conversation afterwards. I could tell he was a sane, normal guy, who like me just happened to have a very piggy side as well. He asked how long I was going to be in Toronto and asked if I wanted to play again. I told him sure, but I honestly didn't expect to meet up with him again. This guy was an exception though. Before I flew home yesterday (the 27th) he came over 3 more times, and each time we upped the ante, purposely trying to get more piggy each time, which we did. Over the four fucks he double fucked me with some big toys, spit on me TONS which I love, slapped my face (in a good way...) and on the last fuck he pissed in my hole after cumming and then continued to fuck me making me clench down on his cock so the piss wouldn't leak out. So THANK YOU Asian guy from Toronto - whose name I know but won't put on here. You fucking wrecked my hole, used me up, made me feel like a total whore (which I am), and didn't complain when I shot a load of cum out of my ass into your eye. You are my type of top.

Whatever happened to Antonio Vela? I became a big fan of him when I saw him in a Hot Desert Knight movie years ago. He was a top, big dick, sexy latin guy in the first couple of movies. I was even more tuned on when he became a total cumwhore bottom. Him bottoming for Jesse O'Toole and Brad McGuire in 'Plantin Seed' is one of my favorites. It doesn't look like he's in porn any longer. Wish he would make a comeback.

In terms of pure 'fantasy' I would need a time machine. As an adult I've pretty much crossed off most of my cum bucket list items. In hindsight I look back to my teen years and there were so many opportunities to fuck around with other guys, many of who were older. I was so ignorant back then about sex though that I didn't even know that there was this world of gay sex right at my finger tips. I remember when I was about 15 there was a carpenter who came to our house one summer for several days who was working on our kitchen. Both of my parents worked so this guy was there most of the time with me being the only other person in the house. I was so fucking blind to his advances though. I remember laying in a hammock outside in just shorts, reading, working on my tan (just had to have that tan...) and he came out and was just talking on and on about how nice my legs were. It went completely over my head. I always wonder what would have happened if someone had showed me the sleazy world of gay sex when I was that age... and it was ALL sleazy in the late 70s and early 80s. If I knew then what I knew now about sex I would have ran away from home when I was 13-14, went to LA or NYC and became a boy prostitute working the streets. As an adult I have ZERO attraction to young guys. It is a total turnoff. However, for some reason when I remember back to when I was young, when I was just a stupid kid, I so wish that I could have found a way into the underworld of gay sex and just been swept away into it.

Yesterday (12/26) at "The Cellar" in Toronto in room "E" at about 9:00 PM. Was in town visiting relatives and went there in the early evening. It's a hit and miss place and it was being more of a 'miss' night. I was getting ready to leave, sitting in my room with door open, literally ready to call it quits, when a guy walked by, stopped looked in and we went through the standard 10 seconds of grabbing our dicks to show we were interested. He came in and shut the door. He was a black guy, bigger, not really toned. I had been to The Cellar twice on my visit and he was the only black guy I saw at the place vs. Steamworks where there were a ton of hot black guys. He had a thick accent, and I'm not sure what country he was originally from but this being Canada they have a lot more diverse groups of people. I asked what he wanted to get into and he said he wanted his 'tits sucked.' Not really my thing to be honest, but I went ahead and started to work on them. He kept saying, "suck the milk out of my titties" which I have to tell you had me rather curious, but at a bathhouse you never know who you are going to meet and some of them can be a little weird. I even pulled my head back a couple of times to see if there was in fact any milk coming out... there wasn't. So I worked his 'tits' for about 5 minutes when he then said he was a top and wanted to fuck. "Fuck yeah" I thought to myself. He had a big dick, a real 9" and it was rock solid. There is hard, and then there is 'rock hard' and guys with dicks his size I've found usually don't get that hard... but this sonofabitch could hammer nails with that thing. He then grabbed a condom and I thought, 'God dammit'... but what the hell. Big black guy wants to fuck me so I got on the small bed with my ass facing the side and him standing behind me, and he started to fuck me. There was no starting slow, working it in nicely... none of that shit. He slammed it in. It fucking hurt like hell. I can take a big dick, but his dick was so fucking hard and absolutely straight that it was pounding my insides big time. I was squirming like shit but I didn't pull off of it. A few times he even slapped my ass and HARD. I got the distinct impression that this guy probably got what he wanted even if a guy didn't want to give it up. Then as if it wasn't weird enough that he earlier wanted to suck the milk out of his 'titties' but then after pounding me senseless for about 10 minutes he said, "I need to cum now" and then he proceeded to TAKE OFF the condom and start fucking me again raw. This is not the first foreign black guy that has done this. I had a guy in Hartford do the exact same thing a couple of years ago. I can't say I understand this. They fuck with a condom and then get close and take it off and shove it in for the last minute. If it happens again I'm going to ask why in the heck they do that. Anyway, he grunts and groans but I'm not quite sure if he's cumming or not because his cock is practically killing me, and then suddenly he pulled out and I felt a splash on my ass and I knew he had cum. I collapsed on the bed exhausted, and within about 15 seconds he had put on his towel and walked out. No odd chit chat after getting fucked... my kind of guy. I reached back and felt my ass cheek and sure enough there were a few globs of cum there. I was popped up to high heaven and of course I scooped the cum up with my fingers and put them in my mouth and swallowed it. About 30 seconds later I felt that sensation that there was definitely more cum in my ass. Those of you who have had guys shoot big loads up your hole know what I'm talking about. Sure enough I stand up, bend over, reach back underneath and between my legs with one hand, palm upwards, and push out with my hole. I filled my whole fucking palm up with cum. That dude sure enough was shooting up my ass also and the cum on my ass was just the last squirt when he pulled out. I literally had a scoop of cum in the palm of my hand. Still dizzy and poppered up I just sucked it up in my mouth. It was so fucking nasty and hot and I was licking my fingers, moaning to myself, getting every drop that I could. On a whim I put my hand underneath my ass again and sure enough I pushed with my ass and that dude's load was still squirting out of my hole. Another palm full of cum which I just sucked down, licked up, loving it. I was licking my fingers, lips, everything and the taste of cum was fucking everywhere in my mouth. And the smell... oh my god the smell of cum was fucking everywhere and I was sniffing my fingers as I was licking them. I was able to squirt out one more load into my hand and drank it up also. About this time the poppers were starting to wear off and I thought about what I was doing and was looking at my fingers still shiny with cum and spit and just thought to myself, "Damn, I am a fucking pig." I normally don't write down my fucks but this one was special enough where I wanted to write it down before I forgot all about it.

Wouldn't something other than a condom work better? I'm picturing jacking off, cumming in a condom, putting it in the freezer (how would you make it stand up?), then the next day jacking off in the same condom, over and over again? I'm picturing how it would freeze and it probably wouldn't be very thick. I'm thinking a chemistry tube might work better? Anyone actually made one that knows of a way more practical than a condom?

I was in Toronto this past week for x-mas and I fucked around a lot. Very hot city with tons of ethnic guys with huge cocks, but that's another topic. I connected with one guy in my hotel and after playing he mentioned that he had a 'devils dick' that he had made. He wanted to use it with me before I left town but we weren't able to connect. I know it's frozen cum, but how exactly do you go about making one? He said he had made one that had 10 of his loads in it. Just curious if anyone has made one as it sounded like it would be totally fucking hot to have one shoved in my ass and then fucked afterwards.

I like taking loads from bottoms but I never 'trick' them. I had a guy come over just last week where he said he was top, wanted to fuck me, use my toys on me, etc. I even told him I was not a top. He came over and went through the movements for about 10 minutes and then when he saw my toys he kept saying, "Boy those would feel good in me" and it wasn't a minute later where he just got on all fours and was pushing his ass out. Now if he had said he wanted to be vers and the plan was we'd both fuck each other that would have been one thing, but he made it clear he wanted to top. As soon as he got on all fours and actually told me to use the toys on him I told him to leave. He was actually surprised. I could tell by the expression on his face and he knew I was pissed. I don't like games and guys 'tricking' me and WASTING MY TIME coming over saying they are wanting to fuck when in reality they secretly want to get fucked or have their ass worked over, well that's just lame.. I've gotten to that age where I just don't play those games.