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Sorry, I made a mistake, it is not amyl nitrAte in poppers, but the similarly named amyl nitrIte, as well as other nitrItes, which are strong vasodilators (causes the increase of interna diameter of blood vessels). A quick search brought up some inforsuch as the article in Pharmacotherapy. 1984 Sep-Oct;4(5):284-91. which mentions that "These products have been found to be profoundly immunosuppressive for human lymphocytes in vitro, and their by-products when metabolized into N-nitroso compounds have been known to be highly carcinogenic in many animal species." There is also a very good page on wikipedia about poppers that outlines some other things people should be aware of: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Poppers I have used poppers for a long time myself, but it is important as with anything to gain knowledge and excercise moderation. While not physically additive, poppers can become a psychological crutch for many guys. When you use them all the time, soon it can make sex without poppers seem unfulfilling. Also you can give yourself some pretty bad chemical burns if you spill it, and also they will eat through the paint on any furniture.

Yep, she was a complete psycopath, as is her disciple Greenspan, who shaped the world we live in - where profit and greed are put before social justice and basic human rights. Chris Hedges recent book Days of Destruction, Days of Revolt gives a great overview of where this despicable philosophy has gotten our world. http://www.amazon.com/Days-Destruction-Revolt-Chris-Hedges/dp/1568586434/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1349237037&sr=1-1&keywords=days+of+destruction+days+of+revolt

While I have had the situation where I have taken something too big, too quickly and hurt myself, which made ging to the washroom painful, it did not cause incontinence. When I am lucky enough to get fucked frequently, I have found rather that it makes me looser and actually more difficult to control my bowels.

Video cameras in public areas is a big NO. But discreetly in your own room is probably OK. I've been getting pissed off a lot lately by how many guys wander around with their smartphones, since they all have cameras built in. A few weeks ago I yelled at a guy who came into a dry sauna with his smartphone. I said, "How do I know you aren't taking pictures?" He said he just needed to check some emails. Really? If you need to check your emails so badly do it elsewhere!

Most porn peformers are caucasian, and that is more the natural colouring for caucasian's. Your natural colouring is what gives you your own sexiness, and while you may not see it, it likely turns on the guys who desire you. Something I find incredibly hot is an Asian or Latino bottom with a darker complexion, who loosens up nicely after being fucked for awhile, and then the colour contrast between the darker flesh and the bright pink insides when I hold the hole open to eat it out is beautiful.

Regarding the safety issue: you should be aware that amyl nitrate poppers are a known carcinogen. ked239 said "then they're properly regulated as production of any legal chemical would be." This isn't quite true. Since they are not legally sold as a product to be consumed, manuacturers don't have any regulations that they hve to meet. In Canada, almost all poppers are manufactured at a facility in Delta BC associated with the H's A's biker gang. So just be aware that you are putting your trust in sketchy people who don't really put the safety of clients before profits... not that "legitimate" drug companies are any better.

You're young, so when you hit on someone they are likely to give you a go even if you aren't totally their type. The bear might not have been a bottom, he might just not been into your type of scene so much - he wanted to kiss and get oral it sounds like more. Not everyone goes to the tubs for crazy porno sex. It won't take long for you to make yourself a reputation, and guys who are just looking for cumdumps will find you while guys looking for something different will soon avoid you. It really doesn't take very long to build a rep, so something like being dirty when looking to get fucked is something guys will talk about. That dom top will probably go home and tell his boyfriend about the kid with the dirty ass he fucked, and the bf will tell the guys who he sees on the side about the young kid making the rounds of the tubs that his partner did - I can already hear the bitch: "He's supposed to be really cute, as long as you don't mind shit on your dick." Of course I live in a much smaller city, so maybe where you are it will tke a bit longer for word to spread.

Maybe it depends on the location, and the way society is generally in that area. Where I am there are lots of pretty uninhibitted young guys at the tubs. They mostly play with each other but they'll do it all out in the open - mainly because they just want to pay for the cheaper lockers instead of room$. Sunday night I watched two skinny twinks who were maybe 19 going at it in the showers for a good hour. They were just sucking and rimming each other - no fucking. The bitches used up a lot of hot water but staff didn't stop them.

I test every 3 months for Syph and have never had it, though it is big problem here too. What recently freaked me though is did some Hep screening recently, and was told that sometime in last 3 years since I last screened, I had Hep C but that "my body fought it on its own," according to doctor. Is that even possible? That makes me think I should be screening for Hep C more often.

I have to agree, I like rimming a top man who has no desire to be fucked and so has obviously not prepared and tastes a bit tangy. Being rimmed is just a nice relaxing pleasure.

This sure sounds like a bunch of bossy bottoms telling tops how to go about their business. I feel that as a poz bottom if a guy wants to fuck me, and wants to protect himself then that is his right. But then I'm in a medium sized city with not only a limited number of tops, but a limited number into me as well. You aren't going to click with every guy, and if you are hung-up on only getting it bare then that's something you need to be upront about.

I work in construction and it is not a gay friendly environment.

They are probably guys who just use those sites as porn and are jerking off to your profile, but they just don't have the guts yet to make a move to do you for real.

If you continue barebacking with guys you don't know at bathhouses and bookstores it is inevitable that you will become HIV positive. You only have one option if you absolutely want to stay negative: stop barebacking anonymous guys at these sorts of places. If you can't do that it is only a matter of time and luck until you are pos. If these are real experiences, you could already have caught it.

I think guys with acne scarred faces are really hot.

Bel Ami exclusive. A quick search of a dvd sales site found these titles, not all bb: Back in Africa, Virgin No More 3, Jim, Kinky Angels, More Than You Can Handle, Sex Appeal, and Skin on Skin 5. Maybe checkout Bel Ami's site to see if they have more scenes not yet released on DVD. Bel Ami started doing bare flicks the lastcouple years to compete with all the Czech bb twink porn eating away at their profits. They use mainly their own models and screen for HIV and std's.

I never hook up from online sites, but I look at all the profiles and usually never message anyone. People's profiles always make me think they probably wouldn't be into me. On most sites people can see I checked them out and I figure if they like what they see they'll say something. I never leave my face pics unlocked due to work, but I often recognize many people from their profles when I am out and about, and am often surprised how people who I never thought would be into me hit on me in person. It also often becomes clear how much of people's online ads are bs, like the stud whose manhunt ad says that he is a total top - and then he was riding any and every cock he could get in the 10 man jacuzzi - including mine.

I got royally played tonight by a pro. Maybe I was pressng my luck by going out again tonight since I got nicely plowed both late Sat/early Sun morning and ridden again Monday night. Typical quiet midweek night at tubs. Cruised a nice short stocky furry daddy with a thick Eastern European accent and an even thicker uncut cock but he didn't seem too interested. But in the steam room we were both playing with ourselves and then he let me suck him for a bit until it got too hot for him - but he had me really hard and excited. I know he overheard me turn down the advances of a young Iranian bottom when I told him I was more a bottom myself. The Iranian kid is really good looking, but not picky when he's horny so I was kind of relieved to see him use up a couple trolls who were annoying me, and he quickly cleared the place out and then left himself. About an hour had passed since sucking the stocky guy and he was now watching porn in the darkroom. He waved his cock at me and I went back to work on it. He wasn't very vocal, but I was getting hard looking up past his furry belly into his eyes, and spit into my hand to wank myself off. He started moaning and getting more excitd as I deep throated him, and he reached down to paw his furry nuts and ass. So grabbed his nuts which he liked and then rubbed his ass. He really started moaning loudly when I did that and then got up and put his ass in my face. The fur hiding his hole was thick but I managed to find it with my tongue, but it soon became clear that wasn't what he wanted. I did hesitate briefly but he said nothing and simply waved his ass back and forth in front of me and so I spit some more onto my hand and used that to enter him bare. He opened right up and I realized that the only reason he had me suck his cock was that he had seen how hard it had made me earlier in the steam room, and he realized that if he pretended to be a top he could get me excited enough so that he could get a plowing. Old men know all he fucking tricks! Unfortunately he wasn't super clean - in the dark I couldn't see any brown but there was that unmistakable dark earthy smell. I'm not a fucking bitchy whiner and it's not often I get hard enough to top, so I wasn't gonna let it stop me. I just took a big hit of poppers since that's what they're for - getting you past your inhibitions. The porn playing was that filthy Cazzo flick where Tommy Haine gets gangbanged and then later uses a baseball bat to rape a dad so that was helping keep me in the zone as well. I managed to give him a good plowing but I couldn't come. I think it was mainly a mental thing as I prefer to bottom for older.

Commenting as a longtime consumer of porn, who at some points was spending $500 a month on mailorder (in my 20's I was living in my parents basement rent free with a good paying construction job), I would say in the most polite way possible, that X-tube and amateur online porn is the perfect place for Josh. Firstly, that unfortunately is the main way porn is consumed today. We'll probably never again see massive productions where Falcon is flying squadron's of pornstars to Australia for a shoot like the Aqua films. And even if big studios were, the market for Josh's look is limited. Everyone wants to see skinny twinks dripping loads, but even the biggest twink stars soon lose their audience as they age. The studios Josh has mentioned may not be primarily twinks, but the look of the guys on TIM or Jalif or Wurst are still idealized types - skinny or muscles versus what most actual guys look like. I could see a fit with the older stuff by Ricky Raunch on Bareback That Hole where he had some nice regular looking guys, but even he's now using the same group of buffish bareback stars used by the other American bb studios. This is why everyone loves X-tube, guys who actually look like us - real people who go out and try to get laid with other real people who don't look like porn stars. That's how I even found this site - by watching Josh's and rawTop's vids. Though honestly it was more exciting to see Josh - a guy like me who had hot guys coming over to do him versus just more boring twinks being done by a dom. Where's the hope there for bottoms over 30? Porn really is about wishes and hope, we wish and hope to have experiences like what we watch in the films. If you are serious about getting into more pro porn, you are probably going to have to hit the gym and work the fuck out. Then start posting more pics of yourself on your blog. In your most recent pis from the march post about the bb party you look good, but for pro porn bigger arms and tighter belly would get you more interest. Also contacts versus glasses. San Fran has long been the centre for US gay porn,so maybe plan a trip there and try to set up some meetings with the people there whose work interests you like TIM.

No way. Based on the photos in your album i would rate you a 9. If you were a top you would be a 10. Seriously I can't even imagine how easy it would be to get laid if I looked like you.

People can't help making comments about haircuts and stuff like that, and I think you are too sensitive if you are taking them as "back-handed compliments." Most people are just surprised by change and are awkwardly trying to say something. Last November/December I grew a crazy beard, when I am usually a very clean-cut looking guy, and EVERY single person I ran into either at work or in my building or out socially had to say something. I think it's just human nature to acknowledge a change and most people just speak without thinking and probably don't realize how their comments come across. Really what their comments mean is that they are interested in you as a person. If no one said anything, it would be because you hadn't registered on anyone's radar. Be happy that you make enough of an effect on these people's lives that they can't help but make some lame comment. Kind of like this one! I don't really know you, but so many of your blogs just make me want to give you a hug.

I don't get asked this online, but often will get asked that question at the tubs. If a guy asks I just show him the door. Two weeks ago I did have a guy ask outright if I was HIV negative, and when I said no, he then said "But I guess it's safe with a condom..." like he was talking himself into it since he was into me. I left, not because I am insistent on bareback but because I didn't want to be in a situation where once he came he hd second thoughts about what he had done. This Sat night he was at tubs again and he eyed me a couple times but I avoided him. I think he got the impression I turned him down cause I wanted it only bare.

This is the most hilarious thing I have read on here ever. This is every bottom's fantasy, but in reality.... every bathhouse I have been to has been 99% bottoms all chasing 1 or 2 guys with big cocks, only for at least one of the hung guys to finally reveal himself to actually be a bottom!

The sauna at Club Z was weird last time I was down there, didn't really put out much steam. Never been to Seattle Steamworks. Definitely way more black men than you ever see in Vancouver. But I found there was just as much attitude when cruising as up here no matter how much people try to claim that Americans are friendlier. Once I opened my mouth and people heard the Canadian accent though, they did warm right up.

Did you ask if he was doing crystal? Sounds like classic tweaker inattention.