Tommy Tank

I've wanted to tell this story for a while now. It happened in the mid 90s, and no one has ever known about it, apart from the other person involved, and I honestly think he would be happy to share it now too. I had known Jamie for a few years, he was a friend of one of my closest friends and I had met him at various social events although I didn't know him particularly well. In the mid 90s, just before he turned 30, Jamie became ill and was diagnosed with an AIDs related condition. Over the next few months, Jamie lost quite a bit of weight - but otherwise his body did not change much. Internally, it was a different matter and he was taken to hospital suffering from severe pneumonia. He was not expected to survive, but he did, although the doctors said he would be unlikely to survive another serious illness. Jamie had no partner and his family didn't want to know him, so my friend Paul decided to take him in and a group of us decided to look after Jamie between us and make sure he had everything he needed. I quite often sat with Jamie when Paul was at work at the weekends and we enjoyed each other's company. Over the next couple of months we got to know each other quite well. Paul was working on Christmas Day that year and I said I would be happy to sit with Jamie. I arrived in the early afternoon and we talked for a while. Then I helped Jamie take a shower and stood with him while he took a nice long piss in the toilet. Soon he was sitting comfortably up in bed in clean T-Shirt and underpants. I made us a drink and we talked for a while longer. After a while, the talk turned to sex, and Jamie told me how much he missed it. We began to talk about sex and Jamie confessed that he had always liked sex without a condom. "Do you want to know a secret?" I said Jamie nodded and I leant forward "So do I!" Jamie looked surprised. "You like sex without a condom?" he said and I nodded. "Fuck!" said Jamie Neither of us said anything for a moment and then I asked him "Are you hard?" Jamie nodded, "Yeah," he said "Are you?" I nodded too and stood up. Jamie looked at my cock sticking up in my trousers and then looked at me. I nodded and he reached up and began to rub my hard cock through my trousers. I pulled back the cover and saw Jamie's cock was hard in his pants. We stroked each other for a while and then I pulled his pants down, freeing his cock, and took it in my hands. I began to wank him gently. "Oh fuck!" he moaned "That's so good!" I wanked him for a while and then I pulled my jeans and pants down to my knees. "Why don't you suck my cock?" I whispered I moved closer to the bed and pushed my cock towards Jamie's mouth. He licked the tip and then took my cock into his mouth. He sucked me really well and this, together with the knowledge of what we were doing brought me very close and I knew that if I let him suck me for much longer I was going to cum in his mouth. I pulled my cock out of Jamie's mouth and took hold of his cock again. He had been wanking as he sucked me and his cock was super hard. I wanked him for while and then rubbed his balls. He lifted his legs and soon my finger found his arsehole. He moaned softly as my finger pushed into his arse and I began to finger his hole. "Oh fuck!" he moaned, "Oh fuck, I wish you could fuck me right now!" "Maybe I could," I said, but Jamie shook his head. "No," he said, "You can't fuck me." I wasn't sure what he meant. "Could you take it?" I asked, and Jamie nodded "Oh yes," he said with a grin, "I could take it - but it's way too much of a risk for you." "Let me worry about that," I said, and motioned to him to kneel up on the bed. I wasn't sure he was going to do it at first, but after a moment's hesitation, Jamie moved round and knelt up on the bed, presenting his naked arse to me. I pulled his cheeks apart and gently fingered his hole and then I pushed my tongue right up him. Jamie moaned as I licked his hole and after a while he said "You have to fuck me now!" He opened a drawer and passed me a small tube of lube. A few seconds later I was pushing the head of my cock into his arsehole. He groaned and told me not to stop but just to take it slowly. I pushed slowly but surely right up him and then gave him a moment to get used to my cock. Jamie sighed, "Fuck me!" he said Jamie's hole was really tight and I enjoyed every minute of fucking him. I started off slowly, pulling my cock all the way back and then pushing it back up him slowly, and then I began to fuck him a bit harder. I could tell that Jamie was enjoying the fuck every bit as I was. "Oh fuck!" he moaned, "Don't stop! Don't fucking stop!". I took hold of his hips and began to fuck him really hard. We were both totally into the fuck now and after a while I told him I was going to cum in him. "Oh fuck, yes, yes!" he moaned as I began to shoot my load right into his arse. It felt like I was never going to stop as I shot more and more cum right up him. When I had finally finished cumming in him, I pulled out and he laid back on the bed. His cock was hard and he took hold of it and began to wank himself. I moved his hand away and, bending forward, I took his cock into my mouth and began to suck him. He moaned as I sucked him and I could feel his cock getting harder in my mouth. I stopped sucking for a moment. "Do you want to fuck me?" I asked him. "No way," he said "I can't do that!" I put my finger over his lips. "Do you want to fuck me?" I said again. After a moment of silence, Jamie nodded and I grinned at him. I'm not quite sure exactly what was going through my mind as I bent over the bed and pushed my arse out. I felt Jamie move in behind me and then I felt the head of his cock pushing into my now lubed arsehole and then I felt him push his cock right up me and begin to fuck. I knew what I was doing was madness, but I couldn't help myself - in that moment I wanted nothing more than for Jamie to fuck me and then cum right up me. Until a year or so before this, I had always been careful to practise safe sex, using condoms on every occasion and even reaching behind me every now and then to make sure that the guy fucking me still had his condom on - and now I was taking the biggest risk of all. I also wondered what my friends would say if they knew what I was doing. I knew they viewed me as someone who was very measured and made wise decisions both at work and in my personal life and as far as I knew, they all practised safe sex too. And now, here I was, bent over the bed, being fucked without a condom by a guy who had AIDS - I can't tell you how turned on I was! Jamie was fucking me harder now and I could tell he was getting close. I was urging him on now, telling him to fuck me harder and moaning "Cum in me, fucking cum in me!" A few minutes later, Jamie cried out "Oh fuck!" and I felt his whole body shudder as he thrust hard up my arse and I knew he was cumming deep inside me. I was playing with myself as Jamie fucked me and the moment I felt his cum spurting into my unprotected arse, I shot another load of cum out in front of me, When he pulled out of me, I took Jamie's cock into my mouth and sucked him for a few minutes and soon he was back in bed. He was tired now and needing a rest. When Paul came home from work a couple of hours later, Jamie was sleeping, with his arms folded and a contented smile on his face. When Jamie woke up a couple of hours later, we had all had a meal together and then spent a very enjoyable evening. All the time, I could feel Jamie's load up my arse and I could tell he had shot a really big one up me. The next time I sat with Jamie was one of the last. He told me then how much he had enjoyed what we did and said I would never know how much it meant to him to feel so horny again and to feel wanted and loved. As for me, I couldn't stop thinking about what we had done and I knew it would not be long before I was taking more risks. Of course I knew there might well be consequences from what we had done on that Christmas afternoon - but I decided to cross that bridge if and when I came to it.

Part 14 - The quiet ones Something else I have noticed over the years is that some of the quietest, most serious guys I have met can also be the horniest and the most likely to want to fuck bareback. In the mid 90s I was sharing a flat in north London with two other guys who were, like me, in their mid to late 20s - Paul, one of my friends from university, and an Irish guy called Brendan. Paul and I had been brought up in strict Christian families and Brendan had been raised in a small town in the south of Ireland. We were all enjoying the freedom of living in London. We had been sharing the flat for about three years when Paul met someone and moved in with him. He suggested inviting a guy he knew from home who was coming down to London to study for three months to take his room while we looked for another flatmate. Brendan and I were fine with this idea and Peter moved in a month or so later. Peter was a good looking, slim, blond lad who was studying to be a lay preacher and was coming down to London to attend a three month course at a Christian college. I liked Peter a lot - he was very serious and hard working - but he was friendly and good fun and was also out as a gay Christian, something I knew could not be easy as he came from much the same background as I did. Peter was also involved in sexual health education and promotion for gay men. He had a boyfriend in Scotland and they spoke to each other most evenings by phone. I had started fucking without condoms about a year before, but I was now seeing a guy called Liam, who was a nice guy with a really fit, sexy arse, but was totally committed to safe sex. I had suggested once that we might fuck without a condom but he was adamant - no one was going up his arse without a condom under any circumstances! A couple of weeks into his course, Peter met a guy who lived near us in north London and started going to his church with him. They were on the same course together and he brought him to the flat a few times so that they could study. Marcus was a good looking, friendly young black guy, also in his mid 20s. One Friday evening a few weeks later I was going out to a friend's birthday meal in a restaurant in central London. As I was on my way out, Peter and Marcus came in and Peter said they were going to have something to eat and then study together. I set off to the underground station and half way down the hill, I realised I had forgotten the birthday gift I had bought for my friend. I decided I had time to go back for it and made my way back up the hill. When I entered the flat, there was no sign of anyone, but almost immediately I heard what sounded very much like two people having sex. I made my way quietly down the hall and noticed that Peter's door was open. There was a full length mirror in the hall which gave a really good view into Peter's room if the door was open and, keeping out of sight, I had a perfect view into the room. Marcus was stretched out on Peter's bed, naked from the waist down, and Peter, also naked from the waist down, was riding his cock. I had really good view of Peter's slim arse riding up and down on Marcus's cock and almost immediately I could see two things - the first was that Marcus had a really big, thick cock and the second was that he was not wearing a condom. I watched in the mirror as Peter continued to ride Marcus - they were both getting louder now and Peter was groaning "Oh fuck, fuck......fuck!" I heard Marcus's voice, "This is so fucking good, so fucking good!" "Yeah!" moaned Peter "No fucking condom!" panted Marcus "That's how I like it!" moaned Peter They were fucking faster now, and I watched as Marcus thrust his cock hard up Peter a couple of times and then held it still and I knew he was pumping his cum right up Peter's cheating arse. Peter fell forward and kissed Marcus and, as he did so, Marcus's cock slipped out his arse and I saw a load of cum sliding out of Peter's gaping hole. It was all very horny and later that night I had a great wank as I remembered the scene I had witnessed! Peter and Marcus continued to attend church together and study together and Peter set up a single mattrass on his bedroom floor so that Marcus could stay over when they had been studying late. I guessed that this was for appearances rather than for Marcus to actually sleep on! A few weeks later, Peter was out at the wedding of someone on this course and, as I drifted off to sleep later that night, I heard what sounded like two people who had had a few drinks trying to be quiet and not making a very job of it|. I assumed it was Peter and Marcus but when I heard someone quietly leaving the flat an hour so later I looked out the window and saw a totally different guy making his way down the road. Peter was obviously making the most of being away from his boyfriend and I guessed he probably now had this guy's load up him. Towards the end of Peter's time in London, Brendan decided to move in with a boyfriend he had met a few months before and I set about looking for two new flatmates. A week before Peter moved back to Scotland, I was out at a gay bar one Friday evening and fairly early in the evening decided I wasn't really in the mood and made my way home. When I entered the flat, I heard the unmistakeable sounds of two guys having sex again, but this time the sounds came from the kitchen. I assumed it was Peter and Marcus again and decided to go and check it out. I walked into the kitchen and the first person I saw was Peter. He was bent over the kitchen table, his trousers and pants at this ankles, being fucked hard up the arse. I was not surprised by this, but I was surprised to see that the guy fucking Peter was not Marcus, but Brendan! My cock was hard in my pants as I watched Brendan's meaty arse thrusting up Peter's slim one. They had seen me by now and, a little to my surprise, Brendan motioned to me to join them. I didn't hesitate, and soon my pants were down at my knees and I was wanking as I watched Brendan fuck Peter. After a few more thrusts, Brendan pulled his cock out of Peter's arse and motioned to me to take his place. As I had suspected, Brendan was not wearing a condom and without hesitating, I pushed my bare cock up Peter's arse. His hole was tighter than I expected and I enjoyed every minute of fucking him. After a while, Brendan tapped me on the shoulder and I pulled out as Brendan took my place and pushed his cock back up Peter's arse. I was really turned on as we took turns fucking Peter - even more so as all three of us were cheating on our boyfriends and none of us were using condoms! Brendan shot his load up Peter first and then I shot mine a few minutes later. It was all very horny! After a while, we all pulled our pants and trousers back up and Peter made us some coffee. We never referred to what had happened and a few weeks later, we all went our separate ways. I had another horny experience with a quiet, serious guy in the mid 2000s. I met Robert when I was out for a meal with some friends in Glasgow and he was sitting next to me. He was small and quite serious looking with short hair and glasses. His boyfriend had to work that evening so he wasn't with him. I got on well with Robert and enjoyed his company. Towards the end of the evening, I was in the toilet of the restaurant having a piss when Robert came in and stood next to me at the urinal. He pulled out his cock and grinned at me as he too began to piss. I noticed that Robert was checking out my cock as we pissed together and when I had finished I didn't put my cock away, and a short time later the two of us were hard and wanking together. I knew we would have to be quick and I reached out and took hold of Robert's cock. I began to wank him with one hand and pushed my other hand down the back of his pants, and soon my finger had found his arsehole. I pushed my finger against his hole as I wanked him and soon I was pushing my finger up his hole. I could feel his cock getting harder in my hand as I fingered him and then he groaned and shot his load out on to the urinal as I pushed my finger right up him. A few minutes later we were back out in the restaurant with no one any the wiser. A few weeks later I flew to Berlin for a long weekend. Two guys were checking in in front of me and as they turned round I realised it was Robert and tall, dark haired guy I assumed was his partner. I checked in as the two of them made their way to the lift. The lift took a little while to come and by the time it did, I had checked in and had joined them. Robert gave no indication that he had met me as we nodded at each other and then got in to the lift. We all got off on the same floor and turned along the same corridor, smiling as we realised that our rooms were next door to each other. That evening we left the hotel by chance at the same time and the following morning we found ourselves going down to breakfast at the same time. In the lift, Robert and I were standing behind his partner and he turned and winked at me. Later that day I came back to the hotel at the same time as Robert, who this time was on his own. We got into the lift together and as soon as the doors closed, Robert pulled me towards him and kissed me. "I need you to fuck me!" he breathed in my ear and then he kissed me again. I could feel his hard cock pressing against mine as we kissed and when the lift doors opened, we both made our way to my room. "Where's your partner?" I asked him as we entered the room. "Shopping," he replied and then he pulled me towards him and kissed me again. We wasted no time in pulling each other's clothes off and soon we were both down to our pants. Robert pulled my pants down and went down on my now hard cock. He sucked me for a while and then I stopped him as I was getting close. I pulled his cock out and went down on him and then I turned him round and he bent over the bed. I pulled his arse cheeks apart, exposing his surprisingly hairy hole and then I pushed my tongue right up him. He gave little moans as I rimmed him and then he looked over his shoulder. "I need you to fuck me!" he said again and added "My boyfriend is a total bottom and I need to be fucked!" I began to rub the head of my cock against his hole and meeting no resistance, pushed the head of my cock into his arse. "Are you going to fuck me without a condom?" he asked I could see he was really turned on by the idea of being fucked bareback and I said "Yes!" "Oh fuck!" he said as I pushed right up him and began to fuck. I really enjoyed the fuck and I guessed he wasn't lying when he said he didn't get fucked much - his hole was so tight it was really hard not to shoot my load right up him. I fucked him for a while and then he asked me to pull out. He grinned at me and laid back on the bed, pulling his legs up. "Now fuck me, and cum in me!" he said. I pushed my cock back up his arse and began to fuck him as he gave contented little moans. I was getting close now and told him so as I began to fuck him harder. "Do it," he moaned, "Cum in me!" It's always a turn on to cum up someone else's boyfriend and a few minutes later I shot what felt like a massive load right up his unprotected arse. It was one of the horniest fucks I had had in a long time and he grinned at me as I pulled out his arse. "Thanks!" he said "I needed that." When the pandemic struck, I had not long taken on a job which required me to be in Scotland for part of the time and in London for the rest of the time. As soon as I took the job, I realised I had made a mistake - my boss was a nightmare and I hated the company and its culture. I had decided to get out as quickly and painlessly as I could and then came the pandemic and pretty much everything, including recruitment, was put on hold. When lockdown happened, I was in Scotland and it was agreed I would stay and work from there. I was staying with a friend just outside Glasgow, and he was happy for me to stay with him for as long as I needed to. Work became more complicated for various reasons and it was decided that as senior managers, we should meet with our finance business partners on Teams or Zoom each week to manage budgets, expenditure etc. My finance business manager was a guy called Stuart, and at first I thought he was a typical accountant - serious and dry. However, as we established our weekly meetings I came to realise he was a really nice guy with a great sense of humour. Our meetings did not take that long and we began to chat to each other after the business was done. Stuart told me he was gay and lived with his husband and the more we talked to each other, the more I began to look forward to our weekly chats. I discovered that Stuart hated the company too and, like me, had been planning his exit when the pandemic struck. One time Stuart told me he would love to sit in a Senior Managers meeting in his pants. Senior Management team met twice a week on line at this time and we agreed that we would both turn up to the next meeting in our pants. No one else would be any the wiser of course as they could only see our top halves on Teams. We agreed to meet after the management team meeting to see if we had both gone through with it. The management team meeting was boring as usual and it was only when I was due to meet Stuart that I began to get a bit excited about the fact that, under my desk, I was sitting there in my underpants. Stuart and I met after the team meeting and almost immediately he asked me if I had gone through with it. I stood up and showed him that I was in my pants and he grinned. Then he stood up and I saw he was wearing a pair of white Calvin Klein pants. He had a really fit body and I could see the outline of his cock in his pants. Then he turned round and pushed his arse out and I saw that his arse was really fit too. I could feel my cock getting hard as I bent over to show him my arse and I could see that Stuart was getting hard too. It was Stuart who suggested we take our pants off and soon we were naked from the waist down, and both hard. We played with ourselves for a while and then Stuart bent over again and showed me his bare arse, pulling his cheeks apart to expose his arsehole and then I did the same. We ended up wanking together and talking about how much we would like to suck each other off. It was Stuart who said he would love me to fuck him. He bent over his desk again and showed his arsehole, telling me how much he wished I could fuck him there and then and shoot a big load right up him. We were both wanking hard now and soon we had both shot our loads. It was very horny. After that we began to wank together regularly - talking about how much we wanted to fuck when the restrictions were over. Stuart told me again he would love me to fuck him bareback and cum in him. He added that he shouldn't really say that as he was not on Prep or anything and I told him I didn't care and couldn't wait to bareback him. One time we were wanking together and Stuart told me he had something to show me. He bent over his desk, and pulled his arse cheeks apart. I loved seeing Stuart expose his arsehole and I was wanking as he told me to wait a moment. Then he pushed and I saw a load of cum slide out his arsehole and down the back of his balls. It was one of the horniest things I had ever seen and when he had finished pushing the cum out his hole, Stuart told me that his husband had fucked him that morning before he went to work. Eventually the restrictions were eased and we were able to book some time in the office if we needed it- ideally only one person at a time to start with. I booked a session and we decided that no one would be any the wiser if Stuart and I were in the office at the same time. I was really excited to meet with Stuart and we both enjoyed every minute of our meeting. We sucked each other's cocks and licked each others arseholes, and then Stuart bent over the desk and I pushed my cock up his arse and fucked him bareback, shooting a nice big load up him. It was real turn on to know that he was going home to his husband with my load up his cheating arse We fucked as often as we could after that, and one time Stuart turned up with his husband's load up him. It was a real turn on watching him push it out his hole and I rubbed my cock in it and pushed up him. I enjoyed every minute of fucking Stuart using his husband's cum as lube and shot another massive load up him. As the restrictions gradually eased, the jobs market slowly recovered and both Stuart and I found other jobs. Having fun with Stuart was definitely one of the best things about lockdown and we still meet up when I am in Scotland. The last time was a couple of months ago when he knelt up on the bed in my hotel room and I shot yet another load up his cheating arse. Part 15 to follow

Last week before the stormy weather hit, I was up in the north of Scotland. It's been very much all work and no play for me for a while now and I was feeling tired and a bit low. In the early evening I visited a cruising ground. It was quiet at first but then a few guys appeared. I fucked an Afghan lad up against a tree. I guessed he was probably in his late 20s. It was only after we fucked that he told me he had just turned 20. He looked quite a bit older - he was tall, slim and bearded, with a really fit, hairy arse. He sucked my cock for a while and then pulled his trousers and pants down and bent over. I fucked him against a tree and enjoyed every minute of it. His arse was really tight, even though he told me he had another guy's load up him and after a really enjoyable fuck, I squirted my load up his arse to add to the one he already had up him. As he pulled up his pants, he thanked me and told me how much he had enjoyed the fuck and then smiled at me and kissed me. Made me feel a lot better and I decided to go back the following evening!

Part 13 The morning after the night before found us all back at Tegel Airport ready to fly home. I didn't really know what to think about what had happened in the club. As usual, Neil had spent the night with me and had got up early in the morning and returned to his own room. Neither of us had said anything - partly because both of us were too drunk and too tired, and partly because I wasn't sure it would be wise to say anything. I knew Neil well enough to know that , although he liked to do things, he didn't often like to talk about things - something I knew was a source of frustration for his wife. I had woken up feeling surprisingly fresh and, as usual in the mornings, quite horny. I played with myself for a while, thinking about Neil taking it up the arse and turned on by the knowledge that he had taken two loads up him the night before, one of them being mine! I jumped in the shower and then decided to go down to breakfast. I wasn't very hungry but I was thirsty and soon I had demolished a couple of breakfast rolls, one with ham and one with cheese, three cups of tea, some orange juice and some fruit salad and yoghurt - my favourite kind of breakfast. When I finished breakfast, I went back to up to my room. Yusuf, the young guy who had eyed me up the day before, came out of one of the rooms and our eyes met. I realised he was a bit younger than I had first thought and was probably no more than 18 or 19 years old. Without a word, he followed me to my room and, almost as soon as the door was closed, he had my pants down and my cock was in his mouth. He sucked me for a while and then he got up, and without a word, pulled his shorts and pants down and bent over the bed. He had a very nice, smooth arse and I was more than ready for a good hard fuck. I pulled his cheeks apart and pushed my cock against his hairy arsehole. I went up him quite easily and he grunted and bent forward as I began to fuck him. I didn't want to cum too soon, so I fucked him slowly at first, as he gave contented little grunts, and then I began to fuck him harder. I was getting close now and I took hold of his hips and began to fuck him as hard as I could. I could tell he was enjoying every minute of the fuck, as I was, and before too much longer, I deposited what felt like a massive load of dirty cum right up his arse. When I pulled out, he pulled up his shorts and pants and grinned at me. A few seconds later he had disappeared out of the room, with not a word being spoken between us. A short time later, we were all congregated in the reception area to check out and just waiting for Jamal who, as usual, was last to arrive. I heard Robert telling Jamie and Callum that he had met a woman in a bar the night before and had fucked her in an alley behind the bar. Robert told them she had let him "do her up the arse", something apparently his girlfriend wouldn't allow. "Did you cum in her?" Jamie asked and Robert nodded as they high-fived each other. Jamie had come in for quite a bit of teasing as he had apparently been so drunk the night before, he had pissed his pants on the way back to the hotel. The teasing didn't seem to bother him though and he was on his usual cheerful good form. I had also learned that James had told the others he was tired and had left the group early to go back to the hotel. He too was being teased for being an amateur - but I guessed that there might be another reason he had left early and suspected it probably involved another secret trip to the Tiergarten for some cock. A few hours later we were on the plane heading back to London. Once again I was sitting with Neil and Callum, both of whom fell asleep almost as soon as the plane took off. I was full of my own thoughts - mostly I was thinking about Neil and what we had done the night before. Neil usually had the capacity for drinking huge amounts of alcohol but still being in control of what he was doing. He had not stopped me fucking him - yet he must have known I was not wearing a condom and he must have known I was going to cum in him - yet he had let me do it. I knew that Neil was not the most talkative guy in the world, especially when it came to talking about how he felt about anything, and I knew if he was going to refer to what happened, it would have to be in his own time. My thoughts turned to some of the other guys I had fucked in Berlin, and I couldn't help wondering if I had pozzed any of them. I was somehow fairly sure I had knocked up the cheating ginger guy and also the young nerdy lad I fucked over the table tennis table at the Tiergarten. I don't know why I was so sure of that, I just get these instincts sometimes. Most of the other lads had drifted off to sleep by now, but I couldn't sleep - I was too restless and too full of thoughts. I decided to give my friend Gerry a call when I got back to London. I haven't mentioned Gerry yet, but he's quite an important part of my story and it was him who helped me come to terms with being HIV positive and helped me shape my approach to it. In some ways, you could say he's been a bit of a mentor. I first met Gerry when I was at my lowest ebb. I had been diagnosed a few months earlier, and I was really struggling with meds and had recently come off them. I wasn't sure what to do and I wasn't even sure what I wanted to do. I loved fucking and I didn't want to stop - but I hated condoms and didn't want to use them. In addition, I was subject to really bad attacks of what felt like flu - they usually lasted about 48 hours, but they were really horrible. I was sweating, shivering and sleeping alternately - I felt like shit. The doctors had told me they thought I had been carrying a very high viral load for quite a long time. I can't remember why they thought that now, though they did tell me. I was also having really weird dreams- and in those dreams I kept seeing the faces of some of the guys I had fucked - the same faces over and over again. I was drinking in a gay bar in West London one night when I met Gerry. I had started drinking quite early with the intention of drinking as much as I could so that I could go home and just black out - that was how bad I was feeling. Gerry bought me a drink and invited me to sit at a table with him. I liked the look of him straight away - he was big, stocky and bearded and I realised almost immediately, friendly and caring. He said he could see I was really unhappy and asked me what the matter was. I found myself pouring out the whole story to him - my diagnosis, how I felt about it and all about my dreams. He listened sympathetically and then asked me to tell him more about the guys I kept seeing in my dreams. It was such a relief to tell someone, and somehow I knew instinctively that Gerry would understand. I told him they were all guys I had fucked in the six months before my diagnosis - I had been particularly active in that period, and I now knew that I had probably been carrying a very high viral load at the time. First of all, I told him about the homeless guy. I had been out drinking with a group of friends one night to celebrate someone's birthday and it was well after 11pm when I left the bar and made my way to the nearest underground station. The station was some way from the bar, but it was a warm summer's night and I had decided to walk to get some air. I hadn't been walking very long when I realised how badly I needed to piss. I should have gone to the toilet before I left the bar, but I hadn't, and as I walked along the road I was getting more and more desperate. I looked about for somewhere quiet to go and take a piss, but the road was quite busy with traffic and people. I turned up a side road and, much to my relief, saw a row of shops with an alley down the side. A skip full of builder's rubble meant no one could see the alleyway from the road - just what I needed. I wasted no time in going behind the skip and within seconds I had pulled my dick out and was pissing like a racehorse. Suddenly a voice said "Hey, watch what you're doing!" I turned my head - a good looking guy in a beanie hat was sitting by the skip, a sleeping bag pulled up around him. I had not noticed him and had almost pissed all over him. "Sorry mate!" I said, "I didn't see you there>" I had stopped pissing now and was standing there with my dick in my hand. I looked at the guy. I could see now that he was younger than I had thought at first, maybe late 20s at most and I could also see he was staring at my dick with a look of unmistakeable interest. "No worries!" he said with a grin He was still staring at my cock and I was getting semi hard now. "Nice dick!" he said "Thank you," I said and then added "I'm sorry mate, I really need to do this!" as I started to piss again. He was still staring at my dick. "Do it on me!" he said suddenly. I looked at him in surprise and he grinned at me. "Piss on me!" he said. I moved towards him and pissed all down his chest and onto the front of his jeans, moving my stream back up his body and aiming the rest straight into his mouth. When I had finished he reached out and pulled my cock towards him. Seconds later he had taken it in his mouth and was sucking me enthusiastically. I let him suck my cock for a while and then I felt myself getting close, so I pulled out of his mouth and motioned to him to get up. He hesitated. "I don't know," he said "to be honest mate, I might not be very fresh." I told him I didn't care and I wanted to suck his cock. He hesitated again, but only very briefly and then he unzipped himself and puled his jeans and wet pants own to his knees. He had a nice cock and I sucked him for a while and then he turned round and bent forwards, pulling his arse cheeks apart. "Fuck me!" he said "Please, fuck me!" I had some lube on me as always, and a few seconds later I was pushing the head of my cock against his arsehole. He was very tight, but I pushed slowly but surely right up him and then began to fuck him. I fucked him for a while and then he moaned "Harder, fuck me harder!" I took hold of his hips and began to fuck him harder, turned on by the tightness of his arse and the fact that he was so into being fucked. I was getting close now and told him so "Oh fuck," he moaned "Cum in me, fucking cum in me!" A short time later I shot what felt like a massive load right up him. When I pulled out, he turned around and pulled me towards him. He kissed me hard as he wanked his cock and seconds later he shot his load out in front of him. We were both out of breath and as we pulled up our pants he told me it had been a while and said I had given him exactly what he needed. But now, as I told Gerry, I couldn't help wondering if I had also given him something that he didn't need. I told Gerry of some of the other guys I kept seeing in my dreams - some random guys I had fucked at the Vault, a couple of guys I picked up at the gym and some of my Grindr hook ups. I also told him about the Afghan Uber driver who had picked me up at a gay club and had invited me to sit in the front seat with him. He had shown me a picture of his wife and two kids and at first I had thought he was just being friendly when he asked me about the club I had been to. We ended up parked in a wooded area just off the main road where I fucked him, pants down over the bonnet of his car and shot a big load up his hairy arse as he told me how much he liked feeling the cum up his arse when he was driving. There was also the guy I had met on Christmas Eve when I was out with with some friends for a drink. One of my friends knew him and invited him to join us. David was a good looking dark haired guy, tall and slim and in the course of our conversation he told me he was going to be on his own for Christmas as his partner was away. He told me his partner was not out to his parents and was expected to go home for Christmas. "How old is he?" I asked curiously "He's 34." said David "Oh," I said I suggested going for something to eat and soon David and I were in an Indian restaurant enjoying a good feed. He didn't take much persuading to come home with me, although he was clear that if we did anything it would have to be with a condom. I hadn't used a condom for some time, but he produced one and rolled it on my cock. I began to fuck him, but after only a short time he told me to take the condom off. "Are you sure?" I asked Yes, fuck it - do me bareback!" I didn't need any persuading - I ripped off the condom and seconds later I was up his cheating arse bare. I really enjoyed fucking David and I could tell he was enjoying it too. I fucked him kneeling up on the bed, on my back with him riding my cock, then on his back with his legs in the air and then shot a big load right up him. He stayed the night and I fucked him again in the morning and then we showered together. We were both meeting friends for dinner but we were both still horny and we had another quick fuck before he left, he just pulled his pants and trousers down and I fucked him in the living room, sending him off to his friends with a big load up his arse. Then there was Kieran. He was a soldier I had hooked up with on one of the Apps when I was staying in a hotel in the north of England. He was 19, dark haired and up for a fuck. He told me he was in the army stationed at a base nearby and said he didn't have much time. I hadn't expected him to turn up in his army uniform but I wasn't complaining! He sucked my cock really well and the removed his boots, trousers and pants and knelt up on the bed so that I could slide my bare dick into his arse. We finished with him on his back, legs in the air as I fucked him and pumped a nice big load into his soldier boy arse. I told Gerry about my job and how I often picked up guys by giving them my number when they viewed a property and told him how sometimes one of a group of students would contact me after the viewing, sometimes one half a couple - mostly gay couples, but more than a few straight ones. I told him about Julian - a solicitor who had viewed a very expensive high end flat with his husband and had called me afterwards to see if he could have an additional viewing. He seemed very nervous and I guessed I would have to make the first move. As soon as I did, he was all over me. It was as if he couldn't wait to get his pants down and his arse in the air. He asked if I was going to use a condom and when I said I wasn't he said "Oh fuck! He bent over willingly and I fucked and bred him - his smart suit trousers and his Calvin Klein underpants at his knees. When I had finished he told me he had never cheated on his husband and told me his husband was the only guy who had ever fucked him bareback until now. Gerry listened as I told him about a few more guys. "Why do you think you keep seeing their faces?" he asked me I would have felt stupid saying it to anyone else, but somehow I knew Gerry would understand. "I think it's because I infected them with HIV" I said "You think you knocked them up?" said Gerry "Yes." He looked at me. "You're probably right." he said. I hadn't really expected him to say that but he said it was more than likely and I might find I had an instinct for knowing when I had knocked someone up. He also told me that all these guys had offered up their arses of their own free will - they were all adults and I hadn't forced them to do anything they did not want to do. Gerry said that was their responsibility - not mine. As long as I was honest if someone asked me my status and didn't stealth anyone, his view was that I was acting responsibly. Gerry had told me earlier that he was also positive and not on meds, and now he told me that his doctors thought he had acquired a rare strain of HIV that was largely resistant to meds. I was already feeling much better through talking to Gerry and after we had talked a bit more, he did what I had been secretly hoping he would do - he took me home and fucked me! As soon as he closed the door to his flat, I was all over him. He got his cock out and I went down on him. His cock was pretty big, but as I sucked it got bigger and bigger and soon I was sucking on one of the biggest and thickest cocks I had ever had in my mouth. "That's it," he said "Suck on that big poz cock!" I sucked him for a bit longer and then he turned round and bent over. "Now lick my arse!" he said. I pulled his cheeks apart and pushed my tongue right up into his hole. I licked him for a while and then took his cock back into my mouth. A few moments later I was on my back on his kitchen table, my shoes, trousers and pants on the floor as Gerry pushed his cock into my arse. His cock was huge and really stretched my arse, but I don't think I have ever felt so turned on. He looked at me. "I bet this is how you got knocked up in the first place!" he said "On your back, letting guys fuck you, no questions asked!" "Yes," I gasped "You're going to love being positive, aren't you?" he said as he continued fucking me. "Yes!" I moaned, "I'm going to love it! I'm going to fucking love it!" "Good boy!" he said as he began to fuck me even harder. "Take my fuck - let me re-charge you!" "Yes, yes!" moaned. "Please do it - recharge me, fucking recharge my cunt!" "I'm getting close!" he said "Do you want this?" "Oh fuck, yes!" I moaned "I want it!" "Tell me how much!" "More than anything!" I moaned "Fuck me, breed me, give me your strain! Give me your fucking strain!" He started to cum in me. I could actually feel his cum pumping into my arse. "Tag me, you bastard! I moaned. "Fucking do it! Tag me for life!" Gerry finished cumming and pulled out of me. I knew I was now on a different path and life would never be quite the same again.

Looking forward to hearing more!

All of the cocks I sucked at first were uncut - as is my own. I was brought up in the north of Scotland and went to university in Glasgow when I was 18. I had very limited sexual experience when I moved to the city and it was a revelation! I can't tell you how many cocks I sucked in parks and public toilets during the first year. As far as I remember, all of them were uncut, from young students my own age to much older guys. I knew from the showers and changing rooms at school that all the other boys had cocks that looked like mine - it was when I was back at home during the break between my first year and my second that I first encountered a cut dick. Church going and taking part in all church activities was compulsory in my family and during the summer our church had a group of Americans staying and we all hosted them. I got together with one of the lads who was 19 like me and was staying with another family. He was really fit looking - blond and a bit chubby - and I discovered his cock was cut - the first one I had seen. We sucked each other off regularly during his time in Scotland and I fucked his fit arse several times. When I moved to London after university, I started encountering more cut dicks - but still very much a minority.

This all happened some time ago now - in the mid 2000s when I was still together with my partner. I was down on the south coast of England for a two day professional conference which was taking place in Brighton. I had been a few times before and it was generally quite a good conference. In the evening of the first day there was a meal and networking/social event which I was not so keen on, and I decided if I got the chance I would duck out of the evening event and go and have some fun somewhere. Shortly after I arrived at the conference I ran into a former colleague. Andy and I had worked together for nine months about three years earlier, when he had joined the company I was with to cover a colleague's maternity leave. Andy and I had got on very well and had found we had a lot in common. He was quite straight acting and I had initially been surprised to learn he was gay and lived with his partner. We had worked late together a few times, and one thing had led to another. Andy had confessed that he was a bit bored in his relationship - his partner was exclusively a bottom and, although this suited Andy most of the time, he did like to get fucked now and then. I also got the impression that Andy found his partner a bit unadventurous - he told me his partner didn't like rimming him and he missed that. Andy and I had been flirting for some time and one night we were left on our own in the office and one thing led to another. Within minutes of our last colleague leaving the building, Andy and I were kissing hard. I could feel his cock pushing against his trousers as we kissed and I wasted no time in unzipping his work trousers and pulling them down to his knees along with his pants. Andy had a nice big cock and I took it into my mouth and began to suck him. He sighed and took my head in his hands gently as I sucked him. "Oh fuck, that feels so good!" he moaned as I continued to suck him. A few minutes later, Andy was bent over the desk, his pants and trousers down and his arse in the air and I was pulling his cheeks apart and pushing my tongue right into his arsehole. He moaned as I rimmed him and then he turned round and I sucked him again. He told me then how much he wanted me to fuck him and asked me if I had a condom. I told him I had some lube but didn't have any condoms. I tried hinting that I might be up for doing it without a condom but Andy was clear - he wouldn't cheat on his boyfriend and not use a condom. In the end, I sucked him off and fingered his arse and as I pushed my finger right up him, he shot a massive load of cum into my mouth. Andy grinned at me as we both pulled up our pants. "I'm definitely bringing a condom next time!" The next time we were alone in the office I fucked him. At his request, I used a condom and after that we fucked regularly during the rest of his time with us. Mostly we stayed late and fucked in the office, and when this wasn't possible, we fucked in some woods near the office. Although I was now starting to fuck bare more and more, Andy and I always used condoms. I hadn't seen Andy for a few years when we met up at the conference and soon we were having lunch together and catching up. Andy was still with his partner and said he was quite happy. I got the impression that he was still a bit bored sexually though and a little later he suggested that we both ditch the social event in the evening and maybe go for a drink and something to eat and "maybe spend some time together." I guessed that meant that Andy might be up for some fun and I was definitely up for that. I was mostly fucking bareback now and and I wondered if there was any chance of getting Andy to let me fuck him without a condom. I didn't think it likely, but I always think there's no harm in trying! That evening, Andy and I went to a gay bar with a terrace which looked on to the sea. They served food and soon we were enjoying a good meal and catching up properly. Andy was on good form and once again I was enjoying his company. A little later I noticed we were getting cruised by a couple of guys at the next table. They both looked to be in their mid 30s and both looked quite fit. One was dark haired and quite stocky and the other was a skinhead. Andy had noticed them too and commented on it with a grin, saying if he got the chance he would spread his legs for the skinhead guy. I grinned at him. Andy had had a few drinks by now and his tongue was somewhat loosened. He suggested inviting the two guys over and I told him to go for it. The two guys joined us and proved to be good company. The dark haired stocky guy was called Aiden and the other guy was Sam. After a few more drinks the talk turned to sex. They had asked us if we were a couple and we had said no, just colleagues and then they asked us if we had ever had fun together and we admitted that we had. They told us they were just friends and were out tonight looking for some fun. Andy was flirting heavily with the skinhead guy and I could see the evening might end up with him pairing up with Sam and me with Aiden. To tell the truth, I was really excited by Aiden and I had every intention of letting him fuck me bareback if he wanted me to. After another round of drinks, our talk became more explicit. Aiden said that the two of them liked to go bareback and asked us if we were up for that. To my surprise Andy said "Fuck, yeah!" without hesitation. Aiden looked at me and I nodded "Me too!" I said. The two guys looked at each other and Aiden said "So, you like it risky?" Again it was Andy who said yes first. Aiden and Sam exchanged glances and then Aiden leaned forward and said "Just how risky do you like it?" "What do you mean?" I asked, cautiously. Aiden and Sam exchanged another glance and then they told us. One of them was negative and recently tested, and the other was HIV positive and not on any meds. The one who was positive and not on meds had a viral load that had "gone through the roof." And they weren't going to tell us which was which. I was shocked and I could tell Andy was too. But I was also turned on - more turned on than I had been for a long time. Aiden and Sam said they would go for some drinks and leave us alone for a moment. It was Andy who spoke first. "I'm so fucking hard!" he said "So fucking hard!" He pulled back from the table for a moment and I could see his cock sticking right up in his trousers. I told him I was hard too. "I want to do it." he said "I really want to do it!" I swallowed "So do !!" When Aiden and Sam came back, we told them it was game on. I didn't quite know what to think. I had fucked bareback quite a bit over the years and I knew the risks, but I can honestly say until that moment I had never knowingly chased . Now I couldn't wait to get my pants off and take what might be a high viral load up my arse! I was more turned on than I had ever been - not just at the thought of what I was about to do, but at the thought that Andy, who had always been so adamant about safe sex, was going to do it too! We finished our drinks and made our way back to the hotel where both Andy and I were staying and soon we had all piled into my room. This was an added turn on - I had assumed that Aiden and I would use my room and Andy and Sam would use Andy's room. I was now more turned on than ever! Aiden and Sam were in control now. They both got their cocks out and told us to suck them. Andy and I both obeyed and it was a real turn on to see Andy sucking Sam's cock as I took Aiden's into my mouth and began to suck him. After we had sucked them for a while, they both knelt up on the bed and told us to lick their arses. Aiden had a really fit arse, firm and hairy and I wasted no time in getting my tongue right up his hairy hole. He moaned and I pushed my tongue as far up him as I could. From the sounds Sam was making, I could tell that Andy was making a good job of licking out his hole too. After a while, they told us to strip off and then told us to bend over the bed and let them see our holes. I was hard as a rock as we both bent over and pulled our cheeks apart, exposing our arseholes to the two guys - and I could see that Andy was too. I couldn't wait to see Andy take it bareback and for him to see me taking it too! A short time later I got what I wanted - I was kneeling up on the bed and Aiden was pushing his big, thick cock up my unprotected arse. I heard a groan from Andy and looked over to where he too was kneeling on the bed taking a big bare cock up his arse. I was so fucking turned on! The two guys began to fuck and I can honestly say I could not remember when I had enjoyed a fuck so much. I had a perfect view of Andy, who was on his back now, being fucked by Sam's big, thick cock and he was moaning "Fuck me, oh fuck me, please fuck me!" as Sam began to fuck him harder. They fucked us for what seemed like a long time and I could tell they were both getting close. It would soon be too late for either Andy or I to change our minds - but I had no intention of changing my mind and it didn't look like Andy had either. He was begging Sam to breed him telling him how much he wanted it. "Do you want it too?" asked Aiden as he continued to thrust hard up my arse. "Yes!" I moaned "I want it too!" A short time later I got it! It was one of these times when I could actually feel the cum pumping into my arse - and the knowledge that it might be highly toxic cum just seemed to make the whole experience even hornier! Andy was now also being bred and was almost crying as he told Sam how much he wanted it and how much he deserved it. I didn't think things could get any hornier as Aiden pulled out of my arse, but he motioned to me to lie on my back and then he lifted my legs up and I felt his big hard cock push up my arse again. Sam was still inside Andy and he began to thrust his cock into Andy's arse, slowly at first and then a little bit harder. We were both being fucked again! This time they fucked Andy and I side by side, both on our backs with our legs in the air, both cheating on our partners and both knowing that we might already be infected with HIV! When they had both dumped another load up us, Aiden and Sam got dressed and left Andy and I lying on the bed, covered in sweat and cum, both our arseholes wrecked! The next morning Andy and I were both back at the conference - smartly dressed and looking professional as ever. As I sat next to Andy listening to the conference speakers, I was still incredibly turned on by what we had done and even more turned on by the knowledge that either Andy was going home to his partner with a special gift up his arse, or I was!

Really enjoyed reading this story - brought back so many great memories!

A new picture of my dick - taken by a guy I fucked this morning

Hooked up with a south Indian guy who was working from home this morning -a was a good looking guy in his mid to late 30s. He told me his fantasy was to be fucked over his desk and I told him I'd be up for that. When I got to his place he took me into what was clearly a study and when I got my cock out he sucked it enthusiastically. I told him I wanted to fuck him and he pulled his trousers and pants down and bent over his desk. I pulled his cheeks apart and licked his hairy arsehole for a while. Then I lubed him up and pushed my cock up him. He had wanted me to use a condom but had not insisted when I said I would rather not. I fucked him for a while - as he gave little grunts and played with his cock. He was nice and tight - and he told me how much he was enjoying the fuck. I began to fuck him faster and then I shot a nice big load up his arse. When I had finished cumming and pulled out, he pulled up his pants and said he had better get back to work. He works on an IT helpdesk, and I like the thought that he's now helping and advising his clients with a big load of cum up his arse.

Part 12 We got to the club just after 11pm and it was already very busy. The club goes on to the early hours of the morning, but they shut the doors at midnight and you can't get in after that time. When we arrived, there was a queue at the door and we joined it. Lewis was quite quiet, but I could tell that Neil was excited. Neil had told me earlier that Lewis had heard us fucking in the bathroom of his room the other night and had asked Neil about it. Neil had told him we had been fucking for a while now and had told Lewis how much he enjoyed fucking me up the arse. Lewis had hinted that he wouldn't mind trying it and when Neil had told him we were going to a gay club that night, Lewis had asked if he could come too. I had discovered this bar on my previous visit to Berlin, and knew that it had a very busy darkroom and a fairly active toilet. I'm not usually a fan of taking straight people to gay venues, like it's some kind of show, but I knew that Neil was genuinely interested in going to the club and that Lewis was genuinely curious. I also knew that both of them had already had quite a lot to drink and I thought that, after a few more drinks in the club, it was quite likely that one or both of them would end up with their pants down. At my request, Neil had told Lewis that I was HIV positive and had explained that it was likely that a lot of the other guys in the club would be positive too. I knew that Neil hated condoms and rarely used them but I had suggested he bring some in case either he or Lewis wanted to join in the action. I didn't know whether he had or not, though. In the queue I got talking to a couple of young lads from the north of England, who looked to be in their mid 20s. One of them was dark and quite tall and the other was smaller and blond. The blond guy explained that they were a couple and had been together for three years. They had started having fun with other guys about a year ago and were looking forward to experiencing a really busy sex club. He explained to me that they never took any risks and always played safe and added "I take it they will have condoms available." I was fairly sure from my last visit that the bar did not have condoms anywhere - a lot of bars in the UK did have condoms available, but I had rarely seen any provided in German bars. They were both good looking lads with really fit arses, and I was fairly sure that, condoms or not, they would prove to be very popular when they got into the club! When we got in we had a drink at the bar and then Neil and Lewis wanted to see the darkroom. The darkroom was already quite busy, with several guys being sucked off and a couple of fit looking lads fucking in the corner. The darkroom had a rail on one side, which guys could bend over to get fucked - and at the other side of the room was a wall with glory holes. A couple of guys were getting sucked through the glory holes, their pants down and their naked arses on display. "Fuck!" said Lewis, looking around him. I noticed a tall guy standing over by the wall and I had a feeling he was cruising me. I cruised him back and a short time later, he pulled his pants and trousers down to his knees and began to play with his cock, still looking across at me. His cock was quite impressive and I went over to him, bent over and took his cock into my mouth, enjoying putting on a show for Neil and Lewis. I sucked the guy for a while, then pulled my pants down and began to play with myself as I sucked him, turned on by the fact that both Neil and Lewis now had a perfect view of my naked arse. As I sucked the guy, he reached over and began to finger my arse and it wasn't long before his finger found my arsehole. A short time later I was braced against the wall as the guy pushed his bare cock up me and began to fuck. Neil and Lewis were standing close by and I could see Lewis rubbing his cock through his trousers as he watched me being fucked. The guy fucking me was getting faster and I knew it would not be too long before I took my first load of the night. When he had cum in me, the guy pulled out and another guy who had been watching and wanking close by took over, pushing what felt like a massive cock right up me. He didn't mess about, fucking me hard and fast up against the wall. Neil and Lewis were still watching, and it was Lewis who got his cock out first, wanking as he watched me being fucked and before long Neil had his cock out too and they were standing wanking together. After a while, the guy fucking me pushed me hard against the wall and slammed his cock right up my arse, holding it there as he pumped me full of cum. After that, we went back to the bar and got some more drinks. I could tell that both Neil and Lewis were turned on by what they had witnessed and a short time later we were back in the darkroom and Neil had gone to explore the glory hole wall. One of the holes was vacant and I saw Neil looking through it. Just then the guy next to Neil pulled his cock out of the hole and stuffed it back in his pants. Neil motioned to Lewis to join him and I watched as first Neil then Lewis pulled their pants and trousers down and pushed their cocks through the hole. I was really turned on watching Neil and Lewis getting sucked and I had a quick look at the other side of the wall. Neil was being sucked by a good looking young dark haired guy who looked to be no more than eighteen or nineteen and Lewis by a fit looking young Turkish lad. A little way away, the couple I had been talking to in the queue were having a threesome with a older guy with a big cock. They were taking it in turns to suck on it and after a while they all stood up. The two lads seemed to be debating something and I could see that the taller lad was trying to talk his boyfriend into something. I guessed they had discovered by now that no condoms were provided in the bar and the taller lad was trying to persuade his boyfriend to go bareback. As I watched, the blond guy nodded and then turned round, leaning against the wall and pushing his fit young arse out. His boyfriend lubed him up and then the older guy positioned himself behind the blond lad, pulled his cheeks apart, pushed his big bare cock slowly right up his arse and began to fuck him. I could tell that the tall lad was really turned on watching the guy fuck his boyfriend without a condom and I could see that the blond lad was also now beginning to enjoy the fuck. I guessed that neither of them had noticed the biohazard tattoo on the older guy's shoulder. When the guy had pumped his cum into the blond lad, he pulled out and another guy pushed his bare cock up him and began to fuck. I looked over at Neil and Lewis who were both now thrusting their cocks into the gloryholes in front of them and as I watched they high-fived each other and I guessed that they were now both fucking the guys on the other side of the hole. I went and had a look and sure enough both the dark haired young lad and the Turkish guy were backed up to the holes, pants down, as they got fucked by Neil and Lewis. All around us guys were fucking and sucking and I didn't see many condoms - most of the guys were taking it bareback and a lot of them were getting bred - some bent over the rail, others through the gloryholes and yet more guys were just bent over in the dark room. Just then the taller of the two lads from the queue turned round, pulled his pants down and leaned against the wall, pushing his fit arse out next to his boyfriend, who was now being fucked bareback by anyone who wanted to do him. I was very horny now, and I didn't hesitate - I stepped up behind the lad and pushed my cock up his arse. He groaned as I pushed right up him and then I began to fuck. I guessed he was probably the top in the relationship and that he didn't get fucked very often, because his hole was one of the tightest I had ever fucked. I enjoyed every minute of the fuck, especially since I knew that he and his boyfriend had stared the evening genuinely intending to play safe, and it was not long before I fired a nice big toxic load up his arse. I looked over at the gloryholes just as Neil threw his head back in the way that he often does when he is cumming and I guessed that he had just pumped his load into the young dark haired guy on the other side of the glory hole. We went back to the bar again and had a few more drinks. We were all pretty drunk by now and at one point Lewis leaned over and said "I can't believe you still fuck guys without a condom, even though you're HIV positive!" and then added "It's so fucking horny to watch!" A little later I was back in the darkroom taking more cocks up my arse and then I headed to the toilet to take a much needed piss. When I came out the toilet, I realised there was another passage on the other side, which I discovered lead to some cabins with gloryholes. Just then Lewis came towards me, grinning drunkenly. He opened the door to one of the cabins and motioned to me to join him. He closed and locked the door and then turned round to me, pulling me towards him - "Will you suck my cock?" he breathed in my ear. I nodded and and moved down as Lewis pulled his pants down and his hard cock sprang out. I wasted no time in taking it in my mouth and he sighed as I began to suck him. Even if I didn't already know that Lewis had just fucked the Turkish guy, I would have guessed that his cock had just been up someone's arse - but I didn't care, and soon I was going right down on his cock. I sucked Lewis for a while and then another cock came through the gloryhole and Lewis motioned me to suck it, which I did, despite having no idea who was on the other side of the hole. I was really horny again and I stood up, took hold of the anonymous cock and backed my arse on to it. "Oh yes, oh fuck yes!" said Lewis, as I let the guy fuck me through the hole as I went down on Lewis's cock again. The guy on the other side of the wall was fucking me harder now and I guessed he was getting close. "Are you going to let him cum in you?" asked Lewis and I nodded. When the anonymous cock had loaded up my cunt, I pulled off it and turned round. Lewis pushed his finger up my arse. "Fuck!" he said again. I went back down on Lewis's cock as he fingered my arse and then I motioned to him to turn round. He looked at me suspiciously and I told him I wanted to lick his arse. He grinned and, without another word, he turned round and bent over. I had always thought that Lewis had a very fit arse - a big, meaty, rugby player's arse, and now I was seeing it in all its glory. A little to my surprise, Lewis reached round and pulled his cheeks apart, exposing his arsehole to me. He groaned as I pushed my tongue up his hole and began to lick him. He was wanking now as I pushed my tongue right into his soon to be married arse. I had no idea if he had ever been rimmed before, but he was certainly getting off on it. After a while, he stopped me and turned round. "I need to fuck you!" he said. I nodded and went to turn round. Lewis grinned drunkenly. "Don't you want to use a condom?" I asked. Lewis looked serious for a moment. "Oh yes, of course, condoms!" he said. Then he grinned again and leaned forward "Fuck condoms!" he said. I turned round and bent over the shelf at the back of the cubicle and then I felt the head of Lewis's cock pushing its way up my arse. I leaned forward and soon he was right up me. Somehow I hadn't expected Lewis to be such a great fuck. He started slowly, pulling his cock right back and then pushing it right up me and then started to fuck me harder. He was a great fuck - probably the best I had that night and he lasted very well, giving me a really good, long hard fuck. Then he told me to get ready and almost immediately began to shoot what felt like a massive load of cum right up me. Lewis pushed up me a few more times and then pulled his cock out my arse. I went down and took it into my mouth and Lewis grinned again. "Neil told me you were a dirty cunt!" he said. I was very horny again now and I was fairly sure I had one more highly toxic load left in me. However, Lewis's mention of Neil made me think we had better to and find him. I realised we had probably been gone for some time and I had not intended to leave Neil on his own for so long. There was no sign of Neil in the bar but I soon found him in the darkroom. His pants were down and he was kissing a black guy and I realised it was the same guy that Neil had fucked in the Tiergarten the night before. I left them to it and went to get a much needed drink. Lewis came with me and when we returned to the darkroom, Neil was sucking the black guy's cock. I had seen Neil briefly suck the guy's cock the night before so I was not that surprised but I heard Lewis saying "Fuck!" as he watched Neil sucking the black guy. Just then the black guy turned Neil round and he leaned over the rail, his arse in the air, as the black guy pulled his cheeks apart and pushed his tongue up Neil's arse. He licked him for a while and then stood up. He began to rub his cock over Neil's arsehole and then he reached into his pocked and pulled out a small sachet of lube. I watched as the black guy fingered some lube into Neil's arse and then said something to him. Neil nodded and leaned forward over the rail as the black guy began to push his cock up Neil's arse. I head Neil groan and I could almost see him gritting his teeth - I wondered if he would be able to take such a big cock up him but a short time later the guy was fully up him and I was watching Neil being fucked for what I was fairly sure was the first time. The fact that he was taking it without a condom despite being married somehow made it even hornier. Lewis was standing next to me and after a few minutes he pulled his pants and trousers down to his knees. Although he had cum just a short time before, Lewis's cock was fully hard and he began to wank as he watched Neil being fucked. I could see that Neil's cock was hard now and he took hold of it and began to play with it as the black guy began to fuck him harder. Lewis and I moved in closer, both wanking and then Neil saw me. "Lee! Lee, mate!," he gasped "I'm doing it.....I'm doing it........ I'm fucking taking it!" Neil leaned forward and kissed me hard and, as he did so, I could feel him being pushed into me as the black guy thrust harder and harder up his arse. He thrust his cock hard up Neil's arse a few more times before pushing right up him and holding his cock there as he threw his head back. It was clear that he had just pumped a load of cum into Neil's married arse. I can honestly say that I never in a million years thought I would get to see Neil's arsehole gaping open with cum sliding out of it, but as the black guy pulled out, I saw the cum running down the back of his balls. Just then Lewis groaned and shot a load of cum out all over Neil's arse and right down his crack. I was close now too, and I moved forward, intending to shoot my load over Neil's arse. And then I did it. I moved forward, pulled Neil's cheeks apart and pushed my cock right up him. Neil looked over his shoulder as I began to fuck him but he didn't resist or pull away. He bent forward as I fucked him hard and fast until I felt myself getting close and then I pumped what felt like a massive, highly toxic load right into his arse.

Very quick one this afternoon with a mid 30s black guy. He didn't say much when we were arranging the hook up and said even less when he arrived - just pulled his trousers and pants down to his knees so I could suck his cock. He let me suck him for a while and then he pulled me up and bent me over. I was already lubed and he slid up me and began to fuck me. He fucked me slowly at first and then harder and harder until he shot his load up me then stuffed his cock back in his pants and left. It was like he couldn't get out of there fast enough. I'm not complaining - he gave me a good hard fuck and deposited a nice big load of cum in my arse which I've just pushed out into my pants as I'm typing this.

Part 13 - Tops and bottoms 1 As I've said in previous posts, I've noticed over the years that a lot of guys cheat because they're not getting enough sex at home, but I've also found that a lot of guys cheat because their partner is exclusively a top or, more usually, a bottom, and they need a bit of variety. I've always been surprised over the years by how many guys don't seem to realise that if they don't fuck their partner now and then, someone else will! In the mid 90s, I had just turned 30 and I had started to fuck without condoms. One Friday night, I was cruising in a park in Glasgow, which at that time was quite an active cruising ground. I wandered round for a while and then, a little to my surprise, I got cruised by a good looking, dark haired young lad in a polo shirt and trackie bottoms, who looked to be in his early 20s. We cruised each other for a while and then went somewhere quiet. He pulled his pants down and I went down and started to suck his cock, enjoying every minute of sucking this good looking young lad, and after a while we changed places and he went down on me. We sucked each other for a while and then he bent over and I pulled his cheeks apart and began to lick his arse. He was giving little moans as he wanked himself and I could tell he was really into getting his arse licked. After a while he stood up and asked me if I wanted to fuck him. At this time the safe sex message was everywhere, and I was not surprised when he said we had to use a condom. He checked his pockets and then looked at me. "I'm really sorry," he said "I think I've lost my condoms." He asked if I had any and I shook my head. He looked genuinely disappointed and I asked him if he wanted to fuck without a condom. He shook his head and told me he had a partner who worked Friday nights and added that he sometimes went cruising because his partner was a total bottom and he liked to get fucked now and then, but he couldn't put himself or his partner at risk. I said I totally respected that and asked if I could lick his arse again. I sucked his cock for a while and then he bent over and I pushed my tongue back up his hairy arsehole. He was moaning now and then he stood up and said "Fuck it, let's do it!" "Are you sure?" I asked. He nodded and bent over again, pulling his cheeks apart. "Fuck me!" he said I rubbed some lube on his hole , positioned myself behind him and pushed my cock against his hole. He groaned as my cock slid slowly but surely up his tight arse and, after I had given him a moment to get used to it, he bent forward and I began to fuck him. His hole was incredibly tight and this, together with the fact that I was fucking him without a condom when he had genuinely intended to use one, turned me on even further. I began to fuck him harder and he moaned "Oh yes.......oh yes.....oh fuck yes!" He was moaning and wanking himself as I began to fuck him harder and before much longer I was getting close. I wondered if he would ask me to pule out, but he didn't and a few minutes later I was squirting what felt like a really big load right up his cheating arse. When I had finished cumming and pulled out, he straightened up and took hold of his cock. He wanked it a few times as I fingered his arse and then he shot his load out in front of him. He grinned at me. "That was awesome!" he said. "We probably shouldn't have done it, but it was awesome!" He pulled up his pants, kissed me, and then wandered off. I could tell he had really got off on being fucked bareback and I suspected that in future a few more of his secret Friday night trips to the park would result in him going home to his partner with a load up his arse. I've also had a few horny experiences with guys who don't often get to top and one of the horniest was about ten years ago. At that time I had a job which required me to stay up in the West Midlands for a couple of nights once a month. I usually stayed in the centre of Birmingham and one night I was having a drink in a gay bar with a colleague from work when he spotted one of his friends and invited him to join us for a drink. Amir was a very good looking guy who looked to be in his early 30s. He was tall, with dark hair and dark eyes and, I couldn't help noticing, a fantastic arse, which really filled out his smart work trousers. Amir joined us for a drink and I learned he had been good friends with my colleague for a number of years. Amir was really easy to talk to and I enjoyed his company. At one point we were talking about work and my colleague remarked that he had always thought I was very versatile and added "It's always good to be versatile - in more ways than one!" Amir and I both grinned, and a little later my colleague had gone to the toilet before getting more drinks and Amir leaned forward and said "So, are you really versatile?" I asked if he meant in relation to work and he grinned and shook his head. I was quite turned on now as I said "Oh yes, fully versatile!" Amir said he wished his partner was more versatile and told me that his partner was a total top and, as a result, he rarely got to fuck. I was fairly sure I could see Amir's cock starting to harden in his pants as he said "I love to be fucked, but I get really horny to fuck sometimes!" I was very turned on now, but I really didn't think anything was going to come of it as my colleague returned just then with the drinks. We chatted for a bit longer and then my colleague finished his drink and said he'd better be going. Amir said he fancied another drink and, his voice very casual, asked me if I wanted to join him. A short time later Amir and I were having a drink together and our conversation had become a lot more explicit. Amir asked me if I liked to get fucked and told me how much he would love to fuck me. He didn't have much time as he had to get home to his partner, so rather than going back to my hotel, Amir said he knew somewhere we could go if I was up for doing it outside. A short time later, Amir had led me round the back of the bar and down an alleyway. He turned a couple of times and we ended up in a dead end area at the back of some shops with a little concrete area which was obviously used to unload goods. I could see that Amir was fully hard now as he pulled me towards him and kissed me. "I want to fuck you!" he breathed in my ear and we kissed again. I went down and unzipped Amir's trousers, pulling them down to his knees along with his white Calvin Klein pants. His cock was much bigger than I thought and I wasted no time in taking into my mouth and sucking him. He groaned and gently took hold of my head as I sucked his cock. I moved down to lick his big, hairy balls and he groaned again. I sucked his cock again and then motioned to him to turn round. "Are you sure?" he asked and I nodded. Without further hesitation, Amir turned round and bent forward, pulling his trousers and pants right down. I pulled his cheeks apart and he groaned again as I pushed my tongue right into his hairy arsehole. I licked his hole for a while and after a while he turned round and pulled me up. "I need to fuck you!" Amir produced some lube and I took it from him and rubbed some into my arsehole. "Do you want me to use a condom?" he asked me. I didn't want him to use a condom of course, but I have always found that guys get extra horny if they think they're getting to fuck raw with someone who usually plays safe, so I pretended to think about it. "I don't know," I said hesitatingly, "I don't normally ever......" "I'd love to bareback you!" said Amir I pretended to think about it for a moment or two and then I nodded. A short time later, I was bent over the concrete shelf, pants down, as Amir pushed the head of his bare cock against my arsehole. His cock was pretty big and at first he couldn't get it in my, then I leaned forwards and pulled my cheeks apart and he slid slowly but surely right up my arse. "Oh fuck," he gasped "That's so good.....so good!" as he began to fuck me slowly, pushing his big cock right up me and then pulling it right back. He did this for a while and then began to fuck me harder. I was really turned on now - this was turning out to be one of the best fucks I'd had in a long time. Amir was fucking harder now and I could tell he was getting close. He fucked me for a while longer and then groaned "Oh fuck, I'm going to cum in you! I'm going to cum in you!" He thrust his cock right up me a few more times and then slumped over me and I knew he had cum right up my arse. We were both out of breath as we pulled our pants up and Amir grinned at me. "You have no idea how much I needed that!" he said, and added "And thanks for letting me bareback you!" Amir and I arranged to meet up the next time I was in the area and Amir came to my hotel quite a few times over the next few months and we enjoyed some very horny bareback sex. Amir had told me that his partner rarely sucked his cock and never licked his arse and told me how much he loved it when I had done it to him. Every time we met up, I sucked his cock and licked his are and then he fucked me. A few times after he had fucked and cum in me, Amir would kneel up on the bed and I would lick his arse and then lube him up and slide my cock up him for a bareback fuck, depositing a nice load of cum up his hairy arse for him to take home to his unsuspecting partner. A few years before this I had a really unexpected experience with another guy I never thought would cheat. Callum's partner was one of my partner's closest friends and I had known them both for a number of years. I liked Callum a lot, and we had a number of interests in common, although I didn't really like his partner so much. A few times I had heard Callum's partner talking to my partner about his relationship and had said that Callum was a total top and I had also heard him say more than once that he was absolutely confident that Callum would never cheat on him. One summer my partner told me that Callum and his partner had booked a long weekend in Brighton, but Callum's partner was now unable to go. My partner was not free either and apparently Callum had asked him if I wanted to go instead. "He's going to change the double room to a twin." I didn't really know Callum well enough to want to spend a whole weekend with him , but I did like him and, as my partner pointed out, I did need a break and a weekend by the sea would be good for me, so I said yes. Callum and I travelled down to Brighton on the Friday afternoon and checked into our hotel. The first thing I saw when Callum opened the door to our room was a big double bed. Callum looked at me "They didn't have a twin room free," he said "Are you ok with sharing?" I nodded - I was not at all averse to sharing a bed with Callum - he was a few years younger than me, tall, dark and slim and, as I said, I had always enjoyed his company. I would be lying if I didn't also say I had always enjoyed checking out his fit arse, which always filled out his trousers incredibly well. We had planed to go out for something to eat in the evening and Callum said he was going to have a shower before he got ready. I watched him strip down and, as he bent over to pull his pants down, I had a great view of his firm, smooth arse. I knew that Callum had a piercing somewhere on his lower body and it was a standing joke among our group of friends that he always set off the security alarm going through security at the airport and had to be searched. I knew the piercing wasn't on his dick, but I couldn't help wondering where it was, and when Callum came out of the shower and removed his towel, I couldn't help discreetly checking him out. Callum grinned at me and asked me if I was looking for his piercing. I nodded and he grinned gain. "Do you want to see it?" he asked, and I nodded again and Callum sat down on the bed and then laid back and pulled his legs up and I saw that the piercing was on the area between his balls and his arse. "Do you like it?" he asked. I nodded again, "Oh yes!" I said truthfully. Callum had not only shown me his cock and balls, but had also exposed his arse to me and I could see that , although his arse was smooth, his crack was quite hairy. I showered and then we both got ready to go out for something to eat. We found an Italian restaurant and enjoyed a very good meal. After that we went for a drink in one of Brighton's gay bars, sitting outside on the terrace by the sea. It was all very pleasant - it was a warm summer evening and I was already feeling much more relaxed than I had when I left London. Callum was also very relaxed and, when he went to the bar to get drinks, he was clearly flirting with a dark haired guy with spiky hair who was queueing at the bar next to him. I had always thought that Callum's partner was a bit intense and I guessed that Callum was probably quite enjoying being off the leash for the evening. When Callum came back to our table, I could see him exchanging glances with the dark haired guy, who was sitting at a table nearby with a good looking young black guy. A short time later Callum leaned forward and asked me if I might be up for a bit of fun while we were in Brighton. I was surprised but also turned on and I told Callum I would be up for some fun. He told me the guy he had been chatting to at the bar and his partner were both up for it if we were. A short time later they had joined us at our table. The dark haired guy with the spiky hair was called Matthew and his partner was Jayden. Jayden was a really good looking guy, who looked to be in his mid 20s - a few years younger than Matthew. They were good company, and neither of them made any secret of the fact that they were up for some fun and after a few more drinks we all made our way back to our hotel room. It wasn't long before all four of us were naked and having some fun. Callum had paired up with Matthew and I was down sucking on Jayden's big, thick cock. Watching Callum suck Matthew was a real turn on and I had a perfect view of Callum's naked arse as he knelt up on the bed and leaned over to continue sucking Matthew's cock. We kissed, sucked and rimmed each other for a while - at one point Callum was kneeling up on the bed and Matthew had his tongue up Callum's arse as I pushed my tongue right into Jayden's hole. It was all very horny. After a while, Matthew began to rub the head of his cock against Callum's hole. He picked up a condom and said "With or without?" To my surprise, Callum said "Without!," and a few seconds later, Matthew fingered some lube into Callum's arse and then pushed his bare cock slowly right up him! I had assumed that Callum would want to use condoms, especially as it was him who had produced them, but he seemed perfectly happy to take Matthew up his arse without one. Jayden was now kneeling on the bed next to Callum, and I wasted no time in pushing my bare cock right up his tight arsehole. I was really turned on, enjoying every minute of fucking Jayden and also enjoying watching Matthew fucking Callum bareback. We fucked for a while longer and I could feel myself getting close. Just at that moment I heard Matthew ask Callum "Do you want it?" and guessed that he too was getting close. Callum said "Fuck yes!" and a short time later I shot my load into Jayden at exactly the same time as Matthew bred Callum. I didn't think things could get any hornier, but a few minutes later, Callum laid on his back and raised his legs and I watched as Matthew guided Jayden's big cock into Callum's arse. Jayden fucked Callum hard and fast and after a while shot a second load into his cheating arse. When Matthew and Jayden had left, Callum asked me if I was ok with what we had done and I assured him I was fine with it and had enjoyed every minute of it. A short time later we both got into bed and when I woke up the following morning, I was lying against Callum with my cock in his arse crack - it was very pleasant! A little later we both showered and then went down to breakfast. When we got back to our room we started to talk about the events of the night before and Callum told me he was mostly faithful to his partner, but sometimes he got bored with always being a top and when he got the chance, he would take the opportunity to get fucked. He said he knew he should take precautions, but said it turned him on so much to take it bareback and let guys cum in his arse. He also told me that he had not tried to get the hotel to change the room to a twin as he was hoping that I would fuck him. A short time later, Callum was kneeling up on the bed again and my bare cock was pushing up the arse I had admired for so long. I fucked him from behind for a while, and then he moved on to his back and raised his legs, telling me to fuck him and breed him. I had never thought anything like this would happen with Callum, but I was certainly not complaining - and I did exactly what he asked me to - shooting a good big load right into his unprotected arse. That evening, we went back to the same bar and later on we went to a club with a very active darkroom where both Callum and I had a very horny time! I was really turned on watching Callum take it up the arse in the darkroom - he was certainly making the most of being away from his partner and, in the course of the evening I saw him being fucked by several different guys - and few, if any of them appeared to be using condoms. At one point, he was leaning against the wall of the darkroom, his pants at his ankles, as three different guys took turns fucking him bareback and I was fairly sure at least two of them had cum in him. The next morning I fucked Callum again and then it was time to travel back to London. Our partners met us at the station and, as I watched Callum and his partner walking ahead of us out of the station, I wondered what his partner would say if he knew that Callum had been fucked and loaded by several different guys over the course of the weekend - including me! Part 14 to follow

Had a great time after work today - with a 23 year old black guy I've chatted to a few times on Daddyhunt. He wanted to meet up but said he would only fuck me with a condom. He was a really nice looking guy with a big, long, thick cock and I was feeling really horny, so I said yes to the condom fuck. He turned up a bit later and he was clearly horny - his cock was out and in my mouth almost as soon as he got in the door. I sucked his cock for a while and then asked him if I could lick his arse. He nodded and turned round, offering his arse. I pushed my tongue right up him and licked his hole for a while and then sucked him again until he said he was getting close and pulled out my mouth. He was ready to fuck now and must have changed his mind about the condom, as he slid his dick up me and fucked me bareback. I haven't had a cock that big up me for a while and I enjoyed every minute of the fuck. He didn't last that long, and after about then or twelve thrusts, he shot his load up my arse. When he pulled out, I took his cock in my mouth again and he stayed hard. He asked me to lick his arse again and a short time later to my surpriser he asked me to fuck him. Once again, no condom - I slid up him and fucked him - he was very tight and I was very horny, but I lasted longer than I thought I would before pushing right up him and breeding his tight arse. Not what I expected at all - but the horniest experience I've had for some time!

OMG - that is one beautiful arse and I’d so love to fuck it! Is it yours or your husband’s?