Hey Mikey8780,
I have to agree, that you are being a bitch, but that is okay since most gay men are. In all honesty though, I understand where you are at, however if you keep leading guys on, then they get frustrated and this is the reason most gay men are get angered and jaded. As for me, I did not have the opportunity to be choosy since I was first used at the age of 5. By the time I was 11, I was visiting the local park, where guys who were ages 18 to 90 would use me.
The only advice that I can give to you is be careful, do not lead guys on, just tell them your fears. Yes, fantasy is nice but if you lead a guy to believe that you are honestly going to meet, then this is when the trouble begins. Please, be safe and honest. Though I have only used a condom 4 times in my life, I had never contracted any disease or virus. Until up to August 2014 when a guy that I had been chatting with told me he was negative and his profiles all said negative. I trusted this man, as I trusted all men. As he was leaving the next day, he said "By the way, I am poz. My partner gave it to me, why not share the gift." Well, that was the first time this happened and 5 months later, I was infected and confirmed, then in December, introduced to the first drug of my life. I never even had marijuana due to a THC allergy, and the drug they gave me was meth through a booty bump. Never told me they were going to do it, just put it in the lube. Now, to this day, though I do have sex and I do party, it is on my own terms. I do not trust guys and I choose to do what I want. I am honest with them however and tell the guy or guys exactly what I am looking for.
Just remember, be honest and be up front.