Hi all,
Hope im posting in the right place and hope this all makes sense. My bf and I have been together for 11 years. We recently started playing together and I was nervous at first about seeing him with someone else. To my delight, not only did it turn me on, but it fulfilled things inside me that i've never experienced before. We of course are extremely dedicated barebackers, he took this guys cum raw, no questions asked. What happened after that though was, (considering I took a ton of pictures of this) that all i did was jack off to thoughts of him with other men. And not just sexually. My mind was drawn to him not only having more and more men put their DNA inside me, which to me almost meant that my cum dominated his inside less and that he almost "belonged" to more men than me, but also wanting to see him lust for other men. I know for some its just about sex, but for me, i wanted to see feelings develop, see things get messy emotionally, see him obsessed with loving on another man in front of me. The same goes for me taking other mens cum in front of him. I wanted it to be so much more than sex, i wanted it to be a full embrace of any feelings at that moment, no matter how silly it would seem to develop feelings for someone using you, but I just want it. I wanted to feel jealousy and lust, and feel his fire for not only being a sexual slut but an emotional slut as well. Hopefully im explaining this to point you'll understand. At this point, while I never want him to deny himself anyone, or that I would deny MYSELF anyone, I almost lust for us to play with couples. I want to see him and some other boy's boyfriend falling for each other in absolute ecstasy while I do the same with the other half. Just to be clear, its really the only thing I can fantasize about anymore. Him giving in sexually and emotionally to anyone, and myself doing the same. And yes, its always bareback and our promise to each other is thats its ALWAYS no questions asked bareback
Has anyone else ever experienced this? Or am I totally and utterly on a limb here by myself?