Sex began for me with women. It was raw sex from my first time. I’ve maybe had sex with close to 200 women in my life; perhaps only 20 of them I ever used a condom.
When I first began playing with men, it was at an ABS. First guy I fucked, I slid inside him raw. Felt like nothing I’d ever experienced. I came so hard when topping bareback. These days I am a bottom, but one of the last guys I ever topped, was this guy with full blown AIDS.
The night I decided to get fucked, was some random guy off of Aol. He began with a condom, but his cock felt so incredible, something in my thinking told me I needed him inside me raw. Condom came off.
The cocks that went inside me from then on were always bareback. Though I always tried to make sure they didn’t cum inside me, a couple of them did.
August of 2005 I actively began going after poz tops. That first time when that raw cock was inside me and I knew he was poz, turned me in so much. I wanted every drop of cum he could fill me up with. I got excited and told him as much. I guess he didn’t know I was neg and wasn’t hip to poz me.
From that night since I’ve only been fucked by less than 20 guys, and 19 of them were bareback. Most were poz. Still haven’t knowingly taken a poz load. But I could never stop bareback sex. It’s the only way. I haven’t been fucked by a guy since January 2010. In those years I’ve barebacked 20-25 girls. None of them asked for condoms.
A condom is always the responsible choice, but I guess I’m just not that fucking responsible.