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  1. Has anyone been? Is it worth visiting on a weekend for an out-of-towner? The memberships are expensive and the no sexual activity in the public areas is a turn-off, but if there's a decent number of hot daddy breeders I'd put up with that.
  2. this seems like a clip that meets that description: [think before following links] https://www.mansurfer.com/video/212305/rabbit-hole
  3. [think before following links] https://www.nakedsword.com/movies/297438/gangbang-lottery/scene/1 Raw Fuck Club Gangbang Lottery is giving TIM a run for their money - it's available on a few other sites too if you google (e.g. [think before following links] https://ww1.pornhoarder.tv/video/rfc-gangbang-lottery-part-1-mp4/MnpxSGFQb3Z6SEZqeVJyYnZCbUNZU0NxY00ramRDLzBCMDQ1WU1IZEh5ND0=) i love that we've reached the point where bottoming like this, on camera, is considered a reward akin to winning the lottery, rather than something that 10-20 years ago would (I think?) have been considered way more degrading than vanilla porn, or even group scenes where the bottoms seemed more human and less sphincterlike. (To be clear, I find this hot, not a criticism. Just kinda intense that even more slick studio porn looks like this?)
  4. perfection. the best thing about a throat is that it’s always ready. the hardest part for you will be finding cocksuckers who can actually take that kind of throatfucking because unlike taking it up the ass, it never really gets easier and the muscles don’t adapt. it will never give a bottom physical pleasure, just the psychological thrill of submission - this greatly reduces the pool of sluts willing to put out like that. luckily there are some of us who love cock more than anything and are horny/stupid enough to offer ourselves for this type of abuse. all i ask is that you keep me poppered up enough to ensure my soft tissue remains wet, silky and relaxed enough to be your toy for a session long enough that i’ll sound raspy for days afterward.
  5. No. I am 4.5" hard. These days I wouldn't bottom for anyone under 6" - I have in the past with hookups where I didn't know his size before I picked him up at a bar and brought him home. I find anything under 4-5" unappealing and frankly unworthy of my attentions.
  6. i’ve been posting for a while but never properly introduced myself. 34 year old canadian faggot here, but have lived in Texas, California and South Korea too. over time my sexual/social identity and desires have shifted from a more mainstream gay man to strongly understanding raunchier sex as a core part of who i am. for the first 5 years i was sexually active, i somehow managed to always use condoms despite being fucked by hundreds of anonymous men outdoors, at saunas and even in bedrooms. i guess it was a different time (2007-2012) and montreal tops were gentlemen. then i moved to seoul and was lulled into a false sense of security by the fact that immigration visas for foreigners required an annual negative hiv test. i spent most weekends riding american soldiers and south african esl teachers bareback in dark filthy bathhouses and had a blast. tested positive at 24 and had to leave the country. i moved back home, started meds and grad school and within 2 months was undetectable at a time when prep was still not widely available. my already slutty tendencies went to turbo mode. i was usually the only bareback bottom under 45 at cum union events and was in pig heaven - finally free to be bred nonstop by the biggest nastiest poz daddies until cum was running down my legs. it felt wrong but oh so right. as was bound to happen eventually to a powerbottom spending a lot of time hanging around with dom dads who saw me as Hole first, person second, t and g came into the picture even though i was already piggy enough on poppers. this has opened a lot of doors and really transformed my sex life in ways i’m still figuring out. i feel very comfortable when there are fairly strict roles and expectations for sex - this allows me to relax and enjoy without performance anxiety or insecurity about how i “should” look, act or feel. in my partybottom era i’m having similar sex as before just more of it, for way longer and with less hesitation about pursuing more extreme fantasies. i love BZ for a few reasons: - full of smoking hot older pigs - the erotic stories - thoughtful discussions about porn, chems, bodies, why we want the sex we want, how to up your bottoming game and maximize loads, etc you guys are my people. most of my gay friends are boring and sexless. i want to be around other pigs who are pushing the limits of what sex can be. there’s something special and maybe even sacred that i experience being with men who love that i’m proudly poz, a pussyboi and a pass around party bottom. it’s definitely not for everyone but it’s perfect for me. i’m hoping to start travelling more for sex holidays generally and to meet chemtops for long sessions in other cities. the idea of driving 5 hours or hopping on a flight to be a stranger’s sex slave for a long weekend or take dick in a sleazy motel turns me on a lot. meanwhile i’m working my day job and still sleeping with a mix of local rough dads and cheating husbands. ask me anything!
  7. so i don’t love the term bbc because it’s a bit dehumanizing although i completely respect anyone using it for marketing purposes to reel in those size queens. (for the record i also dislike bwc but mainly for being corny and just seeming slightly off). i’m into all confident/dominant and physically large (in every way) masculine men which generally skews black, arab, latino and white in descending order for a variety of genetic and cultural reasons. i like guys who are tall, strong and hung - those are just more frequently occurring traits in some racial/ethnic backgrounds than others. when i say “cultural” i mean that in my experience men from certain backgrounds and life experiences are much more likely to seek out male on make sex as tops, either because they never felt the desire or freedom to explore a more submissive side of themselves or because the sub bottoms just arent as visible and are being more discreet. it’s a bit of a cliche but in my travels to more conservative countries in europe and latin america there were simply tons more straight or non-gay identified men who wanted to fuck me and weren’t worried at all about being perceived as homosexual. wonderful for me! for some black men raised in the caribbean or in conservative/religious families the same seems to hold true at home in the US and canada. the long winded preamble is simply to say i don’t feel great about how “bbc” erases black bottoms or the not insignificant (definitely relatively less common in comparison to white/asian guys) number of african american, caribbean and african men who have average sized penises. you’re valid! i’ve also had some shocking experiences at bathhouses where older white guys will point at a black guy and loudly tell me i should go have some chocolate. like damn, maybe i wanted to but now you made it fucking weird and objectifying! with that out of the way, i am an incurable size queen and i’ve deeply internalized that pleasing men, even when it’s physically tiring, uncomfortable or even painful (within reason), is very important if i want to continue being blessed with large quantities of good dick and good sex. i have always gotten along well with black guys looking for hookups partly because the bar is so low: they’re sick of bottoms over promising and under delivering, and i finish what i started (even if i start to panic when the 11th inch is pushing its way in and there’s still more). black guys are far less likely to care that i have a small dick and often don’t get hard during sex (even before i started partying). i also find that on average they tend to be able to and want to fuck longer and appreciate bottoms with stamina. they just seem to know by looking at me that there’s a 0% chance of me wanting to flipfuck, too or have a gag reflex. finally, i don’t seem to have the hang ups about interracial public sex that some guys do so i never seem to have much competition (which still surprises me). every time I visit LA and new york i always end up meeting incredibly sexy black tops, with no bs or pretence. to answer the question, yes my cunt has been stretched wide and deep by some truly insane bbc. yes i’ve flown to nyc to spend the entire weekend getting pounded in harlem. yes i’ve been the only white guy in a bathhouse (in both dt la and brazil) and yes the mutual understanding that every single man there would be using me at his leisure was instant and wordless. yes i do get a bit of a thrill when i’m taking black dick in front of an audience, especially white men my fathers age with penises that simply don’t compare to 8, 9, 10, 11. there’s something hot about going where a lot of bottoms fear to tread: older bbc, extremely thick cocks impossible to fully swallow, young bbc, spit roasting, married/discreet fathers cheating, homophobic men, drug dealers and men packing heat, guys who got rougher than they should have … black lawyers and professors too who selfishly still very much enjoy having me snort lines off their monstercocks because they know it’s a sure fire way to get my pussy relaxed for 2-3 extra hours. i’ve experienced ecstasy that made me question whether the part of my life that didn’t involve having my prostate battered repeatedly was even worth living compared to the pleasure cocks 3x my girth and 2-4x my length can give a truly broken in white pussyboy like me.
  8. i sucked my first cock at 18 shortly before graduating high school (a 21 year old). a few months later i got fucked by a 27 year old teaching assistant at university. both were BIG men who did not know it was my first time and gave it to me pretty hard. without any discussion before, during or after, i naturally gravitated toward a submissive bottom role and reciprocation was not even considered. i wasn't expecting sex to be so physically demanding but i immediately knew on some level that i'd found my place and had better get comfortable in it. the rest of the year did not go as smoothly. instead of embracing my instinctive attraction to older, dominant, masculine tops who sensed our compatibility, i kept going home from the bars with guys my own age who lacked the equipment and assertiveness to make anything sexual happen between us. I felt guilty about being more attracted to men who weren't out as gay for political reasons and was generally confused about who to be friends with and who to fuck, not having any experiences with gay people. I did manage to get fucked twice by guys who were handsome but clearly more vers-bottom oriented so there weren't fireworks. by the end of the year, my new best friend, a tall 23 year old musclejock who seemed (to me) too masculine to possibly be completely uninterested in topping, finally succeeded in convincing me that it wouldn't work out between two total bottoms and to let him be my wingman instead. i turned 19 and returned to my suburban hometown where i'd be commuting one hour into the city for an undemanding job at my uncle's office filling in for a receptionist on maternity leave. i was expecting the summer to be a dud but decided to take my friend up on his suggestion to check out the nude beach, the adult movie theatre and the personals on squirt and craigslist. My body count went from 4 to "lost track" within my first week on the job, I kid you not. Every day for 4 months I spent my hourlong lunch break on my hands and knees on the dirty floor of a $6 porn theatre sucking off every dick i could get my hands on, a nice mix of 30-60 year old guys of all racial backgrounds looking to unload before heading back to work. Some were in suits, some in scrubs, some in UPS uniforms, construction vests. If they had hair on their chest and a thick slab of meat I'd be bobbing in no time in front of the whole theatre. I realized there was nothing stopping me from moving on to the next cock even if the first guy had cum and gone, and nothing stopping strangers from playing with my tits and sliding their cock into my ass from behind while i was being held down on a stranger's dick and couldn't turn around to look at who was joining in. I was introduced to poppers and what they allowed me to do for the daddies. i quickly got over my shyness about age differences, public and group sex and being called "daddy's pussyboy" by men who were evenly divided between those who never touched my limp leaking dick at all and those who got off on our size contrast even when they stroked me to full 4" erection. many in both camps had wedding rings on. i started wearing red or black Calvin Klein thongs and hanging out in the "bi/straight" theatre instead of the one showing gay porn and realized i had even better luck there. the only days i didn't punch in for my shift as the financial district's resident shameless twink lunch hour bottom were when i called in sick to suck cock at the nude beach instead. i must have averaged 3 or 4 men every weekday for 4 months plus the occasional craigslist hookup or roadhead on the weekend which works out to 300-400 blowjobs in a summer. i probably only got penetrated about 50 times because there wasn't enough time to take any more. needless to say, my second year of college was very different than the first. i still went to bars and clubs with my friends but would slip away before last call to the local leather bar where i was usually the youngest person by a mile and men would pick me up by putting my hand down their pants or fingering me on the dancefloor. no ambiguity. i was usually blowing them before the taxi even got us home. if they fell asleep after fucking me i'd slip out and head to the bathhouse to get a $5 student discounted locker and station myself in a dark room in time for the 3am rush. if my hookup had taken viagra, i wouldn't be released from cocksucking duty until much later but it was still impossible to resist stopping by the bathhouse on my way home just to see who was around. By 5 or 6am the better looking guys were few and far between but there was never a shortage of hard dicks and nasty daddies very surprised and happy to see me pop up out of nowhere and start feeling them up under their towel. Sunday afternoons were also great sauna days, there's nothing better for a hangover than getting spitroasted in a steamroom. Weekdays after work were also prime time for commuter daddies cheating on their way to the train station. All that to say, things escalated quickly. It was 4 and suddenly it was more than 50 and suddenly it was a shockingly high ballpark estimate that I knew I should keep to myself in polite company. I've never been much of a counter - most nights at the sauna the dicks would sometimes blend together if I never got a good look at their face to begin with, and it might have been 4 guys or possibly 7, with usually about half of them fucking my ass. I've slowed down lately but I've probably averaged sex with at least 2 or 3 different men per week over the last 15 years. That puts me around 2500-2750 overall, although I have a lot more repeat customers these days which is fine by me!
  9. i only touched on one aspect of the question: the physical initiation into a more intense kind of bottoming than average. psychologically i have embraced the desire i’ve always had to be at the opposite end of the spectrum from a versatile flipfuck between men who see each other as equals. for me it took some time to own that role without shame or hesitation about expressing what i want even though it narrows the pool of men significantly. i respect that for the majority of guys a total bottom with a smooth body and small, decorative penis is not their first pick, but those who like it like it a lot, especially when it goes hand in hand with an almost limitless need to please. for me it’s almost a contract - if i want to be with a highly desirable male with superior breeding equipment and skills, my end of the bargain is outcompeting the mass of bottoms and women to keep him coming back by giving him the kind of fuck only a needy man could give another man. no strings, no compromises, no labels, no talking. when we rut i’m communicating that i recognize he is part of a sexual elite and that i’m powerless to deny him whatever he wants to do. when i bottom it reinforces that all the arbitrary rules about sex and social status are meaningless: money, politics, age and background are distractions from raw lust. i’m rejecting the hetero imperative to be spread my seed and carry on tradition as well as proper gay respectability - instead i’m letting men my fathers age dominate me for sport, maybe for hours, outdoors or on film. it’s about becoming a different kind of man no longer designed for procreative, penetrative sexuality and instantly recognizable as available and non threatening to the top’s identity as a man, regardless of whether he may live other parts of his life as a conventional father or husband.
  10. lucky boy - it would be a dream come true for a bunch of guys like that to see me in action, especially servicing an older hung man in an unmistakably submissive position
  11. was the reaction always positive to the cage? i find it can be mixed. a lot of gay tops/vers tops are not interested and make it clear they want to fuck around with a bottom who has a decent size cock to play with, not a useless nub in a cage. even bi/dl guys can sometimes be unnerved by it if they’re not very experienced or kinky (the same guys wouldn’t bat an eye if i had a thong or jock on and would still have little interest in my dick) you can’t please everyone all the time but for me the goal is to attract tops and keep the focus on my hole rather than my dick, which doesn’t consistently get or stay hard during long play. the cage can be too polarizing - jock is safest way to make the maximum number of guys comfortable approaching me and playing with my hole
  12. Not really, no. I like deepthroating at a more relaxed pace that doesn't result in injury to my throat or puke (disgusting to both of us).
  13. Brazil. there's sexual energy in the air. gorgeous men. openly gay bars, clubs and spaces are everywhere, even in smaller more conservative cities. everyone is hung. there's also a lot of straight guys unafraid of using a foreign bottom because they're not concerned it will make them gay. i never had any trouble whatsoever getting bred constantly in the most random locations. nobody ever said "sorry, i'm bottom"
  14. My first few cocks were pretty big for a beginner (7-8", thick) mostly by accident so I didn't even realize it didn't have to hurt that much. I bled afterward but I was determined to be a good bottom and I wanted it so bad I powered through and kept coming back for more. I don't even think it got to the point a few minutes in where my muscle was relaxed enough for it to feel good. That came maybe after the 8th or 10th time when after a minute of pain it would transform to a pleasurable feeling of fullness and being owned by another dude's thick dick. I don't remember exactly when, maybe after a year of being a slut (eventually as a size queen by choice rather than by chance once I'd gotten used to big boys) it didn't even hurt at the beginning because my muscle was so flexible (not loose necessarily since I tightened up right afterwards, but capable of a good stretch). Sometimes I miss that moment when you take a slightly bigger dick or rougher fuck and it hurts unexpectedly but then you both feel it when your hole relaxes completely and your hole stops fighting. But mostly I love being able to take pretty much anything with lube and poppers. Maybe it's a bit of genetic luck but I do think it can be achieved through practice. However, for me deep throat is the truly submissive act that mentally is SO HOT but physically is always a bit uncomfortable even when you've gotten the hang of it. Anal sex resembles breeding/procreation but basically training yourself to let an oversize penis cut off your supply of oxygen for no evolutionary reason but dominance is just pure powertrip. which is why i always keep working on those deepthroat skills since a gag reflex has a habit of appearing just when you thought yours had gone extinct.
  15. I love that you jumped at the opportunity to potentially get the alpha's cock later in the day and were willing to sacrifice a day of work for the chance at having your hole used by him at his convenience. i love that he knew you wanted him so much you'd prioritize serving men and appealing to his turn-ons over your own needs. He must feel so cocky knowing you care more about getting fucked than holding down a job. That's dick well earned and hierarchy reinforced beautifully with everyone satisfied. Do what less committed bottoms won't and you'll get that top shelf dick! Bravo!
  16. Not something I've ever kept track of but I admire the recordkeeping. During my "student discount years" (18-25) I probably got an average of 20 cocks a week at the bathhouse. At around 22 some of those started to be bareback. By 25 I had ditched condoms altogether but was starting to move slowly away from maximum load count after the novelty of having nut running down my legs after a night in the sling wore off. Today I'm happy to be bred, but equally happy to suck for 8 hours and still get no nut (it meant I got to keep going!). And have a few precious fuckbuds who slide in and stay in all night - sometimes it's hard to tell whether a round of cockspasms was depositing piss or cum in the sewer. I guess the number for 2023 is relatively low by the standards of my youth but high enough that I'd divide it by 5 if I was telling my doctor about the last 5 months.
  17. My doctor suggested a "decolonization" protocol which consisted of a topical antibiotic cream applied 3x a day for a week with a Q-tip in each nostril and taking either bleach baths (1/4 cup added to the water) or using chlorhexidine body wash for a week, while also on 2 antibiotics. This seems to have worked. I still use the body wash or take the occasional bleach bath if I've spent the better part of a weekend kneeling on a dirty floor or sauna ;)
  18. I got MRSA in December and ended up with an abscess that grew from nothing to massive in just 3 days to the point that it had to be lanced, drained and resulted in a 2.5cm deep wound that took 2 months of 3x weekly nursing care to heal. I thought I was out of the woods, but then got infected abscesses on my finger, wrist, knee and again on my buttock. Results from MRSA decolonization protocol (bleach bath/chlorhexidine, Mucidin in the nostrils and yet another round of Septra) seem to be positive but I'm nervous this will recur since I have no idea where I got it in the first place. Please take any swelling seriously even if it seems like just an ingrown hair and get treatment immediately if it worsens rapidly. It's hard to be a slut and a germophobe but I'm trying to adopt better habits like always wearing flipflops in gyms/saunas, washing towels and bedsheets much more frequently and washing hands more often during play.
  19. Gay is an identity and world view I developed over time through friendships, shared social spaces and cultural references with other queer men and women. Most of my friends are gay, out to everyone in their lives and seeking romantic partnerships with someone of the same sex. I am also a total bottom and generally seek out dominant, masculine tops for sex (or they seek me out). This is not a scientific survey since I don't know anything about the anonymous guys, but I'd estimate that about 1/3 are publicly living as straight men. They're not exactly closeted or ashamed of having sex with other men, it's just that they are more comfortable in a hetero social world because of their personality, interests and demeanor. They may or may not have female partners but they're not really interested in dating a man and they only top. Another third are formerly straight and now bi-identified but mostly having gay sex because they're pigs and it's more convenient. (Crystal may have played in a part in their rapid transformation.) Luckily for me most of them still top most of the time. The final third are gay men who are top or vers-top and usually more macho than the average gay man and more comfortable around the straight/bi MSM crowd, but still identifiable as gay when they open thier mouths. I don't think this is a typical breakdown for everyone as it depends on your type and where you live. When I lived in a big city and didn't party, it was 100% gay men. When I began partying and having group sex I started meeting more genuinely straight and bi guys who were horny bastards and openminded to what sex with men could provide. When I moved to a more rural area, I met even more men who had no interest in living a gay life but who were very much interested in pounding the fuck out of my hole. I have to say it was refreshing and I'm having some of the best sex of my life. They don't care that I'm gay, half the time bathhouse hookups ask if I'm married (to a woman), but they do care that I'm a faggot cocksucker who will do filthy things that would make even the town whore blush.
  20. Joaquin Santana Dillon Roman Bastian Karim John Thomas Oscar Marin These are my inspirations as a bottom. Generally into any handsome (not too pretty), petite bottoms taking XXL cocks and older men without complaint and moaning. So many of the gangbang bottoms are actually not very good looking and I always find it hard to believe studios couldn't find cuter guys wanting to take a bunch of raw cock - this is every true bottom's fantasy (to the point of cliche). Most bottoms I know would pay to be in porn!
  21. Canadian and live close to buffalo on this side of the border. Planning a weekend trip to be a partybottom in a motel/hotel/bathhouse or private home. Any suggestions?
  22. This makes me feel better that I am not the only one with an abscess. Mine was on the outside of my buttock, not the inside of the rectum/anus. Out of nowhere, I developed what I thought was a pimple or ingrown hair that became red, swollen and painful to sit on. Within 48 hours it was massive and I had to go to the ER to have it incised and the pus drained. The wound was so deep that I had to have daily or 3x weekly nursing appointments to change the packing and bandages for over a month afterward. While it's impossible to say where it came from (likely a tiny scratch in the skin that allowed a bacterial infection to begin) I believe that in my case it was likely made worse by meth use weakening my immune system and the health of my skin. I completely agree with the above post - I was hesitant to seek treatment for the abscess because I didn't think it was a big deal or might go away on its own, but you MUST go and have it examined. MRSA (drug resistant infections) are increasingly common in the buttock region and among gay men and drug users.
  23. Oh, and have no sexual experiences with my dad who is a handsome twunk kind of guy even at 60 but not my type. We're both pretty hairless, no beards, slim, 5" cocks - yes I've seen it skinnydipping and around the house. I prefer guys with at least 2" more than me in the cock department and the kind of body you get from having way higher testosterone than Dad and I: thick, beefy, bald and hairy. I love daddies, but I don't want to have sex with my own - just someone else's. Part of what I love about age and size difference is that for me it smooths the way for a sub/dom dynamic to naturally emerge. I *want* my partner to be a bit disrespectful during sex and use my size fetish to his advantage. I don't fantasize about my real dad treating me like a sex object - that's something I think men are fine with doing to someone else's boy but should feel a protective instinct toward their own. More distant relatives on the other hand are welcome to use me like a cheap whore. Mom's brother and his sons are hirsute linebacker types. My cousins are in their early 20s but you'd never know I'm ten years older since they look like men while I'm still boyish with the cock to match. My uncle once bragged about his sons not having anything to worry about in terms of penis size. I suspect that side of the family have the kind of cocks I can't help but put on a pedestal and beg for... If so, I'd love to spend a few hours between their legs confirming I'm not just gay as they already know but a cocksucking fag happiest in a hierarchical relation to men who physically and behaviourally embody an ideal that I want to get closer to and worship even if it means being seen as a hole from now on,
  24. I don't have any brothers and do not see my 2 uncles often. They are both hot and I have memories of trying to catch them coming out of the shower as a kid when everyone was at grandparents' house for holidays. I think the fact that my close family was mostly women kept me from having much of the exposure to men, masculinity and that locker room energy I would have gotten with brothers, cousins and elders around. I was never very athletic or particularly comfortable around jocks and macho types as I wanted to be used by them not be one of them. Now I'm compensating by actively pursuing sex and bonding with effortless virile and confident jock cousin types and predatory uncle types.
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