HIV ?

[Guest ff-whole]

Last week Monday I had my check-up for all kinds of things with blood test and urine test...

And this morning I called the doctor's office. Normally when all is fine they'd tell me on the phone but this time I was asked to come in tomorrow morning. So something must be amiss...

It doesn't have to be HIV+ but I know I had some dicey loads. Never had the fuck-flu but that could be accredited to the fact that I take Cannabis Oil which is known to suppress the HIV symptoms.

So now I have to be patience and wait until the doc explains what's wrong... Don't really look forward of having become HIV+ but I know it could have only be a matter of time... No PREP available so if the shit has hit the fan, I gotta live with it. Maybe time to go to Berlin and go pig out. 

[Guest GoodExercise]

Go to Berlin and pig out regardless of what the doctor tells you tomorrow.

[Guest ff-whole]

Maybe , but if I am still negative - I'll try to get Prep. I'm not a chaser.

I have bad mental health and probably part of my dangerous sexual behavior. That is also the reason that I take Cannabis Oil... it gives some relief.
But going to Gay saunas and give up my ass for gangbangs is giving me a lot of positive relief as well... 
If I turn up HIV+ I think I know the person that gave it to me.

He was always a strict "safe" top but lately he was changed and wanted to fill me up bare... I suspected he turned HIV+ but when I hinted towards it, he denied it explicitly.
I don't blame him because it was my choice to take the load...

I have been unsafe with taking gangbang unknown loads in Gay saunas before and stayed negative, but I know/knew I'd would run out of luck one day... Maybe that day has come. And to tell you the truth; I can't believe how calm I am.

I'll keep you all posted...

[hungry_hole]

1 hour ago, ff-whole said:

And to tell you the truth; I can't believe how calm I am.

You may have some weird dreams tonight. I once had a scare and had to go get my results and I had some rel weird dreams that night. Just like you I'm not interested in pozing and wanna avoid HIV.

1 hour ago, ff-whole said:

I don't blame him because it was my choice to take the load...

Totally your choice to take his load and if you poz you can only blame yourself, even if you were stealthed.

Edited May 29, 2017 by hungry_hole

[analluv27]

But if the test turn to be negative here's a chance to take some control back and over in your life, unfortunately prep wasn't even thought of when I converted not that excuses my risky behaviour 

[Guest ff-whole]

Well it seems I dodged the bullet AGAIN...

Everything was fine only cholesterol was kinda high, but I am not worried about that...

No weird dreams last night and even this morning I was horny as hell so I had to jack-off with some hot  gay porn. Like I said I take Cannabis Oil for my mental health and that does the trick. Maybe it is true that Cannabis Oil could be a cure for HIV. It sure is known to relieve a lot of symptoms... The doctor is one of those religious female family doctors with 'morals' that don't go with our kind of lives... Can't really discuss these kind of things.

What I didn't mention was that my last load was with a lot of blood from the top... one way or other he cut his dick [intentionally ?] and was bleeding but when he came I told him to just fill me up. Not really responsible but I needed the cum in my ass badly.

Nevertheless, I am still very much negative so now I have to figure out a way to get Prep. Probably have to try to get it online from the States. Expensive I gather. Condoms are not an option. And loads of cum a bare necessity... Pun intended.

Thanks for all the interest...

[Guest GoodExercise]

Pity.  I was hoping that you would leave the MD office with classic red file folder in your hands and stunned look on your face -- the classic signs of newly infected boys that I see parading out of the clinic here on results days.  Half of them just ditch the folder and head straight to the bathhouse once they get their bearing. 

[analluv27]

Perhaps a change in doctors is in order? A doctor that doesn't agree with your lifestyle could be problematic if a health issue comes up

[Guest ff-whole]

2 hours ago, analluv27 said:

Perhaps a change in doctors is in order? A doctor that doesn't agree with your lifestyle could be problematic if a health issue comes up

Yes I agree with you, however I live on a small Island and we don't have that many doctors.
Anyway, for now I put her out of balance somewhat...

You know how gay people [well also straight people I hope] have to show proof of their Negative status...
So she asked me if I wanted a copy of the results... because it was a very large blood and urine test also for other kind of ailments, I explained that most of the results wouldn't mean anything to me.... if she was sure that everything was Okay, then I'd trust her over that...

Barebackers don't explain and most probably never have to show proof of their status. He wouldn't fuck with condom so top or bottom are probably in consent... The TOP unloads either oral or anal his load right into the BOTTOMs' body.
So I am sure I'm not going to have proof myself that on May 30th 2017, I am still Negative.

[hungry_hole]

On 2017-05-30 at 5:07 PM, ff-whole said:

Well it seems I dodged the bullet AGAIN...

How relieved you must be. Yours is an example of a slutty bottom who is not chaser, a bottom who enjoys being bred but who does not want to poz.