COVID Guilt?

[BlackDude]

Now I have to say I have cut way back on hooking up since this entire thing started. But after weeks (prob months) of good behavior, I seen one of my favorites online and couldn’t resist. Now normally this guy does it for me:l right away: great furry body, dark hair, half German and Portuguese nerd. Huge cock, but a total bottom. He gotten a little older but still hot.

However, on the way over to his place I started thinking about Covid for some reason. It’s really bad where I am, and I started wondering if it was worse the risk, up to the point I considered flaking!

 
Not enough to stop me, as I still went over. But it was bothering me that this was bothering me. Even when I was over there hooking up it was in the back of my mind I was taking a big risk. Usually it only takes me five or 10 minutes to dump a load in this guy, but I was over there for over 30 minutes. It really fucked me up mentally.

 

Has happened to anyone else? I mean, it’s days later and I’m still kinda a little freaked out about COVID for some reason. I know I should be, But like I said I’ve hooked up a few times before and I knew the risk but it really didn’t bother me as much as it has this time.

[LetsPOZBreed]

I've only hooked up once since last March.  It was during a relatively calm period of infection rates in the UK, but I still had that anxiety as well.  Found it troublesome to get hard for him (I eventually did), as my mind seemed to be playing through the "what if" scenarios again.  My worry is more that I don't know how my body would react to contracting COVID.  I could range from totally asymptomatic to being on a ventilator.  After that one time, I figured it wasn't worth the risk until I get vaccinated (at a minimum).  But I doubt you're alone in this feeling.  Curious to see how others feel.

[DarkroomTaker]

Maybe I see it differently, supporting families and patients who have Covid or have died from the virus, having to try and get people with Covid discharged to places who really dont want them. To have families, bribing or begging  or threatening you to spend time with their dying relative and it cant be. Funerals same, closed coffins, no chance to say goodbye.

I aint no angel and have lived on dick all my life, I have been very very tempted on more than one occassion, but, not being a saint, still stayed away from hook ups, because it Matters to peoples lives.

I will continue supporting Covid patients and all above in my job, which myself and collegues are at risk everyday, you just carry on and enjoy yourself, glad it does not bother people and its not just about you, you can still infect other people with devastating effects.

Rant over!

[kinkysuBB]

I hooked up twice over the summer when our daily cases were in low single figures and restrictions were relaxed. Nothing for the last 6 months. I barely see my friends, and haven't seen them at all since Christmas. I haven't seen my almost 100 year old grandmother for 11 months.

I know several people who've died. I'd love a hookup. I'd love an orgy if I could get one. But covid needs to end.

[BlackDude]

48 minutes ago, DarkroomTaker said:

Maybe I see it differently, supporting families and patients who have Covid or have died from the virus, having to try and get people with Covid discharged to places who really dont want them. To have families, bribing or begging  or threatening you to spend time with their dying relative and it cant be. Funerals same, closed coffins, no chance to say goodbye.

I aint no angel and have lived on dick all my life, I have been very very tempted on more than one occassion, but, not being a saint, still stayed away from hook ups, because it Matters to peoples lives.

I will continue supporting Covid patients and all above in my job, which myself and collegues are at risk everyday, you just carry on and enjoy yourself, glad it does not bother people and its not just about you, you can still infect other people with devastating effects.

Rant over!

Well I live alone and I am fortunate enough to work from home full time. Not Saying I have no contact with others, but I think my risk is lower than others. I’m Definitely not out here trying to be reckless

Edited February 17, 2021 by BlackDude

[bbinbpark]

18 hours ago, BlackDude said:

Has happened to anyone else? I mean, it’s days later and I’m still kinda a little freaked out about COVID for some reason. I know I should be, But like I said I’ve hooked up a few times before and I knew the risk but it really didn’t bother me as much as it has this time.

At the end of the day we're all human. We have natural instincts, and our body has needs. Human touch is one of those needs, we seek it out. There is a lack of human touch in western society especially the US. I had about 3 months with no intimate, physical interaction during this pandemic. That 3 months didn't start until months in, and I had hooked up prior to my celibate era.

My 'bubble' I've kept to my immediate family, and 3 close friends. It is natural to want to have intimacy, fucks, hookups whatever we want to call it. Also, it is natural for us to fear for our safety with a threat we know exists. Every hookup I've had, the same fears have come to me. Growing up to fear HIV/AIDS and not having had sex when it was first getting national attention, I had no idea what the fear our brothers felt in that time. Is this the person that by having sex with will infect me, and will I die because of this?

I am thankful we live in the times we do instead of the 1980's. I work healthcare, I have not been in the field my entire adult life and my area is 'lower risk' for COVID though my profession is among the highest risk in healthcare.

What gives me hope that we will all eventually be past a fear of hooking up, is knowing how much faster the medical, government and research systems learn now than it did in the 80's. So fast that every procedure done had to be verified almost daily to make sure the newest protocols to ensure patient and caregiver safety were, for lack of a better word, optimized and safe. 

Stay strong, remember we all have the need, like any gay man in the AIDS crisis you know the risks and benefits for you and your sexual partner. We're all going to need therapy when this is over, and I hope that as time goes by things will be better for you. 

XOXO

[chipygmalion80]

1 hour ago, bbinbpark said:

At the end of the day we're all human.

+1

I've sucked guys who wore masks, but the 2 cumdumps that I fucked didn't, though I wore a mask the 1 time I bent over for it.  So it's a mixed bag.

That sluttiness ^ has only happened in the past few weeks.  Last year was a dry spell for me because I didn't know any local FBs. 

What changed for me?  Maybe it's the vaccine, maybe it's the low #s (here locally), maybe it's reports from local hospitals that they have PEP & venilators & staff now to handle things, or maybe my "natural instincts" just couldn't take yet another year of wank job to porn. 

I know family & friends who are front-line nurses and I've watched & listened closely to what they've said & DONE about all this.  Lately, I've noticed they're finally bouncing back.  They're going out more, with masks, planning trips to new places, etc.; they're not locked up a home anymore.  So I follow their lead.  I'm either going to need the vaccine or the test before our aging in-laws come to visit.

Having said all that, just this week some contractors working on for us wore no masks and I was 6' from them.  So even people not having sex are getting exhausted. 

Each of us have different risk tolerances & decisions to make about this.

[drscorpio]

I teach at a university, and because of a lot of reasons that have nothing to do with public health concerns, we are teaching classes face-to-face albeit with masks and 6 foot distances. I don't have any illusions about being able to maintain a bubble. I cannot reasonably depend on the young adults I teach to keep up their part of the bargain. I do limit my maskless socialization to a small group of 8 friends. 

Last fall, I managed to get to where I had 3 fuckbuddies who I had reasonable trust in. I felt pretty comfortable with that. Sadly, they are all out of the picture now. I would love to have a couple of regulars again. I haven't been hooking up much. 

[YourNoLimitsBottom]

I've stayed away from hookups. I have older relatives and friends that I help out by running errands and such, and I couldn't live with myself if I got them sick because I couldn't keep my pants on. While I love sex, this decision has been easy.

This site has been a huge relief in both keeping me sane and horny as hell, which is quite the water and oil mix. Loving the stories, keep them coming! Can't wait to get back out in the real world and search out some of the fantasies written about on this site!

[badubydo]

I’m not going to let it stop me anymore. Too many reserved people. I worked with the public for a year during covid (now from home). I was at just as much risk doing that as if I was getting fucked by some guy. 
 

I take extra precautions now, but I’m not going to have a Covid guilt trip for wanting to have sex. 

[Guest rookie6969]

On 2/17/2021 at 3:09 PM, BlackDude said:

Well I live alone and I am fortunate enough to work from home full time. Not Saying I have no contact with others, but I think my risk is lower than others. I’m Definitely not out here trying to be reckless

we are going on a year of a pandemic.  Isolation is not an easy thing for a lot of humans to tolerate, and fatigue has affected lots of people.  I think it is good to be conscious of covid risks and follow all of the guidelines, but people mess up occasionally.  There are protocols for messing up too.  Isolate for 10-14 days, and get tested.  We all have to break protocol at some point to continue living, but luckily there are protocols to protect others for situations like that.  Hang in there.

[BlackDude]

1 minute ago, rookie6969 said:

we are going on a year of a pandemic.  Isolation is not an easy thing for a lot of humans to tolerate, and fatigue has affected lots of people.  I think it is good to be conscious of covid risks and follow all of the guidelines, but people mess up occasionally.  There are protocols for messing up too.  Isolate for 10-14 days, and get tested.  We all have to break protocol at some point to continue living, but luckily there are protocols to protect others for situations like that.  Hang in there.

Funny thing I’m a homebody. I have no problem staying home. I, like everyone else, get horny. Especially bad since I suppressed myself for so long, then prep came out. Few months later, COVID. 

[blackrobe]

17 minutes ago, BlackDude said:

Funny thing I’m a homebody. I have no problem staying home. I, like everyone else, get horny. Especially bad since I suppressed myself for so long, then prep came out. Few months later, COVID. 

That really is horrible timing. Stay strong and only take calculated risks with maximum mitigation if you can.

 

[bbzh]

For the winter, I reduced the number of pandemic tops I had from four to three. One of them was here yesterday and he fucked and bred me thoroughly. I had the first dose of the vaccine a few weeks ago and am due for the second next week. I live alone. Work from home. I am not around the elderly or those in high risk groups. Interestingly enough, I'm the friend who is discouraging people from inviting me around - not because I pose a risk to them per se - it's because they have people in their household/orbit who could be a risk to me (eg teenagers, children). One of my fuckbuds who works in health care has had both doses of the vaccine and, just last night, he wrote to say he's coming around (a week after my second shot) for a long fuck session with lots of making out. I cannot wait. I am even entertaining the idea of traveling in summer, mainly because I know it will be off the table again in winter. I would need to see data on how long one is actually protected by the vaccine before pressing my luck.

[bbjockload]

Basically shifted to more outdoor, gh where I can get it.    Mask but for poppers blowing dudes and tongue hole (so mask comes off a bunch).