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I really appreciate you giving it a try, but you need to give me a lot more detail. I can't fix anything based on what you told me since it works fine when I test it here. Are you on a Mac or a PC? What browser are you using? What was the URL at the top of the browser page when you saw the blank page? What type of file were you trying to upload? How big was the file? And anything else you think might possibly factor in... BTW, "soft launch" is sort of a late beta test... So problems are expected. Figuring out what's happening is the whole goal. So please try to think like a tester if you encounter problems and give as much info as possible.

I'm happy to say that that my tube site- RaunchyFuckers.com - is soft launching today. By soft launching I mean this is the only notice that it's up... I'll promote it more heavily once you guys put it through it's paces and I know it's all good and everything is working. You can view videos just by going to the site. If you want to upload a video you'll need to login. USE YOUR BREEDING ZONE USER NAME AND PASSWORD TO LOGIN. We know there are some things that still need to be worked out... Here are a few of the visible items on the list (there's also some under-the-hood stuff we're working on)... The checkbox for 'keep me logged in' doesn't work. What's shown on the home page needs to be refined. Profile avatars don't resize properly. The look of the mobile version isn't quite consistent with the main site. The banner ads around the video need to be resolved. The star icons for ratings need to be refined. Chat doesn't seem to work and will be removed from the navigation. (We'll try to get the old chat feature here working). I need to put in thumbnails for "channels" and porn stars. In addition to that stuff. I'm not quite sure if I'll keep the photos section. It's not really integrated with photos here. But, unlike the photos here, those photos are public, while the photos here are private. I also haven't done much of any integration of the user profiles there and the ones here. Over time those will be tightly merged. If you have problems or comments, please post them here. Please upload some of your videos!! I really want the tube site to be heavy on amateur. While there will be professional/sponsor videos on there as filler, there are plenty of tube sites with professional/sponsor videos. I really want your guys' amateurs videos to set Raunchy Fuckers apart from the crowd. And just to be clear - I'm having a 4-5 minute minimum for sponsor videos. If there are going to be promo videos, they're going to be good ones It should go without saying, but do not upload pirated videos. Only upload amateur videos. Leave uploading of professional videos to me. Anyone uploading pirated videos will be banned from Breeding Zone and Raunchy Fuckers for a month or more. Repeat offenders will be banned permanently. One last thing... Please rate the videos - and not just the ones you like - rate even the ones you don't like... That will really help the rating system.

BUT on the other side - if it's not you, then it will be someone else who knocks them up.

For starters, chill... As a poz bottom you don't put tops at much of any risk. If you're not on meds there's a negligible risk (about the same risk for the top as it would be for a neg bottom getting fucked by a poz top who uses a condom). If you're on meds the risk is almost literally zero. One way to approach it is casually just ask "How long have you been poz? I've been poz for X years..." If he's surprised you think he's poz say "Well, you fucked me raw without asking status - 9 times out of 10 that means your poz too..." And if he's surprised your poz, just say "Well, as you know really well, I let guys fuck me raw and cum in my ass - can't do that very long without becoming poz.". So disclose, but be casual about it. Make it seem like it's the most natural and normal thing possible for someone like you. If he wants to get serious about a guy who will take his raw dick and load on the first date, then chances are that guy is going to be poz. And if you're on meds, you're one of the lowest risk guys he can fuck. Think if you were neg... Down the road you'd get bored and take loads from other guys and put him at much higher risk when you convert. But if he freaks out - there's just nothing you can do. He's gotta get over his own demons and fears about it.

That's a completely unrealistic view. There are plenty of guys who don't know their status - you can't force them to get tested. And then once they know they're poz, you can't force them to take drugs - especially when they probably won't need them for a few years. I was chatting with another blogger who's out in CA. He's poz and not on meds. He's converted 35 guys that he knows about and then there's the countless guys he's fucked where status wasn't really discussed - he's probably converted plenty of them as well. He's just one guy and may have converted 100+ other guys.

I'm rather shocked that >25% of you guys who are neg bottoms (and on a site like this) think you'll stay neg. Other than the few who are immune (<1%) either you're not having sex or you're fooling yourself (IMHO).

10 years from now, when you're in your mid-50s, how much will you regret not having at least tried to live out your fantasies? You only go around once...

This site is based on vBulletin - by far the best off-the-shelf forum site out there. Nearly all the really big boards (that don't have custom written software) use vBulletin. One of the features you may not be aware of is that there's a little icon that looks like two down arrows just before the title of unread threads. If you click on it you'll be taken to the first message in the thread since you last read the thread. IMHO, that's FAR superior to the way BNSkin worked where you read everything in reverse order. There's a lot of little features like that which make using vBulletin-based sites a lot easier - but you need to learn the interface. Luckily you learn it on one board and it works on many boards.

The decade between 1985 and 1995 was sort of the height of the AIDS epidemic. Everyone knew you shouldn't bareback and condoms were all the rage. Yet people were barebacking... I came out in 1989 in Austin, TX, but didn't have sex until about 6 months later in January 1990. Then I moved to NYC in late July. I went from zero to 60 pretty quickly. In Jan/Feb of 1991 I started escorting - but only did it about 9 months (had maybe 40 clients during that time), plus regular tricks. Then I got into a monogamous relationship late that year. So I was only really sexually active for less than two years - but I probably had sex with 100+ guys during that time. The entire time I don't think I ran into anyone who wouldn't use condoms (I always made sure they were on hand - I was very much into safe sex back then). Well, there was this one guy who wanted to bareback - a hot little trainer at a gym in Hell's Kitchen. But I forget if that was during that time or a little later. That meant I was in the safe sex crowd and never really knew anyone who was barebacked (at least not anyone who'd admit to it). It was seen as way too risky. I know now guys were barebacking all through the AIDS crisis. I'm just wondering how big was the bareback subculture? How did guys find each other? Was it hard to find other barebackers? Was it mostly poz guys? Did guys pull out when they came? Was getting cum in your ass a fetish? How did you deal with the dark cloud of death that was hanging over barebacking? Did barebackers think the AIDS look was hot or were the guys who were wasting shunned? Was it mostly a drug-based culture? Stuff like that... So if you were barebacking from '85 to '95 tell us what the scene was like...

BTW, been too busy to really go through and evaluate/contact you guys... As soon as the tube site is up (in a few days), I'll work on it - promise!

If anyone knows the owners I'd love a dump of their discussion section... I'd be happy to take that and put it into a format where it can be preserved and reread for years. There were some incredible discussions there. The popularity of BNSkin and Bug Share were the reason why I knew launching this site was a good idea.

The tube site I'm about to launch (probably this weekend) has a chat feature, but it's even more broken than the old chat feature here. And far fewer features to the point of not being very good at all. So... Once the tube site is launched I'll work on seeing if I can get the old chat application to work. I'll get the latest version, etc. Bottom line - it's at least weeks away and if I can't get it to work reliably maybe far more than that...

There are CumUnion parties in NYC. They've been moving them around. They were at Paddles, now they seem to be held at West Side Club.

Thought I'd mention the CDC has taken many of the results from this study, combined them with some other results and put them up in the "legal documents" portion of their website. http://www.cdc.gov/hiv/law/transmission.htm I'm guessing the CDC is concerned about the continued legal assault on poz folk and feel it should be lifted for those on meds who are undetectable and can't transmit the virus. And that sort of answers your question - the data for this study was collected in the '80s and early '90s - before the advent of ARVs. Once on ARVs and undetectable they're probably less risky than "negative" guys. So when you read "poz" in the study - you need to interpret that as poz and not on meds since when the data were collected for the study there was no such thing as meds.

Sort of - since it hasn't been released to the pubic, we're developing on the final URL.

The tube site is almost ready to have some of you test it. We're still working out some final kinks - mostly related to mobile access. If you have the patience to be a beta tester and have some videos you an upload (especially smaller ones - say 50MB or less), let me know (here or via PM). I say patience because it may involve uploading your videos more than once if we find a problem and need to reprocess the files.

What size do you have? Are you planning on using it as a bottom or top? Please report back about your experiences and what the guys you hookup with think of it. So far the poll says 1 top liked it and 1 bottom thought it was "just OK". Hopefully we'll get more feedback.

This video is cute (and relatively recent), but just not on the same level as the one by Freddie Mercury...

I just saw this video and it made me think about how much gay culture has lost... Today it's all about marriage and being like straight people. But back then we were queers & fags - and we made the most of it by being absolutely fabulous. The AIDS crisis wiped out a lot of the uninhibited behavior and the creativity that went along with it since it was the creative guys back then who often took the most risks (even sexually). Today our most uninhibited guys (sexually) are often drug addicts. OK, sure they were drug addicts back then too - but they created stuff when they were on drugs. What in the hell has a meth addict ever created? So much has been lost, in so many ways - it's sorta sad. I didn't really get to experience much of the uninhibited gay culture you see in the video. But there was still a little bit left by the late 80s and early 90s when I was out at the clubs. I gotta say I really miss it. While BBRT is nice, I'd trade it in a second to go back to the type of club you see in that video...

Yes, I've roughed up bottoms with my PA so bad that they couldn't get fucked for a number of days. It depends on if the top stays in deep or keeps pulling through your sphincter. As a top, it's sometimes painful to fuck with a PA. Depends on a lot of things, but when the pain gets too great I pull out and remove the PA and continue on.

I'm just curious if any of you have experience with the Oxballs Pig Hole? It's designed to be a butt plug that can be in place while you're fucking. To the bottom it's a butt plug, to the top it's a bit like a fleshlight (only better 'cause you're not wasting your cum). Here are a couple of pics (click to see bigger pics)... I'm just wondering what the experience is like for both the top and the bottom. I'm imagining for the bottom it stretches their hole, but desensitizes otherwise during the fuck. And for the top it probably makes the hole tighter. All in all is it something that's worth the $56 or so they charge for it? Is it fun to use frequently, occasionally, or is it just not worth it? But then there's the question of size - there are three sizes. They say the large is for fisters, so ruling that out, which do you think is better - the small or the medium? Does it depend on the size of the top's dick? I'm guessing I'd use a small since I'm not particularly thick and I like a tight hole. But if I were organizing a gangbang a medium might be better - at least it would suit the tops with thick dicks, but tops with regular dicks might find the hole too loose. [There's also the advantage of being able to dump stuff up the bottom's hole 'cause it's always gaping open - but there are a lot of plugs that let you do that. What's unique about the Pig Hole is that you can fuck with it. And of course the disadvantage of the Pig Hole is that when the bottom stands up the cum in his ass doesn't stay in his ass. All that aside what I'm really interested in is what it's like when you're fucking.]

It's almost impossible to get HIV from giving a blowjob. Are you in one of those abstinence only states for sex ed? That's pretty basic knowledge...

Except that the survey research above says that 2/3rd of the existing customers like milk chocolate... But clearly they also like dark chocolate and 1/3rd may be alienated...

Thanks. You're probably right. Despite the poll telling me to be a slut, rawTOP (the persona, not the person) should probably continue to be a top. And now that I've said what I've said, that also has the added allure of guys wondering what has been left out of the stories. Especially since, if I start taking loads, my HIV status will probably change... Guys will wonder what the real deal is when I fuck "neg" bottoms... Controversy and intrigue is a good thing in my business... So I think that sorta settles it... I'll do what suits me, and write up the parts of the story that are consistent with the brand and leave out the other details... In ways that's what I've already done with some of the stories I've written in the past. It's not like every detail gets into the story. Some bits are glossed over because, for one reason or another, it's not something I want to share with the public...

That's the big question... The point being that I'm not quite sure what I prefer. I came out of a fundamentalist environment into the middle of the AIDS crisis and then a year after my first sexual encounter I started escorting. My foggy memory is that the tear happened towards the end of when I was escorting - so say 18 months after my first sexual encounter. I don't remember much of what I enjoyed sexually from back then. I hadn't really figured sex out (so to speak) and then I was renting out my body. I remember at the end of the 9 months of escorting feeling like my body didn't belong to me. I was rather fucked up sexually (some may say I still am). Now I understand so much more about sex. Things would be very different if I went back and did things over knowing what I know now. But that is what it is. All I can remember of bottoming back then is a few snippets. I remember two johns at the Marriott Marquis working me over, plugging me from both ends. I remember feeling out of control - not knowing whether they were using condoms, etc. (I used condoms fairly religiously back then). My mouth constantly had a dick in it and I couldn't talk, and they held my arms in a way that I couldn't reach around and check for a condom, or when I did check I couldn't be sure what I felt was a condom. I didn't like feeling so out of control. And I remember hooking up with a rich muscular guy on the Upper West Side (not a john) who kept trying to fuck me without a condom - it got to the point of rape since he tried over and over and over to get inside me when I was saying no and physically pushing him off me. Needless to say, I didn't like that either. But then I remember going home from the Spike to a Latino's place on West 15th Street - 5th or 6th floor walkup across from what is now Google's NY headquarters - it was by far the roughest, hottest, sex I had ever had. He was completely in control, took me past what I ever thought I wanted to do, but I felt safe with him. So from what I can remember - I like giving up control to a top who I trust, but when it feels like I can't at least stop or slow down what's going on I get completely weirded out. It's sort of the topish side of me coming out - even in bottoming I need to have a certain degree of control - though I know I'm not a pushy, controlling bottom - I understand that when I bottom I need to let the top call the shots (to a point). I guess what I'm trying to say is I know I like being a top, and I know I'm not a bottom like many of the bottoms I hookup with who love not being in control and just love being used and worked over - I'm pretty confident I'll never be that sort of bottom. But I could totally see swapping loads with a versatile guy where I'm the dominant versatile top and he's a versatile bottom. I could even see being a submissive bottom for a top who makes me feel safe. But that's just all theoretical. I won't really know what I like until I actually do it, and I can't do any of it until my ass heals - and that's months away... I see the poll is shifting now - 2/3rd in favor of me being a slut to gives and takes as many loads as possible. I'd really like to see more guys respond to the poll...