ObjectPersona

Since I want my goddamn account deleted already (three weeks my request has been ignored) I may as well start being a little more honest. Not a single word coming out of any of the MAGA sorts is in good faith. None of it. Reality never enters the equation. So why do we keep pretending anything else?

Don't take your impotence out on bottoms.

It's not an issue of poor usage or education since there are a few direct ones. Wonder how many of the ones who complain about needing better looser bottoms just flop around a guy's hole most of the time?

I haven't smoked cigarettes in a long time but I still find smokers sexy. If I get a taste of smoke when I kiss a guy I don't want to stop unless he goes to have another cigarette and make the taste stronger.

Man, people saying to find a "better" bottom- that being looser in your book- Know what I'm just going to delete that even if it is deserved. Some tops. Just damn.

Neurodivergent here. You get plenty of both hyposexual and hypersexual sorts in that territory (where I stand should not be a surprise). Those of us who are extra-horny tend to be kinkier than the norm. The only real issue that comes up is that people who are predatory often see off body language and interpret it as a sign of either meth or an easy target. Those of us who are getting out there and trying to fuck tend to figure out how that part works pretty quickly, so in general we can take care of ourselves. If it's not a truly extreme case we're good to go and you don't need to have hangups over it.

I try being a cumdump but my record is terrible; I can count the times I've hit five loads on one hand and ten has yet to happen so whether I count or not is up to you. But I'm on PrEP and intend to stay that way and do not touch T. That shit scares the fuck out of me. I would consider experimenting with certain other substances in scenarios where I'm getting used by a group but as is I've hooked up with single guys while drunk and that's as far as it has gone. Not even several guys while drunk, not even one guy while stoned.

As a bottom who closes up after about five minutes but if you give me one minute I can get toys bigger than 99% of dicks in there be patient opening him up. The guy will probably open up more quickly than you think if you use a few fingers.

I'm not at the point where I can't enjoy a regular cock so no regrets but this is something I keep in mind while training. It seems like a hard game to play well: figure out exactly what size and types of toys you can play with so you can gain the ability to take huge dicks, get double-penetrated by guys who aren't huge, and go for long sessions but not lose the ability to enjoy being with men who aren't huge.

Ended up skipping out of karaoke night after doing a song to hook up with a guy then came back to do a few more songs with the guy's two-week load in me. Rewind. I hit the Gulch and, after swallowing a load and making out with this one fellow bottom for awhile, ended up working on a cock that came through the gloryhole. Sucked him for a bit, backed up onto him for awhile, he stopped and came over to my booth, and he bred me twice. He also had me shoot for him. It felt a bit weird shooting on the wall and floor and just leaving it there, but with two of his loads in me I was up for it. Then I went to karaoke night with his sperm in me and got up on stage not sure if I'd rather not leak or leak.

I am absolutely certain the idea that it's understandable that a guy wouldn't want to go for raw anon sex isn't going to be popular here (the fact that people use the term "condom Nazis" would be unfathomable to me if I weren't so jaded). There is definite risk assessment in play here and I get that, even in the age of PrEP and DoxyPEP, there's still Hep C to worry about plus plenty of guys who will intentionally do you and others harm if they can. I'm not here to add anything to what you said. I'm just here so you know at least some other people who take random anon loads do understand where the condom crew is coming from and don't fault them for it even if I'm skipping them on hookup apps.

Theater. Met the guy two weeks ago, couldn't fuck in the back room at the bar, something got in the way of meeting him the next week, finally met him.

I just got the opportunity to try this out last night. Didn't get fucked because the guy's more about oral and being sadistic toward guys, but there was the making out and body contact to go with introducing me to some of the basics. So I enjoyed having my hair pulled; I'd had it done before and I realized I like the stuff where the pulling forces my neck into a different position. Did not like getting my balls smacked since wrong kind of pain plus I wear the jockstrap because that area is not what matters. Getting choked isn't exactly pain but I do have to say it's weird feeling it in the temples and higher so I could only go so far with this. Biting my ears and tongue gave me a "must endure this" sort of thing that was hot but those locations may not be best since if the teeth go through at all they go through half of the thing and that is too much damage for me to feel comfortable risking. Nipple-pulling I have had done to me before but not as hard or for as long as he did and it was great for "must endure this" but the guy did say several times that the look on my face was not of somebody who was enjoying himself. Slapping he started softly and I wasn't happy but eventually he smacked the fuck out of my face and that was exactly what I was looking for. This does firmly put all of this into my fantasies. I need a rough hairy inked dom top that tastes like smoke to do some of this to me except backhand the fuck out of me- none of this palm shit- while he plows the living hell out of me and doesn't leave me dripping because he leaves the load too deep in me to drip out. Hopefully he'll invite friends and they'll do the same.

I use Swiss Navy silicone. I can't stand water-based lubes, never found a better silicone-based lube, and haven't played with anything oil-based.

What do you crave most? Cock or loads deep in you? As much as it doesn't feel complete unless I get the cock then the load it feels more complete if I just get the load than if I just get the cock, so loads. Do you ever feel satisfied or are the cravings insatiable? I haven't reached the point where I no longer want another load but I also haven't reached high numbers yet, with seven up the ass plus swallowing an eighth being my best for a night. I think my ass would start hurting before I'm entirely satisfied but I need to find out. How many loads does it take to turn you into an “any cock, any hole, any load” guy? I start close to that. After the first or sometimes just off the anticipation I get into the "no loads refused" headspace. How old were you when you first realized it was about your hole/pussy/cunt and not your cock? Was it innate and there from the beginning or did you learn it over time? As soon as I realized I was into guys I was a bottom mentally. The hottest opening line I ever heard was, “I don’t care about my cock.” Do you even think about cumming? Do you have a need to? I don't think about cumming when I'm bottoming. If I'm in bottom mode my cock is not the thing that matters here. I rarely go into top mode but if I were more confident with my dick I would do that more often and it would be entirely about my cock and leaving sperm in a guy. Vers mode would probably only happen if I'm in the middle of rowdogging. I can't picture myself as anything past vers bottom. When you are home alone, do you play with your hole or your dick? Dick. I have toys but to me toys are about preparing for the actual men that are going to use me. Are you afraid of how deep your cravings are and the levels you will submit to in an effort to satisfy them? No. There are bigger things to be afraid of than things that are mildly self-destructive. Do you tell your friends about your cumdump desires or are those separate and secret? I tend to tell my gay friends what a slut I am but others usually only get the jokes about me being a slut without anything that can be pinned down as real. What would you choose…sucking a hot guy’s huge dick or taking a taking a heavy-set Daddy’s load up your ass? The daddy every time. I almost never even attempt to go out to suck dick since that's not the good stuff. Anonymous sesssions or do you prefer to see who is fucking you? Anonymous at the moment only since I do it less than seeing who's fucking me. I'm sure if I had more anonymous than seeing the guys it would flip since I do have fun doing either. Is there anything mor important to you than taking loads? Many things.

I would love to have that Sir. At the moment I'm just trying to get one friend or otherwise sufficiently-trusted guy to do a single blindfolded motel session with me where he gets me a few sets of tallies and I don't have any idea who they were. I'd like to at least get that and the blindfolded and earplugged one done sometime.

I have done this at bathhouses and parties before and it is amazing. Those scenarios are best since they are relatively safe unlike keeping a door at a hotel or apartment open. The guys who talk dirty to you while they're doing their thing and the ones who are quiet so you don't get much of what they sound like are each hot in their own ways. I would love to go further with things like a) blindfolded and earplugged though I think noise-canceling headphones would be needed on top of that since earplugs are only so effective, b) blindfolded, gagged, and handcuffed to something, or c) blindfolded and earplugged probably with the additional headphones, gagged, and strapped down entirely. The problem with that last one is that it would be hottest if guys would give me poppers whenever the feel like it but I can't take poppers which kills that fantasy. The combinations of losing sight, hearing, voice, different types of movement, or other types of control each seem to be hot in their own unique ways.

There was no epiphany. It just came to mind. I saw guys twice my age that got me thinking weird things that I didn't think about my high school girlfriend and the idea of myself bent over taking them up the ass just popped into my head. That's it.

I do have regrets only since...let's put it this way. My load count (only counting the ass) for this year is 18. Yes, eighteen. I got ghosted by a minimum of ten guys who were enthusiastic about my hole beforehand last night so what was set up to be a session with tons of effort put in was another zero. The problem with doing things like this is that it opens you up to gays being gays.

I'm less into the individual guys and more about the things that happen so I don't follow individual guys. The JFFs I've subbed to for one month and intend to sub to again once there's more of a backlog are BreedFags and TravelBreeder who slut guys out in motel rooms no loads refused. Personally I would love to see myself in a video like that sometime so I wish there were a Great Value version of those that would put a guy like me to good use.

Whenever I see gays talk about ugly/unattractive men I never know what they mean. Gay standards usually mean that if you aren't close to the ideal you're instantly ugly/unattractive. By gay standards I am unattractive, like 90% of the gays out there, but I am up for men who are unattractive by normal standards also.

Things like slut, whore, and cumdump are always good. Things like bitch only work with certain guys. Things like cunt, pussy, or fag are a harder sell.