fuckboy20

Hehe. Used to be completely bottom and was trained as a submissive obedient bottom. I did not like the reasons I originally started topping but now that I've topped a few times I actually really enjoy it. And lately I've been craving it. It makes me feel fucking proud too. I have a hot fucking ass that's experienced and knows how to take cock and I love getting fucked. But I also have a pretty big uncut dick that will make the butchest of men bend over or get on their knees and that's something to be proud of. When I used to cruise bookstores when I was younger I'd see all these hot fuckers and was disappointed they weren't into me. It's like MascMountainMan said. Not all the time are butch, trucker, daddy looking types tops. Sometimes men just want to suck cock or take it up the ass. And it's really cool knowing that if I find a hot daddy I wanna fuck more then likely I'll be able to get off in him a few times. At the same time if he wants to me fuck me I'll happily bend over for him. It is nice knowing I can have the best of both. And even bottoms that like it rough and like verbal. I know what it's like to have a top spit in my face, slap me around, fuck me hard, and verbally insult me. It's a hot feeling and doing that to a bottom or submissive that I find hot gets me off too. It especially does knowing it's been done to me. I have had guys tell me though that in some ways someone my age shouldn't start topping or learning how to be dominant until they are older. And in many ways I used to believe that I should focus on my ass and giving it up to men and enjoy being and exploring my submissive side until I get older. But with being gay, leather, and bareback I experienced all of them earlier than most. So really waiting to top just because of some pre-determined insecurities is pretty stupid. I don't feel guilty anymore fucking a bottom and thinking, "I wish this a top doing it to me." Because I've already experienced it, I guess there isn't a lack of it in me like there was once. Also sometimes i just want to fucking take it from a bottom. But at times I have thought about the bottom as well. Just depends on my mood I guess. I might take a break from bottoming for a while and focus on topping. Go to the other side for a while ;P. I might have some people I lose out on wishing I was a bottom or thinking they'd want to fuck me instead. But that's kinda hot knowing that in their mind they have a strong or deep desire that cannot be filled right now because I'm not showing or giving out to that other side. Plus like the OP said. I have tops I can call or message if I want to get fucked

Boy Butter, Gun Oil, Spit and Cum are my favorites. I've had a top used bacon grease too. Just got some off the sheet from the bacon, lubed his cock and fucked my hole. That was a hot fuck.

Is drinking.. Wait, what? So last night was depressing is an understatement. Today is better, random fire alarms going off, roomate making muffins (they bring all the boys to the yard) and bullshitting with gamestop employees. So cool that they get info first about PS4 and next Xbox since a lot of what they told me the media and news doesn't even know. I want their sony rep. But I can't get shit for my PS3 so back to craigslist. So friends from TN for spring in the south couldn't come over because of the hellacious weather. I got chinese even though I'm a broke ass ho. Because chinese is a balanced diet of broke ass hoes. Had a shmirnofhowthefuckyousayit. It was good. Had my manga chinese icecream. Chinese ice cream is awesome. And decided to actually do something productive and work on my escort blog. AND I made a new blog..It's totally shite right now since I'm drunk and being stupid. But it will hopefully get better. http://fuckboy20.blogspot.com My lazy ass hasn't even changed the fucking template. I had a dilemna of putting bareback and cum dump pics on my escort blog. But I decided the best medicine is...SEXY PICTURES. Sexy picture time. I'm going to make this website my gallery (you should be honored by my greatness). So any new pics I get from good ol' drop box, (she's a good girl...lol) I'll upload here. I don't believe in that locking or private shit but for my pppp-professional escort site I want to keep that as clean and professional looking as I can. But I'll find a way to link that to the gallery on rawtop's lovely website. Gotta give him props yo. I'll try to find a way to make a slideshow like viewable gallery on my escort site too. But rejoice. Naked pics and stuff. I do probably need some new ones. And people can actually see what I look like with my weak as mustache. At least I look like I can actually take a punch without crying like a bitch (I can't..but I look like I can) so that's some improvement. Some people have mixed feelings about my facial hair. But fuck em. They are fucking kissable. I might make a whole blog post on that later. So posting on mleatherboy/fuckboy20 and breedingzone. Three blogs. And two of them are gonna probably be the same. Now do I need one for professional straight life... Yeah right. But enjoy my gallery. That's all you get for now because I don't know kind horny men who will take pictures of me in suggestive positions and scenarios. Woe is me

I'll admit I've tried that before. Some guys do have a VERY strong resistant to barebacking. I had one experience with a top where I tried every trick in the book and it failed. He wouldn't fuck me. If I had gone in with a "plan" and was seriously trying to trick him it might have worked. But I just pulled random ideas out of my ass and tried rubbing against him, pushing it in slightly, and offering poppers and nothing works. At the same time at the baths a few weeks ago I got a german guy to fuck me bare. He wanted to use a condom but I told him to try the poppers. He did and I pushed my ass against his cock and told him i want to feel it at the entrance. He ended up pushing it and fucking me bare and breeding me twice. I wish the tactics you said would work for everyone but they don't. Some require doctored condoms and etc. But I won't go that far for a fuck. But I know some will.

I don't doubt that. Curved cocks are some of my favorites. Especially riding them they can make me almost cum instantly. I'm sure you'll eventually have an experience where you both flip flop and it will be incredible. I look forward to hearing about it when you top again

I can understand that. The guy that I did it with to make things worse, I also thought of myself getting fucked. Since that normally gets me hard. Haha. That is a completely different subject but that's funny as hell. That's like those guys that text when they are getting fucked, or do their nails, decide what to eat for dinner and etc. For the most part I can say I haven't had many experiences like that. I always, "feel" when the top enters me and when getting fucked. I always try to feel everything in the moment and take it all in. Because afterwards I won't be remember to really know what it feels like unless it's happening. But sometimes I really focus on the top and try to please him or I enjoy it. It depends on the man. Maybe if you are with a hook up sometime afterwards or somewhere in between try to think of "the man's ass". I remember even when I was a bottom and around 18 a fuck buddy of mine had a hot furry ass. I felt it sometimes when I was massaged him and it felt so hot, warm, and fuzzy there were so many times I just wanted to get in there and fuck him. I fingered him a little but he never let me fuck him. But it can probably go opposite that if you only think of the guys ass you might overthink it. Basically it will probably happen when it happens and when you want to. Don't feel guilty or worry about topping right now and don't try to top if you don't want to. But if you "feel" the urge to or want to don't ignore that. Just keep an open mind. And if possible act on that urge. Alot of things I used to think about that prevented me from topping like being an obedient bottom, condoms at one point, barebacking so much that I might be poz and not wanting to infect anyone, and stuff like that blocked my head and me from ever topping or trying to. But there were small instances or moments with some guys when I "thought" about it and certain men who I did want to fuck. But now I don't let those things block my mind. It could be that all along I might have wanted to. Now who's overthinking it?

That's a very good point. The first man I fucked bare after I became poz was already poz. He kinda tricked me but the second time I came in his ass. I just focussed on how good his ass felt and how I just wanted to fuck it. And then it came to the point where the friction on my dick felt so good I wanted to cum. But it's because I thought, "This is hot ass..I want to fuck it and cum." I used to think more like, "I have to make sure I fuck him hard, make sure he enjoys it, make sure I'm top enough for him, make sure I breed him." It's not a bad thing to want to think of the partner you are with and their pleasure over yours. And now that I think about it that guy I fucked at the sex club a few nights ago. I could have cum in him a few times because it was a hot environment, guys were watching, a top played with my ass, it was in a sling and everything about it was hot. I did fuck a guy a few nights after and I bred him twice that night. It did take a little more for me to fuck him. But I wasn't thinking about pleasing him or making sure he was happy or satisfied. That being said I could tell by his moans and body movements that he was enjoying it. But for me it was about the ass and fucking it. I was never able to fuck guys when I used condoms and even after I told them that I'm not really a good top. There have been times where a top wants me to cum and times he doesn't and I'm fine with that. It is hot to think about later and cum. I'm wondering is it the same with oral for you? I think I can count only TWO guys that blew me in a bath house or sex club type place where I actually shot inside their mouth. If they were lucky I would be able to jack myself off and put it back in their mouth and have them swallow it. But I could not do that with everyone. But maybe I just realized something about topping. Maybe some tops are selfish and they just want ass and want a warm hole to fuck and load instead of having to use their hand. It might not be the diplomatic way of thinking to fuck someone. And just because you just want ass doesn't mean you don't enjoy it or the person you are with. But overthinking it and worrying will make you go soft. Same goes for bottoming. A fuck bud of mine is REALLY BIG. It used to be so hard for me to take him because all I thought was, "I have to please him, have to make him happy, have to be a good bottom, a good boy." But last time we got together I instead told myself, "I want this cock..I want him inside me, I want to get fucked, I want his load." You might be able to cum inside a man if you just change your way of thinking. Since that might be what prevents you from doing it in the first point. Or maybe, not thinking. I have had a guy get upset with me too when I diddn't give him my load. But as a bottom I can understand not getting a load from a top.

These words had me in tears tonight. This is gonna be a sad post. It sucks to be all emo like this when I was in my younger days. I'm sure I made people want slit their wrists..or mine back then. But it's been a while since I cried. And since I allowed myself to feel. Let's do a little re-cap first. I don't know if I posted this on here but my roomate gave me an ultimatum after I became poz. The day after I was confirmed to be poz. He told me either I pay him for cleaning the house (while he stays unemployed and doesn't search for work) or I can get the fuck out. I calmly told him, "You are going to have to find something else to keep you occupied during the day. You are going to find another way to get money. Because it won't be from me." I loaned him 60 bucks and he only paid me 20 of it back with a rant and cry about how he does so much house work and I don't do shit..except work 7 days a week and 8 hours a day while he doesn't. If this was a few years back I would have broke down and cried. I used to cry so much when I was younger than 18 and 18. I remember nights at my former leather family how I'd beat myself and say how much I hate myself and how I'm so worthless. And how my slave brother would stop me and essentially save me from myself. But thanks to "both" of them I've been able to love myself and find value in myself. I've come a long way since then. I felt my eyes grow cold, I felt like I was sinking when my roomate who is my former Sir tell me this. After all the times I took him out for drinks, took him to dinner, bought him stuff because he isn't working he pulls that shit. I told him I'm doing my own laundry, buying my own food and he can buy his, and making my own meals. His response, "Oh no you won't you never keep your promise you don't have honor." Him daring to tell me I have no honor. He fucking died to me at that moment. That Sir that Master. The one who I knew since I was 18. Who I was in service to, loved, wanted to make so proud, disappointed, and even let him move in with me to an apartment. After everything we've been through even friends he's tried to use me for money and in a manipulative way to keep his pride. He fucking died to me. Inside. Lingering affection, lingering thoughts, all of it died. Inside, something severe happened but I wouldn't feel it. I just became poz. I couldn't go back to being the scared little kid I used to be. I couldn't be lazy anymore. I couldn't be spoiled. I had to be stronger. I've always wanted to be strong. But now being poz. I have to be strong. No matter what. I cleaned my whole room that night, the kitchen, my bathroom, cleaned my clothes and laundry and a few days later I bought my own groceries. A few days later I started cooking too. Stirfy was awesome but recently the tuna casserole kinda failed. But it was still yummy and I ate it. And it was mine. We cleaned the house today. He did nothing but criticize me, his former partner/slave, and bitch the entire time. I wanted to slap the shit out of him. But all I could see when he spoke and how he acted was a scared, senile, and pathetic old man who is trying to hold onto any sense of pride or superiority he can have even though he doesn't have shit. And he's scared because I stand up for myself now and I might very well move out with a partner one day. He even said that. And somewhere inside. I actually believe it myself. Because he made me feel like shit and pissed me off I felt like running away from my own home. But I had to pack up my PS3 first. I fucked up and did not budget power bill which we got two months later. And I got fucked by the goverment for tag registration for my birthday and paid way too much. Even with taxes, I'm short for rent. So instead of being LATE on rent and getting possible eviction, lower credit, cash scams, or loan scams I decided to sell my PS3. I tried new escort sites the week before but no luck. I'll work on that later. I called my former roomate and friend and asked if I could come over. He said it was okay. So I stopped halfway through "The Dictator" kinda funny movie and packed up my PS3. My plan was to get the playstation camera and av cable so I could go to gamestop after and get a quote on it. Since someone was already asking $150 for it and I'm pretty sure that's what gamestop will give me. When I got over there I bitched about our former Sir and how he is talking shit about my former partner and friend. We both got pissed off and said our own things. But while we were talking I realized some things. First is that we don't really know who he is. Nor do others. But I realized how much of an impact in a negative way he had on me. I knew it was because of him that I bareback. I would have been fine being his boy and taking his cock and loads but he decided not to have sex with either of us. And I eventually started barebacking because I wasn't getting any. But the way he treated me during sex was the same way a trick treats me. Which as impressionable as I was at the time is very likely the reason to why I like to take loads and hook up. And unfortunately even though it's hot, the reasons aren't. I realized so much talking to my friend. About who I thought my former Sir is and how much of everything he told me is a lie. His faith, his confidence. Everything. How he used me. How he still tries to. How he talks shit about my best friend and his former partner and my former slave brother. And how he is such a fucking asshole. I had to cuddle up and lean on my former brother. I wanted to be close to him. That familiarity and that safe and warm feeling I got in the past. And like in the past I felt everything. Memories from the past of things Master told me and how I tried to act like him, how I'm sexist to women now because of him, how I hate the pans because he is, and how I tried to become everything he was to make him happy. And although he wanted me to as well his plan failed because my natural stubbornness broke me away from him. But also freed me. I looked up at my former brother and told him, "I still love you. I miss you and I appreciate everything you do." He questioned, "why are your eyes red." I was crying. I told him, "Because I'm hurt." He asked me, "Why are you hurt." I thought of saying because of our former Master. But I thought about it harder. I told him, "You know I know I'm poz and everything. I've known it for a while. I know former Sir lied to me and used both of us. But knowing is different than feeling." I broke down in tears when I said that. He just held me close and rubbed my hair and told me to let it all out. I did. Ever since I became poz. Ever since my former Sir and roomate died in my eyes. I never let it out. I never expressed it. I just brushed it off and told myself to be stronger. And I've become a hell of a lot stronger. But it still hurt. It still hurts. It hurts alot. I want to cry. I told him, "I really miss this. But I understand that being an adult means that sometimes you have to be alone and deal with things on your own. Even though it hurts. That's just part of life. But I appreciate that right now you are here." ... This is why. It's probably so important for me to blog. Someone who can't express himself normally or verbally. Needs a way to let things go, vent, bitch, and let certain feelings and emotions out. It did cripple me sometimes in the past. But I'm a lot stronger then I used to be. And I'm going to keep getting stronger. Because now I no longer have to feel, "guilt" for barebacking, for being poz, for being who I am. Because that man's views no longer matter to me. I don't give a shit about what he thinks. But I can't ever deny that I don't care for him. That would be a regret in the future. And I'm someone who doesn't want to have regrets. Even though I have several. I just have to keep going the way I'm going. Keep finding leather people in unknown places. Keep following my leather and submissive heart. Because even that is slowly changing and evolving. Find that leather path that I've started on and keep moving forward. Keep my friends and people who care about me close and in contact. Whenever I feel down or depressed as long as I know that people somewhere care and want the best for me I'm able to summon strength and stay strong. But it is hard. It's really hard to be strong sometimes. Because lately I have felt more alone. But now I realize that I don't have to. And maybe even if I do feel really alone, scared, and wanting to cry. That it's okay. Even strong people cry. Because I'm strong.

Unfortunately it was a night I'll never forget. I was 19. It was pride week in Atlanta. I wasn't old enough to go to the bars so me and my Sir at the time went to the jungle. There were horrible drag queens there and one was doing a scottish character. My former Sir was literally clawing the table. I suggested we get out and go back home. Once we got back home we took off our leather and went to the bedroom. I don't quite remember how it happened but I was undressing my former Sir and he was getting aroused. He told me to get on my knees and I started to blow him. He took off my clothes and before I knew it we were in bed. He told me, "Boy you've made me so proud over these last few months and you really are a good boy. Tonight, it's about you boy. What do you want." I told him, "I want what you want Sir..I want to please you SIR!" He told me, "That's the right answer boy." He took out a dildo and put it in me even though I did not like that at the time. I allowed myself to relax as he recently taught me and take the dildo. He pushed it in slowly and I felt my cock rock hard. He got on top of me and started making out with me. His warm scottish lips and mustache were over my face and he was so passionate and romantic. He said, "Boy, I love you. And I'm going to show you how much I love you." He took the dildo out and put lube on his cock. I wasn't sure what he was doing until he started pressing his cock in me. I thought, "This is finally it. I told myself I won't bareback unless it's with a partner or a man I love..I'm finally doing it, having sex with the man I love." He slowly pushed his curved scottish cock in me and told me, "Relax like I taught you boy." I took deep breathes and relaxed and felt him pop in. The feeling was indescribable. We've fucked a few times with condoms but I never knew it would feel this good with him inside me. All of him. Everything he is and represents. Is in me. My Master. His cock. His will. His dominance. I'm taking everything. He fucked me and told me how it felt so good and how he had been waiting a long time for this. We fucked for quite a while. An hour or so until he told me that he couldn't hold it much longer. He kept fucking me and shouted, "This is it boy..I'm about to cum, I'm making you mine BOY!". And I felt his warm hot cum shoot inside me. I felt like I was truly owned, truly his. He went to the bathroom to wash off his dick and he got back into bed. We made out some more and he cuddled with me and we slept together that night. And unfortunately...that was all part of his plan. But my natural stubbornness prevented myself from being completely used by that man. Regardless what happens in the future and how I feel about him he is the man who first fucked me raw and made love to me. And he was also my first Sir and left the biggest impression on me. And no matter what happens. I will never forget that night. Ever.

Welcome to growth. You know, not all tops out there are always tops. Sometimes you start out from the bottom. That being said I'm sure there are some that never bottomed. I understand where you're coming from. I used to hate my dick being played with, touched, looked at, or even talked about. Never let anyone suck me and barely fucked anyone. Hell I think one of the only times I ever had anyone I want head from back then was a guy at a theatre once. He was beefy, furry, submissive, and he had an eagerness and something in his eyes and without saying anything I pulled out his cock and he sucked me. I actually caressed his hair, rubbed him, and encouraged him a little. I was actually so freaked out by what I had just did that I pulled off from him and left. I feel bad about that now. And once at a bath house when I was sucking a guy a very obedient natured bottom came by and he started sucking me. But the way he did and the fact that it felt good surprised me. But it also reminded me of me, he had a submissive heart. I ended up fucking his face, his ass, and bred him. I even took him to another club and fucked him openly in the sling bareback, bred him a few times, and fucked him a few more times in a room. Although he wasn't completely clean I let it go since he was eager. And at a club a few weeks ago I decided to fuck a bottom and a top came by and actually fucked me while I was fucking the bottom in the sling. I think the truth is that lots of bottoms don't give their dick credit. They believe that they are the bottom, the bitch, the submissive, and that their ass and pleasing a top with their ass is all that matters. And I used to think like that but a fuck buddy of mine was less leather, less Sir like, and more human like which brought out a little more human in me. I like to jack off. So why shouldn't I let a guy suck me. I'll admit there are some guys out there that can't suck me and I pull off fast or tell them to take it easy. But those who do suck it well I let them continue. But part of it is that my dick is sensitive because I'm uncut. Like I said I'm not entirely sure. But I believe that some of the good tops out there started out as bottoms but became tops later on. So who knows. Could be the sign of things to come. Be proud and allow your dick to feel pleasure whether it's fucking a hot ass or getting head. Remember it's getting off just not having to jack it yourself. And a warm ass does feel really good. And in many ways. Who better to top then someone who knows how it feels to get fucked. Who likes to get fucked different ways and in different ways. Best of luck with your new discovery

Damn. I have before. In a former life when I was with a leather Sir and was his boy he knew a few leathermen. He had a leather party at his house one night and a boy from another state came to visit. While I say boy he is actually much older. He was also hella creepy stalkerish. He knew all about me because in a former life I blogged a lot and he even referenced things to me from past blogs (some I barely remembered) and I just wanted to crawl in a corner. He wasn't bad looking he was just kind of pushy. Friends of ours were SEVERELY harassed on the deck. Like the guy was trying to make out with the Sir, rub his cock, get all over him and I'm sure the top was ready to jump off the rail to get away from him. Back when I wasn't a good bottom..in a former life..it took me like 6 hours to clean myself out. Even while the party was starting I was in the bathroom. When I finally came out and served drinks and entertained the guests in nothing but a jockstrap I was scared but felt proud that at least my ass was clean. I had drinks (did not drink back then). I had like 7 cowboy cocksuckers. I slammed them and almost vomited every time and made faces. My submissive brother at the time took me to the bedroom and said I was so drunk right now and that he wouldn't allow me to be part of the party since I was too out of it. I found every shred of sanity, reason, logic, and self conscious in me to shake myself out of it even a little. I grabbed him and looked him dead in the eye and said I'll be okay and that I won't let stupid alcohol defeat me. (diddn't mean to offend alcohol..I was young-er) So I went downstairs to the dungeon and it took everything to walk normally and hide being drunk. I talked to a few leathermen down there and had a VERY in depth conversation with one and was amazed I was able to. I saw a friend of my leather Sir's at the time who I would later have a crush on but would realize in the future that he is an ass. I saw the sling and the toys and floggers around. I saw the men drinking and smoking cigars and just bullshitting and socializing like leather men do. I saw a few of their bulges as well. I looked at their sling and thought, "Here's my chance..here's my chance to unleash some of the pigginess that my slave brother has brought out in me..can I finally became a leather pig." I hesitated too much and before I could get in the sling the trololo boy got in the sling. Sorry if that's mean but I'm feeling random and trololo fits him. Just like out on the deck patio with our leather friends ain't no one wanted to get near him. I was so disappointed because I knew he'd hog the sling and my chance to be a leather pig and let leather Sir's use me was gone. I was really mad. Pissed off and drunk. I figured, "Fine..this trololo boy wants to get fucked. I'll fuck him." Just the idea of getting back at the trololo boy got me hard and I used a condom (I DID CONDOMS WHEN I WAS YOUNGER) and I put a little lube on and shoved my dick in him. I fucked him like a jackrabbit. He was initially telling me take it easy but I just spit in his face and fucked him. The leather Sir's around where surprised and they all gathered around. I fucked him for a good while but he started to like it (go figure). I figured I'm done with him and came inside the condom and just left him there. I went upstairs pissed off and went to bed. I told them the next day that it was sort of a pity anger fuck. I felt bad for him that no one was going to fuck him but also mad that he took my chance to be a pig. Oh and no one else fucked him lololo So I rode my former leather Sir's dick in the middle of the night dry and raw and pity fucked a trololo boy. I did some wild things back in my younger days I suppose. Even though I've had numerous hook ups and clients I've never given anyone else a pity fuck besides trololo boy. I thought I was going to give that beefy bottom at eros a pity fuck two weeks ago but once I felt his ass and how furry and beefy it was and how their was already lube or cum inside I really wanted to fuck him and it was anything but a pity fuck. Fuck..I need to find that bottom again.

Hehe. I remember when I rejected a few poz tops on manhunt and bbrt. I was never mean it was more like, "Really appreciate the interest Sir but want to stay neg for as long as I can so I prefer not to bareback with you." Probably a hell of alot more detailed and apologetic than that but you get the idea eh? None of them were really offended only one or two. I remember I'd only go for so called neg guys. Then I'd change it to "Undetectable Preferred". Then "Doesn't Matter." And falalala I'm poz now. I was actually heavily looking on BBRT the other night and was wanting to get fucked but then decided, "Screw it I want some ass." I saw some really hot bottoms on bbrt but I saw a few that said, "Negative only" and even tops "oral or blowjob only." It doesn't really bother me because I'm pretty sure that more than half bottoms who say they want "neg only" will get stealthed, lied to, and eventually become poz. And those that saw blowjob or oral only. That's just a cover to have sex with a barebacker. I was a little disappointed that it was hard to find some ass on BBRT. But then again most of my pics are with cum leaking out of my ass, my ass, and etc. So I'll get some good dick pics on there. Because I had some guys on BBRT fucking me like ordering chinese. I found that a tad bit humorous and a lot were neg or undetectable. I'd really rather not resort having to fuck a cum dump at a bath house..but that one beefy bottom I fucked that night. Fuck that was a hot ass. It might be more fun to go to a bar and pick out an obvious bottom and fuck them. But the stigma might be an issue with that one. I told myself at first I was going to stay away from neg guys but on a site like bbrt if they will have sex with a poz guy they know what they are getting into. I know not everyone gets tested too so they might already be poz and not know it. But I find it funny that on adam4adam I see people who say "Safer only", "Neg" and my profile literally says, "FUCKING POZ" and I get a message from them. When I confront them they go, "trolololo I'm actually poz" or "I totally bareback." When I ask why they don't put it in their profile it's either "cool" or "k". I could write a fucking play on that simplicity of the way some people communicate on places like manhunt and adam4adam. But I'd probably only get a "k". I won't get into that..but I should elsewhere *shifts eyes...* I have recently started seeing neg guys on places like adam4adam or manhunt "popping up" on bbrt recently. Some start as "oral only" or faceless profile or just say "negative only". I think I'll have a cocktail and enjoy the show. *sips*

Leather Sex.. ..K so I'm pretty tired from tonight but I'll do my best. The leather couple that I know. The top's birthday was today and his partner invited me to dinner and to play afterwards. So after cleaning myself out I drove over there. First thing that happened when I got over there was notice they were dressed nice. Shit, I was dressed in tight shorts and a tight shirt. I had no idea it was more formal. But they dressed me in tight fitting 501's, waist size "28", boots, and a very nice shirt. I felt really fucking good and sharp. I also had my butt plug in since my ass has been tight. Before we left for dinner I re-adjusted it. Why was I so tight recently? We had a great dinner and I had a heineken and then we heading home. I was making out with the birthday top when we got back and he told me, "Dress in your leathers boy". While they were doing something I donned my leather. I knew exactly what was coming. When they got back the birthday top tied my wrists like he normally does. He also did 4 different ties around my arms, back, and chest. He normally does not do that and it's pretty tight. His partner was smoking a joint and stroking his cock. After playing with my nipples for a bit he undid all the ropes and re-did the one around my wrists since I messed it up somehow. Once my wrists were secured he put a blindfold on me and put my face in his partners crotch. I sucked his partner while he played with my ass and the butt plug I had in there. He pulled it out, put some lube on his cock and shoved it in. Fuck it hurt but I took it. While he was fucking me I was blowing his partner. His partner asked how he wants to fuck me. He said, "The sling." So I was pulled up and put into the sling. My blindfold was taken off and saw his partner take a hit of poppers. His partner stroked his cock and then he shoved his cock in my ass. It hurt a bit so I took some poppers which made it feel better. For some reason I was hurting back there before I even used the butt plug. But I was determined not to let it waver me. His partner fucked me for a good while and then really started pounding me. I met his thrusts and I felt his cum fill me up. Fucking hot. As his partner pulled out another blindfold was placed over my eyes and the ball gag. The birthday top pushed his cock inside and started fucking me. He is a lot bigger then his partner but his partners load lubed me up good inside. He fucked me for a bit and fucked me rough. He played with my cock some and put on the nipple clamps. He even poured alcohol on my dick and lit it on fire. I thought it was his partner smoking another joint. I was okay until I felt a strong burning and thrashed against the shacked arms and legs. He said it was okay though. I did not realize what it was until after. He went back to fucking me and told me that he is really going to fuck me now and that I am going to fucking take it. He pounded my ass but I was able to open up for him. And damn did he feel good. I thought he came but he held off. He's good at doing that. Since his partner works the next day he got me out of the sling and go me on the bed. We made out and he shot his load on my chest, face, and in my mouth. He undid everything after and I dressed and left. So much leather experience. So li

Saturday Night. Was house sitting and pet sitting for a friend. I had a leather top come over. As soon as he come over we started making out. I could barely finishing the tour of the house because he had me turned over and bent over and was feeling my ass. He told me to get on my knees and I blew him. He bent me over the table and used a little lube and I took a hit of poppers and he fucked me. He fucked me really hard. I decided not to use my butt plug for him so that way he could really tear my ass up. We took it over to the couch and while he kept pounding my ass the couch was moving. I felt his cock start to get slick inside me and knew he was getting close. He kept calling me a bitch whore faggot saying that he loves it when his faggot screams and moans. He would sometimes pause and shove it in me really hard and deep just to torture me. After pounding me until It was starting to hurt, he fucked me even harder and faster. While I was moaning and in ecstasy he shouted that he was breeding my ass. As soon as he pulled out I serviced his cock and cleaned it. We got dressed and headed out for dinner. When we got back I was making him coffee in the kitchen and he bent me over the kitchen counter and started fucking me. Fuck he only used a little spit but the cum I had inside me worked as lube. He fucked me for a good bit while calling me a bitch, faggot, whore, and I was trying my best to keep my balance until he bred me. I made him his coffee and put a little bourbon in it and gave him a drink and we watched some tv. We moved to the bedroom and we watched a show on my tablet. After it was over we cuddled, made out, and I felt him rubbing and fingering my ass. I was a good little bitch and I serviced my Sir and made him nice and hard. I got on my belly and felt his raw cock enter and fuck me. My hole was pretty sloppy and I could feel his thick cock sliding in and out of my ass. I love how he calls me a bitch and calls me his faggot pussy boy and makes me say it sometimes too. After pounding me for a bit he finally bred me. We cuddled in each other's arms and went to sleep. Because he had to get going we did not have time to fuck the next morning but I blew him. He recorded me blowing him as well. I can't wait until he sends it to me. I had a great time with him and normally don't do overnights. I know we'll see each other frequently.

So again.. So I went into town to get something. After I completed that I fought with the idea of going to the bath house. But decided to. SO glad I did. And then the question whether to get a room or not. So glad I did. I got a room, made the room up, turned on some bareback porn and got horned up. As soon as I walked out I played with a latino boy but he wasn't really good at sucking my cock and kept scraping it and was a little too frantic so I sent him away. I walked around a bit and found an older guy. Really cute older business guy. We played in the glory hole area and then we went back to my room. After servicing him I spread my ass for him and he pushed in and started fucking me. It felt so fucking good. He shot a load up my ass and told me about a lakehouse up north and wanting me to visit him. He gave me his number. Considering it. So that was my first load. I wandered to the steam area and saw a hot older german daddy. He could barely speak and couldn't really understand what I was saying. But he understood, "fuck" and cock". I went to his room and I sucked his HUGE curved cock and asked him if he wanted to fuck me. I gave him a hit of poppers and got on all fours and spread my ass for him and he pushed in. I noticed some condoms on the stand but he was fucking me raw. It felt so damn good but he was going at a slower pace. After a bit he pulled out and put on a condom. Damn I had to figure out a way around this. I asked if he wanted some more poppers to fuck me. He said he did. He took another hit and I rubbed his condom covered cock against my ass, stroked it, put it in a little and I could see and feel how much he wanted to fuck me. I pulled the condom off and he asked what I was doing. I told him to just rub it against my hole a little. He did and I opened up my ass as he pushed in. There we go. He really fucked me hard and I could feel his whole cock. I could feel and hear him getting close so I worked my ass on his cock and I felt a huge load and I felt him shove his dick up far into my ass. I yelped when he did so. He kept fucking me and I kept riding his cock and working my ass muscles. I got a second load out of him. He pulled out and still hard. He said he needed to rest though because he was overwhelmed and it was intense for him. I saw a very sexy cub daddy when I was walking around. We talked and he sucked me, I sucked him, and he kept playing with my ass but diddn't say he wanted to fuck me. I suggested I stradle him. So I sat on his cock and felt it enter and he started fucking me. I'm not sure why he was so reserved or hesitant but his resistance was losing as he was fucking me and I was riding him. Unfortunately he did not come but I came. He seemed really nervous for some reason. I already asked about bareback and stuff and he diddn't have a problem with it. This next one was almost the hottest fuck. I went to the glory hole area and saw a hot muscle daddy. He looked at me and I looked at him. I stroked my cock and he said hi and rubbed my nipple. I said hi back and rubbed him. He seemed a little nervous. I knew what he was after. I got on my knees and he immediately undid his towel so I could blow him. After servicing his huge cock for a while he turned me around and rubbed my ass and fingered it. He pushed me against the wall and shoved his raw cock up my ass. Fuck his cock felt so good and big. Felt so hot getting fucked in the open like that too. I invited him to my room so we'd be more comfortable though. We got on the bed and I lay down on my belly. I took a hit of poppers and he shoved his cock up my ass. He fucked me really hard and told me to take his load and I felt more cum being added to my ass. While he was breeding me too he shouted, "TAKE MY NEG MARRIED CUM". I got on my knees after he bred me and cleaned his cock. While I was on my knees a small amount of the cum was dripping from my ass onto the floor. He asked if I was negative or positive and I told him "Positive". He thanked me for the fuck and left. Poor married guy. Fucking raw and expecting someone to be negative and honest about it. Especially after a fuck. So I figured that was it. I went to shower and released all the cum I had up my ass. I was going to head back but I decided to check the glory hole area one more time. A cute boy approached me and rubbed my ass and showed me his hard cock. I already had all the lube and cum out and was getting ready to leave. I was trying to decide if I should go for it or not. He did not give me much of a choice and told me to suck his cock and put my head against his cock and fucked my face. I gagged a little because it was big and he was rough. He pulled me off and felt my ass and said he wanted to fuck it. I was nervous but he took out some lube and got his dick ready and pushed inside. Fuck it hurt..but part of me really wanted it and there was still a little cum inside. He fucked me really hard right there in the open. Some guys were jacking off in the cubicles next to us. I just rode his dick and concentrated on loosening up. I felt him tense up and he told me he was going to cum. I told him to fucking breed my ass and I jacked my cock and came when he did. He thanked me and slapped my ass and enjoyed it. I saw him before I was leaving he was doing laps in the pool and everything. Glad I was able to help him so much. So took a few loads, some really hot guys, and had fun. Good night.

Oh what a night last night was. So I originally had plans with a traveller but they weren't able to do anything. So I still decided I would have fun. I saw someone I haven't seen online in a while. We agreed that I would go over to his place. Bit of a drive and a little traffic but I finally make it over there. He looks as hot as ever and my instinctive submissive nature comes out and he is making out with me, rubbing my ass, and I'm arching my back for easier access, and he starts fingering my hole. He tells me that we are going upstairs. When we get upstairs we make out some more and after he takes off my shirt he pulls out his cock. I get on my knees and admire his huge piece of meat and take a brief second to just take it all (literally) of everything that is about to happen. Then I slowly lick his cock, sniff it, lick around it, lick his balls, and take it in my mouth. Fuck he is rock hard and his cock is pretty big. He starts steadily fucking my face while I suck him. He pulls me off of him and makes out with me more. He lifts me while we are making out and puts me on my back on the bed. He takes off my shorts while I'm on the bed and he admires me almost naked in my underwear. He grabs his cock and pulls part of my underwear back and snakes his cock in and starts pushing inside my ass. Fuck I feel it and how big it is but he stops and pulls back. We make out some more, he takes off my underwear and rims me for a good while. While he is rimming me I'm rock hard and I'm working my ass muscles on his tongue letting him fuck my hole. He says he is ready to fuck my ass. I take a hit of poppers and feel him push in. Fuck he feels so damn big and my hole is tight. He asks me if I'm comforable and tells me that he wants me to enjoy it. If a top tells me that I'm honest. Some tops just want to slam it in and I'll moan and shriek like a bitch when it pops in and my hole is stretched. But for the tops that want me to enjoy it too and don't mind patience. They are rewarded. I told him to push slowly and I'll let my ass sink down on his cock. I took deep breathes and slowly felt my hole open up and sink down onto his cock. I did this until I was almost on it completely and starting thrusting my ass on his cock. He started to fuck me. I took another hit of poppers and let him pound my ass. He had maximum impact on the night stand and he asked me to spray it on the rag for him. I sprayed a good bit for him and pushed it against his face and nose and I saw him moan and I felt his dick get harder. While the maximum impact rag was covering his face and mouth, I raised my face to his and made out with him while we both inhaled maximum impact. He sprayed a more on the rag for me and pressed it against my face and nose. I could just smell the maximum impact but then I started inhaling it like I did poppers. While I was inhaling it through my nostrils something happened. I re-awakened. All the worry about being poz, being a cum slut, being a cum dump, restraint, holding myself back, all the worries and doubts I had before were shattered. I felt my hole completely open up and I felt his cock feel even bigger inside me. And I wanted it. I craved it. I needed it. My hole felt so wet and felt so horny. He fucked me hard. I begged him to fuck me and he started sliding in and out of my hole easier. I realized that my hole was now a cum hole. I missed that feeling. I needed that feeling again. I begged him to breed me and he really started to fuck me and I came. My hole tightened up and he pulled out. I begged him to put it back in and he kept slapping his dick against my hole and jacking it off. He asked if I wanted his load I told him, "YES GIVE THIS POZ PIG YOUR POZ LOAD SIR!". He shoved it..literally shoved his cock in me. I felt it forcefully pop inside but it felt so good and I fucked myself on his cock frantically. I felt his huge cum load invade my ass and seep out while he was fucking me. He pulled out and I immediately got on my knees and cleaned his cock. He thanked me and told me I'm a good boy. I finally felt what I've needed to feel. I finally said what I have been needing to say. But like all pigs poz or not. Like all cum dumps. We crave more. Once you awaken there's no going back. ...To be continued. ..right now. There is more I took a shower and left. I told myself this night isn't over. I figured I would leave after and go home but now that I re-awakened as a poz cum hole I needed more cock and cum. I need to feel that again. I need to find "that" man. I decided I'd go to flex since I haven't been in a while. When I got there an older man told me not to bother. he said mostly old guys and not too many young guys. i said well I like older. He told me that there weren't many guys either. I did admit I was surprised I got parking near the entrance. That's very rare. I saw people leaving too. There is validity in the fact that it's busiest in the early evening instead of later. He hinted that he wanted to play with me but I thanked him and told him to enjoy his stay..if I was a hustler I could have gotten him. But I'm not like that. But still. So I decided to go to eros. I get in for free. I got there and changed in the parking lot into my daisy dukes, my jock strap, and no shirt. How a slut dresses. It's been a while. I walked inside and walked around checking out the guys. Not too many. But decided that I'd wait a bit. I saw a hot guy in a room looking at my with the door half open. But he was no action so I decided meh. I saw another hot muscle guy walk by but he had no interest. Then it happened. I walked by the sling room and saw someone was in it. I felt an ass and thought, fuck, someone is already trying to do what I diddn't have the balls to do. He feels my hand and rubs it and places it near his hole. I felt that his hole was hairy, he seemed like a hairy guy himself, and thought that it's a nice hole. I figured why not. Perfectly good piece of ass cum dump in front of me. I can get off. I pull my dick out of my pants and I'm hard fast. I take a hit of poppers and I shove my cock into the guy. I don't start out slow. I felt earlier that there was lube or cum dripping from his ass. Besides. We are both cut from the same cloth. It feels really good fucking him. He moaned and I could hear him making noises of approval as I'm fucking him. His ass feels really good. I grab his legs and slam in and out a few times. I start to develop a rhythm for fucking him. But I also pull out all the way and slam my cock back in to let him know that for the time being his ass is mine and that he's not going anywhere until I'm done with him. His ass feels so good that I decide I'm going to breed him. I start fucking him a lot faster and really pounding his ass. He's moaning even more now and I feel my poz cum churning in my balls. I feel myself coming even closer and I fuck him harder until I shout, "I'M GONNA CUM" and I fuck his ass while my poz cum loads him up. Fuck it's a hot ass. I keep fucking him while I'm unloading and my dick stays hard. My dick usually stays hard after I cum or doesn't really go soft. I decide that I'm going to enjoy this piece of ass for a bit. Someone comes by while I'm fucking him. The muscle guy from earlier feels me up and starts playing with my ass. I focus more on the guy I'm fucking so he leaves. I keep fucking the bottom and feel that I'm getting close to coming again. The muscle guy comes back and he really starts feeling my ass. He only makes me harder and I pull down my pants for him and I feel his cock push into my ass. It feels really thick like a bear can. Kinda like a bear cock. I moan as it goes inside me and the bottom moans as I fall on top of him and my dick goes in even more. He pops out and I take a hit of my poppers and had him my boy butter and he pushes back in. I push into the bottom and we have a bareback sling train going on. I'm fucking the bottom while the hot muscle top is fucking my ass. Fuck they both feel so good. He starts to fuck me harder though and push me away from the bottom. I slip out of the bottom and he fucks my ass seperate for a while. Then he starts fucking the bottom. I figure the guy is like me and just wants ass or to sample ass. I put on my jock and daisy dukes and let them be. I see him later and he looks frustrated and trying to find someone else. Guess he diddn't get his nut. Oh well, thats what the bitch gets for not taking advantage of my ass. I don't have any more encounters so I leave. I'm really hungry on the way home so I head to burger king. While I am getting closer I get on growlr and see someone who lives by online. He instantly messages me asking if I want cock. I say, "YES SIR BREED ME" and he tells me to come over. I've met him once before he's poz "not on meds" and barebacks. I still find it funny how some guys like to bug chase and don't get converted and I played around for less than a year and became poz without trying. Maybe it's just my city. But anyways. I go over and start blowing him. He takes a hit of my poppers and he's over aggressive and bites my lip a few times. Hard. It hurts and he laughs. He also makes me choke on his dick to the point where I'm gagging and holds me down while I can't breathe. When I finally get a breathe I realize, "Dude's batshit, time to get his load and go." I take a hit and sit on his cock. I ride his cock intensely and it doesn't take him long and he shoots his load up my ass. He is moaning, panting, and in ecstasy as his poz load seeps it's way inside my ass. He laughs and does other weird noises too. He thanks me and I leave. So two out of three ain't bad. His cock is fun. I might start fucking more. But hotter if the guy can fuck me too. Diddn't feel bad about not telling the cumdump in the sling I'm poz because I know he knows what he is doing being in that sling lubed up and taking bare cock. I almost wanted to say, "Here's my gift" or "Enjoy the gift" afterwards. But maybe I'm not good at that poz talk yet. Not sure if I want to yet either. Who knows.

First ever sex in the bathroom yesterday. Been talking to a sexy bear on growlr for a while. We finally planned to meet. I prepared myself and set out to meet him. Unfortunately he was a tad bit far and I got lost but after I saw him in the store all the stress, worry, and everything disappeared and all I could think about was kissing his sexy lips and bending taking his cock up my ass. We met at a store to check each other out and then we went to a public bathroom. It was a bit of a walk and we got to talk a little. I was surprised at how much taller he was then me. He went in first and I waited for a few minutes and went in the restroom with him. I heard the resturant was a bit busy. But I was focussing on him once we were inside and the door was closed and locked. He immedietely started kissing me and I felt his tongue swirl around in my mouth. Fuck he was a good kisser. I thought, "This is gonna be fun". After making out for a bit he took of my shirt, I took off his, and I serviced his nipples and licked his chest. I could feel his bulge against me and he pulled down his shorts and out flopped his beautiful thin cock. I sucked it and he tried so hard not moan loudly since we were trying to be quiet. He fucked my face for a bit and then he pulled me back up to make out with him some more. He pulled my shorts down and he took my cock out of my jock and sucked me. Fuck he felt good sucking me. Since I'm new to cock pleasure, topping, and everything and more of a bottom I'm not really good at controlling my cock. I fucked his face pretty hard. He tried to pull away but I held him in place and he jacked his dick so hard. I was so wanting to come and so ready when we heard a knock on the door. He yelled out, "Occupied!". He turned me around and felt my ass and rubbed it. Fuck I knew what was coming. He pulled out lube from his bag and starting lubing my hole and his cock. I took a hit of poppers and put my hands on the towel dispenser. And I felt his cock slide into me and fuck it felt so good. I backed my ass up against his cock and rode him for a while. He tried so hard not to be too loud but he was enjoying my ass. He turned me to the sink and I grabbed the sink and he really started to fuck me. I could tell he had a little trouble since it was an awkward position and the height difference. I closed the toilet lid and bent over the toilet and spread my cheeks apart. I felt his cock again, enter me and fuck he slammed it in. He fucked me pretty hard and I was trying so hard not to cry out that my ass was getting fucked get and hard. But I held it in. I moved up to the rail above the toilet and he really started to pound me. He told me he was going to fucking breed my hot ass. I felt him pound me harder and he told me to take his load and take it all. I felt his cock slam in and his cum fill up my ass. Fuck it was hot. When his dick fell out, I got on my knees and cleaned him off. We left since there were a few more knocks. He really wanted me to cum but I was too nervous with everything going on. I said goodbye to him and he thanked me and set off. I went to target to do some shopping and I hated to, but had to release the load since I was meeting someone later. So I met someone for drinks, nice guy but he seemed a little clingy and attached but I was nice and we still had fun. I went back to his place and when we got to his room we made out and cuddled a bit. He fucked me for a little but was having a little trouble. He asked me to fuck him. I immedietely got behind him and slapped some boy butter on my cock and in his hole and slammed my cock in. Fuck it felt good. I just fucked him hard and pounded his ass. I fuck like how I want to be fucked and what feels good for my dick. His ass felt really good and I stood up at one point so I could really slam his hole. All in all I bred him 3 times. When we woke up..he ignored the alarm so we woke up late. I had a huge morning hard on. I said, "turn over". He did as told and I spit on my cock and shoved it up his ass. I felt a little resistance but still shoved it in. Fuck it felt good for me. He seemed to enjoy it too. I fucked him pretty quickly and shot my morning load up his ass. I'm probably a horrible top since I just shove it in and slam and fuck and pound it hard and fast. But it makes my dick feel good and I know how it feels to bottom. I also know what a lot of bottoms want. Hope to have more fun.

Hehe I chatted with a hot young bear on growrl last night. I wasn't sure if he was that into me but after I snapped a recent face pic of my sexy wild facial hair he really liked it. We talked more and I realized despite his youth, yes I'm calling you sexy 30 year olds young, he had quite a bit of experience with leather. I told him I was poz and he was cool with it. He still said he wanted to breed my ass and make me his bitch and use me. After lots of chatting we planned to meet today in the morning. So morning came. I got prepared and dressed in my leather shorts, leather vest, and boots and headed over. As soon as I got inside I immedietely got into slave present stance (still remember them..but apparently not the name). He had me bend over in my leather shorts and he slapped my leather shorts covered ass a few times and then he put me on his knees and dropped his shorts and his cock was infront of me. I obediently serviced his cock and he moaned and groaned in pleasure. Called me a good bitch boy and fucked my bitch mouth. He pulled out and told me to get on my hands and knees on the table. I got on the table and he spanked me some more and began a verbal assault of heavily calling me a bitch, ass, whore faggot. I was loving it and my dick was so hard in my jock covered with my leather shorts and my butt plug in my ass. He told me to stand up and said, "Let's see how good you kiss boy". Hah this man has no idea what he was in for. I opened my mouth and slowly and gently swirled my tongue in his mouth, and moved my lips and face and he was grabbing me, and we heavily made out with each other. He told me to open my mouth wide and he spit in my mouth and I swallowed it. Good boy he said. He told me to get on all fours on the table again. He made me beg and degrade myself like calling myself a faggot, calling my hole his pussy, and that I'm his faggot bitch boy and that I need to be fucked hard by my Sir. He shoved it in me. Good thing I was already lubed from the butt plug. It did hurt but it also felt so damn good. He fucked me for a bit and then he pulled out. He put the butt plug back in me and fucked me with it for a while. Then he pulled out his dildo and put it in me. It was very tough for me to take it but I took it. But I did not take it for long. He fucked me over the table for a bit, he fucked me on my back on the table, and then he put a leather belt over my neck. While he was fucking me he'd pull at the leather belt which made me a little light headed and made me float a little as well. He really liked fucking me like that. At one point he told me to bark like a dog and beg for his cock. I have natural pup noises I've made in the past so it was easy to tap in that. I barked and whimpered for his cock. He shoved it in me and I yelped and he said what a good boy I am. He fucked me some more and then pulled on the leash and told me to get up. He took me to his stairs where he had velcro restraints on both sides of the railing. He took my arms and fastened them and gave me a big hit of poppers. He made me beg for his cock again and he started fucking me on the stairs. It was so fucking hot and I couldn't do anything but take his cock and beg him to fuck me while he continued to keep up his verbal assault. He undid the straps and said we aren't done yet boy. He took me to a couch with a dog mat on it and I saw dog fur over it. He said, "Since you are going to bark, whimper, and beg like I dog I'm fucking you like the dog you are where the dogs sleep." He threw me on the dog bed couch and shoved his dick in me. My head was getting crushed into the window ceil so he threw a pillow their and fucked me hard. I could still feel my skull against the window ceil as he was fucking me and continuing his verbal assualt. He told me to beg for his load and beg for me to breed him which I did. I barked a few times too and that really got him hard and he shoved it in and bred me. Fuck I felt my hole getting filled up. After he pulled out I got on my knees and cleaned his cock and serviced him. We made out so more too. I did not realize it but he planned on going more then once. He bent me over again and shoved his cock in my hole and fucked me again. I cleaned his cock again and he fucked me again. This time my hole was so sloppy from his two loads his cock was sliding in and out and he was really pounding me. After he bred me for the third time I cleaned his cock again. This time he had me jack myself off while I sucked him. He pulled his cock out of my mouth while I jacked off and just as I came he came over my face and squirted his load on my tounge. I swallowed Sir's precious seed and thanked him for feeding boy. I took the load that I jacked off in my hand and rubbed it over his cock and jacked his cock and cleaned both his load and my load on his cock. We decided to take a shower. He washed me in the shower and I washed him and we went back downstairs. I told him if he was busy I could leave since I had an hour and 30 left until I had to help a friend. He said I am welcome to stay. We sat on the couch and then we lay on the couch together and he spooned me. I told him a bit about myself and he told me a lot about himself as well. I licked him on the cheek and he really started making out with me. He told me to grab his cock which I did and felt how hard it was. He pushed my face into his shorts covered crotch and grinded my face against his cock. He pulled his pants down and I greedily sucked his cock and he fucked my face. I licked his balls too and smelled his crotch. Fuck his crotch smelled so fucking hot and got me so fucking horned up. He said he was going to use his cum dump bitch again. He got on top of me and shoved his cock inside. It hurt, but inside my ass I felt how slippery and wet it was and while he fucked me I felt how full my ass was and how some of his cum was dripping out of my ass while he fucked me. I raised my ass and let him tear up my ass and pound me. He once again begged for me to take his load and I begged him to breed and use his faggot bitch and I felt my hole fill up to the max. he pulled out and I cleaned his cock again. We kissed some more afterwards and I got dressed. I found out he likes pup play too so that's really good to know. I also like how outside of sex he's more laid back and calm but during sex he's aggressive, he's load, and he's dominant. I found out he's irish too. Extra hot. I got fucked hard and used by a hot horny irish man. I left happy with 4 loads in my ass and went to help out my friend. Me and my friend wrastled a bit and he stuck his finger in my ass and I know he could feel the loads back there. He liked his finger too. After we were done working I got him worked up and he pushed a dildo in my ass. He diddn't use much lube since the cum served as lube and he blew me. Fuck his mouth felt good and I tapped more into my liking to fuck side. He pulled off my cock and I licked his balls and ass as I shot my load. He had me sit on his face and he licked and ate some of the cum out of my ass while he shot his load. When I got in the shower it was beyond hot how I squirted out a gigantic load of cum. It filled my hand like cupping water. I smelled it and I drank it. Fuck it was so hot that the irish man seriously filled me. And if I diddn't have to help my friend I'm sure he would have filled me up more to where my hole would have been so lubed up with cum I would have really been his cumdump. Fuck it was a hot fuck. The friend isn't really fond of me barebacking either so I'm kinda curious as to what his reaction was when he smelled the cum in my ass and licked it off his finger. And when he was rimming me some of that cum had to get onto his tounge. He might he sucked or eaten some of that out as well. I know he won't fuck me now since I'm poz but that was hot. And now tonight is leather pride night. Gotta get ready and fulfill my core. Hope I have stories to share

Couldn't agree more. Although I usually just ignore don't need to block. I keep my face pic open. But there have been times when I locked it. But the point is it's accessible to show a guy if I'm into him. I agree that it means they are fake. I think a huge sign of someone fake is something like "Hot looking for boy to use like you and own and use" Contact me at Iamaatotalfuckingtoolfuckatyahoo.combecauseyahoosuckslol.com Look forward to hearing from you" I've gotten messages like that and I don't respond and a day later the profile is deleted. I remember on recon along time ago too I chatted with someone a lot and they kept teasing about showing pics and they finally showed it (through email) and I rejected them. I have a problem sometimes too when you go on a site and someone immediately says, "Email me at" I understand some sites have message limits like manhunt. But at the same time I'm not big on emailing guys. That's what these sites are for.

It's called elevator music

This is actually refreshing to hear. When I tested poz and got the testing at a counselor like center everything I filled out was basically gone over. I was honest about barebacking but when it came down to "how many guys you played with". I don't like lying. I hate it. But I put 20. Because off the top of my head 20 is what I remember..that being in the last 3-4 months. He said, "Well that is a high number but the good news is if you stick to condoms you are young and you can have as many partners as you want and be safe and have fun". He was basically trying to sell safe sex to me. And when I did confirm poz he insisted now that I'm poz I don't go to just bareback and still use condoms. And when I got tested the first time he told me, "Well go have fun this weekend and don't worry about it. We can even give you some condoms so you can have some safe fun." I wanted to choke or slit my wrists when I heard that. I told them I don't need them and that I was too devastated to have sex for a while. Partially true. But it's like those guys on some online sites who say, "Play safe but play hard". It's really useless trying to sell safe sex like it's trendy, hipster, and cool. Doing it that way fails harder than the US Sex Education Classes. But with a center like that I can't be honest with them. It was just be too much lecturing and the jesus condom speech. I am going to see a doctor soon and I actually was a little bit nervous about what to tell a doctor that I might see more often. I'm just gonna straight out say, "Yeah..a month or two ago I had 9 or so loads up my ass before I went to sleep and most were poz/und/unknown." I just felt that if you are honest about bareback, taking loads, and etc. that they won't want to give you meds, tests, or care because you are viewed as part of the problem (which maybe, technically we are) but maybe this only applies if you are trying to get meds for free or discount and don't have a higher income or good insurance.

Hope the title wasn't too lame. I've been thinking about this lately. But i go to a few different sites that involve hook up and sex. Sites like bbrt always have pictures of most guys and usually face pics too. But I find it strange that some sites like squirt and adam4adam half the guys don't have face pictures or sometimes ANY pictures. *left this part about because I'm afraid of mentioning anything poz related on account of getting an infraction..hope this doesn't count* But I find it stranger now that on some sites like squirt and adam4adam being open about my status and barebacking that I get messages from faceless profiles or sometimes blank profiles with "Hi" or "Love to get together". It's a personal peeve of mine for a guy to message with me without even seeing his face. It can be slightly ignored if he at least has body pics but having no picture and just "the blank outline" is annoying. No profile is more annoying. I'm wondering do these guys just want to secretly get together with a barebacker or something? I understand some men are married, discreet, cheating, lying to themselves, and etc. But I know some men who are smart enough on some of these sites who make the locked picture their face. But come on it's 2013. If you can't get a face pic then really? Or any pics for that matter. So I guess the point of this thread (besides to rant) is do you notice that some sites have more people who are on there or who message you who have no face pic or profile vs. sites where it's not common. And what do you think the reason for that is? It's really got me curious for some reason. I feel bad for the site too because no one wants to go to a site where it's faceless. But then again..maybe there is a market for that.

I'll admit it. There are secretly some madonna songs I'd love to have sex to. But back on topic. I did have a fuck bud when I was 18 and we played a lot. A few times we played he had a "pre-pandora" like radio station and he'd have music during sex. It wasn't techno or disco though. Once he let me listen to one of my station's and I liked that. What was the most memorable with music during sex was sex with a guy in a hotel in North Carolina. I had an iPhone at that time and he had a iHome dock in the hotel room. I forgot how it got brought up but we were having sex to Linkin Park, Blink-182, AVA, and etc. I was really surprised that he was okay with that. Who knows, maybe he just really wanted young ass. But the point is since music has always been a VERY strong influence and relaxer for me being in that younger self when I listened to lots of LP, blink-182, to get through hard times. Using that music during sex was very powerful for me and made it more intense. Haha imagine having sex to a linkin park song. I think it was probably like, "One Step Closer" or maybe something from minutes to midnight. Actually with my former Master now that I think about it. That night he made love to during what was "Gay Pride" weekend in Atlanta we stayed in. I couldn't go to clubs cause I was 19 or so and we tried to go to a drag show (18+) but a women doing drag of a scottish man infuriated him so much he was clawing the table and I got him out of there fast. Point is after I gave him complete control and he was the first to EVER bareback me (not that I thought of it like that back then) I think I did play a Jimmy Eat World song on my phone. It might have been "futures" or "a praise chorus". I remember it repeated a few times for some reason and we both eventually got tired of it and I went to turn it off. But we did technically make love to the song and technically it was the bareback virginity taken song (well taken bareback I mean). Even though I consider "our" song to be something else. I do know someone who does music right during sex. Same fuckbud I get together with who has a big dick. He has music playing upstairs when we always go up there. It's some kind of disco or techno. But it's played so low you can't really hear it. It's funny because I always remember it when I get in and before we undress. And I always hear it after I come out of the shower and get dressed. It might be on while we have sex but hell if I notice. I always focus on taking that man's giant cock without him re-arranging my innards. Or destroying them. But technically I haven't known that many guys that had music during sex. Oh and I think that was just a phase when I was younger wanting to play my lame rock/punk music during sex. I stopped doing shit like that years ago. Actually I know of a hetero couple where the Sir plays Metallica, Slipknot, Disturbed, Korn, and a few others when he does BDSM on his woman. But that's another topic with dungeon sex music. I did know a top who played buttboy. He actually got me into buttboy. I don't really see that much about him but he used a few tracks when we played once. I'll admit though. Justin Timberlakes new CD. During sex yes plz. Or at least making out with a guy. But that kinda stuff is saved for clubs