TigerMilner

Because we are. Because they are. It's how it works.

I suggest a good start would be a to post a photo on your profile. Baby steps...

All I can do is hope that she doesn't google me. If she does that, game over. Googling Tiger Milner brings up a lot of stuff, most of it is pirated copies of my videos on other sites that I have no control over. If she does that, she will think I'm a porn star. Then she will want a new car.

I've been thinking alot about whether or not there have been any crossovers between my real life and my online personae that could affect my kids, unintentional or not since Deaner asked about what they know of my escapades. The only thing I can come up with other than the Gmail account slip up is that they know TopDawg from xtube. Of course they don't know him as TopDawg from xtube but they know him by his real name and that we date. He and I live two hours apart and so we have to travel to see each other. When he comes to see me, it means coming to my house, which means he has met my kids. And btw, he is great with them. If we lived closer together, he and I could be an item. He's husband material. A very classy guy, he refuses to have sex in my house with them at home. I do cringe to think of them ever seeing my videos and especially to think of them recognizing he and I together in three of them. But at least he's hot. lol. And they do like him. Other than that, I have kept the two worlds completely separate. And I plan to keep them that way.

Believe me, the proud dad in me would love to show you his pics, but not on this site. I draw the line. lol.

Cocksucker, both Tampa and St Pete have seedy bookstores with glory holes for you to man. Tampa also has a few bath houses that gh set ups as well. With two boats you would really be at home there. Check it out. It's only two hours north of me and I visit there often to play when I don't feel like Ft Lauderdale or Miami's rat race. It's a totally different crowd and vibe.

Deaner, I like how you always get to the heart of the matter. You actually asked several good questions and quite a few guys wrote to me privately with similar ones so I am going to address them here as there seems to be curiosity. I have never written about my kids on here for obvious reasons, but this thread gives me legitimate reason to do so. First, I live an openly gay life with my kids and in my community. So yes they know I'm gay and so do their friends. It's no secret and it's no big deal. Most of their friends think it is cool. (My kids also know I am poz, they know I am undetectable and what that means, they know I am on meds and that I am healthy, but they no nothing about my sexual habits). No, they do not know about my blog, my xtube page, my videos, stories or any of my internet escapades (that I am aware of). My daughter recently discovered my Tiger Milner Gmail account when she borrowed my laptop to check her email while hers was uploading something. When she went to log on to Gmail, up pops my face with the name Tiger Milner asking If I wanted to log in. She asked what that was all about. I told her it was my Heisenberg (a reference to Breaking Bad). I then grinned and said "Don't ask questions you don't want to know the answers to". She said "Good answer". I then told her it was a name I was using for art I was experimenting with that I didn't want to put my real name on. (Not a lie). That was that. (I think). I believe my son is totally straight. Judging from the sounds that come from his room when he is banging chicks, he's a stud. Since he broke up with his girlfriend last month he has gotten a new piece of ass every other day. He's a little hottie. He is adopted so he looks nothing like me. He is biracial. Looks a lot like Micheal Jackson before all the surgeries. He has a $million smile. Actually it cost me $10K and it was a great investment. The best friend is definitely 100% gay. I confirmed it discretely through my daughter who knew him in high school. My son knows him from Banana Republic. They used to hang out as a trio, my son, his girlfriend, and his gay friend, but now the girl friend is out of the picture it is just the two guys still hanging. Yes, he is hot. Seeing him in a wet swim suit all the time lately has made me wet. But, my role as a dad would out weigh my need for sex. Rephrase: I would never make a move on him. I might not say no to him if he made a move, I mean the rejection might be devasting right? lol. Now, what would I do if I ran into him in a sex club or bath house? Bend over probably. It is hot to think I could be some kids gay version of Mrs Robinson.

I'm just glad I was on my "mr nice guy" profile and not one of my usual slutty profiles. This whole incident does have me wondering how long will it be before one of my kids friends, or one of their professors, or co-workers, or someone they know recognizes me as Tiger Milner, online whore. When they were in high school I could control who and what they knew and where exposed to. Now they are adults and it's out of my hands. It's bound to happen. I've got to figure out how I'm gonna handle that when it does happen. In the meantime, my son and his friend are enjoying a week in the keys this week with a few other friends. From the looks of their facebook posts, a good time is being had.

He only used his first name, John. I don't where the idea he used his full name came from.

I did look at your link. Looks like you have done way more than I have. Good for you. As for moving, I live in South Florida and I don't have to deal with any of the redneck attitudes you mention. Anywhere from Orlando south is good, but stick to the larger cities as some of the smaller towns can get that redneck vibe as Florida is in the south. St. Pete would be my choice if I were starting fresh. It has a vibrant art community and a large gay community and it's a beautiful city with lots of coastline. Close enough to Tampa that you get all the benefits of a major urban area as well. Of course Ft Lauderdale is the gay mecca, but it is congested and many guys I know who live there say it is more fun to visit than to live there. Great shopping though. If you want to stay deep south but more urban, I'd suggest Atlanta. I love Atlanta. It's where I'm originally from and if you like men of color, you will be in heaven. If I didn't have kids located in south florida I'd move to Atlanta in a heartbeat. I can't handle the cold winters, but you are probably still used to them. Good luck.

I started out exactly the same way about 4 years ago. At first I started experimenting with making hidden camera videos of anonymous sexual encounters. Then I got up the nerve to create a profile on xtube. I got such a rush out of seeing how many men got off on my videos. I'd get a new rush every day as I watched the numbers go thru the roof, then as they would get up near a half million views, I'd get that same remorse you mentioned and delete my profile. Then a few months and few new videos later I'd create a new profile and do all over again. Then one day a friend of mine confronted me after finding me on xtube and said "Hey, you told me you quit doing that" and he got all self righteous about it. It really made think about what I was doing. The next day I made a new profile with the name Tiger Milner on it and the rest, as they say is history. That is until xtube banned me from the site just before I hit 2 million views. Since then i've started my own blog and have given up doing hidden cam videos as I have learned that they are illegal. My blog now averages between 30K-35K views a month! That is a lot of jerking off! I've also experienced having people from work find my blog and getting fired over it. It didn't stop me, but it did make me feel somewhat betrayed by my own blog, but I'm getting over that. You do have to develop a somewhat thick skin as your work gets more and more attention. It is great when it gets popular, but you do get some negative along with the good. But hey, I'm only human and I do have feelings. But I believe in what I am doing, I love what I am doing, and no one is going to stop me from doing it. No one should stop you from doing it either. Be who you are. Let the world see it. And, FYI, even after getting banned from xtube my new profile Banned4good is about to hit 2 million views any day now with absolutely no promotion on my behalf. It's my little fuck you to xtube for taking my name away from me. Banned for good my ass!

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Well if I wake up and his dick is in my face then that could be a whole different story! And from what I've seen of him in a swim suit, it's a hell of a dick!

Oh, I agree 100%. If there is one thing I am good at it's being a dad and I would never embarass him or my son by doing anything inappropriate. I'm just about the coolest dad in the world, and the proof is in my amazing kids. And the fact that their friend stay here more than their own homes. But it doesn't hurt to look or to fantasize.

I usually do. Then once I get all clear, I tend to wait a little longer. I'm kind of a binge player, so I tend to play out the period of time when I know I'm clean for as long as I can before I wild again. The weeks prior to new blood work are balls to the wall. It's all you can eat time. I figure I might as well pig out right up until the blood work is done and I start over again. Bizarre huh?

Here is a first for me. My son and his best friend who works with him at the Banana Republic are showering and getting ready to go out. I'm doing the same thing. I'm on A4A seeing what is out there. Not much. So I decide to check Grindr. The closest guy to me is only 183 feet away. I click on the profile. It is John. My son's best friend. The same kid who I bought dinner for and who is sleeping in my guest room. In fact, his pic is taken in my guest room. Full face pic. And he used his name. HOLY SHIT. Not sure what to do with this. I was just telling my best friend about how I was lusting after this kid after seeing him around the house so much lately and now I see him on Grindr! It does make me kind of proud of my son that he has a gay guy for a best friend. There are lines even i won't cross. I wonder if this is one of them? lol.

You sound very hot to me. I agree with the one poster who commented about not parading around in a jock strap. That is a bottom's attire in most people's minds. It says "fuck me". I'd avoid that. It's also in the attitude. An aggressive attitude will get you more ass than a big set of pecs. Let bottoms know you intend to fuck them. Be positive. Assume you will be fucking us. Be confident. Nothing turns me on faster than a man who just "goes for it". Don't wait for me to ask you to. Take charge. You are the top. You wanna fuck me, tell me so. You want your cock inside me, stick your finger in me before you even get my pants off. Go for it dude. Make me wet.

I do. Lots of guys like a pre-seeded hole. I save my own and I also save condoms if I get guys who use them. That way when a guy wants sloppy seconds I can always accommodate without having to arrange a first fuck. They never know the difference. Keep this secret between us. lol. I also like the feel of cum in my hole and If i am going to a sex club it really gets me going to start out with one or two loads in me. Something about cum really gets me pigged out.

I think it is ok for either party to express interest in a repeat.

That was not hot.

YES. It is. But the pain will be there until you are mentally ready for it not to be. The pain is caused by resistance. When you give in and let your self be fucked, I mean really go with it, the pain goes away and the pleasure begins. So go with it. Let it have you. You know you want it.

Anal lubes with lidocaine do numb the cock as well which no good. A little preparation H gel is good to ease into action for newbies and doesn't numb the top. Also doesn't leave your asshole feeling like it just came back from the dentist.

Well stated RT. "Quietly self-confident". I'd like to be described that way. As for being the most powerful of the sexual archetypes? That is ridiculous, He who has the hard on will always hold the power in that hierarchy.

You lucky boy!

I'm also considered a masculine bottom but I guess I'm lucky not to be 6'3". At 5'9" it is easy for me to find tops who can still physically dominate me. I don't know why but it seems to be an issue when the bottom is bigger, taller or more masculine. Most guys just can't step up to that. I have a buddy who is 6'2" and a bottom and says he gets so tired of having to look down to kiss a man. lol. I love a shorter man who has a big attitude. That is such a turn on. So is a tall bloke with a big attitude. But I guess some tops are just turned on by feminine men. To each his own. Most gay men like masculine bottoms in my experience. As long as you are feminine enough to let them fuck you.