I’m not attracted to men in the normal sense, in that I see like at a man and find him sexually arousing. What I find arousing is a scene, letting someone else take control or seducing, and I love the idea (popular in a lot of stories here) that I just need to take my first cock (poz or not) to discover my true self.
Now what is my true self , is something I’m working on discovering. Since I’l feel straight and yet I get off to MM poz stories and I love to envision myself in those stories. I’ve been trying to find the right partner to take this into the real world and see if there’s more to it than getting off to stories.
So I’d love to have some one I could stay with while traveling and while it would seem innocent, my host would be working on breaking me down like what the “uncle” is doing to the protagonist.