Ingulphus

Excellent writing, much better than the usual quality here, and a hot and compelling story, besides. Bravo!

I was able to upload it to xtube, but it's "awaiting conversion". When it's available, I'll post the URL here.

I made a 3-minute video while stimming last week - it shows my cock going from soft to hard, then shooting a huge load, using two conductive rubber rings on my cock and the ET-312. I posted it on SmartStim, although you have to be a member to view it (membership is free), and I tried to post it on xtube, but it hasn't shown up. I'll try it again, but if anyone wants to see it, it's just under 25MB (the max that Gmail allows for an attachment) and in .MP4 format. PM me and I'll send you a copy.

I would take it, gratefully - so my boy in Amsterdam could poz me with his strain, which I would keep for the rest of my life, medical hassles and all.

Most often, I fantasize about getting knocked up all over again, by a top who's trying to convince me to let him blow his poz load in my ass while he teases my cock and play with my hole, breaking down my resistance and talking me through the fear (almost hypnotizing me) while he starts to penetrate me.

Welcome to one of the many pitfalls of having sex with other men: trying to fit everybody's description of "hot". It can't be done, simply. You can crave all the pig sex you want, but you have to be comfortable with your body, and so do the men who you have sex with, and that will never be as many as you want. If your weight is an issue to you, without outside considerations (like what other men may find attractive), then make the effort to lose it via diet and exercise (and it takes time, so be patient). On the other hand, if you are comfortable in your own skin, so to speak, then accept that everybody has their own tastes, and if they don't find you attractive, they're not worth worrying about. The best sex comes when neither person is thinking about extraneous issues like weight, hair color, dick size, etc., but just being in the moment with each other and getting off on the pleasure. I entertained a beautiful cub last week - 5' 11', 250 lbs., red hair and the most beautiful green eyes. I didn't see him as fat - I saw him as voluptuous, and it was intensely pleasurable and extremely sensuous to feel myself surrounded with his flesh. (The fact that he was an indefatigable and dedicated cocksucker didn't hurt, either). I'm 6'4" and 235 lbs. My 55 year old body isn't bad - nothing sags, and I have the ass of death. But I have a belly that I hate, and have had little success in controlling (I'm far too good a cook, and I never had much self-discipline). For quite a while I felt distinctly unsexy, but then I started to discover the men who love Daddies, and found that they think I'm very hot, indeed (think of the high school coach you secretly wished would molest you in the shower, or teach you how to jack off). They are a small part of the greater cruising population, but they are so well worth waiting for, and knowing they are out there gave me back my self-confidence. Like what you see - fuck me! Don't like it - fuck off. And a purely practical note: You only have one public photo on BBRTS, and it doesn't convey much of anything about you. Add some body shots and better photos of your cock and you'll get more attention. And maybe re-write your profile text to stress that you're a straight man who likes cornholing guys - a lot of men find it very hot to be taken by a straight man (I know I do).

No loads refused. A penis and a pulse - what else do you need?

Excellent advice from both posters!

Forget the funnels - get a lube shooter (even Walgreen's carries them in the condom section now, at least the one in the Castro does!). Easy to load, easy to insert, and easy to make sure the semen gets deep in your gut where it belongs. And the deeper it goes, the longer it will stay in place.

Just finished a round of juice and testosterone, and my pits get real rank if I don't shower every morning (as it is, even with daily cleaning I smell like a man, and I like it). I don't use deodorant, and I don't like my partners to use it - I want to smell all their pheromones, and I want them to smell mine. Sniffing my boy's pits will get me hard every time.

glory_dog - I've sent you a PM. likaleather - The "blue bands" are merely standard anti-static wristbands, used by electronics techs when they're working on circuit boards. Except that by repackaging and renaming them, the sellers get to mark them up 300%. You can buy them online for much less - just search for "anti-static wrist band". Some brands, including the ones Radio Shack sells, have resistors in the "buckle" that make them useless for e-stim, unless you grind it out. I'm not sure about the black Belkin ones. A search on Smartstim.com will probably point you to a good, inexpensive place to buy them. Blue bands are great because they are stretchy and infinitely adjustable, so you can use them around your balls or anywhere along the shaft of your cock. Get them wet first, and use a lot on conductive gel, like Spectra 360. The conductive rubber rings are less forgiving of fit (they should fit firmly, for good skin contact and no "hot spots"), but they offer a smoother ride. I found a set of "power rings" - four conductive rings with a brass snap connector and a cheapo TENS unit, on eBay last year (from China) - the TENS unit is worthless, but the rings are now my favorite cock 'trodes. More expensive ones from Mr. S, P.E.S., etc. are available, or go to http://happystim-usa.com/id60.html - they are very reasonable, and their products get good user reviews on Smartstim.com. And bipolar stainless steel butt plugs ROCK!

Oh, yeah... I bought the ET-301-R (the size of a cigarette pack, with a wireless remote), and decided to try out the internal mike by playing the "Ride Of the Valkyries" from Wagner's "Die Walkure". Brunhilde's Ho yo to ho will never sound as good as it felt!

Go to www.Smartstim.com and read everything, especially the "Beginner's Forum" and "General E-stim". It's a great, non-commercial site for information on everything related to electrical play, especially for pleasure (as opposed to BDSM scenes). It's possible to coax a hands-free orgasm out of a TENS unit, but a TENS unit's primary use is to over-excite nerves so that they stop "firing", temporarily reducing the pain signals they're transmitting. That makes them problematic for e-stim purposes, because they can numb the nerves in your cock (and balls, and asshole) too much before you can shoot, which kind of defeats the purpose. What's much more fun are the made-for-play boxes by Erostek (the absolute Rolls Royce of stim boxes), Folsom, P.E.S. and others. They produce waveforms and signals specifically designed to get you hard and get you off (or let you edge for as long as you can stand it). I've been stimming for about 13 years now, and done a lot of estim demos for guys both gay and straight, including a public one 4 years ago at S.F. Pride's Leather Alley (where I made my then boyfriend, now husband shoot an arc of cum hands-free while I made out with him). All but one likes it a lot, and most came the first time they tried it. (One came twice - I was very impressed.) Better Living Through Technology!

And once again, I'd be happy to be a part of the Greater S.F. Bay area. I already have several regulars who know that, with a 20 minute notice, my hole is available for their pleasure. I can always host, and can also travel within the area.

It's rare for a straight man to open himself up to other possibilities and be comfortable with it and his own sexual identity, so cheers to you! I did an e-stim (electrical play) demo for a straight, married man who was in town on business, and it was great - he was completely comfortable and relaxed about letting a strange man fit the electrodes to his cock and fluff it to get him hard enough for a good fit. He was also comfortable blowing his load in front of me and letting me tongue it off his belly. Then he took me out for dinner - perfect!

Oh - I forgot Wire's "I Am the Fly" (1978) - Savage guitars, great hooks, and of particular interest to chasers... I always played this on the jukebox at The Stud in NYC in the early 80's. How prescient of me! "Crawling Over your window you think I'm confused I'm waiting for the divergent wasp To complete my current ruse You use a plate-glass screen To protect my chosen target But there's an air-pellet hole I can crawl through to you I am the fly in the ointment I can spread more disease than the fleas Which nibble away at your window display Yes I am the fly in the ointment I shake you down to say please as you Accept the next dose of disease."

My tastes range far and wide, but I'm fond of what some may consider obscure. Many of these (chosen more or less at random) may be familiar to some, but perhaps not to all, and I think all of them are worth seeking out. Brian Eno: The first four solo albums - "Here Come the Warm Jets" (1973), "Taking Tiger Mountain (By Strategy)" (1974), "Another Green World" (1975, and a desert island disc for me) and "Before and After Science" (1977). Incredibly inventive pop music, with complex, punning lyrics that tell very odd stories. Gruppo Sportivo: "10 Mistakes" (1977) - the first album by a Dutch band who attack American pop music conventions with gusto and humor (and indelibly catchy hooks). The Homophones: Especially the two songs "Everyone's Dead" (the fast version featured in Bruce LaBruce's film "Otto, Or Up With Dead People) and "Malastrana Strut" (play it LOUD). Scott Matthew: Quiet, introspective and very odd line scansion, but his music packs a lot of emotion. One of the artists featured in the film "Shortbus". Wish I still lived in NYC and could see him live. Split Enz/Tim and Neil Finn/Crowded House: Just about anything. The early Enz albums are the most inventive and odd, but some of the Crowded House content is seriously great ("Better Be Home Soon" is a heartbreaker). Michael Nyman: The soundtracks for Peter Greenaway's films (which are also brilliant): "The Draughtsman's Contract", "A Zed and Two Noughts", "Drowning By Numbers", "The Cook, the Thief, His Wife and Her Lover" and "Prospero's Books". Mostly instrumental, using anything from a string trio to a full orchestra (although Sarah Leonard's amazing soprano is used to disturbing effect on "Zed and Two Noughts" - the first time I heard it, I couldn't believe it was a human voice). The "Masque" from "Prospero's Books" always gives me serious joy. Marianne Faithfull: Her rather insipid early 60's stuff was eclipsed by her notoriety, but her savage comeback album "Broken English" reveled a powerful, time-ravaged voice full of rage. My personal favorite is a live performance of Kurt Weill music, "20th Century Blues" (1997). Gisela May: A German singer, largely unknown in America. Seek out her recording of Weill's "Die Sieben Todsünden" (The Seven Deadly Sins) - it's a killer. Nicht wahr, Anna? Ja, Anna...

Stray over to Mack Folsom while you're here - you can get into all kinds of trouble there... Slings, showers, wet tub, glory holes, fucking lofts, etc. Then there's Eros, on Market Street near Church - more of a traditional bath house, but no rooms, just lockers, and earlier hours (I think they close at 11:00). Steamworks in Berkeley is also worth a visit - a full bath house and open 24/7. It's a 30 minute ride on BART from downtown, then a short cab ride from the Berkeley BART station.

I did the same - but I think he knew I was lying to get his load in my ass, and he was only too happy to oblige me.

No cock can be too hard. And a bottom should be grateful for that.

When you're ready to expand your experience from fantasies to reality, send me a PM. I'm topping more and more these days, but remain a very talented bottom, with a fuckable throat and a very nice hole.

I agree - if your ass was clean when he fucked you, it's an expected courtesy to clean his cock - plus, if you're lucky, you might get a load of his piss as a tip!