PhoenixGeoff

1) Cruising online is generally a waste of time, especially in the city you live in and are known. Expectations for online hookups are way too high (what I call the Amazon effect, where people expect to place an order for what they want and have it fulfilled by the site), people become critical of others and hope that their perfect guy will sign on in the next five minutes (spoiler: he ain't going to). Frankly, I think we were all much better off when we cruised in bars. 2) Bottoms always outnumber tops. Period. And, for whatever reason, tops in general seem more likely to be attracted to young, hairless, boyish bottoms. Not sure why that is. I for one would much rather fuck a big, hairy, manly man any day of the week, but I'm in the minority. So if you are in your thirties, no matter how hot you are, your potential fucks are going to start dropping off. Simply the nature of the game. If you're a total bottom, it's only going to get worse. 3) Another observation about tops (especially closeted, bi, or "non-scene" total tops): in general, they seem to prefer guys with less experience rather than more. The fact that you've had hundreds of men breed your ass in your day will not turn them on. Your cum-filled manhole may actually repel them. Again, I don't get it...I'd much rather fuck a slut with an ass full of cum, but I'm in the minority. Whether it's fear of HIV or other STDs or simply the same drive that leads most straight men to prefer young, virgin women, the end result is the same.' 4) And then, there's the desperation factor. And this is one I do get. If you are obviously desperate to get fucked and bred, it's kind of a turn off. Why? Well, first of all, I kind of want to feel like I'm attractive and desirable too. But more importantly, it sends a signal that you don't really think highly of yourself, that you have self esteem problems. That may or may not be true, but it is how these things do get interpreted sometimes. Self-confidence is hugely attractive, while the opposite can be a turn off. Incidentally, on this last point, I'm obviously a bit self-contradictory. I love fucking cum filled bottom sluts, but not the desperate ones. I guess what I really like is the "Happy Hooker", to use Xaviera Hollander's term. Attractive, confident, and joyful about sex is what will get me going. So what's my advice? Here's what's worked for me (and I'm pretty satisfied with my life right now): Turn off the computer and the mobile and get out there and meet people. In real life. And go out with the expectation of making friends and acquaintences, not getting laid. Friends may or may not turn into fuckbuds. On the other hand, friends might just hook you up with his hot stud of a neighbor. Start approaching those people you meet with an attitude of "what can I do to please you" rather than "gimme your raw cock and breed my ass!". Note that you can and should still have boundaries that you won't cross. But your focus should always be on pleasing your partner. Be willing to do whatever it is that will turn him on. To include fucking him. Focusing on the other guy rather than myself has made a world of difference to my sex life. It's made me a much better lover. And when I find another guy who's in the same headspace as me, the sex is fucking blow your mind, outta this world fantastic. Continue doing the things that make you feel good about yourself, like eating right, working out, etc. And do those things because you care about yourself, not in order to become attractive to others. In the same vein, if you do drugs, try sex without them. Though they seem like enhancers, I find drugs tend to amp up guys' unattractive traits. Invariably, the best sex I've had has been when both I and my partner(s) have been stone cold sober. Know what you're attracted to, and be willing to tell guys who approach you for sex that you don't care for "No." There's a difference between being attracted to a wide variety of men and needing dick from someone, anyone. There are men, lots of them, including that hot fucking stud that you know you'd be perfect for, who are just not into you. It sucks, but there it is. Accept it and move on. Be willing to give quality rather than quantity a try. Try spending a whole night with a guy one-on-one instead of shooting for multiple quickies. Hell, take him to breakfast in the morning! Hell, if the sex was good, why not go for a repeat? In short, change your outlook, change your expectations, and you'll end up having more fun and more satisfaction.

Funny how many of these fantasies tend towards the violent and aggressive. Makes sense...those are really primal manly traits. They turn up in some of my darker fantasies too. So I start thinking about extremes I've never experienced. Is there such a thing as too much sex? Are there men I would not want to fuck me? Are there sexual acts that are too much for me to handle? In other words, because I enjoy so much of the sex available to me, I've never expereinced sex I did not want. Or if I did, I could stop it. What would it be like on the other side of that line? So I fantasize about huge numbers of men gang fucking my ass, one after another with no respite. I've heard from a bottom I respect that once you get up over 25 loads fucked into you it gets to be too much. Your body needs to stop and recover. So I'd want to test that...see what 20 is like, 25, 30, 35...experience my endurance limit then experience what it's like past that. Then there's the sex itself. I tend to like things on the aggressive side. But I do have limits. I've brushed up against them in the past but always been able to stop the scene. What if I couldn't? This is the scariest form of rape for me, because I've come close to experiencing it...a top who was overenthusiastic with toys in my ass, a fister who pushed me too hard. They hurt...they made me react swiftly, firmly, loudly, threatening violence if it didn't stop. What if I couldn't stop it? That scares me, and it's possible the experience could permanently alter my view of sex. I don't know if I could follow through with this fantasy...the consequences might be too serious. I especially do not want to lose my love of sex. As for the consequences, what the hell is the point of extreme fantasies if you take away the consequences? The consequences make the fantasy exciting. Everyone would bareback if HIV wasn't a consequence. But because it's a consequence, the fulfillment of my barebacking fantasy becomes meaningful to me.

Just checking in again to see what's up. I've been doing a little research online and have been thinking about possible neighborhoods. Silver Lake seems like it would be right up my alley, but it's a bit pricy. Echo Park looks a bit more in line with what I'd be interested in, and not too far from the scene. Koreatown looks like another possibility. Anyone care to comment on good neighborhoods to check out? Which are gay friendly, close to the active cruising spots (bars, baths, dark alleys and parks )?

Hey there Sin City pigs, I'm reaching a point in my life where I'm making a number of changes, affecting pretty much everything but my love of lots of hot raw sex with all kinds of men LOL So I'm thinking of moving somewhere new, and the Vegas area is one of the places on my list of possibilities, mostly because of the hopefully steady supply of guys like me, both locals and tourists. Anyone have any information they can give me about general job prospects, good places to live, and information about the gay scene, especially as applies to bears, leathermen and raw sex pigs? As far a living arrangements, I'd prefer something small and affordable (studio apartments are fine; my own needs are pretty spartan), but in or relatively close to a gay friendly neighborhood. I'm planning on building my transportation around biking, walking and transit as much as possible, but I also have a pickup and I'm working on a plan to acquire a motorcycle. As far as work goes, I'm pretty much a jack of all trades, but have experience driving trucks (even in LA!) doing remodeling work, working in a kitchen, and even as a cubicle dwelling wage slave. And finally, anything about the general vibe of the city...what you love, what you hate, whether you'd move there again or can't wait to leave and why. Feel free to post to this thread for the benefit of others, though I have only very intermittent access to this site right now, and would heartily appreciate an email sent to me at geoffguth (at) gmail (dot) com, especially if you'd like to make contact in anticipation of the move and/or want to send me any dirty pictures Timeframe on this is about six months to a year from now. Thanks guys!

Hey there SoCal pigs, I'm reaching a point in my life where I'm making a number of changes, affecting pretty much everything but my love of lots of hot raw sex with all kinds of men LOL So I'm thinking of moving somewhere new, and the LA area is one of the places on my list of possibilities, mostly because of the hopefully steady supply of guys like me. Anyone have any information they can give me about general job prospects, good places to live, and information about the gay scene, especially as applies to bears, leathermen and raw sex pigs. As far a living arrangements, I'd prefer something small and affordable (studio apartments are fine; my own needs are pretty spartan), but in or relatively close to a gay friendly neighborhood. I'm planning on building my transportation around biking, walking and transit, although I do currently have a pickup truck (which I'd probably sell before moving to a city like LA) and I'm working on a plan to acquire a motorcycle. As far as work goes, I'm pretty much a jack of all trades, but have experience driving trucks (even in LA!) doing remodeling work, working in a kitchen, and even as a cubicle dwelling wage slave. And finally, anything about the general vibe of the city...what you love, what you hate, whether you'd move there again or can't wait to leave and why. Feel free to post to this thread for the benefit of others, though I have only very intermittent access to this site right now, and would heartily appreciate an email sent to me at geoffguth (at) gmail (dot) com, especially if you'd like to make contact in anticipation of the move and/or want to send me any dirty pictures Timeframe on this is about six months to a year from now. Thanks guys!

Back in my Army days, I happened to find myself at Man's Country in Chicago one weekend. At the time, it was really popular with black guys (dunno if it still is or not....this was back in the '90s) and there was a pretty good crowd there that night. Anyways, I was in my mid-20s, in pretty good shape, as an infantryman, had my really short high and tight, and was really, really white (still am...I don't tan much). I was in the shower there when I noticed this really built black guy looking at me kind of strangely. I looked back and he asked me, "Are you some kind of skinhead?" I laughed it off and said no, I was in the Army. And we ended up having fantastic sex in my room (with the door open and everything...it was great). I do sometimes kinda wonder what would have happened if I'd lied and said, "yeah, what're you gonna do about it, nigger?"

I know this project is kind of on the back burner right now, but I've been thinking about ways to reduce the flake problem. This is the thought I'd had: basically, you email back and forth with someone you're interested in having sex with. Assuming both of you want to get together, there's a button on each profile that says something like "Commit". If you both click each other's "Commit" button, then a notice appears on both of your profiles stating that you've already arranged a hookup (though not with who, publicly). That way you can nail a guy down. Furthermore, if he contacts someone else, that new person will see right off the bat that he's supposed to be heading over to hook up with someone else. That commitment notice would stay up for a pre-set amount of time (say 8 hours maybe?), after which it automatically comes down again. You could bring it down earlier (say after two or three hours) either by mutual consent (i.e. both parties de-commit by some kind of arrangement), or by posting a "review" of the trick, which would be limited to a number of pre-set options (e.g. "No call, no show", "Called to cancel", "Showed up on time, had fun", "Showed up, didn't match profile", etc., etc.---maybe half a dozen options to keep things simple---basically we want to know, did he show? and was his profile accurate?). Plus maybe a simple star rating for the overall experience. Or better yet (to avoid hurt feelings), a simple question: would you fuck again? Yes/No. Now, you wouldn't be allowed to do this review of anyone else on the board unless you'd both "committed" to a hook up. That prevents crazies or people with an ax to grind from driving down your stats. You'd only be allowed to review a member once every, say, three months or so (or maybe the new review overwrites the old one, so each member can only have one active review of you up). That way, friends can't inflate each other's stats (at least not without creating multiple profiles). Finally, everyone's profile would have a "stats" page, where their averages would show (as a percentage, so we're not "outing" how many guys you have sex with). If you committed to sex with 6 guys but failed to show up for three of them, you'd have a 50% "No Call, No Show" rating. Not so good. But if you're 100% "On time, as advertised" then everyone knows they can trust you when you say you want to hook up. And if you also have a high "Yes, would fuck again" percentage, then you really know you have a quality reputation. I think you can't allow people to just freeform the reviews or get much more detailed than that, otherwise things will get out of hand. And really, that's all you need to know: Did he show up or flake? Was his profile accurate? Would you have sex with him again? And each review would be anonymous to everyone else on the site (though you could probably figure out if your most recent fuck gave you a good or bad review by watching how your numbers update...maybe you could just rerun the stats once a month or something) Here are the problems I foresee with this kind of system: 1) Guys who acquire a bad reputation would simply delete their profile and start again. You could control for this by never actually deleting a profile, just making it inactive and invisible. That way if he tries to make a new profile with the same email address, you could just ask him if he wants to reactivate his old profile but not allow a new one. Also, I'd foresee that guys with new profiles vs. established ones with good reputations would have things a bit harder anyways. And the community could be self-policing...there could be a way of reporting someone who's using duplicate profiles, which would let a mod compare pictures, stats, etc. 2) People could create multiple profiles with the express purpose of running up each others' stats artificially. Again, limited each email address to one profile helps with that. And the nice thing about the "commit" feature is that you can't review someone unless you both hit that button, and there's a minimum amount of time you'd have to wait before you could commit with someone else. So that at least slows things down. 3) Running three-ways, groups and parties would be a hell of a lot more complicated. Basically, the whole "commitment" and review section wouldn't be accessible for that sort of thing, but that's probably OK...those people could still set things up as they do now on BBRT (albeit at a higher risk of flakes). On the subject of parties, I like how BBRT lists who's RSVP'd. Maybe the party host could have a way of simply stating who showed up and who didn't. That could be a separate stat on your profile (party attendance percentage or something). Anyways, the whole idea would be to create a simple reputation system that would be hard to escape, and hard for one person to overwhelm.

Dude, with or without testicles, as a combat vet, you have got balls for days. Honestly, I've never had the opportunity to jump in the sack with an amputee. And it's not something I've really got a fetish for (or any feeling against...I'm a sick fucker in other ways). I find myself more drawn to the personality as I grow older. As long as you have the right attitude (and it sounds like you do) I'd fucking love taking you on.

This is an excellent point. It's kind of similar to people who use drugs or alcohol to lower their inhibitions in order to "allow" themselves to do things they wouldn't usually do (and barebacking is a really good case in point...hell, the first times I got bred, I was drunk, so I speak from experience). By framing the sort of sex they want as a rape, they absolve themselves of responsibility.

It's probably something that's impossible to explain to someone who's in your position, but perhaps there are a couple of ways that you might gain some understanding. The first is the appeal of an extreme form of a certain kind of masculinity. Stupid, brutish, violent, animal masculinity. It's the same sort of thing that makes skinheads, bikers or gang members appealing. A kind of exaggerated form of the appeal of soldiers and policemen (a more restrained form of the same sort of masculinity...a quieter form of the implied threat of violence). The second may be the appeal of flirtation with danger. Having a rape fantasy might be a safe way for someone to explore the thrill of putting himself in danger. The same sort of thrill a skydiver gets if he imagines jumping from a plane without a parachute. He wouldn't actually do it, but he might want to wait until the last possible moment to pull the ripcord. The third may involve an extreme form of submission. Rape may be considered the ultimate loss of power over oneself. As you say, the reality of rape is very different from all of these fantasies. And at the risk of having the crew of hyper-submissive bottoms around here vehemently contradict me, I rather doubt that anyone who is posting such fantasies actually wants to be truly raped, with all of the emotional and psychological (not to mention physical) damage that implies, but is rather exploring a side of themselves that is drawn to one or more of those experiences I listed above in a relatively safe environment. In short, consider it fiction. It makes more sense that way. And thanks for having the courage to speak up and remind us of the differences between fantasy and reality. And very best wishes for your continued recovery.

Where should the intermountain states like Colorado and Utah fall? We're not exactly southwest, northwest or central, although arguably we could fall into any of those categories. I've always kind of wondered.

Have you explored the possibility of training for something that your disability would permit you to do and finding a way to get back to work? Without knowing what your particular issue is, it's possible that, even if you can't do what you've done in the past, you might be able to find something that would give you a much better income than what you're subsisting on right now. There are some surprising fields that are open to people with different disabilities, even ones which in years past might have disqualified you for a lot of things. I know for a fact, for instance, that there are otherwise handicapped people out there driving semis, even deaf people, which you wouldn't necessarily expect. That might help get things turned around for you.

Part of the problem with this (and with rape scenes too) is that what fundamentally makes this hot is the idea of somehow forcing someone who's unwilling to have sex into doing it. With most of the guys here, they're such huge sluts that their cocks and/or asses are pretty much open to whoever wants them anyways, for free. No blackmail or rape or coercion required. Kind of defeats the purpose. It's sort of like those scenes where a bottom goes in to "wrestle to see who ends up on top". He knows damn well he's going the throw the fight. Now blackmailing a total top into getting bred (or vice versa) might make things a little more interesting.... Incidentally, don't do anything stupid on CL. Anyone who gets your personal information can do a hell of a lot more than take your ass. In fact, it's quite likely that you'd end up cleaned out (in a bad way) and never get laid at all, if, say, some unscrupulous straight guy decided to take advantage of you.

I don't know the degree to which you're willing to build your life around getting laid, but you might also consider either: getting into a line of work that affords sufficient income and time off that allows you to travel to different cities regularly and/or ships you semi-permanently to different places on a regular basis, or moving to a city where travel to other cities is relatively cheap and easy (for all intents and purposes, this mostly means the eastern seaboard), or getting into a line of work that involves regular travel to fairly big cities (not truck driving, btw), or moving somewhere with a lot of business and/or pleasure travelers (e.g. NYC, Las Vegas, etc.), or finding a partner who can support you, who's into your fantasies, and who will provide the travel and possibly whore you out too (or just win the lottery; it amounts to the same thing). The reason being pretty much anywhere you might end up settling down, you'll only be the new meat in town for a limited amount of time. Once you've been around for a while, the other locals will either decide that they're not interested in you, or that they can always have you some other time (leading to sex procrastination, a major reason why hookup sites can seem so lame). So after an initial flurry of fun, things will settle down to a background level. Now, in a bigger city, that background level is bound to be much better than Sheboygan, but you still won't be maximizing your action. The more you keep on the move, the more you're always going to be the new meat in town. Or if your ad says you're only in town for a week, then everyone will know that they have a limited time to hook up with you. Likewise, if you're living somewhere with a lot of travelers passing through, you can concentrate on working them rather than the locals. Incidentally, the kind of business travel you end up doing for work shouldn't be taking you to a lot of places in the sticks (this is the problem with trucking). You want a job that will keep you bouncing between major cities as much as possible. That will likely involve getting yourself a good, marketable education (if you haven't already). If for whatever reason college just isn't for you, take the option of moving someplace where there's a lot of tourist traffic, especially if there are plenty of gay tourists passing through and find yourself a half decent job there. If you're hot enough, you might even be able to get into a sideline of escorting and porn (but hurry! you're young now, but time's a wasting).

This is fantastic news. I've seen what the current cure (ribavirin and interferon over the course of a year to a year and a half) can do to people...it's insanely hard to go through and you've got to be tough as nails to make it through to being cleared. The prospect of achieving a cure in just three months with far lesser side effects is wonderful. We live in amazing times.

Personally, I've had crabs once, way back when I was living in Toronto in the early '90s. Easily gotten rid of with a drug store treatment. One of the nice things about living in a dry climate like Denver (or Phoenix where I lived before) is that most critters like this can't tolerate it. Here's what I'm hearing: You party (I'm assuming with meth) No-one in your environment, including sexual partners, is experiencing this problem Your pictures are a bit unclear, but basically look like nothing but bits of scab to me So, based on what you've told me, I'm leaning towards meth psychosis. I'd even be willing to guess that the 3-4 week outbreak pattern you've noticed probably conforms to your partying habits. This would be my advice: 1) Lay off the partying. The hallucination that causes the picking and the visual and tactile "bug" delusions ("formication"---not to be confused with "fornication", which is much more fun) generally goes away after you stop using meth. However, in some people, particularly heavy users and/or those prone to mental diseases, meth psychosis can last for several days after stopping. In a few cases, people never fully recover. It's important to note that simply tapering off your meth use is insufficient, as even a relatively small amount would likely be enough to retrigger this effect. 2) On the off chance that this is some kind of parasite, you need to cease sexual activity until you get this figured out and treated. If you are carrying a parasite, it's basically an STD, which you would be spreading to others you were having sex with. 3) You've said nothing whatsoever about seeking medical treatment. Whether this is what it appears to be or is psychosis, you need professional help. There are prescription treatments for skin parasites that work very well. And if it is some kind of longer-term psychosis, there is treatment for that as well. 4) Seriously, lay off the T.

Just to be a contrarian, I'm going to go with 25. Maybe 30. Possibly 40. Let's face it: guys in their teens are idiots. Absolutely cannot be trusted to make good decisions. But guys in their 20s are scarcely better. And sex really is wasted on the young. Besides, wouldn't it be nice to have something to look forward to as you age? There is that too. Frankly, the existence of this site is testament to that. Maybe 50? 60? It'd be a nice retirement bonus.... In all seriousness, I'm kind of two minds about it actually. I've personally found it difficult to get into sex within the context of a relationship. I do wonder if part of the problem is too much NSA, anonymous and easily available sex (and porn for that matter). It's absolutely true that if you have easy access to something (anything....goes for fine dining, travel, whatever) then it loses its specialness. Simple human nature: we value things that are hard to come by far more. Remember the old movies and cartoons where guys could be driven wild by the merest glimpse of an ankle? I kind of wonder what that would be like.

Here's one for history buffs. It's a carte de visite belonging to a Confederate officer taken during the Civil War, probably in 1862 or 1863. The young boy seated on the floor is probably a slave who was a personal servant taken on campaign with his master. It's more than a bit difficult for me looking directly at (real) slavery, while also seeing what looks like a genuine (if asymmetric) bond between the two, and seeing the officer as such an attractive man. On the other hand, if I'm being honest with myself, I'll admit that there are lots of less-than-desirable masculine traits that really get me going. Besides that, the beard, the uniform, the boots, the gaze...all wonderful.

I've looked at bitcoins a bit (ugh...) and think they're interesting, but there are some problems. The main one is the learning curve associated with them and the related question of the complexity of buying and selling them. This has improved a great deal over the past few years, but it's still a lot more complicated than buying something with a credit card. Then there's the question of jyust how much privacy and anonymity they actually afford. The two questions are related. I guarantee that if Bitcoins actually take off as a widely used medium of exchange, part of the "deal with the devil" that will allow the financial system to buy into it in a big way (and more importantly regulators to allow it) will be the loss of the privacy and anonymity that makes them attractive to your clientele in the first place. Then there's the question of what your site will offer. If you want to produce porn that Visa won't touch, then you have to deal exclusively with Bitcoins. But then you're into a chicken-and-egg problem with your clientele (which is also the larger problem with Bitcoin itself). My guess is that the segment you're looking to go after (people in extremely hardcore gay fetish porn, who also have the ability and inclination to set up an account in Bitcoins to access what you're selling) is a pretty narrow one, but I could be wrong about that. 20 years ago, I'd have said the same thing about Treasure Island Media (though of course AFAIK, they've always taken Visa).

Being in the military might actually cause unexpected problems when it comes to STDs. I was in the Army myself, about 10-15 years ago, and suspect I got my first STD, a bout of syphilis, about a year before I got out. In retrospect, I had many of the symptoms. But because I'd most likely gotten it while bottoming (and necessarily couldn't discuss my sexuality with the PA), it went undetected until I got out, went to school and had insurance through the university that included comprehensive (and anonymous) STD testing. Now, I had the added complication of DADT, which made any sort of discussion of STDs pretty much taboo. Thankfully, you don't have to deal with that. But you'll probably find that the typical PA on sick call is probably ill equipped to give you good advice, and you'd probably still be wise to avoid having to bring up difficult questions about how you may or may not have acquired an STD regardless of the law and regulations. So if you have access (and hopefully you're relatively close to a fairly major city), I'd suggest taking advantage of any anonymous testing clinics within driving distance on a regular basis. Do do your research before you go though. Some states (Colorado is one of them) require all doctors and labs doing testing, even confidential testing, to hand over any positive results and your name and contact information to the state government. They may or may not share that information with your chain of command. Remember, "confidential" is not the same as "anonymous". You want an anonymous test, and you may have to go out of state to get it. (Incidentally, this is why I consider the Colorado Department of the Health and the Environment to be the biggest spreader of syphilis and other STDs in the state...they actively discourage people from getting tested with their aggressive, intrusive and bullying tactics.)

Also do bear in mind that you can get garden variety colds and flu from sex. There have been times I've come home from a wild weekend somewhere and come down with a cold a few days later. If you've tested neg several times in the last couple of years since this incident and haven't barebacked since, then the odds of you being poz are vanishingly tiny.

I'll add to NiceHard1's sensible list that you can find yourself: - An HIV- monogamous partner (not no risk...men do stray...but lower risk) - A circle of HIV- FWBs who don't fuck around outside your circle of friends (somewhat higher risk, but helps if you get off on promiscuity, groups and/or exhibitionism) If you're a voyeur, you might also get off on watching other guys getting into some raw sex while you just watch (or have the bottom suck your cock or whatever)

In my wanderings around the Internet, I come across non-overtly-sexual, g-rated pics of really hot guys from time to time. They aren't meant to be sexual, but they have a guy or guys that really turn me on. Thought it might be fun to start a thread seeing what kind of guys in everyday life get us going. No porn, nothing x-rated. Ideally no celebrities (though if you really, really want to....) Just the sort of man who'd turn your head as you walk down the street. I'll start: I fucking think I'm in love with the one on the far left....

Considering you sound like our esteemed host's type, I'd say you'd definitely have luck finding what you're looking for. Here's my advice: First, stop referring to yourself and potential partners as "clean". The implication is that I and people like me are dirty. If you really want to be a pig, you don't want to be alienating a lot of the men out there (and lots of my friends are HIV- and tops into guys like you, and they don't like hearing me insulted like that either). Second, it is possible to bareback as a bottom and remain HIV-. But basically, you have to find yourself a really trustworthy top. Essentially, you're looking at a monogamous relationship, where part of the deal is that he will help open you up to new things sexually. But you'd have to take it slow. And a joint HIV/STD test would have to be part of the process before you start barebacking. And before you start letting him fuck you raw, you'd need time to establish whether or not he's trustworthy enough not to be fucking around behind your back. Beyond that, if you really want to start getting bred by multiple guys, you almost certainly have to give up this idea that you won't be exposed to any STDs. Yes, you can go on PrEP, which will lower the risk of HIV infection, but that still leaves the potential for other STDs like syphilis, gonorrhea, herpes etc. At a minimum, I'd suggest getting the HPV vaccination now, before you head down this road. And yes, the other STDs are curable (or manageable, in the case of herpes), for now, but there's still the potential for antibiotic resistant infections, especially with gonorrhea. In other words, being the kind of pig you read about on these forums and remaining STD-free are pretty much mutually exclusive. I do heartily endorse your decision to refrain from using drugs. Be aware that a very large proportion of barebackers use some kind of illegal drugs (witness the popularity of the chem forums here). Now, as a young, HIV-, drug-free bottom, you'll be something of a rare and desirable commodity. Lots of raw tops don't like sex with bottoms who are high as a kite. However, it's very likely you'll be exposed to people who use. I suggest asking very pointed and specific questions about drug use up front and before you meet. Also be aware that in my experience, you're much more likely to get an STD from someone who uses illegal drugs than from someone who doesn't. I'd suggest setting up a profile stating clearly what you want on BBRT (with pictures...make em private if you're still shy), and approaching guys you're attracted to who are tops, specify that they are HIV- and also have "Hell No" next to drug use. And then take it slow.

I notice most of your sources discuss barebacking in the context of deliberate transmission of HIV. Is that reflective of your research question or simply the state of the current research on barebacking (perhaps because of an assumption that a desire to become infected or infect others is inherent in barebacking)? Actually, you gave a kind of overview of your research interests, but you haven't really given much detail about the specific question or questions you hope to explore. Or are we still at a very preliminary point in the research?