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This might be a silly question, but I'm really struggling with thoughts of quitting my job so I can enjoy being a full time cock slut. I don't have to work because the house I live in with my mom belongs to me and I have enough money from my dad's passing to be okay. I really dislike my job and one time I actually stormed out in tears because I was frustrated over how horny I was (I didn't say I was horny, just that I couldn't do it anymore). My boss called me and calmed me down and let me take the rest of that week off, then let me come back on Monday without any kind of write up or anything. So it's not that I have a bad job. I just have a job that I resent because I have to be there for 10 hours a day, 4 days a week when I'd rather be getting laid.

On the other hand, I'm worried that if I don't have anything to do with my time besides having sex, I won't enjoy sex as much because I won't have to be horny for any length of time. Also, my mom and my boyfriend are against this idea so I have external pressure from the two most important people in my life to keep my job and save my money. BF knows I like to slut it up and isn't against that part. He's just against me leaving my job because he thinks I'll regret it pretty quickly. Mom knows I like to slut it up too but doesn't know that's why I want to leave.

I guess my question for other sluts is, how do you separate fantasy from reality? I have this vision of a paradise where I prance around without pants on with my ass lubed up and tops lined up to fuck me all day. I know it's not realistic but there's a side of me that wants it so bad that I'm willing to quit my job just to try to make it happen. I just want to experience the feeling of being able to have my ass used nonstop for a whole week/month/year.

Sorry for the self absorbed post. I've been getting more and more emotional about wanting to take this chance for a while and want someone who's been through the same thing to tell me what they did or what they would do in my case. Even if the advice is to pull my head out of my ass, I'd appreciate hearing it.

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I've definitely had thoughts like these. Ever since I took my first load, it's been there in the back of my mind -I want to get fucked and bred all day every day! I know if I actually give into it I'll lose all control. 

I've kept those thoughts under relative control but these days I keep asking myself why? Might as well enjoy the things I enjoy to the fullest, right? 

Since it sounds like you're in a good position financially, I say give yourself a couple of weeks or a month. Book some vaca, slut it up as much as you physically can in the time you have off, and see how you feel about sex at the end of it. If you still can't get enough, then you know. But if you're a little bored sometimes, go back to the way you were.

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Your problem is very difficult and it’s hard to give a simple answer. I can agree with the previous comments. Maybe you need some rest time and / or a new job. You should have to try slutty life for a while before you quit. I don’t know how much money you have but it must be a huge amount of money if you don’t have to be afraid of its running out. This is also true that one is often eager for something which is not available. If you would have enough time to be slut you would be bored maybe. 

If I had enough time to do nothing but have sex, I began to look for other activities after a while. 

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I am wondering if the pandemic has got you feeling this way? Travel is complicated at the moment (fewer flights, travel restrictions to certain countries). Also, we're being told that if we meet people we can get sick. I do think when our options are restricted, suddenly things that wouldn't ordinarily appeal to us become the targets of our desire.

I'd recommend you talk to a (gay) therapist. If there isn't one you can see face-to-face, there are online options. I think you need to sort out your feelings before you do something that you'll regret. And don't forget that we aren't always in control of how much sex we get. We are limited mostly by our geographic location, by how attractive we are to the partners we are seeking to attract, and people's willingness to actually meet up. You are actually very lucky to have what you have - a supportive parent, a boyfriend and a job. Don't take this for granted. The grass is not always greener on the other side. 

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On 10/28/2020 at 10:38 PM, shinelover said:

I've definitely had thoughts like these. Ever since I took my first load, it's been there in the back of my mind -I want to get fucked and bred all day every day! I know if I actually give into it I'll lose all control. 

I've kept those thoughts under relative control but these days I keep asking myself why? Might as well enjoy the things I enjoy to the fullest, right? 

Since it sounds like you're in a good position financially, I say give yourself a couple of weeks or a month. Book some vaca, slut it up as much as you physically can in the time you have off, and see how you feel about sex at the end of it. If you still can't get enough, then you know. But if you're a little bored sometimes, go back to the way you were.

Hey thank you for responding. Sorry it took me a couple days to come back to this topic - I've been an emotional wreck over it. It seems so silly but I feel like this is something I need to do for my spiritual health. I appreciate your encouragement and like the idea of taking some vacation time to slut it up.

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On 10/29/2020 at 12:33 AM, theplayerking said:

Maybe you need to find a different job that engages you more? 

I've thought about that before. I work as an accounts receivable clerk. In my last job I was an assistant to the owner and his wife. They spoiled me rotten and I could do whatever I wanted, but they couldn't pay me as much as I wanted and the only way to earn more was to move on. I think you're right that I need to find something else to do, but I'm also worried that jumping around from job to job won't look good on my resume. Of course, neither would a huge gap in my work history if I decided to quit and take a year to enjoy being a slut. 

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On 10/29/2020 at 2:18 AM, bareback-flipflop said:

Your problem is very difficult and it’s hard to give a simple answer. I can agree with the previous comments. Maybe you need some rest time and / or a new job. You should have to try slutty life for a while before you quit. I don’t know how much money you have but it must be a huge amount of money if you don’t have to be afraid of its running out. This is also true that one is often eager for something which is not available. If you would have enough time to be slut you would be bored maybe. 

If I had enough time to do nothing but have sex, I began to look for other activities after a while. 

I don't want to lie and say I'd be fabulously wealthy, but if I just keep living the way I do now (like I'm dead broke) I'd be okay. I work on my own car and do most of the work around the house. Unless it's electrical or something I just can't understand, I can handle most of that stuff myself. Your point about getting bored with sex is the main thing I worry about. I love sex and want to have more of it but I tend to get tired of things that I have unlimited access to.

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On 10/29/2020 at 4:34 AM, bbzh said:

I am wondering if the pandemic has got you feeling this way? Travel is complicated at the moment (fewer flights, travel restrictions to certain countries). Also, we're being told that if we meet people we can get sick. I do think when our options are restricted, suddenly things that wouldn't ordinarily appeal to us become the targets of our desire.

I'd recommend you talk to a (gay) therapist. If there isn't one you can see face-to-face, there are online options. I think you need to sort out your feelings before you do something that you'll regret. And don't forget that we aren't always in control of how much sex we get. We are limited mostly by our geographic location, by how attractive we are to the partners we are seeking to attract, and people's willingness to actually meet up. You are actually very lucky to have what you have - a supportive parent, a boyfriend and a job. Don't take this for granted. The grass is not always greener on the other side. 

I've thought about going to see a therapist but I don't know if they'd judge me for my sexual appetite or some of my kinks. I used to see a therapist when I was younger because my mom discovered one of my nasty fetishes and it wasn't good. So I have a phobia about that kind of thing.

I do agree that the pandemic made things worse. I was used to hooking up as much as I wanted on grindr and all of that came to a halt. I still had my bf and his roommates, which sounds ridiculous that I'm bitching about only having three steady lovers. But that's not what I was used to, so yeah I'm probably depressed over that part even though I've had more hookups recently.

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If you’re profile is correct, you’re 21.  You have enough money to live some kind of life without working.  You have supportive family members.  You are in an incredibly fortunate position that most others can only dream of.

You need (and are in a position) to take a break, and I mean a proper one- not two weeks or a month, but a year, or two, or maybe even three.  You worry that this will leave a gap in your work history, but honestly, up to the age of 24 or 25, this really shouldn’t be a problem in the long-term, and I’m talking from the perspective of someone with half a century of life experience behind them.

You also need to put some distance between yourself and your family unit: it’s time to fly the nest.  Travel is the obvious answer, and I know this isn’t the easiest of times, but there are still parts of the world where the pandemic looks to be largely under control, such as south-east Asia.  Living life as a full-time cumdump doesn’t necessarily need to be the primary focus of such a journey, though it may well be a large part of it. Use the opportunity to work out what it is you really want to do with your life: it’s quite likely that your desire to devote yourself to full-time cumdumpery is in fact just a symptom of a general dissatisfaction with your current situation, and may fade to some extent if your allow space for other interests to come to the fore.  Sure, you’ll probably always be a slut (and there’s nothing wrong with that), but it maybe that you’ll find other things in your life that mean you won’t want to be JUST a slut.
 
No-one can tell you what to do: it’s your life, and it’s not about pleasing your mother, her BF, or some prospective employer five years down the line, worried about some two-year gap in your work record.  Better to make this journey of self-discovery now, than having a full-blown midlife crisis in ten or twenty years time.

Life is for living- get out there and live it!

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A lot of good things have already been said, but one thing I've learned when confronting and trying to deal with fantasies is that the grass is always greener on the other side until you get to the other side when you start noticing all the things that are wrong with it and you start rethinking the side you were on or start looking for the next side to jump to.  Time and again, this has proven to be true.  Most of us have been really great sluts without the need to quit work full time.

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I'll add this: You say right now, if you keep living like you're poor, you can hold out for a good while on your inheritance.

What happens when you can't keep living like you're poor?

What happens when a drunk driver runs a red light and totals your car, so working on it isn't an option? What if you're hurt in that accident and can't do anything for yourself - and you've got thousands in medical bills that your insurance doesn't cover?

What if you decide to whore it up, and one of your escapades brings Covid into your life - for you, your partner, your mom, whomever? You could easily end up having thrown over your job for sex and then be unable to have that sex for weeks or months.

What happens if something happens to your mom and not only does she need to live with you, but she needs close care for six months - say, she gets COVID and it's a bad case?

And on and on - the point being that forgoing work may not actually work out the way you think it will, financially speaking, so you need a very detailed plan.

I'd start with accepting that you need a new job that you don't hate. You don't have to find it right away - and you don't necessarily have to keep working while you look - but bear in mind that thanks to COVID the unemployment rate is through the roof and returning to work, or moving on to another job, may not be so easy. So let's say you decide you're going to quit your job and take 3 months (or whatever) off to slut around. Commit to yourself, at least, that when that period is up, you start looking immediately for a job, and you stay on top of it until you find something. Don't make the mistake of thinking "Well, I can stop looking for a few weeks and take another break", because at some point, you're going to find yourself burning through your reserves faster than you planned. And the worst thing - as you no doubt realize, based on your comments - would be to end up with no savings, a house you have to maintain, no job, and a hole in your resume that makes it very difficult to get another one.

Sex is great. But it's not worth trashing your entire life over. While there's no guarantee that would happen, you need to at least have contingency plans for aborting the fun and getting back to it, if need be. 

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I don't do that. I just turn fantasies into reality. my fantasies and the fantasies of horny guys. no matter how dirty of depraved, if I want to do it or a guy wants to do anything to me, I just do it or I let the guys do it to me no questions asked. I have been called a walking fantasy just for that reason. guys love how they can just use me like a sexual toy for any of the dirtiest nastiest things they can think of. whether its using me in public, passing me around, whoring me out, dressing me like a girl, trashing my fuckhole or any number of things that are too dirty to even mention here. because I'm just some trashy faggot whore, guys can do stuff to me that they could never do to anyone they have any respect for or who they care about at all. the guys who use me don't even see me as a person, just some fucktoy they can use, abuse and degrade and I will thank them for it. as for me I have always been such a cockhungry cumthirsty faggot that I have always wanted to be the dirtiest sluttiest whore most men will ever meet. I have no standards, no pride, no shame, no limits and absolutely no sexual self respect. I know I am a fuckhole and a cumdumpster to the men who use me and the men who watch others use me. if a guy wants me to get down on my knees and suck his cock right in public I do it. a lot of guys want to suck their brothers cock. faggots like me just do it. repeatedly. a lot of faggots want to be bareback gangbang cumdumps. I decided to do it as much as possible, take strangers loads through gloryholes, take all loads blindfolded in a bathhouse, strip naked and take loads in porntheatres, public restrooms, parks, alleys, wherever men get off on using trash like me. I don't understand why any pussyboy who has a chance to suck his fathers cock, wouldn't jump at it. I never regretted it.daddyslilgirl.png.bd0a308a2f6223af8beb95c6c0a01cd7.pngdumpsterbaby3.jpg.59a599ad7365e0998b79f8561a69a2b8.jpg2147204694_(meaAaGwObaaaa)(mhlTJjiqsrpFqKi8FO)11.jpg.d78fd8f544f1c439ed766533a02cf247.jpgfullsizeoutput_5ce.jpeg.4c601291a4ea9befc4e7420c0a9eb1b4.jpegx-loadbackrr.thumb.jpg.a65ea05227e7c36cf93ae012243f9713.jpgsloppycumdumpslinghole.thumb.jpg.116666e606712b4edb55b64026180964.jpg107286613_6NBqiTmRTaFEC6fpmgcBg.thumb.jpg.e9c9a5d8436d0034373050f762837b77.jpg

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I haven’t got any trust fund or inheritance. But, I do think about that fine line between fantasy and reality. Particularly when trolling for bareback sex. I talk a pretty good game online. But, when it gets real, I’m frequently curious just how far I’m willing to go. Specifically, thinking of the potential consequences of surrendering to the desires that haunt me daily. 
I’ve been playing e-mail tag with someone at another hook-up site for a week who wants to fuck me. His profile says safe sex preferred, but, we know how that can go, if we’re being honest. I’m constantly wondering if I’m truly prepared to go there with this guy. If he gets me as hot in the flesh as he’s been doing online, I honestly can’t say that I wouldn’t go bare with him if it went in that direction. Normally, receptive bareback to completion is fantasy for me, as I really don’t get to play as often as I fantasize. But, when the fantasy has the chance of becoming real, that’s when I start challenging myself, psychologically, to see if I’m REALLY ready to push my limits physically. 
 

He wants to see me for the first time this weekend...

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