Interesting conversation!
I was nieve about sexual relationships when I was 12. Yeah i had started masterbating a year earlier under the sheets at Boarding School but as to attractions - had never really crossed my mind although I did reach accross and give the guy in the next bed a hand job occasionally.
My interest arose when I was assaulted by a prefect in his study one night. Gave him a hand job until.he said what about the other way. Didn't have a clue but was soon sucking cock! When he had gone another senior came into the study and we got it on. No anal but he played with me while I played and blew him. It was awesome - loved the connection. We got it in several times after that.
Being the 70s homosexuality as it was called then was not acceptable in fact it was illegal. So I was pushed down the heterosexual path. Played with a few other guys my age at school but upon leaving felt the need to conform.
In the back if my mind those early encounters remained and over the years I have had jnfrequent hook-ups but due to my early life have been bound by convention.
As to today, I acknowledge I am bisexual but in all honesty I am more likely gay. Now in my mid 60s I wish I had had the sexual freedom young people now enjoy because I think my life would have taken a completely different path.
I fèel I have missed my true self.