So, when I initially became sexually active I was topping 99% of the time. Never had a problem getting a dude to take my dick raw (meaning that if he had a problem with barebacking then I just stealthed him). I wasn’t wearing a bag. It was that simple.
Then some years later I wanted to bottom more. Today, with PrEP, I’m 99% bottom. And I want it raw. In fact, I want to be used the way I used my bottoms (for my pleasure). It’s amazing how difficult it is to find men who can do what I did quite easily and naturally as a top! Even though I’m not super hung (and my dad belly has made me lose an inch!) I am pretty thick and wide. I still have guys bending over for me but I’m not into it much anymore.
Why?
I suspect I am trying to recreate my first fuck - when I was 15 and he was older. It hurt like fucking hell. The dick on that man was not small! But I remember shitting out an enormous amount of cum as the Man showered. There is no way he didn’t get a dick full of shit. I was a small kid! I want to be taken that way again so badly that I’m making plans to apply to the Rough Stock Round Up in Vermont (and if that fails I may head to Europe for HorseMarket!)