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"In love" makes you nuts. The movie "Moonstruck" depicts it very well. "Love" in my opinion is much more encompassing, and can be deeper. I used to be afraid to use the word more broadly lest it be misinterpreted, but now that I've been around the track a few times (*cough* old enough to be your dad *cough*) I'm starting to care less about that and more about expressing feelings that are important. The best way of explaining it I have yet found is, Love (in that sense) is Family (in the good sense - your blood family may not qualify). These are people (and almost everyone I know has more than one) we trust implicitly, we know are on our side, for whom we'd go to the ends of the Earth. We can live with these people (or could imagine doing so - sometimes we're incompatible for cohabitation). For me, this group includes birth family (my father, mother, and brother), extended family (at least one uncle, one aunt, and one cousin), and chosen family (my fiance, my best friend forever whom I met in college). Whether that relationship includes a sexual element is up to the people involved, but American culture is on the prudish side about it, and even such things as back massages with adults in one's extended family can get the hairy eyeball. Physical contact (at the hugging and cheek kissing level) with people in this group is completely normal, and sanctioned in many cultures. In my personal opinion, more sexualized contact within this group is probably also perfectly normal for humans, in a biological and psychological sense, but that culture and the incest and adultery taboos have mangled our natural responses. That said, if the individuals involved are sufficiently self-aware to transcend that cultural baggage, it can work just fine, and probably does more often than we hear about. Furthermore, because sex in this context is less about eroticism and more about the expression of a personal bond and trust, it can (and does) cross the lines of "straight" and "gay" (which are only sensibly defined with respect to erotic inclination). I can attest to those possibilities from personal experience - in my case they did become reality, and though very occasional in that case, it was more than once and quite clear that it was intentional and there were no regrets (I was not the instigator). So, if you and your friend are respectful of each other's feelings and boundaries and can get past our cultural neuroses, it seems to me that you need not fear claiming whatever kind of love you have together and enjoying it to its fullest blossom, whatever that may be in this case. Love is Love, and there's no such thing as too much!

Only one I can find that seems to semi-match that description is Joe Spears, working in the early 90s. Couldn't find a movie with carnival or related words in the title though. Definitely sporting the red curly hair, and a kind of all-American jock appearance.

1. These are not conversion symptoms (it's much too long after you contracted HIV). 2. It's probably the flu. Or possibly another illness with flu-like symptoms (there are many). 3. You don't mention how your immune system is doing with the HIV, not being on meds. If your T cell count is OK, then you don't have any reason to worry more than anyone would with flu-like symptoms. Go see a doctor if they persist, otherwise your immune system did its job. 4. If your T cell count is low, you may have trouble with any illness. In that case, definitely see a doctor (and consider going on ARVs for the HIV). 5. The fever is "moderate" (under 100) and the weight loss is likely due to dehydration. Rest and drink plenty of fluids.

You have achieved a new member level and will have acquired additional privileges... more messages and reactions per day, for example. Yes, it's a good thing! Only @rawTOP knows the details of how it works, but it's generally by posting good content and participating constructively in the forum. Congrats! I'm merging your post with the thread about "0 reactions per day" because there's a lot of discussion of this same question there. Folks who are reading that thread: do what this guy is doing! I will note that he achieved Senior Member status (the highest there is) in a little over 2 years with just over 400 posts.

Actually it's less than 1 in 100 (per contact), because the chance of acquiring HIV from (anal receptive) sex is only about 1 in 70 to begin with. So with PrEP, it's somewhere in the range of 1 in 700 to 1 in 7,000 (depending on whether it's 90% effective or 99% effective). ^^^ A whole lot of this!!! Of course, it's true for intercourse with a condom as well. And for oral sex, and even for frottage depending on the particular STD we're talking about. Life isn't safe. So adjust your risk to suit your comfort zone, but by all means ENJOY!

You're "good to go" as of Thursday/Friday. As long as you keep taking your Descovy regularly, your chances of being infected with HIV from sex are extremely low. Estimated at 1 in 10,000, but the number of actual breakthrough cases in people who could be verified as taking the meds regularly is less than 1 in 100,000. Pig out and enjoy!

Yes. Something like the first section of this topic (in the General forum):

The thing you just typed ^^^ is a post. So you can post. The way you gain additional privileges is to post good content.

Three on one with super hot nasty verbal... these guys have got it going on! https://xhamster.com/videos/three-tops-bb-a-bottom-xh4r8mT

https://xhamster.com/videos/motel-whore-3-5946689 Hot tag team at hotel GH... and more

https://xhamster.com/videos/verbal-bb-seeding-kissing-bearded-hung-mature-top-hairy-cub-14363014 Cub begs passionately and demandingly with an adorable southern accent.

Very hot vid with Boymatt and a buddy tag-teaming a bottom. https://xhamster.com/videos/two-buds-seed-bottom-slut-5735745

Nowhere near as many as I'd have liked.

I said that four weeks ago. It's still true. You have posted a pile of things that I didn't downvote in that interval. And now, when I downvoted one post because it was (in my opinion and only my opinion) off-topic and derailing the discussion of someone's actual experience (as posted in the "your last load" thread) suddenly you're complaining that I'm pursuing a vendetta? Please. I have better things to do. But go ahead, keep digging...

Actually yours is going up reasonably fast. You've only been here six months and it's already 46. To answer your question, though: Post good content. That's really it. One-liners often won't do much for your score. Thoughtful posts that people respond to do a better job.

I am closing this topic because people have repeatedly posted here fetishizing gonorrhea, which is NOT ALLOWED ( https://breeding.zone/topic/64867-read-this-significant-change-in-rules-effective-31/ )

First, just breathe and don't freak out! You are OK. You have a disease (in the literal sense - "dis"-"ease", something wrong). You will get better, possibly with medical help. Second, you can't be sure what it is without testing it. It could be monkeypox (the pictures you posted are consistent with poxvirus lesions). It could be something else. Given the current landscape of hazards and the timing of a possible exposure, it seems likely that it is monkeypox. Third, when a disease doesn't go away on its own and instead seems to be getting worse, the thing to do is go see a doctor (or urgent care or whatever options you have in your locale). That's what they are for. Even if they don't have vaccines/testing locally, they can certainly take a sample and send it somewhere else for testing. And if they're ignorant about monkeypox, well, you will be doing a public service by making them educate themselves! I'm merging this thread into "What it's like to have monkeypox," where others describe their experiences, with pictures. That may help you compare.

IKR? Let me tell you, the rest areas on I-88 across central NY state were cruisy but the traffic was mighty thin. Then there was the time I came out of the T-room to see the aurora borealis. That was cool.

I do miss it - used to haunt the T-rooms in college and grad school, and later the ones in the park in SF (though there was plenty of outdoor cruising there as well). There's absolutely nothing near me now (very small town), and even at a moderate driving distance the action isn't what I remember. Though when I think back, there was a lot of wanking and waiting in between the action. So many lost hours...

At this point in my life, I'm confident that it's not for me. I've been around the track a few times and tried it both ways. I'm completely upfront with people about it, especially potential partners. I certainly don't judge people negatively for choosing the monogamous path. I might occasionally find it sad that I won't get the opportunity to play with a monogamous guy I have the hots for, but it's not a big deal. There are a myriad reasons for missing out on one man or another, and I don't feel shortchanged; there are more men who do reciprocate my interest than I will have time or opportunity for in this lifetime.

https://www.fda.gov/consumers/consumer-updates/recipe-danger-social-media-challenges-involving-medicines Truth is stranger than fiction... You couldn't make this stuff up!

Not reliable IMO. I got one on a shaven area of my face once while rimming a hairy ass. WTF...

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This is definitely a difficult situation, but I don't think that there is no hope. I have had a few brushes with family issues (with a few cousins as well as with my brother), and I think one key to navigating them successfully is to be very clear-eyed and open-minded and think about things from everyone's perspective. It sounds to me like your feelings are OK, and so are your brother's. Both of you love the other one, and you have a good relationship. That's a truly wonderful thing, and in my life experience, not nearly as common as it should be. You have romantic feelings and physical attraction for him. You don't know if they are reciprocated, and probably he doesn't either. I'm guessing from other clues in your posts here that you are in a culture where homosexuality in general is not socially acceptable or is marginalized. Even though you are close in age, the viewpoint he learned while young may be rather different from yours, and he may have a lot of trouble accepting any feelings of his own toward other men, let alone toward you. You are comfortable around each other physically (you can sleep together and even massage him and you are both OK with that). That is also great, and also not all that common (at least in my culture). That makes things a bit easier in some ways and harder in others. A number of people have mentioned counseling, and I think you would probably find that helpful. What you also might find very helpful is to try and look at things from your brother's viewpoint, if you can. What does he feel about his relationship with you, and about living with you? What does he feel about his romantic life, and his sex life? If you don't know, perhaps asking him about those things (very carefully, and not in any way suggestively) might give you a lot of perspective about the issue, and maybe about where some of those feelings (both yours and his) come from. Blessings on you for happiness and for a continued great relationship with your brother, no matter what form that takes.