I feel fortunate that I have had a sex life that, up to now, has largely let me experience nearly any and every fetish or taboo that two (or more!!!) consenting queers can think of. No doubt, that pursuit has helped keep the list of "extreme" fetish/fantasy scenes at bay for much of my life. There are three areas that have some major draw for me, and yet, I have not yet expeienced"
infection/superinfection: I have a serious craving for that Cuban strain of HIV. I know getting a second infection can be difficult and connection with the CUBAN guys to help out is being a bit of a problem, but I am hopeful that I figure out how to make this happen. Going from infection to full blown AIDS in less than three years could be the result....if I have the desire to see this one through.
castration: I am a full on bottom and have always "enjoyed" extreme CBT. Lots of needles, weight, nails, compression (sever) and about any other torture has been a constant desire and one that I have had plenty of willing partners. castration seems like a very obvious next step. Will I have balls enough to submit to castration? This one is quickly moving from a casual interest to having a bull nearly equal to that of the virus when I was chasing. I know the consequences, and am getting more prepared to accept them.
snuff: perhaps the most taboo of all. a final act to pull all of your fetishes together into one last orgy of pain, sex and thrill. To find a way to have your last moments filled with emotion at a higher level then you have ever experienced and yet to know, that as the trill ebbs away, so will your life. i have played in some snuff scenes, even though I understood them to be play only, they were pretty intense. And one, that ended with me being chocked out, turned realistic beyond my control or expectations. Could I/would I be bold enough to move in this route? I have no idea---for certain at least----but I have some feelings that after a bit of time, I would accept that fate.
Again, these all are, in my view, fairly extreme. And the human desire to experience as much of the extreme seems very, very high.