Pozguyinchi

I don’t think that is what his name is. I think his actual name is Ray. His porn name is something else. Sorry I wish I could remember.

Let me preface this by saying I do not watch porn. I really never have. I have seen it but it does nothing for me. Years ago I was chatting with this guy online. He is a popular porn actor that was going to start his own studio? I’m not sure if that’s how he put it. Anyway, he is totally my type. Large, black, huge cock, poz. Perfect. I told him that I was t really into filming but I would love to play. He said that he wanted the first time we played to be filmed so that it would be natural. I said no thank you and moved on. About three months later I saw him out when I was with my friends in LA. He started to chat it up with me but I don’t think he remembered our conversation. He didn’t mention anything about filming but he was interested in breeding me. One thing lead to another and we ended up going back to my place and he knocked me up good. When we were taking a break in between loads I told him about our previous conversation. He said he remembered but I don’t think he did. He confirmed he was moving forward with his studio and had a lot of guys like me ready to film. He asked me if I was interested. I said no not really. He fucked me and filled me with another load and I haven’t seen him since. I am sure everyone is going to as his name but I don’t remember. I want to say his name was Ray? His stage name escapes me. I remembered it at one time but now I have forgotten.

I don’t think so. I have a lot of Poz faggot bottom friends that I consider great people. I may even love some of them. I don’t see the use of a relationship. I like my men more dominant and clearly top.

Why put a label on it. I have been called a faggot my whole life. By the made up definition I am. I prefer to just think I am male. Men are whores and faggots. We like to get fucked and fuck. Some men don’t care about gender some do. Probably the only difference really.

I have had a couple of instances where the man will fuck me and not cum. I am not a fan of that. There is a top that I play with occasionally that needs to fuck for about an hour before he can cum. His orgasms are really intense. He will orgasm for about 45 seconds. He has a big cock and is in his late 60’s so I am ok with waiting for his Poz load. I was however fucked by a young guy a couple of months ago that kept fucking but didn’t cum. I tried all of my tricks to get him to cum but he wouldn’t. After about an hour and a half I called it quits. I have been in situations where I was in a group setting and men were using me where they didn’t cum right away. I am ok with that because they were taking turns in me. Multiple men is different than just one that is not coming.

I still consider myself a total bottom but this was monumental for me. It just happened yesterday so it’s too soon to tell if I will do it again. I always wondered what it was like for a top to cum in a pussy. Now I know.

This may be a long one. I want to start out by saying I have always been a bottom since I took my first load at 13. I have had situations throughout the years where I have tried to top but I could not stay hard and moved back to receiving only. Until yesterday. let me also say that I believe I am currently in rut or heat. Whatever you want to call it. I can’t get enough semen in me. lol. I am off this week due to the holiday so it has worked out that I can get bred a lot. Yesterday I went to the video store to cruise. It was actually my third time this week but like I said, I’m in heat or rut. It was surprisingly busy. It may have been due to the holiday. I walked around as usual and saw a lot of familiar faces. Most are old [banned word] that like to watch or are only into giving oral. My first encounter was with a guy about my age who left his booth door open and was stroking it. He wasn’t large but had an incredible body. I went in and started to stroke him. I got down on my knees to the fag stance and he said he wanted to put on a condom. I said you want me to suck you with a condom on? He said yes and I knew he was a closet case. I loved his body but that is where it had to end for me. I stepped back out and started to cruise again. Almost immediately I ran into a guy I have been playing with for years. We made some small talk and kept cruising. I saw a booth open and peaked in to see a big dicked daddy that I have played with a few times. I stepped in again and shut the door. As soon as I did there was a knock on the booth door. I opened it and it was the other guy that I have played with that I had just been taking to. The older guy said come in and it was the three of us in the booth. The older guy was fully naked so me and my friend took off our clothes too. My friend is vers and had fucked me many times. The old guy is a top and has bred me several times as well so I assumed I would be the bottom that was used. My friend got on his knees and started sucking me and the old guy. I was getting hard and so was my friend. I was about to turn and let the old guy enter me when my friend stood up and bent over for him. The old guy is dom so he wasted no time it sliding his nice fat cock up my friend. He fucked him for a few minutes and pulled out. My friend got back on his knees and started to suck the old guy. I noticed that the old guy had gone soft. My friend sucked him for a while but the old guy didn’t get hard. As a bottom I know how it can be when you really want to get bred and your top gets soft. My friend was also sucking me but I knew I would never cum like that. I moved behind my friend and slid my cock in him. I expected to go soft like I have when I tried to top in the past but I didn’t. I kept fucking him and he loved it. It made me feel good that I could make another bottom happy with my cock. I fucked him for about 10 minutes and realized that I probably wouldn’t be able to cum like this so I pretended to cum. This made my friend happy and he also shot a huge load into the old man’s mouth. My friend cleaned me up with his mouth and we all got dressed and left the booth. I was still hungry so I cruised more with no luck. I decided to go home but before I would check the other video store that is about a mile away. Its sleazier and small but I have had some luck. I arrived and started my cruise. This place has glory hole booths so I checked there first. There was nothing. I then went to the back booths. They are big. You can fit about 4 people in them. I peaked into them but there was nothing that caught my eye. One was empty so I stepped inside and watched the porn and waited for someone to come in. I had my cock out and was stroking when a young kid came in. He got right on his knees and started to suck me. I thought at first I would just let him suck me until I got hard then leave but realized he came into my booth so I wasn’t going to leave. He was submissive and kept looking up for my approval on his cock sucking. All of the sudden it clicked in me and I became a dom daddy to him. I figured I would give him what I was looking for. I started talking dirty and said “I know what you want”. He pulled down his pants and you could see his lace thong. I told him to Stan up and he did. I kissed him and told home to bend over. He got on a bench in the booth and assumed the position. I went down on him and ate his pussy. He kept calling me daddy which I found hot. I stood up and slipped my cock in without resistance. His pussy was as sloppy as mine. He was young so either he plays with a lot of toys or he gets used a lot. I fucked him for awhile and we both were taking hits of poppers. I pulled out and said “suck it” without missing a beat the kid was on his knees again sucking my cock. I kept saying things like “get my cock wet for your pussy” and “ work for my load”. He was moaning like a bitch and you could tell he loved it. About 30 minutes in I realized I needed to cum. He was sucking my cock at the time and I said “where do you want it?” He said in his mouth. I said no it’s going in your pussy and he quickly got up on the bench and assumed the position again. I took a big hit of poppers and slammed into him. I fucked him for about 5 minutes and gave him a huge load. I left him in the booth with a huge smile on his face. I was impressed with myself for being able to top. It was my first time fucking to completion. I feel like I just lost my virginity. Lol

Of course. My pleasure is derived from giving him pleasure.

Sling sex is fun. It’s best with a group but one on one is nice too. I don’t have one but I do have friends that do. I know a couple that when I’m over will say “maybe you would be more comfortable in the sling”? I always say yes.

They are a regular for a reason. You go back because they are a good fuck (hopefully). I look at randoms as a handshake. lol they may become regulars but for now it’s just a meet and greet with cum.

It took some time but I loved him more than he loved himself so I knew the best thing for HIM at the time was for me to remove myself from the situation. I always thought it was temporary but in the end it was not. We have since reconnected and are both better off being separated.

Congratulations. We are all better for having you around.

I see there is a common thread with most of these stories. We knew we were different at an early age. Everyone discovers sexuality at their own time. That is why the age of consent is hard to establish. By the age of 9 I knew I wanted to be with a man. I still wasn’t sure how it would work but for some strange reason I wanted to suck cock. I wonder if I was a whore in a previous life too? Lol

When I was 4 or 5 I was in a swimming pool locker room with my dad and a man walked by to go to the showers and he was huge. His cock was swinging and he was a ginger. I just stared and my dad said….its big isn’t it? I just shook my head yes. I didn’t know what I wanted to do with it then but now I would ride him like he was the last cock on the planet.

I am in Wisconsin a lot. I will have to take you up on that.

With Thanksgiving coming soon I thought it was a good time to reflect and give gratitude. I know it’s not popular outside of this blog to say it but I am grateful I am HIV positive. I was diagnosed at an early age when treatment was not readily available. It helped me to first really prioritize what was important and second free myself of the stigma associated with it. I sometimes think what my life would be like if I wasn’t poz at 19. I don’t think I would be as happy. I was able to live my life sexually with freedom. I also live with an openness with my family, friends, and coworkers. Everyone knows my status and I am proud of it. Being a whore and poz has been a gift with relationships too. I know that sex is a feeling nothing more. Men (and women I guess) have a need that gets satisfied with an act. I know that relationships have an added benefit of sexual release but it’s not a requirement. Lastly I will say that my status has not defined me but rather empowered me to be an advocate, mentor and example to others that are either searching for their gift or living with it.

Most tops don’t stick around after breeding. That is there nature. A man’s job is to fertilize and move on. I would say 98% of the men that fuck me just leave when finished. Rarely I get a man that lets me clean him and while I am he says he wants round two. If he does great but if not I don’t take offense. I served my purpose.

It’s funny you say that because I am bred a lot and most just blend together. I can usually go back a few days but not a month or more. Last night was an example. I stopped by this cruisy park at lunch. There was an older Hispanic guy that pulled up next to me. He motioned me to go down the path. I did and we found a spot. He pulled out his really fat cock and I sucked it for a minute then he bred me. When we were walking out of the woods he said thanks again. This time I came more. I guess he has fucked me before. They sort of blend together. I ended up going back when I finished work and a younger 20 year old found me on sniffies and stopped by and bred me. I could probably not pick him out of a line up but his load dropped out of me all night. lol. This is my life. Happens daily. Usually. That is why I don’t keep track or can’t tell what my load count is for the year etc…

I am lucky to have a gay doctor. He is not an infectious disease doctor but he reaches out to his resources when needed and is always honest and treats me with respect. I come to him with on average three Sti’s a year. He just treats me and I move on. Never a lecture on morality. He is a decent man.

I have never thought of myself as a depressed person. Now that I am older I see that it can take on many forms. I have told my story on here many times so I am not going to go into details. I was in a relationship with my step father from the age of 9 to 19. I truly fell in love and he was my everything. When I went to college far away it was hard for me. I met a man much older that was hiv positive. He was clear that he would not have sex with me because of my status. I worked on him for about a year trying to get him to breed me. Finally he gave in and bred me. I did become poz a few months later. I know now that there was a direct relationship between my longing for the fatherly love and my desire to have a meaning relationship with this new partner. Long story short… I was trading one dysfunctional relationship with another. I look back now and see depression played a big part in my poor decisions.

Mine was not good. I had aches everywhere. I had a high temp. Even though I was sort of chasing, I didn’t realize I was converting. My mom was a hospice nurse and worked with some aids patients. She suggested I get tested. I did about a month after I got sick. Tested poz first time.

I would have too!

I had a play date with a really hot top. Huge cock. Very dom. The whole package. I get to his house and it was nice. Private gate the whole thing. When he answers the door he wants to get right to it. I get on my knees and start sucking his mammoth cock. He is really verbal telling me how good I am and how he is going to breed my pussy good. We go to his play room and I get into the sling first. He goes right in and starts to feed me his cock. I am in heaven. He then gets me up and takes me to his fuck bench. More pounding and him verbally calling me a poz slut. When he came he asked if I would spend the night. I said cool and went to his bedroom. That night he work me up a couple more times to use me. In the morning I work and he was not there. I got up and used the bathroom and could hear noise downstairs. I assumed it was the kitchen so I went to get a cup of coffee and say my goodbye. I was dressed but looked like I was bred good. I entered the kitchen and there was an older couple sitting at the table. He introduced me and said “ meet my parents. I said oh?? Did you just get here? They said no we have the bedroom across the hall. They could hear everything. I was embarrassed. Not sure I should have been. It’s a natural act but I would have like to know if the parents were home. He then proceeded to ask questions like “ is my seed still in you?” And “are you sore”? In front of his parents. I skipped the coffee and got out.

Diet is a big part of it. High fiber. I had an ex that insisted I be ready at any time to serve him. I made sure I was up earlier than he was and I douched. That was many years ago but I still douche first thing every morning. Now I have a shower attachment that makes it much easier. I know accidents can happen but I have been lucky and haven’t had one in many many years.

I have a sleeve that I have used. I have a top daddy that likes it because it makes my hole tighter and he can cum faster. Mine has an open end so the cum can drip inside me.