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This is a great topic, one I would greatly appreciate more from others on, as I seem to have absolutely no sense of when a guy might be interested in me...

I like to say I found men later in life, and this is true. But thinking back, earlier in life, finding my first Penthouse in a treehouse, it was the pictorials with anal sex, with big hard cocks that attracted me. And the Forum stories involving anal sex. Particularly the ones with men discovering men, they always turned me on the most, for some reason. I started playing with my own ass around 12 or 13, not really picturing men, but just enjoying the sensations of anal penetration, loving feeling my ass being filled. I was always shy around women, and totally avoided being in men only situations as a kid, Always showered by myself in gym, solo sports, etc... I was also solo sexual, only by myself. Then, puberty.... Women became attracted to me. I would sleep with the interested one, always going for anal, I was always fascinated by the sensations they must feel, being penetrated anally. This was all in my 20s, my first years being sexually active. Always enjoying the sex, especially when they would play with my ass. And always watching porn. I really started noticing the men then, their cocks, and how much pleasure that they were bringing the women when fucked in the ass. The connections between men and anal pleasure were forming in the back of my head, and curiosity was building. I would still play with my ass, still enjoying the sensations, but graduating to dildos and plugs for myself. And it was also the time that men began hitting on me. I was curious, but never enough to go through with anything. This was over a decade of activity.... Then, in the next few years of life, something changed in me. My own ass play became more frequent. I was flirting and teasing more with men online Cocks and anal porn became my focus, as I started wondering how a real cock would feel for the first times while playing deep. And after my GF asked if I was gay, and broke up with me, that's when I started seriously noticing men also. I started experimenting physically, sucking two cocks and being fucked bare by one of them on my first night out experimenting with gay sex. It was so long after my teens and the first curiosity about anal sex and men in general that it was eye opening, awakening something in my now 30ish year old self. I loved everything about my first man on man evening, being used for pleasure. I now knew that pleasure of a big hard cock penetrating, everything about it was intoxicating. And I kept experimenting... over the next few years, I was with women less and men more, discovering my attraction, what I liked, the smell the tastes of men and cock. My porn habits had changed from men fucking women in the ass to men fucking men in the ass. I loved every new thing I discovered, but also tried to resist still, thinking I was just experimenting a little bit. I fought for a few years, denying, then fucking, denying then fucking. For years. Until I met up with one man. He wasn't particularly good looking, but I was attracted right away. He was passionate, and our connection was real and intense. I was attracted to a man. My fight is over. After so long, so many years, This site and everything I have discovered has made me realize I was always gay, just avoiding my reality... So long story. Short version...30 some years.

Evidently I am an extremely picky bottom. Occasionally, I can overcum those feelings, depending on my horniness, and I have been so happy every time I make that choice.

Look at the bright side, I haven't paid a penny in fees on squirt in months from reporting spammers, 5 days free every time!

Who?

Stupidity knows no bounds or political party, although it generally gravitates to the starboard side of things.

I've been offered, but always said no, no real interest in a chemical to do what?

I mean... you are always free to ask... but also be ready to hear "fuck off" quite frequently...

I can't help but get verbal, and most tops have seemed to enjoy it, have joined in on it...

I only look for older men...

"the first thing we do, let's kill all the lawyers"- Shakespeare

My first cock was bare, second cock was wrapped... so I was able to feel the difference pretty easily. Wrapped had nothing close to the passion involved with raw. The heat, the risk, the connection to the top. I never looked back, and only go bare now.

I am drug free and neg...but not for long on either

Twice cancelled there myself. Gave it up cold turkey, just not going to play those types of games with a service that just drops your account for absolutely no reason. Every time I give up on an online platform, I get a little life back. Except here, I'd never quit THIS site!🤪