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Roll call: how many cocks have you sucked this week?
norefusal replied to Explorer10cs's topic in Cocksucking Discussion
how did you keep track? i went to 2 dif sex parties plus a 3rd nite in a backroom of a club so i'm guessing anywhere from 12 to 20 but group action often get me living in the moment and then not totally remembering exact details. then there were 3 at home hook ups w 2 dif guys. anal i remember better. def 5 guys fucked my ass, possibly a 6th. -
it's like that old paris hilton quip "my mother always told me only ugly girls gave bjs" 😜 anyone who's ever spent time on their knees in public cruising spots either indoors or outside knows they are the filthiest most disgusting places on earth and you're wallowing in the filth letting strangers stick their piss sticks into your mouth like it's a cunt, using you to get off. if you're lucky, a group will form and openly talk about what a faggit u are right in front of u like u don't matter. no ones is making love to you in a bed. your getting used and forgotten like a $5 crack whore but you're too pathetic to even charge. it's slut nirvana. 🐷
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i love porn cause it's so fucked up. i don't know why but i've jerked off to several vids of this trio of actors playing incestuous 3 generation sluts - just something about your real dad and your granddad taking turns destroying your hole 💦💦💦💦gets me everytime
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there's only so much we can do ourselves ultimately i'd love to have a Sir who whores me out. that way i could be tied down, hooded, gagged, ear plugged etc but i'd have a pimp: someone encouraging guys to use me, piss on me etc but also protecting me from the real creeps so noone damages his property so to speak 😜 i came closest once but he insisted i be a chem whore too and as hot as the sex was it wasn't worth the price of addiction. i'm also probably too past my prime to ever get this wish fulfilled but that's the irony: younger/hotter me never would have been grounded enough to do it. it takes a lot of self confidence to be a total sub.
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i struggle w this still. hostin at home door open i slip the blindfold on when i hear the car drive up. listening to the door open and the steps approach is a huge turn on. but waitin ass up at the bathhouse there's downtime between tops and if i listen to my phone i get lost and when i suddenly feel a hand on me i jump. i've literally scared guys away lol
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1. i get pleasure giving pleasure so fisting a bottom till he cums is as satisfying as sucking dick till it unloads in your mouth 2. it's a great feeling of power or masc energy or whatever to literally punch a guy's cunt. i mean u have to be gentle and give pleasure but just the act itself of having your fist up a man's butt is violent and kinda rapey in a good way 3. the older i get the harder it is to always be ready to rock n roll at a moments notice. drugs enhance sex but they're also often boner killers. fisting gives me a way to top when i feel like it ever if my dick doesn't cooperate
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Why Did You Start Barebacking?
norefusal replied to west933's topic in Making The Decision To Bareback
this. the more i did it the more addicted i got to raw is law but as free and easy as i am w it now, nothing can replace the thrill of playing russian roulette w dick - not knowing which one would have the bullet it's a weird trauma kink id love to eradicate hiv so we can all fuck bare like we were meant to but sometimes in a disturbed way i think "these poor younger guys, they'll never know the thrill of truely dangerous sex at a time when society despised you as a pervert" -
i tend to be "ass half full of loads" in my outlook. sure i'm older and the world has gone 90% bottom, but there are more opportunities and more grit on my end. why a gl teen cumdump couldn't get laid to save his life is anyone's guess, but i remained a virgin well past YMCA being played on the radio despite a willingness to spread for anyone who asked. if i time traveled back, my teen self would be like "FML even this gross old man gets laid and i can't!" 😜
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while it's seems being a cumdump was something "i was born this way" i do think there is a way of realizing your true nature without being a slave to addiction. i turn it on and off all the time, sometimes for years on end. im glad ive experienced those door open, face down ass up nights at the bathhouse but also glad it's not been every night. no i don't regret entire days lost to the cruising park, nor do i regret those nites spent snuggling in front of tv w my hubby. nor do i regret all those times i topped. variety is the spice of life
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these are the typical feelings of isolation. reaching out to others who are in a similar situation and knowing you are not alone is key. i know it's helped tremendously for me to know im not alone and there are others going thru what im going thru. being gay can often be isolating so make sure to engage w others and know you've got a built in community of like minded people you were born into. it's an automatic club membership you can never revoke so use it to your advantage
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yes and no. im predominately italian so the goverment says im white but most people assume im not upon seeing me. i do however live a very white life in a very white country that is very segregated. unfortunately, i'm also attracted to men of color (and often, them to me). so i don't refuse to show up to all the predominately white gay events, but the small % of token men of color therefore disappoint me. so i cruise parks, sex shops etc purposefully to meet men of color as that seems to be where they hang out in my experience. it even seems to be one of the things that apps made worse as once you scroll past 6 pages of guys, only DMing the 4 men of color you saw, it's hard not to feel creepy. so i sleep w white guys too but honestly, the stupid questions! like what tropical nudist beach vacation did i take to get an all over tan in winter? bitch, this is natural skin color lol
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i feel like the story's protagonist lol on sat he was tied down, blindfolded, slammed, rough fucked and filled with his first toxic load w the promise of more to come... even my cunt is twitching for more at this point 😜
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one of the ideas/perks of anon is i don't know the sexual background of the tops. although in my experience, the self identified str8 guys feel the need to pronounce their heterosexual status post nut 😜 the "problem" is my hormone monster is not even remotely woke so finding out i'm full of some str8 boy's unwanted babies actually turns me on. 😜
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Where did you get (or give) your last load?
norefusal replied to rawTOP's topic in General Discussion
went to the hotel room of an out of towner on their last night. i've only done this a handful of times but it's always good. all that pent up energy being released and me being rewarded with their multi-day load. -
First time fucked. Unexpected and shocking
norefusal replied to Teeslad70's topic in Your Last Load...
has he fucked you in his car yet? it's not very practical however it will make you feel more like a dirty slut making poor life choices 😜 -
you have 2 choices imo: 1. live in the moment and enjoy it for what it is. i spent most of my youth primarily enjoying the enhanced orgasm that came w being fucked. i have no idea what stupid label the gay community has for this, but tops were used by me to get off better. 2. if you are serious about flipping the script and becoming a total cunt - practice discipline and restraint. i wear a jock or thong to remind everyone upfront that my dick will not be an active participant in this. sometimes i hold my hands behind my head or back in mock restraint to thwart any urge to touch myself. blindfolds or masks help put me in the mood to just be holes for use. should you go the cumdump route, be aware that it's like all other addictions: the more you get the more you need/crave. you'll leave a hookup's house, his wet load fresh inside you, and immediately start hittin up his neighbors online for your next load. you'll leave the bathhouse dejected that you've only got 2-3 loads up your ass. again, try to live in the moment. you've just screwed around w 6 or 7 different guys in one nite, who cares if only half of them ended up breeding you. otherwise the disappointment that you weren't fucked "enough" will only snowball.
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to each his own. i would have flipped if my husband called me bitch no matter how many times his dick was up my ass. i was not that man's bitch! but i've since used it w hook ups and FBs for various reasons: but it's mostly to show subservience regardless of sexual act. it's an insult and only hot if you're in a dom/sub type situation. a bitch is a hole you use.
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everyone is different some guys think kissing is "gay" especially if they're a top, somehow breeding a guy isn't gay lol others feel that kissing is "cheating" where as breeding a stranger is "just sex" or maybe he's just dumb. so... was it hot gettin bred by an imbecile? 😜who needs brains when you e got a big cock lol
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i agree with those who say it's a sign of respect, but if the stars align, the cleaning will reawaken the beast and i'm treated to a second breeding 🐷
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Looking for advice from dominants on how to serve effectively
norefusal replied to Chuckybb's topic in BDSM Discussion
know what u want and try to commit to it. all guys like rough sex and anyone can be a cumdump. the question is do you want more and are you really willing to be mindfucked as well as merely fucked. often the dom will groom you. test you and see how far u are willing to go. play w you for hours on end like a cat w a mouse, edge u. how willing are you to be broken in? to be completely dominated, no questioned asked? -
level 5 for decades i guess. for most of the aids pandemic, i'd be too ashamed to ask for raw w a bf. but i'd let an anon rondo fuck me raw in the park.
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thank you for sharing here with us. i've shared my story in different ways over the years. at the time i shared it because i had to as it made me sick and really fucked up my whole life for several months. i described it only in factual terms and never used the r word. it still shocks me the reaction, especially by the ER doctors who hearing an obvious description of rape only took a dismissive " the fucked up things you fags do to yourselves" attitude. it still angers me. i sometime fantasize about suing them for malpractice. a few years later the term "date rape" suddenly became popular as people were more openly discussing how most of us get raped by someone we knew and trusted and still blamed ourselves for being naive. i started to share my story more then using the new phrase. a couple of years ago i revisited the subject w my current therapist and he asked "why not just call it sexual assault? that's what it was." Date rape is a way of softening it. The saddest part i feel is that whatever happened to that guy, im 100% sure he's been walking around all these years fully believing we had consensual sex, not even allowing himself to realize he's a rapist. ugh.
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love them both but pissing seems a tad more humiliating to me. i think it's the smell. but drinking piss is the ultimate imo as it's not just humiliation but requires the participation of the sub to accept and conform
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i'm not sure what you're asking. the main point of worry is preventative protection. it's why we take precautions, follow medical advice, get tested frequently for early detection, etc. but it sounds like you are already doing all that. are you asking if you should panic? i wouldn't advise it as it's counterproductive. try to relax and wait.
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Tested positive for Syphillis....
norefusal replied to Cubbtm4poz's topic in HIV/AIDS & Sexual Health Issues
good questions! i don't remember exactly which means neither were a big deal 1. i think it was just 2-3 days. seeing as i had them for a couple of weeks that seemed to last an eternity, it was almost as if the disappeared overnight by comparison 2. i think they told me 2 weeks. tbh i was so upset about testing positive i had 0 interest in hooking up for several weeks so it was easy for me to beyond the recommended period. just the memory of the joint pain alone put me off the idea of fucking
