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I don't understand the desire to get pozzed
norefusal replied to btmdad's topic in What's It Like To Be Poz?
some do. i was shocked when my newest doctor questioned just that during a recent check up. i stared at her for a few seconds, first deciding against saying "i dare you to name me one pill on the market today that is free of all possible side effects" then secondly deciding against saying "oh yeah, cause im sure once i get pozzed all those hiv drugs you'll prescribe me are all side effect free" complete w eye roll. instead i changed the subject. of course, she was in fact pushing the old "never leave the house without at least two condoms on" dog n pony show so... i decided to avoid sparring with someone who may be voting for kennedy in november 😜 -
basically if you're not one of the village people i'm not interested 😜 i've gotten off w off duty bi-curious cops in public cruising areas back in the day when arrests were still common. im most often exposed to construction workers thru work so the risk of being fired for inappropriate behavior is an added heart-pumping kink. oh, and anyone who's a gangbanger/punk/thug mmmmm... that horrid/wonderful moment where you don't know if they're going to kiss you or kill you. to quote Ken "sublime!" 😜
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sorry. i'm an older gay guy from the boston area. it's safe to assume almost every word out of my mouth is sarcasm said with the tone of a true smartass. 😜
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not sure what you mean by "profile" i get your overall point: it reminds me of circa 1990 when a fag could take a sip of miller lite and a drag off his marlboro and then go "stop bangin on about jesse helms. i'm not into politics" lol but i also get that i don't mention it on grindr because i like my men like i like my coffee: the less i know about it the better! im sure ive unknowingly sucked MAGA dick and i'd swallow every drop again. when it comes to dick, i support "don't ask, don't tell" 😜
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well, now it's out that he's nothing more than a gop operative tryin to help get our american hitler elected again. his family must be proud lol
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not dirty unwashed gross but masc man scent. last week i went out to a leather bar. this hot daddy probably showered well before getting dressed to go out, but after freeballin in a pair of tight leather pants for a few hours, when i went down on him in the back room the ball sweat was intoxicating. i could have lived in that man's crotch for days, i was gettin high off the musk 😜
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it's the smell that bothers me most. i've had tops make this request and sometimes it goes well but other times it starts to smell and i'm put off. but i get this more w bottoms who didn't prepare. i don't even mind fingering or fucking it but the smell especially once i'm out... i have to go running for the sink and just scrub scrub scrub lol idk some dirty is too dirty
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Roll call: how many cocks have you sucked this week?
norefusal replied to Explorer10cs's topic in Cocksucking Discussion
how did you keep track? i went to 2 dif sex parties plus a 3rd nite in a backroom of a club so i'm guessing anywhere from 12 to 20 but group action often get me living in the moment and then not totally remembering exact details. then there were 3 at home hook ups w 2 dif guys. anal i remember better. def 5 guys fucked my ass, possibly a 6th. -
it's like that old paris hilton quip "my mother always told me only ugly girls gave bjs" 😜 anyone who's ever spent time on their knees in public cruising spots either indoors or outside knows they are the filthiest most disgusting places on earth and you're wallowing in the filth letting strangers stick their piss sticks into your mouth like it's a cunt, using you to get off. if you're lucky, a group will form and openly talk about what a faggit u are right in front of u like u don't matter. no ones is making love to you in a bed. your getting used and forgotten like a $5 crack whore but you're too pathetic to even charge. it's slut nirvana. 🐷
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i love porn cause it's so fucked up. i don't know why but i've jerked off to several vids of this trio of actors playing incestuous 3 generation sluts - just something about your real dad and your granddad taking turns destroying your hole 💦💦💦💦gets me everytime
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there's only so much we can do ourselves ultimately i'd love to have a Sir who whores me out. that way i could be tied down, hooded, gagged, ear plugged etc but i'd have a pimp: someone encouraging guys to use me, piss on me etc but also protecting me from the real creeps so noone damages his property so to speak 😜 i came closest once but he insisted i be a chem whore too and as hot as the sex was it wasn't worth the price of addiction. i'm also probably too past my prime to ever get this wish fulfilled but that's the irony: younger/hotter me never would have been grounded enough to do it. it takes a lot of self confidence to be a total sub.
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i struggle w this still. hostin at home door open i slip the blindfold on when i hear the car drive up. listening to the door open and the steps approach is a huge turn on. but waitin ass up at the bathhouse there's downtime between tops and if i listen to my phone i get lost and when i suddenly feel a hand on me i jump. i've literally scared guys away lol
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1. i get pleasure giving pleasure so fisting a bottom till he cums is as satisfying as sucking dick till it unloads in your mouth 2. it's a great feeling of power or masc energy or whatever to literally punch a guy's cunt. i mean u have to be gentle and give pleasure but just the act itself of having your fist up a man's butt is violent and kinda rapey in a good way 3. the older i get the harder it is to always be ready to rock n roll at a moments notice. drugs enhance sex but they're also often boner killers. fisting gives me a way to top when i feel like it ever if my dick doesn't cooperate
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Why Did You Start Barebacking?
norefusal replied to west933's topic in Making The Decision To Bareback
this. the more i did it the more addicted i got to raw is law but as free and easy as i am w it now, nothing can replace the thrill of playing russian roulette w dick - not knowing which one would have the bullet it's a weird trauma kink id love to eradicate hiv so we can all fuck bare like we were meant to but sometimes in a disturbed way i think "these poor younger guys, they'll never know the thrill of truely dangerous sex at a time when society despised you as a pervert" -
i tend to be "ass half full of loads" in my outlook. sure i'm older and the world has gone 90% bottom, but there are more opportunities and more grit on my end. why a gl teen cumdump couldn't get laid to save his life is anyone's guess, but i remained a virgin well past YMCA being played on the radio despite a willingness to spread for anyone who asked. if i time traveled back, my teen self would be like "FML even this gross old man gets laid and i can't!" 😜
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while it's seems being a cumdump was something "i was born this way" i do think there is a way of realizing your true nature without being a slave to addiction. i turn it on and off all the time, sometimes for years on end. im glad ive experienced those door open, face down ass up nights at the bathhouse but also glad it's not been every night. no i don't regret entire days lost to the cruising park, nor do i regret those nites spent snuggling in front of tv w my hubby. nor do i regret all those times i topped. variety is the spice of life
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these are the typical feelings of isolation. reaching out to others who are in a similar situation and knowing you are not alone is key. i know it's helped tremendously for me to know im not alone and there are others going thru what im going thru. being gay can often be isolating so make sure to engage w others and know you've got a built in community of like minded people you were born into. it's an automatic club membership you can never revoke so use it to your advantage
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yes and no. im predominately italian so the goverment says im white but most people assume im not upon seeing me. i do however live a very white life in a very white country that is very segregated. unfortunately, i'm also attracted to men of color (and often, them to me). so i don't refuse to show up to all the predominately white gay events, but the small % of token men of color therefore disappoint me. so i cruise parks, sex shops etc purposefully to meet men of color as that seems to be where they hang out in my experience. it even seems to be one of the things that apps made worse as once you scroll past 6 pages of guys, only DMing the 4 men of color you saw, it's hard not to feel creepy. so i sleep w white guys too but honestly, the stupid questions! like what tropical nudist beach vacation did i take to get an all over tan in winter? bitch, this is natural skin color lol
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i feel like the story's protagonist lol on sat he was tied down, blindfolded, slammed, rough fucked and filled with his first toxic load w the promise of more to come... even my cunt is twitching for more at this point 😜
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one of the ideas/perks of anon is i don't know the sexual background of the tops. although in my experience, the self identified str8 guys feel the need to pronounce their heterosexual status post nut 😜 the "problem" is my hormone monster is not even remotely woke so finding out i'm full of some str8 boy's unwanted babies actually turns me on. 😜
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Where did you get (or give) your last load?
norefusal replied to rawTOP's topic in General Discussion
went to the hotel room of an out of towner on their last night. i've only done this a handful of times but it's always good. all that pent up energy being released and me being rewarded with their multi-day load. -
First time fucked. Unexpected and shocking
norefusal replied to Teeslad70's topic in Your Last Load...
has he fucked you in his car yet? it's not very practical however it will make you feel more like a dirty slut making poor life choices 😜 -
you have 2 choices imo: 1. live in the moment and enjoy it for what it is. i spent most of my youth primarily enjoying the enhanced orgasm that came w being fucked. i have no idea what stupid label the gay community has for this, but tops were used by me to get off better. 2. if you are serious about flipping the script and becoming a total cunt - practice discipline and restraint. i wear a jock or thong to remind everyone upfront that my dick will not be an active participant in this. sometimes i hold my hands behind my head or back in mock restraint to thwart any urge to touch myself. blindfolds or masks help put me in the mood to just be holes for use. should you go the cumdump route, be aware that it's like all other addictions: the more you get the more you need/crave. you'll leave a hookup's house, his wet load fresh inside you, and immediately start hittin up his neighbors online for your next load. you'll leave the bathhouse dejected that you've only got 2-3 loads up your ass. again, try to live in the moment. you've just screwed around w 6 or 7 different guys in one nite, who cares if only half of them ended up breeding you. otherwise the disappointment that you weren't fucked "enough" will only snowball.
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to each his own. i would have flipped if my husband called me bitch no matter how many times his dick was up my ass. i was not that man's bitch! but i've since used it w hook ups and FBs for various reasons: but it's mostly to show subservience regardless of sexual act. it's an insult and only hot if you're in a dom/sub type situation. a bitch is a hole you use.
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everyone is different some guys think kissing is "gay" especially if they're a top, somehow breeding a guy isn't gay lol others feel that kissing is "cheating" where as breeding a stranger is "just sex" or maybe he's just dumb. so... was it hot gettin bred by an imbecile? 😜who needs brains when you e got a big cock lol
