norefusal
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this is blowing my mind! i don't even stay in one spot very long. the longest i e ever lived in one city is 13 years and that's not including the various neighborhoods i move between. quite often my FBs are neighbors, someone i run into often by chance or someone who's a quick booty call away for those late nite "you up" texts. a few lasted 3-4 years but that's about it. plus there's always the "stuff" that gets in the way. one guy made a deal w his husband that they'd only do 3ways and he'd stop cheating. i dropped out at that point. i was friendly w the husband but not attracted to him. it was actually a bit creepy how much alike we were physically. another guy, i loved how passionate and intense the sex was, but he was a holyrolller always trying to pray the gay away and each hookup was literally him falling off the wagon like i was his crack pipe.
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Tested Negative - Relived but still tempted
norefusal replied to Jm441's topic in Making The Decision To Bareback
you're not alone when i first came here after my divorce with similar stories and desires, i spent a long time scrolling around and reading and taking everyone's stories in. that helped. for my own situation, all i can say is: post-trauma addiction left untreated only leads to worsening behavior. had i not been talking more openly w people about these desires, id most probably be poz and regretful as we speak. but that's just me. usually, as w me, it all really stems from unresolved issues from childhood abuse. -
not just that, but gay porn became a huge public service network with not just a red warning at the start but often a big show was made of "look, i'm putting a condom on! i'm gonna fuck you so good!" etc
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stop trying to make "gay culture" happen Gretchen" 😜 it's especially laughable in the context of gay porn, which is basically free based str8 male desire. putting aside the fact that most of them are "gay for pay" heteros, most gay porn is a an alpha male showcasing his dominance by using, abusing and tossing aside a beta. he rough fucks the bottoms, pisses on him, slaps him, calls him bitch and slut, breeds his cunt then loses all interest in him. it's all so fucking ott str8boi culture its laughable. let's not even get into "knock me up daddy!, make me pregnant w your toxic babies" lol one time i casually told my husband i'd read the same book at 20 and at 30 and had completely different views of it. years later he gave me a copy of the same book for my 40th bday because he listened and remembered and wanted to make me happy. now that's fucking GAY 😜
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How much does your Family, contribute to the homophobia in your life.
norefusal replied to brnbk's topic in LGBT Politics
like most of society, they have greatly come around and been more and more accepting w each year that passes. when they all happily showed up to my wedding, that was a feel good moment. however.... even w my parents now gone, im really starting to face a sort of delayed reaction about just how f-ed up i am in the head from a childhood filled with unapologetic homophobia. it's like a delayed reaction, and post-trauma thriving only lasts x amount of years or something. -
so how do you deal w it? i find its very, very common for white guys to ask as a conversation starter "so where are you from?" and its kinda become a trigger for me, partly because i feel like im being gaslit. they act like its just a normal friendly question but all i hear is "i don't even know how to talk to you until i know which race you are"
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hopefully nobody is a total anything! how boring ive tasted pussy, piss, ass and cum. i might have my favs but im glad i tried them all. i think the OP was just expressing online buyers remorse. you order something off the internet and when it arrives its nothing like you imagined. but ya gotta roll w the punches. i may statistically bottom more often but fucking masc str8 dudes w a wife at home is a particular delicacy imho. just some kid's dad beggin to be bred... 💦💦💦sublime! 😜
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lol if you want to believe the USA is one big melting-pot love-fest where the average person's dinner party looks like a Beneton ad, knock yourself out. but statistics don't lie.
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depends on the situation really. 1. i'd do whatever my dom told me to do 2. since it's a survey, im assuming i have a choice. also considering the pic i imagine this is at some sort of group party situation at which point i would def take the bowl and chug it down in one go to show the others im gangsta so dont bother holding back having your way w me 😜
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all i can say is that no one gets to have it all. i too sometimes wondered if being slutty prevented me from finding love earlier but i think not. the two most significant relationships that have shaped my life both started out as random guys crushing me at the gym. when i married i was more than happy to get off the merry go round and settle down. but once divorced, although im glad i did what i did, the one regret i have is that i wasn't still whoring around during the marriage. if lightning does strike twice for me, i have a hard time believing i'd go back to monogamy
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Bottoms: Do you get fucked for the fucking or for the load?
norefusal replied to rawTOP's topic in General Discussion
100% the fucking. if i get a load, that's a perk but it's not the sole goal -
oh, i hadn't had one of those in a while. one did however help me get over the hump. i've always been a natural verbal moaner etc but when i was young the whole concept of "dirty talk" was weird to me. but one night i fucked this guy who turned out to be str8 on the DL (very pretty eager bottom, and a dad w kids - go figure) who was hardcore into it. he was literally babbling like a parrot who's owner watches too much porn but once i saw how excited it got him, i joined in. i was terrible at it, but he didn't care and it excited me to get him excited. OTOH, enjoying nurturing my sub bottom side of late, i love it when im moaning about how good the dicking is and the top harshly growls at me "shut the fuck up and just take it bitch!" 💦💦💦
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oh, the viagra does that to me now. tbh it's always taken me forever to cum but this too is something that in the 90s was a bonus but today is a liability. everyone seems to have become such a cum slut that guys start beggin for your load as soon as you impale them. the other day this guy was giving me such great head i swear i came twice but it turned out to be orgasms w/out ejaculation. i felt like a prostate cancer servivor. the bj was great for me but the guy never got his "reward"
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i've joined several meet up groups that proport to be about massage or nudity or whatever, and they are, but they all also quickly devolve into orgies. the guys who attend them all seem to be more like you so perhaps you should check some of them out. i don't agree 100% about the apps. everyone is there so it's hard to say "everyone is so..... " because there's actually a wide variety. i know i've been frustrated when looking for just the opposite. it's like dude i wanna get fucked by a stranger, not get married! 😜
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i think most guys are like this. i used to be. but i think these labels are really more for show than science. it's almost like "who are you taking to the office xmas party?" you're not gonna show up w last night's drunken mistake. you're going to take someone you're emotionally involved w. which gender that person is tells your coworkers if your "str8" or "gay"
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i love this story but i just want to point out that it's from 2008 at least 4 years before prep so the whole cumming outside angle makes more sense. i used to cruise the park in nyc in the 90s because that's where'd i'd more like meet black and latino guys who barebacked. so i'm both sad and happy i missed going here. sounds like my kind of place but id prob be poz for sure if i'd of known of it.
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i had a sim but dif thing happen: id been bred earlier in the evening and still had the load up inside me. this kid was one of those people giving mixed "will he or won't he" signals all night but he did end up coming over and just when he was pounding away good and deep he suddenly pulled out and asked for something to clean off w. he started getting a bit agitated saying tissues weren't enough and i had to bring him a wet facecloth etc then i tried going down on him and he freaked out and pushed away and said "no! you made a mess!" then got dressed and left. i looked at the discarded tissues and it was just some cum and a lil bit of brownish ass juice. ive fucking felched bottoms before and this princess was having a mental breakdown over gettin a bit of slop on his dick? everyone's different i guess.
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schwing! damn, now i can't leave my desk till this hard on goes down 😜
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for us boomers and GenXers who lived thru the trauma of the aids crisis: prep was a game changer. even tho i've taken countless loads over the past few years, emotionally it's never enough to compensate for decades of not taking any. we are also not young studs and boners on demand is a thing of the past. milenials take too many antidepressants 😜prozac gave me ED and as a 30 something i flushed that shit. i'd rather be depressed than celebate. and frankly, given all the yearning for a strong daddy, i think younger guys are too scarred by modern life to be tops. if this was 1960s trump and biden would have had bullets in the back of their heads by now. we older guys may be dicks but we do seem to have thicker skin
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how are the housing prices in your area? because i am moving there immediately! 😜 i currently live in southern new england aka bottom capital of the world. the last guy who bred me did so after a long day of swallowing anon loads at a glory hole. even the tops are bottoms here 😜 meth is one part of it but it also much more. considering that the last two guys i topped were a bi flip-flopper and a str8 anal-curious novice, i think tucker carlson has a point about male masculinity crisis: even becky with the good hair's husband craves anon raw dick up the ass 😜
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Hyper impatient people on hook up sites
norefusal replied to austin_submale's topic in General Discussion
hook up apps expose you to all sorts of people you'd not meet in your everyday life. it also has a way of shining a light on people at their messiest. but it has provided me with many a humorous "and this one time band camp" slutty sex story😜 -
Hyper impatient people on hook up sites
norefusal replied to austin_submale's topic in General Discussion
it all depends. what's both great and awful about sniffies is its full of dl, cheaters, sr8 guys etc and they can be high maintenance and annoying at times. or they can be fun. saturday one hyper guy hit me up lookin for quick head asap and liking my offer of blindfolded door open anon. he wasn't kidding either, got right to it, growing rather quickly as my mouth work on him, then just grabbed my head to hold still for some rough throat pounding. his ragged breathing clued me that he was ready to blow but i wasn't prepared for the absolute flooding my mouth received. i kept swallowing but more jizz kept coming. poor guy must have had a serious 4 day load clogging up his pipes 😜then he zipped up n quickly left. i was almost breathless myself from the driveby skullfucking and the tasty load still coating my mouth, having swallowed what felt like 3 normal loads, all from some bitch's husband i never even saw 🐷 the phone thing also depends wildly on the guy, the vibe, who's doin what etc. i've had dom masters scroll their phones while i blow them. usually they're tryin to whore me out, lookin for other tops to come use me, so i'm cool w the phone in those cases. 🐷 -
i prefer verbal but variety is the spice of life 😜 anon GH hookup the other day was silent type, but he was one of those guys that finally slams balls deep and then goes still all is quiet including breathing but you feel your hole register each throb from the base of his dick as he pumps 1, 2, 3, 4 squirts before pulling out
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First time fucked. Unexpected and shocking
norefusal replied to Teeslad70's topic in Your Last Load...
you do it cause it feels great. these neg thoughts and/or fear of other people's judgement is what kept me from exploring more at a younger age. ironically, it take a huge amount of self confidence to be a total sub servicing faggot. personally, i'm just glad im not going to end up on my deathbed going "you know, i really wish i'd let two guys piss all over me outside at least just once" when it comes to sex: "life is a banquette and most poor suckers are starving to death!" 🐷
