norefusal
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I don't understand the desire to get pozzed
norefusal replied to btmdad's topic in What's It Like To Be Poz?
i'm not sure where your hostility comes from. i get that this is different in the "no turning back" way but you literally can't come up w a rational answer for any kinky desire. why get tied up? why get slapped? why get pissed on? most kink is a reaction to trauma imho and if one wonders where my desire to be pozed comes from look no further than the pearl clutching overly hysterical safe sex movement of the late 20th century. having spent my early sexually formative years kept in a constant cycle of fear of it's likelihood, imagine my surprise to find bug chasers actively trying to get infected and failing in the quest. couple this with mainstream society's habit of considering gay and aids interchangeable synonyms and it's no stretch to "are you even a faggot if you're not poz" i don't feel this is on the level of "the gov puts a tracking device in vaccines" fear of being stealth pozed is pretty fucking irrational in and of itself but that's what prep is for. i struggle emotionally with an intense desire that's counter productive, so i don't appreciate being scorned and victim blamed by people in my own community. -
First time fucked. Unexpected and shocking
norefusal replied to Teeslad70's topic in Your Last Load...
wtf know what "normal" is but yes this is a very common desire. -
i love servicing st8 husbands but let's face it, they're just people. some are great, some not so great. i like the ones who are cool with their decisions. but my two pet peeves are: 1. the post orgasm guilt self-flatulators that feel the need to explain they were supposed to be out getting boston market, not head. dude, i'll happily swallow all your unwanted babies, but i don't want to hear about your live kids. 2. the pre-game nervous nellies, obsessed with the privacy of the hook up, the risk-free aspects, the whole i wanna cheat but i don't want to do anything that seems like cheating guys. uck shut up an pull your pants down already
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i agree with what people are saying and it's true of GOOD amateur porn but omg have you seen some of the shit thats out there? bad sound, poor lighting and don't get me started on the number of people who drop the camera in the middle of it lol and i'm sorry, but prof porn is its own form of acting and what's hot live isn't the same as what's hot on film. it may have felt great but watchin two guys silently pant and grind is not good viewing. if your gonna cum inside on film you better get verbal. jmho
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in the parking lot outside some guy's storage unit. he was weirded out by all the cameras but i got off on it. somewhere out there is grainy footage of me gettin rough fucked n bred like a cheap whore 😻
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it's a roller coaster ride and i'm just tryin to find that happy medium. i held off on having sex w men as long as i could but then once i gave in i went hog wild and i loved it. then the sex for sex's sake routine became a burden and when i gave myself over to monogamy it was great at first. but then it too became a prison of the soul. now i can't imagine ever giving up my freedom. plenty of gay couples prove everyday that it doesn't have to be sophie's choice. as for the risks, i think it's a fools errand to factor that in. personally i'm struggling to balance the fear mongering that the safe sex movement drilled into our brains with the information i get here which seems to say it's hard to get infected even when your actively trying to make it happen. i don't regret it all, but there are a couple of exBFs that i regret not lettin breed me. but i get that im coming from a place a priv ledge or luck: ive fucked countless random strangers yet im apparently covered in STI resistant teflon. 🤞my luck holds out because i'm not ready to close up shop anytime soon
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this part of my brain just doesn't work. i'm a doer not a watcher. even if i was jerkin off w some bro outside a window it would be impossible for me to not try an go down on him. seriously, this is the one thing i'll never get: how many guys are into denial and holding back. when it comes to sex i have 0 impulse control. even as an exhibitionist, i prefer the guys watching to be waiting their turn rather than just observing 😜
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guys who run off 2 secs after nutting are rude imho. i honestly don't know how they do it as i need a minute to return to "normal" breathing, heartbeat, etc. i hate the feel of shoving my now over sensitive , still half hard junk into clothes etc it's so uncivilized and imho shamefilled. cuddling etc is different and requires somekind of emotional connection even if it's as thin as "god you're a good lay!" but i agree that the possibility of round 2 action does sometimes help me stick around 😜The guy has to be a pretty shitty lay for me to be "hit the road jack"
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i got a thing for mantits i won't lie 😜
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i probably spent too much energy on loyalty and "bros b4 hos" in my youth but also there were so many guys, i didnt need to "go there" w a potentially problematic hook up. the closest i came was a relationship that grew out of sloppy seconds from my best friend's hook up. i actually asked permission first lol but it was no big deal as we just had a connection they didnt.
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hairy to each his own. personally, if i wanted smooth, soft, hairless, i'd fuck a woman. but if eatin a man's ass, i want the look, feel and taste of a man's ass. love buryin my face between those fur covered mounds 😜
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First time fucked. Unexpected and shocking
norefusal replied to Teeslad70's topic in Your Last Load...
you know. in my experience, rape is in the eye of the victim. to this day i'm sure my rapist is walking around convinced he did nothing wrong. but i know the difference. i've had other situations similar to yours where i got a bit miffed over lack of obvious consent, but i got over it real quick because like you seem to describe, it was overall enjoyable. not so the one time i actually label rape. it was horrible and actually derailed my life for almost a year. it seems that 3 months later, nothing really bad happened in your life, so maybe it wasn't so bad. let me ask you this: now that you've broken the ultimate rule an let another man fuck you and make you his bitch, do you want to do it again? as for the video? who knows but my personal experience is that 99.9% of guys are just horny men like you. most people aren't out to ruin your life. do you think maybe all this talk of rape and blackmail is perhaps guilt talking? do you feel ok about cheating? so an experienced slut, your experience sounds like heaven. but perhaps it was a bit too much too soon for someone dipping their toe into the world of m2m sex -
Fav type of cock? Veiny? mushroom ,purple ? Etc
norefusal replied to Explorer10cs's topic in Cocksucking Discussion
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Do you refuse tops that insist on condoms
norefusal replied to jcklvrga's topic in Making The Decision To Bareback
luckily it rarely comes up. one guy insisted and at the time i figured it was better than not getting fucked at all but, eh. another time was with a repeat guy who is married. i got his reasoning but once we built up trust he gave up the condoms. -
i assume this is a reference to ageism. Fact of life i guess 😜it's partially why i'm currently such a slut: i see the window closing and i want to get as much action in while i still can. still, after i got both divorced and vaccinated and started hookin up again, i read an article about a published study finding the average US male had 6 sexual partners. i thought 6!? like in a weekend? turns out it's in a lifetime! omfg life is a banquet and most poor suckers are starving to death. lol so i sat down and tried to do the math and came up with in the 6 months since my div i'd been with about 30 different guys lol 6! can you imagine? that's like one sat night at megaplex! 😈
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it depends on the situation. i had one ex that morphed into a FB for years afterward and only ended when i moved away. He is one of 2 ex's i often think about hookin up w again. the only other ex i still see morphed into my bff so it's a bit more complicated. 1. i'd be afraid of ruining the friendship. 2. even tho they're open im friendly w his husband an it would seem like a dick move and 3. i have fond memories of the sex being amazing but what if it's not amazing again? i'd rather remember it well and go out on top 😜
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I'm gonna say 28 by 26 i could still count them all in my fingers by 27 i discovered anon hookups w guys, abs, back rooms at clubs, etc and this is where is all started to blur. Honestly, i have no idea how you guys even come with with these numbers. 91 guys and you could still remember them all? how? also, who counts and who doesn't? does a rando who sucked my dick in the park but then ran off when i thought he heard people coming count?
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Timeline of a straight guy becoming a bottom
norefusal replied to BigBiGuy73's topic in General Bareback Sex Stories
1978 cumdump wannabe i would have served the whole town. but the village people were considered hot and no guy was interested in a skinny-fat teen who looked like a middle schooler. 1982 finding comfort in my rejection having possibly/probably saved my life, i sucked my first anon cock. loved it, then freaked the fuck out about being a faggot and went back to living like a monk. 1985 fucked my first gf, surprised how much i liked it. was a st8 top for next few years. 1989 decided to try guys again. no real memory of first time topping but remember first time bottoming. was dedicated vers for long time after 1992 3rd bf but 1st who was exclusive top. just 1 ride on the ginger's 8" pole an i was on that thing like it was a crack pipe. it was like "i don't usually bottom, but for you im a TOTAL bottom" lol 2001 met my ex husband and went on 2 decade lockdown. vers still but i probably bottomed 70% of the time. 2021 divorced, the first guy who bred me was a shy st8 guy on the dl. he apologized for cumming after like 3 thrusts but i didn't care cause the feeling of gettin my guts hosed down by a built up load was like "where has this been my whole life!" and i've probably been chasin that dragon since. unfortunately for me, this proved more the exception than the rule, but i was hooked and it was only after taking about a dozen anon loads that i was like "bitch what u playin at. if u gonna act like a ho you better get on prep b4 u know what happens" that's my timeline.- 1 reply
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lol so it turned out to be nothing ( or hopefully nothing) they couldn't read the liver function from the weak blood samples i gave so they're sending me to a lab. i do often struggle to fill out the circles on the at home card. maybe because it was hot and perhaps i didn't drink enough water? idk but i knew they were kinda spotty when i sent them.
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this! not that i'd say no to 5 loads in a row, it's just im not so "eyes on the prize" as some cumdumps. just the feel of 6 different cocks up my ass in a row, the size, the shape, each with their own style of fucking... bring it on! and if any of them wanna flip? sign me up.
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like what? i smoke pot but only occasionally, def not a wake an baker stoner dude. i'll once in a blue moon huff poppers but try not to cause i have hbp. I tried T exactly once and didn't care for it. I'm 60 so I'm on all sort of prescription meds so that's my first suspicion. they keep prescribing me pills to fix things but meds never seem to be long term solutions.
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hmmm they said my level were "insufficient" i had assumed that meant low. quests i'll find out on thurs when i have my dr apt.
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i've only been on Descovy for 2 years and already they just flagged low creatinine levels and want to test my kidneys. i can just imagine what hiv meds will do to them! but i really don't want to go back to condoms if i can help it. ugh. it's always something. anyways, all i can say is personally, i wouldn't get on a prep just to suck dick. but only you can make that choice for yourself.
